Feb. 14, 2013, 10:47 a.m.
When you´re feeling empty: Chapter 1
E - Words: 2,588 - Last Updated: Feb 14, 2013 Story: Complete - Chapters: 8/8 - Created: Oct 07, 2012 - Updated: Feb 14, 2013 1,389 0 1 0 0
„Baby, hurry up, I´ll be late for work.” Sebastian chuckled as he entered the kitchen, fixing his tie. He walked over to the oven to look at the pan Blaine was holding. “Pancakes? I wanted scrambled eggs and bacon!”
“If you want them, get up early and make them yourself.” Blaine answers, not looking up.
“Bossy. I like that.” Sebastian started nuzzling Blaine´s neck, but his fiancé just stepped to the side and let the pancake slide onto the plate next to the oven. “If you´ll be late for work again, you´ll get yourself fired. And I don´t want to leave this house.”
They both took a plate and filled them with pancakes.
Blaine had never really liked cooking, but Sebastian made him do it. He always said that he was too busy to do such profane works and since Blaine was `just a teacher` he should take care of it. And Blaine took care of it.
He stands up two hours earlier than he would have to and makes breakfast, after work he prepares dinner, cleans up the house, corrects tests and homework, waits by the door when Sebastian arrives from his job at Wall Street, listens to him talking about that hot guy at the office next door while eating dinner, washes the dishes, joins Sebastian on the couch to watch TV and lets him fuck him.
He goes to “Eastern New Jersey High School”, tells those kids that they could dream big and become everything they ever wanted to be. He doesn´t tell them that New Jersey is the nearest he will ever get New York and his dream of having a career in music business. And it was okay.
In his senior year at McKinley a lot of things went horribly wrong. It all started when he and Kurt broke up, which was his fault, he wasn´t denying this, but he wanted him back. He never got him back. His original plan to audition for NYADA was forgotten, he knew that they would take Kurt this time and Blaine couldn´t stand being at the same school like the boy he still loves, but who had moved on. So Blaine stopped caring for his future and did nothing but lying on his bed, listening to music and crying over what he had become.
One day his father had called Will Schuester and his former Glee teacher had taken him back to McKinley as his TA. Blaine had enjoyed it and it felt like he was actually doing something that matters. He started studying music and English at the MIT, his parents where more than happy to pay the tuition fees, now that their son finally followed a “real” career. During his first year he enjoyed studying, but couldn´t find friends. Until he was reading outside between classes and felt someone sit down next to him. It was Sebastian. He was studying Economics, which was taught in another building complex, so they hadn´t met before.
Blaine was more than happy to finally know someone in Boston and Sebastian always had a thing for him. They started dating, moved together to New Jersey and half a year ago, Sebastian had asked Blaine to marry him. Blaine would like to say that Sebastian had changed since then, that he had been a loving, caring and sweet boyfriend before, but he hasn´t. He had always been like this, acting like he´s worth more than Blaine, because he studied harder (“Can you get me a coffee, Blaine? I know you also have to study, but it´s just music, how hard could that be.”) or had more work to do (“Wait, no dinner tonight? Just because you had to correct those tests? I had to spend my whole day in that office, working my ass off to get the deal with Meyer&Meyer!”). But on the other hand, Blaine liked the way he looked at him and the way he was never ashamed to be seen him in public. In fact he never missed an opportunity to let everyone know that Blaine was his and he didn´t plan on letting him go.
Sebastian stood up and took Blaine´s face between his hands, tilting it up to kiss him. “How about Steak tonight, since I didn´t get my scrambled eggs?”
“But Seb, I have to finish my work sheet for next week’s finals and-“ But Blaine was stopped by his fiancé kissing him again and walking out the door, screaming “Looking forward to it!”. Blaine sighed and got up to pack his bag, he would have to skip glee club this afternoon to prepare dinner and he hated himself for always letting Sebastian take what he wants.
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With one long moan, Kurt let himself fall back onto the pillow. He looked down and smiled as Chandler climbed out from under the sheets and fell down next to Kurt, giggling as he rolled over and rested his head on Kurt´s chest.
“This is definitely the best way to start the morning.” Kurt says and slowly strokes up and down Chandlers back. The other man nodded in agreement and drew a small circle on Kurt´s stomach. “And now it´s my turn, right?” Chandler whispered, but Kurt just shook his head and sat up and stretched, letting his feet sink into the carpet.
“I have to go to the theater, otherwise Magdalene will kill me. It´s an important practice. And-“
“If you ever want to get that Tony you have to give everything, I know.”
“Good boy!” Kurt leaned down and kissed him one last time.
As Kurt reached the small theater, he quickly slipped the golden ring from his finger and pushed it into the pocket of his high hip trousers. The inside of the theater was dark, but Kurt could make out the rest of his crew on the stage at the other end of the room. From behind, two strong arms wrapped around his waist. “Goody morning gorgeous.” The other man leaned over to kiss Kurt´s cheek.
“Good morning, yourself.” Kurt turned around to kiss Daniel, letting his hands slide down his back and onto his ass, squeezing softly. “Listen Baby, I met someone.” Daniel said, arms still around Kurt´s hips. “He´s really nice and maybe I´ll try this whole dating thing.” Kurt immediately let go of him and steps away from him. “So it´s over then. Okay.” Daniel tried to reach for him, but stopped before touching him. “If it doesn´t work you´ll be the first one I´ll call.” “Yeah. And I will not answer it.”
He turns around and walks towards the stage, away from Daniel.
Kurt had met Daniel a year ago. His relationship with Chandler was perfect. While Kurt was staring in off-Broadway shows, Chandler had opened a bar and was performing there every Saturday night. Chandler and Kurt had met again at NYADA and they feel head over heels in love. So they married one year after their reunion, with 21. Back then Kurt hadn´t thought that it was too early, but now.
Maybe they weren´t as perfect for each other as he expected them to be. It was boring. So when Daniel first walked through the doors of the theater he works at, he saw an adventure. And it was. Hiding his ring, hiding all the pictures of Chandler and him, changing the sheets as soon as Daniel had left. It was amazing and soon he stopped feeling bad about it. One time, Chandler nearly found out. He had come home early and had seen Daniel leaving their apartment building, luckily he could make him believe that they were just practicing for the next show. After this incident he should have stopped, but he couldn´t, he needed the thrill. Just a few years ago, when Blaine had cheated on him and ended their relationship he had sworn to himself, that he would never do such thing to anyone. But time has changed him and this was his new life and he was fine with it.
“Kurt, common. Stop. I´ll break up with him-“ Daniel was running after him, getting hold of his shoulder. “I´m married, Daniel.”
“You are what?”
“I should have told you earlier, but I have been married for five years now and it´s going well, but there was still something missing. And you were that something for me. Nothing more. So please, don´t break up with your boyfriend for me, it was nothing serious. It meant nothing.” Kurt turned around again and looked down up at Daniel, who had frozen in shock, his mouth hanging open. “Wow, Kurt. I knew that we weren´t a couple, but I thought that we were at least friends with benefits. Now you tell me that I was just someone to fuck, because your husband isn´t hot enough? I never thought that you´re such an asshole.”
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“So how was work today?” Blaine asked as he cut his Steak into pieces. It was too rare and he hoped Sebastian wouldn´t notice. “You remember that hot guy from the office next door? He asked me, if I would like to go out with him.” Blaine nearly dropped his fork. Of course Sebastian had talked a lot about this guy, but Blaine never imaged that the other man would actually show interest in Sebastian.
He had thought that “Jean from the office next door” was something Sebastian had made up, but then Seb had shown him a picture and now this. “But you told him that you couldn´t meet him, right. That you have a fiancé at home.” Sebastian chuckled and pushed a big piece of meat into his mouth. “Of course baby, no need to be afraid.” Blaine let out a small breath of release and looked down at his plate again. “But I´m meeting him anyway, just hanging out, you know. He had brought two tickets to that show in New York; you know the one with the professional strippers. How could I say no to this offer?”
“You mean the show we planned on going to?”
“Yeah, sorry ´bout that. You can go with Cindy or whatever her name is. That friend of yours.” “Claire.”
“Right. I´ll go and if it´s good, I´ll buy tickets for you and Claire.”
“Thank you, Sebastian.”
“No Problem darling. So I´ll go upstairs and shower, I meet Jean in half an hour.” He stood up, walked over towards the table and petted Blaine´s shoulder. “You´ll get the dishes, right?”
“Yeah.”
“Amazing.”
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After practice Kurt hurried home, nearly forgetting to put his ring back on. He had planned on having dinner with Daniel tonight, but now he hoped that Chandler had left-overs from his dinner.
As he entered the apartment he was greeted by the smell of pasta and Chandler´s special sauce, but he was out of luck, his husband was already cleaning the dishes. “Hey!” He yelled from the kitchen as Kurt closed the door behind him. “I thought you were going out with Rachel tonight.”
“She couldn´t find a babysitter and Brody has a show tonight. Is there some pasta left?” He hugged Chandler from behind, resting his head on his shoulder. “Sorry darling. And there is nothing left in the freezer.”
“Chinese it is.” Kurt sighed as he grabbed the flyer from their refrigerator.
While he ordered his usual noodles with duck, Chandler put on his jacket and walked over to Kurt to give him a small peck on the lips. “See you tomorrow, sleep well.” Kurt just nodded and smiled at him, but as soon as he left his smile dropped.
What should he do now? He couldn´t go back to his old life, being with Daniel was the most exciting think that had happened during the whole last years, there was no way that he would just go back to being a good husband. Kurt needed the variety.
As soon as his food was delivered, Kurt opened a bottle of wine and sat down on his couch with his laptop. He opened Google and typed in: “Cheating, gay guys, New York.”
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“Wait- I thought the whole Jean thing was bullshit!” “I thought so, too, Claire. What should I do now!” Blaine was laying on his bed, tugged into a blanket, an empty bottle of beer next to him. “You´ll break up with him! He treats you like shit, you deserve more than this!”
“I can´t! He loves me, how big is the chance of finding someone else who is willing to do this?”
“BLAINE! We talked about this before! You are worth more than this.”
“Sorry.”
“Listen, I gotta go. You should watch some pornos or whatever man do when they are sad. Tomorrow we´ll meet for coffee, okay?”
“Yes, goodnight Claire.”
“Night, Pumkin.”
Blaine sighed and opened his laptop. Maybe he should follow Claire´s advice and take his mind to other places. But before he could think about it he tipped “Signs of cheating” into Google and clicked on the first result.
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“Are you looking for excitement? Your partner doesn´t know how to make you feel good?
Chat with thousands of gay man from New York State who think just like you.”
Kurt had laughed out loud as he had opened up the site called: “For in-between NY”, but he had still made a profile, calling himself Broadwaygonnabe. Now he was still clicking through profiles, looking for the right man. As he couldn´t find one, he opened the chat and clicked on “random”. A window popped up and he was greeted by a message from “Hung(ry)86”.
Hung(ry)86: Hey. How are you?
Broadwaygonnabe: Fine.
Hung(ry)86: There isn´t much on your profile, tell me something about you.
Broadwaygonnabe: I just joined this site, I wanted to check out if it´s any good. I´m 25, living in NY.
Hung(ry)86: I´m from NY, too. Can I see a pic?
Broadwaygonnabe: Why don´t you show me one of you first?
Hung(ry)86 (sent you an image)
Kurt clicked on the download button and waited twenty second just to be greeted by a picture of penis, popping up on his desktop.
H: So watcha thinking? Send me one of you now.
B: I don´t think I want to.
H: Oh don´t be afraid of the size. I never hurt anyone..badly.
Quickly Kurt closed the chat window and blocked “Hung(ry)86”. This was definitely not the way he wanted to find his new affaire.
But he couldn’t judge the whole site by one try- he clicked the random button again.
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Blaine didn´t even know how he ended up on this site. He had clicked through a few posts of people who had been cheated on and here he was. “For in-between NY”.
It was an online portal for guys who wanted to cheat on their boyfriends and husbands. Blaine should have left the site immediately, but he got curious which kind of people would actually look out for people to have an affair with. Maybe he could ask some of them what he should do about Sebastian. He made a profile with the username “Catboy”, the name of a stupid Superhero he had created in High School and clicked on the random button on the chat window. A new window popped up with a message.
Broadwaygonnabe: Hey :)
Comments
It's going to be interesting and even ironical if Kurt's the one providing Blaine tips on how to detect if his bf is cheating on him.