December 3rd 1913

Dearest Blaine

I miss you. I miss spending the winter nights with you, reading. I miss hearing you sing. I miss our tree. The tree house.

Father got a better job here now and we have been able to move to a bigger apartment. I like it. It is a nice place. It is quite close to my school. But it is not the same without you.

God, Blaine how I miss you. You are the last thing I think about when I fall asleep, and the first that comes to my mind when I wake up.

It snowed today, for the first time this winter. It reminded of you. You love snow, Blaine. I used to too. But now, it only reminds me of you. Everything does, and it hurts so bad.

I love you Blaine, more than I have ever loved anyone before. I miss you every hour of every day.

But I promise you, I will come back for you. When I get money. Then I will come for you. And we can run away, and never look back. You are my dream Blaine. My only dream.

I love you forever and always.

Yours, always

Kurt

December 14th 1913

My beloved Kurt

I miss you too, until the end of time I will miss you when you arent by my side. I miss reading stories and poems with you. I miss our walks. I miss your song, your angelic voice. You have the voice of an angel, Kurt. You are my angel.

It is cold here now, and I spend most of my days inside. I havent been at our tree since the day you left. It hurts too much.

I am glad your father got a job. Tell him I am happy for him.

I think about you all the time. And every night I pray to God, for him to bring you to me someday. I hope he will soon. I miss you so bad.

Forever and always Kurt, I will love you. Until the end of time.

Yours forever

Blaine

December 24th 1913

My dearest Blaine.

It is Christmas, but it doesnt feel like it. There is something missing. You are missing. This will be our first Christmas apart. Hopefully the last.

This letter will be short. I havent got much time.

I hope my gift to you arrive safety. I hope you like it. Your gift arrived this morning. I will open it tonight.

I will write soon again.

I love you

Kurt

December 25th 1913

I love you, Blaine.

Thank you, thank you so much for the gift. It is beautiful. I love it. I didnt think it was possible to love you more than I already do. But the moment I saw the locket you proved me wrong. I have never loved you more than I do now. I love you more every day that passes.

I miss you. I love you, with all my heart. To the end of time. To the edge of the earth, I will love you.

I miss my heart, take care of it for me, Blaine.

You are the dearest thing in my life.

Till the end of time

Kurt

December 29th 1913

My beloved Kurt

I cried when I read your letter.

Thank you for the clock you got me. I cried when I saw the inscription.

"Forever and always. Till the end of time".

I love you so much that it hurts Kurt.

Write soon again.

Forever yours

Blaine

January 8th 1914

My dearest Blaine

How are you? I havent asked you that yet. I hope you are good. I am okay, it could be worse. It has been four months since we last saw each other. It feels like a year.

Fathers business is going good. He is happy here. I think he met someone the other day. He came home, and he had that smile on his face. The smile he used to have around mom. I am happy for him. And for the lady.

Even though it pains my heart, Im glad that he found someone to make him happy. No one will ever take my mothers place in my life, or in my heart. But I think I will be able to love this woman, if not as a mother, as a dear friend.

I have yet to meet her. I asked father about it yesterday. He didnt deny it, he just smiled.

But enough about father. Are your family well? Which girl is Cooper in love with this week?

I thought it would get easier, Blaine. But every day I miss you even more.

I will come back for you, as I promised. I will never say goodbye to you.

Forever, to the end of eternity I will love you. You are the love of my life. Every letter you write to me, I put in a small box. I have the box underneath my bed. I read them every night.

We will meet again soon Blaine, I know it.

I love you

Kurt

January 15th 1914

Dearest angel, my Kurt.

I am glad you are feeling okay. I am better than I was, but I still miss you so much that it hurts.

I am glad to hear about your fathers business. So you say he met a woman? When you meet her, please tell me about her.

My family is well. Fathers shop is going well. My mother is as healthy as always. She asked me to send you a shirt she made for you. She seem to think that you need clothes. I will send it to you. Please tell me when it has arrived. Otherwise she will keep bugging me about it.

Cooper actually has gotten better now. He has been after the same girl for over two weeks now. She keep giving him the cold shoulder. She is named Anne. She and her family moved in next door a few weeks ago. She is the only thing Cooper talks about.

I miss you too, Kurt. I read your letters every day. I collect them in a drawer in my desk. Until we meet again, I will miss you.

I love you Kurt. My angel.

Blaine

February 3rd 1914

Blaine, my love

I met her yesterday. Her name is Carole Hudson. She is a widow since 15 years back. Her husband died only a few months after their son was born. Thats right, she has a son. I might get a brother. I met him too. His name is Finn. He is nice I guess. Really tall, extremely clumsy, but he is nice enough. He is pretty dumb though, sometimes. He almost destroyed a chair. I dont know how he managed.

Carole is lovely. She is beautiful. She makes father happy. Apparently they met quite a while ago. Back in November. I cant believe I didnt notice earlier. The reason he smiled that day, was that he is planning to ask for her hand. He told me this morning. He will do it tonight. He wanted me to meet her first. He want my approvement first.

I hope she says yes.

The shirt your mother made arrived three days ago. It is lovely, please thank her from me. And tell your father that I am happy the business is going well.

Tell Cooper to keep trying. She might actually like him back. But make sure he treats her right.

I love you Blaine. I miss you, you are my dream.

Certainly yours

Kurt

February 11th 1914

Kurt, my love.

Carole seems nice. I hope she says yes as well. So, you are getting a brother? Hope he is as nice to you as Cooper is to me. Well, I hope he is nicer.

Please write and tell me how it went. Did she say yes? Will they get married soon?

Cooper came home this afternoon with a big smile on his face. Anne said yes. She agreed to go out with him. He is taking her out this evening. They are going to some restaurant. He didnt tell me which.

I miss you Kurt. I love you more than life itself

Forever yours

Blaine

February 20th 1914

Blaine my darling

It seems like I am getting a brother. She said yes! The ceremony will be in two weeks. They will move in with us right after. A few days ago I met a few of Finns friends. They are nice. But I dont feel like I fit in. I met his girlfriend too. Her name is Rachel. She is a nice, pretty loud Jewish girl.

I cant write much more. Father wants me to help him pick out his wedding suit.

I will write soon again.

Yours forever

Kurt

For the next few months, nothing new happened. They sent each other letters every week. But nothing new happened. Except that Carole and Finn moved in with Kurt and his father.

Oh yes, Cooper and Anne kept seeing each other. Blaine thinks they might actually get married someday.

May 6th 1914

Blaine dearest

Father is sick. He collapsed at work three days ago. I dont know what to do Blaine. The doctor says it is his heart. They dont know if he will make it. He is still unconscious.

Carole is devastated. She is praying. Me too, but I think I am loosing hope. Is it okay to hate God? I think I do right now. What has father done to deserve this? I know that I might have sinned. When I kissed you. But why would he punish my father for something I have done? I love you Blaine. I dont want my dad to suffer because of that.

The doctor says they cant do anything. It is up to father now, only he and God can decide what will come next.

I dont want him to die. If he dies, I dont know what I will do. I miss you Blaine. More than ever before in my life.

Kurt

May 11th 1914

Kurt, my angel

It hurts my heart to hear about your father. Is he getting any better? Me and my family is praying for him.

How are you? I know it might not be the right question to ask, but I am concerned about you. He is the only family you have left.

It isnt you fault Kurt. The Lord wants us to love each other. It is written in the Bible. There is never something wrong about loving an other person, never believe that.

Take care.

Blaine

May 18th 1914

Blaine

Father is still sick. He is getting worse. The doctors say they think he will not survive another week. Thank you, and your family for your prayers. You are the only thing that keeps my hope up in this dark days.

I love you with all my heart.

Kurt

May 22nd 1914

My beloved Blaine

Father woke up this morning! He is getting better. Thank you. Thank you for your prayers.

Forever yours, till the end of time

Kurt

May 28th 1914

Kurt

I am glad to hear about your father. When your first letter arrived, I got so scared. There were tear stains on the paper. My heart hurts when you are sad, Kurt. My heart belongs to you.

Always yours

Blaine

June 5th 1914

My Blaine, my love

Happy birthday! I hope this letter, as well as my gift for you arrive in time.

Father is getting better each day. He has begun to work again. He scared me so much, Blaine.

I hope you get many gifts on your birthday. I hope you have a wonderful day.

Till the end of time, I will love you

Kurt

June 13th 1914

My dearest, beloved, lovely, beautiful Kurt.

There is not enough words in any language to describe how much I love you. Thank you for your gift. It is beautiful.

I love to hear that your father is getting better.

Forever yours, till the end of time

Blaine

June 15th 1914

Blaine, my love.

There is a boy in my school. He scares me. He looks at me, with hate in his eyes. But that is not the worst. He is a horrible person, to everyone at school. But sometimes, he singles me out. He shoves me in the hallways when no one else is around. He calls me names, I rather not repeat.

I dont know what to do. I cant tell father, his heart wont take it.

Always, will I love you.

Kurt

June 21st 1914

Kurt, my love, my angel.

Courage my love. I hate to hear about that boy. Who is he? You dont have to tell me, if you dont want to. But if you want to, tell me everything.

I hate to hear you suffer, especially when you suffer alone.

Have courage my dear

Blaine

June 28th 1914

Blaine

I got your letter this morning. I went to school with courage in my heart. He shoved me in the hall again. When he was about to leave, I confronted him. We shouted at each other. I called him a few names I regret, but I was so angry. I thought he would beat me up... I wish he had. What he did was so much worse. I dont even think if I can tell you. I know you said I can tell you anything. But this... I fear that you will think less of me, if you knew what he did.

Oh Blaine... I dont know what to do. My heart tells me that you will love me no matter what. But my brain thinks otherwise.

I will tell you anyway, if you dont want to be my friend anymore... please know that I love you. No matter what.

As I said, I wish he had beaten me up. But he didnt...

He grabbed my face. And he shoved me to the wall... and... Then he kissed me. He shoved his disgusting tongue down my throat. I feel so... dirty. Even though I have washed myself three times.

As I tried to show him of, he refused to let go. He just held me harder and tried to unbutton my pants. I think... he was going to rape me...

Thankfully someone came to my rescue. I dont know who. He heard footsteps coming closer, and he released me. Then he left me there on the floor.

I was so scared Blaine. Please answer soon.

I love you

Kurt

June 29th 1914

Blaine, love

He came up to me again today. David Karofsky, is his name. I thought you might want to know.

He...he said he would kill me, if I told anyone.

I feel so scared, and more alone than ever before.

I miss you so much

You are my heart

Kurt

July 4th 1914

Kurt...

I cant even begin to tell you how sorry I am. It feels like it is my fault. I hate that David Karofsky, more than I have ever hated anyone. You didnt deserve that. I know that, even though you didnt write it you think that. But you dont Kurt. No one deserves that. Bless whoever it was that interrupted him. God bless that person.

I could never stop loving you. This wasnt your fault. It was his, and his alone.

Please write soon so that I know that you are alright.

Yours

Blaine

July 10th 1914

Blaine, my dream, my love.

Dont blame yourself, I know you do. It is sad that this happened, it was. But we have to try to forget about it. More important thing is happening.

Did you hear about the shooting? The shooting in Sarajevo? I wonder what will happend now. It might get war.

Please answer soon.

Kurt

July 19th 1914

My love

I heard about the shooting, yes. You might be right. It might be war soon.

But that wont bother us, right. French and Germany have nothing to do with it. We will be safe. Right, my love?

Have Karofsky bothered you anymore? You have to tell me if he does.

Write soon, Kurt

I love you

Blaine

July 25th 1914

My dream...Blaine

No, Karofsky hasnt bothered me anymore. He is a few classes above me, he is 18 years old, so I dont see him very much.

I hope you are right, dear. I hope it wont bother us.

I cant write much more. I have to go to school.

I love you more than life

Kurt

July 30th 1914

Kurt, my dear

It seems like it is war. Austria-Hungary declared war against Serbia a few days ago.

I hope it is over soon.

Forever and always

Blaine

August 5th 1914

Blaine my love

It seems like we were wrong. France and Germany is in war against each other.

Are you okay? Please tell me you are. I wont be able to sleep until I know you are safe.

Answer soon, my love

Kurt

August 10th 1914

Kurt, love

I am glad to know you are safe. Me and my family are too.

But it saddens me to tell you that Cooper, my stupid, stupid brother has decided to enlist the army. I hate to tell you this. I tried to talk to him. But he wont change his mind.

With love

Blaine

August 25th 1914

Blaine, my love

It saddens me to hear about Cooper. But you should know that I pray for him.

I am pleased to know you are okay.

My family is still safe. I am safe. Some of the older students are enlisting as well.

Karofsky is one of them. But even if I am glad that he will leave, I cant help but think about that he might die.

Please write back as soon as you can. It is hard to get letters sent over the borders now. But it is worth it. Please answer, I need to know if you are okay.

With all my love

Kurt

September 2nd 1914

Kurt dear

Happy birthday... I hope this letter and my gift to you arrive safely. I love you.

Me and my family is safe. I hope you are too.

Cooper has been training to be a soldier for a month now. Soon he will get sent out in the war. There is so many people that die.

The whole Europe is involved now. I dont understand how it could get this bad so fast.

I love you

Blaine

October 1st 1914

Blaine my dear friend, lover

Thank you for your gift. I love it. I love you.

It pains me to hear about Cooper. I hope he changes his mind, but if he still is the same as he was when I knew him... he wont.

How are you otherwise. I am as good as I could be. I miss you.

I love you

Kurt

During the following year the letters were of the same kind. They reassured that they alright. Told each other about things that happened. In June 1915 Cooper got shot in the left arm. He had to get an amputation. As much as Blaine and Kurt hated that he was hurt in such a way, they were glad he had come home.

He and Anne was getting married in a few weeks. In December they bought a little house together.

But then in May 1916, the year Kurt and Blaine got 17, something happened.

May 6th 1916

Blaine, love.

I am pleased to hear about Annes pregnancy. But this time I havent gotten any good news myself.

Father is sick again. We dont know if he will make it this time. He is worse than last time. The doctor says that we have to prepare for the worst. But I dont want to, I cant lose him. He is unconscious this time too. He has been for a week.

On top of that, Finn is enlisting. I tried to talk to him, Carole too. And father...when he was here. But Finn wont change his mind. He is leaving for the western front in two days.

I have nothing more to tell you. If anything changes, I will let you know.

With love.

Kurt

May 8th

Blaine, my love

Father is dead. He passed away a few hours ago.

I miss him already. I miss you. I miss Finn. He left this morning. Right before father...

Please respond soon Blaine. Please be okay. I dont want to live anymore if you arent.

Love

Kurt

June 5th 1916

Kurt my love

I am so sorry to hear about your father. It pains my heart to hear about his passing. But maybe he is in a better place now. Without any war.

Please dont say that you dont want to live. I love you. Always remember that.  I will always love you. You are not alone in this. If I could, I would come to you.

When this is over, I will come and get you. We will move to a small cottage in the woods, or near the sea. I promise you that Kurt. I promise.

Please take care love, be safe.

Blaine

July 12th 1916

My Blaine.

Thank you for your letter, it has helped me with the grieving to know that you are there for me.

We got a letter from Finn today. He is good. He is scared I think. He didnt write it directly, but I know he is. Two of his friend have been shot. One was killed. Matt got shot in the head. He died instantly. Artie, he was shot in the lower back. He is paralysed from the waist down. He is coming home next month.

I have nothing else to tell you. I am feeling well, physically. I am not sick. But the sorrow of losing father is sometimes almost too much. To lose him, hurts so much. I miss my dad.

I miss you

Kurt

August 16th 1916

Kurt my angel

It pains me to her about your friends. But I am glad to hear that Finn is alive.

Everything is good here, with this circumstances. Annes getting bigger and bigger. It will be time any day now.

How I miss you.

Blaine

August 21st 1916

Kurt, angel.

Anne got her baby two days ago. It is a boy. He is healthy. His name is Burt Albert Andersson. Cooper insisted that he would be named after your father.

With all my love.

Blaine

September 17th 1916

Dearest Blaine.

I love you. Thank you for your letter. Please thank Cooper from me. And kiss little Burt. Thank you, Blaine, so much.

I met Artie earlier this week. He is coping pretty good. Better than I would have. He was a dancer, you know. He was so good. Now... he cant dance any more. But he and I have sung a few times. He likes to sing. He is good. But not as good as you.

No one is, Blaine.

Thank you.

I love you

Kurt

October 13th 1916

My dear angel.

Thank you for the letter. I love you. I kissed Burt from you, and I thanked Cooper. He is says hello. Little Burt is growing. He is cute.

I am sorry to hear about Artie. Send him my regards.

And you are wrong. There is a person that is a better singer than me. You are Kurt Hummel. You have the voice of an angel.

I love you

Blaine

November 3rd 1916

Kurt, love

Father is enlisting. I have tried to tell him he is too old. But he wont listen. He is leaving in 14 days.

Please respond soon

Love you, my angel

Blaine

December 23rd 1916

My dearest, beautiful Blaine

Finn is dead. We got the report this morning. One of his fellow soldiers, Noah Puckerman, came to see us. He had been hurt in the same attack that killed Finn. He said he died fast. I almost believed him.

But then when Carole had gone to her room, and I was following him out. I asked him again. If Finn died fast. I had to know. Noah shook his head. Then he told me that Finn had been shot in the leg. They had been forced to get it amputated. He died later in the hospital. With great pains, and high fever. But he wasnt alone. Noah was there with him the whole time.

I am sorry to hear about your father. I will pray for him. But he is a strong man, he will make it.

With love.

Kurt

January 20th 1917

Kurt, my beautiful Kurt

It pains me to her about Finn, and about how he died. Please tell Carole I am sorry for her loss. I am sorry for your loss, Kurt. You lost a brother. And it pains me to hear you suffer.

I have news from dad. He is on the eastern front, so at least he isnt fighting against France. He is well he says. The food is pretty bad, but he is alive.

Little Burt is still growing. He is a happy kid.

I love you

Blaine

February 15th 1917

Blaine dearest.

I just heard that David Karofsky was killed in battle. I dont know why. I hated him, but I am still sad. This is all sad. All this fighting.

I am glad to hear that your father is well. I am praying for him.

I love you, more than ever. When all this is over, we will be together.

With all my love, take care. You have my heart. Guard it well, my love.

Kurt

Mars 17th 1917

Oh my dear Kurt

I love you so much. You are so nice and caring. I cant say that I share your feelings about Karofsky being dead. But I am sad too. Sad for all of this. But the war might be over soon. I hope so. I miss you so.

I love you

Blaine

April 20 1917

Dearest Blaine

How are you? There is nothing new to tell here. No one else I know have died.

Rachel came over a few days ago. We talked about the war, and about Finn.

Have you heard anything new about your father?

I hope he is well. I am praying for him.

How is little Burt, and Cooper and Anne? How is your mother doing?

I love you Blaine, and I miss you so much.

Kurt

May 19th 1917

Kurt, my dearest friend.

I am good. I know that you are safe, and it makes me happy. Little Burt are good too, as is Anne and Cooper. My mother have been better. She is worried sick about father. Your prayers are appreciated.

I havent heard anything about father, and thats is both good and bad. He isnt dead, that is all I know.

Love you, and I miss you.

Blaine

May 26th 1917

Kurt, my love.

Father is coming home! He is alive and coming home. Our prayers have been heard. Thank you Kurt! Thank you so much.

I love you

Blaine

June 29th 1917

Blaine, my darling

I am glad to hear about your father. Send him my regards.

Nothing much have happened here. Carole is better now. She is still grieving, but she laughs more.

Yours until the day I die.

Kurt

August 10th 1917

My beautiful Kurt.

How are you?

Father is home now. Little Burt is starting to understand what we are saying now. He is such a sweet boy, you will like him.

It is starting to get harder to get food on the table. The food here in Germany is running out. But my family is managing. We have quite a lot of money. But there is other people starving, and it is horrible to see.

I love you

Blaine

September 20th 1917

My handsome Blaine

I am pretty good. I miss you though.

I am sorry to hear about the food, if I could I would send some over.

I am looking forward to meet little Burt, and Anne too.

I am glad to hear that your father is home.

With love.

Kurt

October 27th 1917

Dear Kurt

I am glad to hear that you are well. It makes me feel better myself.

I miss you too, Kurt.

Burt said his first word last week. Now he wont stop saying it. It was "Yes". He is such a positive young boy, dont you think?

I love you.

Blaine

December 1st 1917

My lovely Blaine

How I miss you.

I am happy to hear that little Burt have started talking. He chose a good word to start with.

I would like to say yes to you in a few years. After the war we maybe could get married? Would you like that? I would.

I love you Blaine

Yours.

Kurt

December 29th 1917

Beautiful Kurt.

I love you so much.

I would love to do all those things with you. To love you, marry you, show how much you mean to me for other people to see.

I love you so much, and I hope that someday, in the future, I will be able to show you that.

I love you

Blaine

February 20th 1918

Kurt

I am worried, I havent heard from you in two months. Have something happened to you? I really hope not. I hope you are fine.

Please respond soon. I am worried sick.

I love you

Blaine

February 25th 1918

Kurt, my darling.

Where are you? Have you died? Please answer me, please. Please.

I dont want to live without you.

Please be alive...

Blaine

February 26th 1918

Dear Blaine

This is not Kurt. It is Carole Hummel-Hudson, his stepmother. I regret to inform you that your last two letters never reached Kurt. He isnt dead, not yet. But I dont know anything more.

The 5th January this year, soldiers came to our home. They said they needed more men on the front. The western front. Kurt was one of those men who were selected.

He is just a boy. He doesnt deserve this. No one does. But especially not Kurt. He is so nice. I dont want to lose another son.

Kurt asked me to write to you before he left. And he asked me to send you a letter he had written you. It is in the other envelope.

Carole

November 16th 1917

Dearest Blaine

You are the love of my life. I love you more than life. I write this letter, but I hope you will never get it. If you do, it means that something has happened. I asked Carole to send this to you if something happened.

I fear that I know what it is. For the last months, they have started to collect people from their homes. Men, young boys. It doesnt matter. Everyone is sent to the front. If you get this letter, it has happened to me.

Just know that I love you. I will always love you. Nothing can ever change that. Remember me Blaine, remember that you were loved by me. You made me happy for so long. You still do.

I want you to remember me. But dont cry. I hate it when you cry. Dont cry for me. I want you to remember me and laugh. Remember all the good times we had together. Like when we stole those cakes from the bakery. And when we built our tree house. Do you remember that summer. That time when I fell down from the tree and sprained my wrist.

You comforted me when I cried. I think it was in that moment I realised that I love you.

But I am not dead yet. Many men survive the war. I promised I would never say goodbye to you. I will keep that promise. I will come back for you. I promise you that.

This isnt goodbye, it is...see you later. We will meet again Blaine. Soon.

With all my love

Kurt

The 11th Mars 1918 Blaine Andersson left his family. He boarded a train, and left for the front. He left his family and the few friends he had for the war. Because he didnt want to live a life without Kurt. Never.