“You love that about me”

“Hmm, yeah whatever makes you comfortable with me while I’m spying for Nude Erections” said Kurt sharing a chuckle with Blaine.

Blaine wraps his arms around Kurt’s waist, craning his neck to place his head on his shoulder.

“You’re a bit too short for that” Kurt laughed.

“Hey,” said Blaine pulling away putting his hands on his hips. “I’m not that short”

“Awww… you’re in hobbit denial… I can help you through this” said Kurt turning around grasping Blaine’s hand with one of his and using the other to pat his boyfriend on the head.

“That’s it no mo-… Oh hey Carole” Blaine chimed as Carole returned from the car with several bags full of shopping “let me help you with those”

“Oh, thanks honey” smiled Carole. “No more what now…” a bemused look took over Carole’s face as Kurt’s smile faltered.

“N-nothing” said Blaine nervously

“Okay sure… just be safe and don’t let Burt hear you talking about that…” smiling obviously pleased with herself Carole walked off to get the rest of the bags from the car.

“Close call… no more what, kissing or hand jobs… I could cope with out both” said Kurt winking “… I’m not too bad at it even if I do say so myself, and you were the one who broke last night… you couldn’t even go an hour”

“Well I wouldn’t know you were too busy being distractingly beautiful, and you gave me an ultimatum if I didn’t kiss you, you wouldn’t give me food.”

“I knew you’d break you love me too much…I can’t help it, it was probably due to the beautiful boy doing beautiful things with his hands…and lips…”

“Okay boys that’s enough Burt will be home soon” Carole interrupted, smiling at Kurt and Blaine.

They finished making dinner in silence, with occasional small talk from Carole, about glee clubs and what it’s like at Dalton, and Kurt remembers there’s something he needs to tell Blaine… Blaine was so open and honest about his past earlier… it’s time for Kurt to do the same… he doesn’t do it anymore but he used to… Blaine’s confession sent his subconscious sailing back to those dark times before Blaine… before Morgan… the silence forced those thoughts, those feelings to the forefront of his mind… he hated that he still felt that way about himself…sometimes… he must have been wearing the fa�ade that he always put up during that time, because he was being ushered out of the kitchen by Carole with her explaining that she needed to talk to Kurt about something. Kurt wasn’t really listening he thoughts were still in that place.

“Honey, you okay?”

“Yeah, yeah I’m fine” this was met with a stern look from Carole. “Okay, Okay! No I’m not… Blaine was completely open with me earlier about- about stuff… about his past… and I feel like I need to tell him about mine… he means everything to me… he deserves to know what I was like at my worst…”

“Are you thinking about doing it again?” asked Carole swinging an arm around Kurt.

“I occasionally thought about it while after what happened with me and Morgan but I haven’t I promise and since I’ve been with Blaine… since I met Blaine, I’ve-I’ve happier than ever been… he makes me happier”

“Okay honey, are you sure you’re ready to tell him… it took you a lot longer to even want to tell us”

“Yeah I’m ready; He should know more about me he only knows happy Kurt… and about Morgan”

“Okay honey why don’t you come back and join us when you’re ready”

They were too busy talking about this that they didn’t notice Kurt’s little hobbit peering round the door listening to the conversation.

Blaine doesn’t eavesdrop normally, but something in Kurt’s eyes and the way that Carole looked concerned, made him worry… Kurt looked sad, Blaine new most of Kurt facial expressions he could tell from a mile away if he was sad… even when he attempted to hide it Blaine could always tell… and what he’d just over heard unsettled him. What did Kurt use to do? Why did he do it?

Blaine was worried about Kurt, whatever it was, it was bad, it made Kurt depressed, whatever it was Blaine wanted Kurt to know that he’d always be there for him if he wanted to talk about it. What Blaine wanted most of all was to go up to Kurt and kiss away all his pain and sadness… but as he saw Carole rising from where she sat on the couch, giving Kurt a quick kiss on the forehead, to return to the kitchen, so he went back to crushing Malteasers to go in and on the cake in an attempt to use up some of their impulse buy… as Blaine cast his mind back to the last nights antics he couldn’t help but smile, Kurt was a happy person and Blaine couldn’t see him in any other way… except when he was angry at Blaine…for the flirting.

‘Okay’ said Kurt to himself. ‘You need to do this, you NEED to tell Blaine… you trust him… he trusts you…’

Kurt began pacing the living room, collecting himself… putting on his best brave face.

He knew that Blaine knew something was wrong he was just hoping that his usual fa�ade could fool him, for a little while, to give him time to think it over.

“Kurt will be back in a minute his just phoning Burt to find out what time he and Finn will get home” Carole lied, she felt bad lying to Blaine she really liked this kid… but Kurt was going to tell him later.

It was at that point when Kurt returned to the kitchen, a slightly strained smile on his face… he didn’t know that Blaine can see right through it… his fa�ade can fool most… but not Blaine… never Blaine.

Blaine walked over to Kurt; looped his arms around his waist stood on his toes and pressed a soft kiss to Kurt's nose, which created a genuine smile. Carole stood watching as the two boys stood there for a few minutes staring at one another… it made her heart swell. Kurt was happy; he looked totally at peace in Blaine’s arms, staring into his eyes. It was nice to see him so happy after all that had happened.

“Dad and Finn will, be home around 6” Kurt said with a fake smile plastered on his face again, both Blaine and Carole could see it didn’t reach his eyes.

“Okay, Kurt so how do I cook this cake I don’t understand these British measurements” Kurt sighed and walked over to help Carole.

Blaine continued to stare at Kurt making sure he was still okay, he peeked at him through his eyelashes, there was sadness still in Kurt’s eyes, and it made Blaine sad to see that sadness there…

Throughout dinner Blaine kept glancing at Kurt, letting their knees and elbows brush against each other, just to see that glimmer in his eyes no matter how fleeting…

After they’d finished the cake Kurt had decided it was time to tell Blaine, after all Blaine had been completely honest with him earlier and he loved Kurt, he could see that Blaine was concerned, he realised then that Blaine could see through all his facades, his defences… he’d completely let him in…

“Blaine and I are going to my room for a bit” said Kurt giving Carole a quick terrified look, this made Burt look to Carole questioningly and Carole nodded, Blaine felt he was missing something he had a feeling it was about what Kurt spoke to Carole about earlier.

“Okay kiddo, we’re just up here if you need us… just keep you door open” said Burt patting Kurt on the shoulder, giving him an encouraging look.

They descended Kurt’s staircase slowly, Kurt was delaying the conversation he was about to have.

Kurt drew a long deep breath.

“Sit down Blaine” said Kurt.

Blaine followed the request, taking Kurt’s hand in his and trying to convey through his eyes that he was listening and was there for Kurt, no matter what… he’d always be there always.

After a moments silence Kurt spoke again.

“Earlier today you we’re completely honest with me, and spoke to me about the darkest time in your life.”

Kurt wasn’t going to tell Blaine that he had attempted was he? Blaine wouldn’t be able to take it, Kurt’s happy he’s always been proud of himself and who he is, Jaime said. Blaine didn’t want to … he couldn’t imagine what could tip Kurt to that edge.

“And because of that honesty I feel I should tell you about my dark times as well, I’m ready and I need to tell you, I really trust you… you’ve become like my best friend…” Tears streamed down his cheeks, Blaine took the hand he was still holding and brought it to his lips, gave it a quick kiss and pulled Kurt to come sit next to him on the bed when he saw Kurt’s legs shaking. “Blaine… I used to… to … self-harm….”