June 24, 2013, 1:40 p.m.
I Trusted You
I Trusted You: Wednesday
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Blaine woke up, his head pounding and the room spinning. His heart felt light and heavy at the same time. Yes, it was his four year wedding anniversary with the person he loved more than anything in the world. It was that fact that made a pit fall in his stomach, although today was special for him and Kurt, that only reminded him that he’d broken his vows, that he’d been unfaithful to the love of his life. It reminded him of the look on Kurt's face, the pain and hurt in his eyes when he walked in on them, and of the guilt he felt each time he’d slept with Sebastian. He hated himself so much, he hated that he’d hurt Kurt, that he’d put the ever-present sadness in his eyes.
Blaine lay there watching Kurt sleep, observing the way his chest rose and fell, the way his eye lids fluttered as he dreamt, his light snores. Blaine loved to watch Kurt sleep ... he looked so peaceful and happy in sleep. It made a change from the anguish that he saw recently in Kurt's eyes when he was awake.
Kurt stirred. His head pounded and he groaned in pain, rolling in to Blaine and burying his face in his chest, scrunching up his eyes to avoid being blinded by the light.
“Good morning, beautifu!l” Blaine said cheerily, as he did every morning.
“Mmm ... ugh ...” Kurt moaned into Blaine's chest. “Is it? Is it a good morning?”
Kurt clutched his head and stomach, fighting a wave of nausea as memories of what happened when they'd arrived home last night flashed through his head. He was mortified and embarrassed - he had been so needy. He remembered yelling at Blaine, but as he looked back he knew Blaine was right to stop them going any further. It really wasn’t time … no matter how badly they both wanted it.
Blaine chuckled. “Someone a little hangover? You did drink a lot last night.”
Kurt tilted his head up to look at Blaine and gave him his best bitch-glare. Blaine simply tickled his fingers over Kurt's sides, up under his armpits and under his chin. Kurt tried his best but he couldn’t stop the grin spreading across his face.
“Blaine,” Kurt said, pausing to think about how exactly he was going to put this. “About last night ...”
“What about it?”
“I ... I don’t hate you. You were right - it’s too soon for us to go that far again. We would have woken up with regrets causing dou-“ Kurt was cut off from talking at the speed of light by Blaine's soft lips kissing him gently.
“I know, darling.” Blaine whispered as he pulled away. “Now you stay right here, and I’m gonna make you breakfast in bed.”
“Don’t set the fire alarms off today.” Kurt called with a laugh, thumbing through the new Marie-Claire.
“I won’t - promise!”
Blaine cooked the croissants, prepared the jellies, marmalades and butter and brewed the coffee. He took extra-special care not to burn anything. When breakfast was ready he arranged it neatly on a tray and carried it carefully to the bedroom. He stood at the door frame and watched Kurt reading; the morning light streaming in through the window hitting him perfectly, highlighting his hair, putting a gleam in his sparkling blue eyes, and making his lips ever so much more tempting.
“You look so beautiful, baby.” Blaine smiled, unable to stop the sentiment from creeping out of him.
Kurt blushed furiously. “I look pale, thin and hungover.”
“You’re still perfect to me.” Blaine said, setting the tray down on the bed. “You always have been.” He added in a quieter voice, almost mumbling.
Kurt blushed again and prepared a croissant for himself. Blaine poured the coffee and did the same. As he watched Kurt, eat he was reminded of their first wedding anniversary.
~~~
Three Years Earlier
Blaine awoke the day before their first wedding anniversary to the smell of a beautiful breakfast of bacon, beans, eggs, hash browns, mushrooms, sausages and tomatoes. It was all meticulously arranged on the dining table, in Kurt’s usual ‘neat freak’ way that Blaine loved. He loved how Kurt had to make sure all of the place-mats and glasses matched, how the table had to be symmetrical and how the plates all had to be the same. Blaine just loved everything about his husband - it still felt weird calling Kurt that, even after a year.
“Morning, sleepyhead.” Kurt chimed as Blaine sat down at the table eyeing the breakfast feast.
“Morning, beautiful … but what’s this for? It’s our anniversary tomorrow."
Kurt handed Blaine a small white envelope. His face had morphed to an emotionless mask. On the envelope in Kurt’s curly script were the words ‘Pack Your Bags’. Blaine’s initial excitement from the amazing breakfast dwindled, and a confused sense of panic flooded his senses. Was Kurt divorcing him? There had been no problems - they were happy as far as Blaine could see. He looked at the envelope in horror, terrified to know what the contents were.
“Just open it, dummy.” Kurt said with a soft laugh.
This eased Blaine slightly. He opened the envelope carefully; there was still a small amount of fear as to what it contained, and he couldn't seem to keep his hands from shaking. When he opened it, he squeaked and looked at Kurt wide-eyed, shocked and excited at the contents. Kurt grinned and nodded.
“Kurt! Plane tickets to Paris, really? Paris, France ... the city of love?” He beamed.
“Yes, my dear, sweet, puppy-Blaine - an anniversary weekend in Paris, the most romantic city in the world. Now eat your breakfast and then we’ll pack, our flight is at one.”
Blaine ate quickly and proceeded to pack. He’d always wanted to go to Paris with Kurt. Walking down the Champs Elysees, climbing up the Arc de Triomphe, kissing Kurt at the top of the Eiffel Tower at midnight, late night walks along the Seine. It was the perfect place for them to celebrate their first year of marriage - so romantic, so beautiful, so them.
They arrived in Paris late that evening. They ate dinner on the Seine and watched the lights dance on the Eiffel Tower, walking along the river bank with their arms linked. They smiled and laughed as they shared memories. The next day the couple arose early.
“Good morning, beautiful.” Blaine chimed.
“Morning, my dear.” Kurt smiled.
They ordered room service for breakfast. The sat on the balcony looking out at the view of Paris eating croissants and brioche. From their hotel room they could see all the landmarks - Sacré Coeur, Notre Dame, La Louvre and the Eiffel Tower. The day was amazing ... Kurt bought Blaine red and yellow roses, just like the ones he'd given in congratulations for his stunning audition for West Side Story in senior year. They'd climbed the Arc De Triomphe, and Blaine took Kurt shopping on the Champs Elysees. They climbed the Eiffel Tower and as Notre Dame struck midnight Blaine kissed Kurt, dipping him, Kurt’s eyes shining in the light of the tower.
When they returned to their room Kurt had had a beautiful midnight picnic laid out for them, with chocolate-covered strawberries, white wine and small heart shaped candies. They fed each other the strawberries and candies, they snuggled close and lay next to the fire, and fell asleep in each other’s arms … it was the perfect end to the perfect anniversary.
~~~
“What's up?” Kurt asked. Blaine had been staring at him for ten minutes with a far-off look on his face.
“Huh?” Blaine shook himself from the trance.
“Why were you looking at me like that?”
“Like what?”
“Like you were off in your own little world.”
“Oh ... um ... I was thinking about our first wedding anniversary, in Paris.”
Kurt smiled fondly at the memory, remembering how perfect that weekend wa s… how happy they were and how great their relationship was - before all of this had happened.
They ate breakfast in silence, after which they both decided they were too ill to attend work and called their bosses, both men feeling groggy and hungover, both dreading what waited for them when they got to work. The questions, the looks, the pointing and whispering ... neither of them could stomach it - not today. Blaine made a quick phone call, rearranging for Kurt's flowers to be delivered to the apartment.
The day passed pretty quickly. They laughed, and shared memories of their relationship. Around lunch time Blaine started to play the piano. Kurt sat, watched and listened; he felt as though he was falling in love with Blaine all over again, and loved to hear Blaine perform. It made Kurt feel proud … Blaine always looked so happy when he performed, so at peace, relaxed and beautiful.
“Babe, what are you doing?” asked Kurt.
“I just want to play …” said Blaine, smiling to himself. He was going to play the song they danced to at Sadie Hawkins, Freshman Year at NYU, and began to play 'Mine' by Taylor Swift. Blaine hoped that Kurt would realise how much he still loved him.
You were in college working part time waitin’ tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of fallin’
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts
I say “Can you believe it?”
As we’re lying on the couch?
The moment I can see it.
Yes, yes, I can see it now.
Kurt sat up and looked at Blaine - he'd forgotten about this song. He couldn’t believe Blaine had remembered, after six years ... Blaine had remembered. He closed his eyes and he recalled how Blaine held him so close, how he whispered softly in Kurt’s ear, telling him he looked beautiful, and reminding Kurt how much he loved him. As the memory came back to him tears rolled down his cheeks ... he really missed being that close to Blaine. He got up, walked slowly over to his husband and sat down beside him on the piano bench.
Do you remember, we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time.
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter.
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine.
Flash forward and we’re taking on the world together,
And there’s a drawer of my things at your place.
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I’m guarded,
You say we’ll never make my parents’ mistakes.
But we got bills to pay,
We got nothing figured out,
When it was hard to take,
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about.
Do you remember, we were sitting there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine.
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine.
Oh, oh, oh
And I remember that fight
Two-thirty AM
As everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the "Goodbye"
‘Cause that’s all I’ve ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said, "I’ll never leave you alone."
You said, "I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it’s like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man’s careful daughter
She is the best thing that’s ever been mine."
Hold on, make it last
Hold on, never turn back
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine.
(Hold on) Do you believe it?
(Hold on) Gonna make it now.
(Hold on) I can see it,
(Yes, yes) I can see it now.
“Blaine - that song … we…”
“Yes, we did.”
“You remembered ...”
“Of course I did.”
Blaine looked at Kurt and mopped up his tears on his sleeve, then stood up with a smile and held out his hand to Kurt.
“Excuse me, may I have this dance?”
“Yes ... yes, you may.”
Kurt stood up and took Blaine's hand. Blaine spun Kurt into him, holding him close, and placing one hand on his hip. Blaine swayed them softly, singing gently in Kurt's ear, resting his chin on his shoulder. They danced for what felt like hours, staying close in one another’s arms, feeling like the past three weeks hadn’t happened. They were interrupted by a loud knock at the door which Blaine insisted on answering, returning moments later with a big bunch of roses and a beautiful corsage with a blue ribbon.
“Kurt, these are for you.” Blaine grinned, extending the roses and hiding the corsage box behind his back. “Happy anniversary, baby.”
Kurt smiled. “Blaine, they’re gorgeous - thank you. But what’s that behind your back?”
“Nooooooothing” said Blaine evasively.
“You’re hiding something.”
“No, I’m not.” said Blaine grinning.
“Yes, you are - lemme see!”
“Later, baby ... later.”
“Hmm ... alright.” Kurt pouted.
“Kurt, get dressed up nice - I’m taking you out to dinner.” Blaine muttered softly into his husband's ear.
“I always dress nice.”
“You know what I mean.”
~~~
Blaine offered his arm to Kurt.
"May I escort you to our ride, good sir?"
Kurt laughed. "Yes - yes, you may."
Kurt and Blaine walked down to the street as they left their apartment building, and Kurt looked out and saw the beautiful carriage waiting for them. Kurt had always wanted to take a carriage ride through New York since they'd moved there 8 years ago - they'd just never found the time. But now, Blaine had found the perfect moment.
“Blaine, I -"
"I know … I remembered."
Tears welled in Kurt's eyes, Blaine remembered about the song and the carriage - he obviously still loved Kurt … a lot. That fact made it hurt so much more that Blaine had cheated, Blaine still loved him but had slept with another man.
“Blaine, its beautiful - but … never mind"
“But should we be doing this seeing as I cheated, and hurt you?" said Blaine knowingly. He'd always been able to tell what was bothering Kurt, who simply nodded sadly.
"Well it is our anniversary … although I fucked up royally, I still want you to feel special, even if this is our last one because you decide you can't forgive me. I really wouldn't blame you if you can't, Kurt. If it makes you uncomfortable we can pretend it’s a date, or we can just not do it at all - I just wanted to make you smile again. I can't bear that I made it go away ..." Blaine said on the brink of tears, knowing how much he'd hurt Kurt - and knowing he didn’t really deserve this second chance.
“Oh, Blaine ..." Kurt choked out. "It's amazing, and as I've said, I don’t think I can ever fully forgive you, but we can move on … and I think a special date on our four-year wedding anniversary is a great idea."
Kurt walked towards Blaine, stared into his eyes and pressed a soft, sweet kiss to his lips. He blinked and let the tears fall, watching as Blaine's face mirrored his own. The tears made the kiss wet and salty and the two men pulled away.
"Your carriage awaits, my dear." Blaine gestured, smiling through his tears as he helped Kurt into the carriage and climbed up too. Blaine produced the small box containing Kurt's corsage.
“Blaine?”
“It’s a wrist corsage, with a blue ribbon to match your eyes.”
“It’s lovely - Blaine, you really are amazing sometimes … you can still take my breath away.”
They snuggled together on the carriage ride keeping each other warm. The carriage pulled up outside the Museum of Modern Art. Kurt smiled as Blaine helped him down from the carriage and lead him in to ‘The Modern’, the french restaurant Kurt had always wanted to go to. The waitress lead them to the back room, which Blaine had had decked out with fairy lights. Kurt clapped a hand to his mouth.
“Blaine, it’s beautiful! I’ve always wanted to eat here.” he exclaimed in awe as he looked around the room.
“Well, like I said, I wanted tonight to be special… especially after everything that's happened.”
“Let’s forget about that - just forget it … for tonight at least, and let’s just enjoy our anniversary.”
“I’d like that” Blaine nodded, smiling as he pulled out a chair for Kurt to sit down.
The two men sat, ate and laughed as they relived happy memories and thought back to their wedding day.
“You looked so incredible.” Blaine gushed. “I must admit, I was a pretty nervous, scared you weren’t going to turn up, but then as your dad walked you down the aisle towards me all of that vanished - all my fear and nerves just disappeared. All I saw was you, walking down the aisle ready to start your life with me ...” He cast his eyes downward, ashamed of himself and all that he'd done.
“I was nervous too. I’d been such a bitch in the weeks building up to it, and I thought maybe you wouldn’t show … and that got me kinda mad at you. I mean you proposed to me and you were going to leave me at the altar, in my mind. Part of me thought you couldn’t love me after the yelling I did, but then I saw you looking at me, this kind-of adoration in your eyes, and you looked so happy ... so adorable, and I fell for you all over again.” said Kurt, his cheeks flushing pink at his admission.
Blaine beamed and Kurt smiled back. Blaine adored Kurt's smile - it’s what had drawn him so strongly to him in the first place. He’d missed it too ... it lit up his entire being and made him glow.
“God, I love that smile.” Blaine blurted and Kurt chuckled, hiding his face. “It's true, Kurt - your smile is amazing … it’s what made me realise how much I was falling for you”
Kurt blushed again. “Yours was for me, too.”
“Mister Anderson, your midnight tour is about to start, if you and your husband would care to follow me?” A tall, blonde woman interrupted them quietly.
“Yes, of course.” said Blaine.
“Midnight tour?” asked Kurt, his curiosity piqued.
“Yup.”
Blaine offered his arm to Kurt and then followed the woman into the Museum of Modern Art, where they enjoyed champagne and a quiet tour of the museum, admiring the works of art, smiling and laughing.
When they had finished looking around, Blaine took Kurt back out to the carriage where the driver took them to Central Park. They shared a romantic walk in the moonlight, and Blaine stopped under their tree. He pulled out a small Tiffany box and handed it to Kurt.
“It’s just a little something.”
“Your gift's at home.” Kurt said quietly as he opened the box tentatively, gasping with surprise when he glimpsed the diamond cufflinks nestled inside. “Ohmigod, Blaine! Really? I've wanted these for ages!”
“I know - I thought you’d like them.”
“Oh, I do ... I love them.” Kurt threw his arms around Blaine's neck and hugged him tightly. They walked back to the apartment and Kurt ran ahead to fetch Blaine's anniversary present.
“Okay, so I bought this a while ago, and I thought it was pretty …”
Kurt handed Blaine a little, square box. Blaine opened it to reveal a small heart-shaped locket, glancing up at Kurt with a gentle smile.
“It’s lovely.”
“Open it.”
Blaine did so and inside was a small image of Kurt and Blaine - a photo of their first kiss as a married couple.
“Kurt,” Blaine choked in barely more than a whisper. “It’s amazing.”
He placed it around his neck, tears pooled in his eyes. Kurt was amazing … he was the best friend, boyfriend, fiancé, and husband that anyone could possibly ask for.
“We should sleep - it’s getting late and we have work and counselling tomorrow.” Kurt said, breaking the silence.
“Yeah, we should.”
The couple got ready for bed and snuggled down under the covers.
“Thank you Blaine, tonight was amazing. Best anniversary date, I think.”
“What? Even better than Paris?”
Kurt nodded. “Mhmm, even better than Paris.”
Blaine smile “Yeah?”
“Yes." Kurt insisted, biting back a grin. "Now sleep tight, Blaine.”
“G'night Kurt.”
The two men fell into dreamless sleeps, both happy and content that the date went well.
Comments
They are so damn cute! I want this!!!!!
beautiful chapter - bittersweet though...all the nice memories at the forefront with all the hurtful ones just slightly in the background but making themselves known....bittersweet.... Happy Holidays! :)
i just thought i checked and see if any of the storys updated and i was on it 5mins before i checked then i look i see your book im like what omg no way i flipped out i just love this. Is there any more angst coming soon as much as i love klaine it is awesome when they fight cause i like the make up kiss or make up smutt and when are we going to know about why blaine really cheated on kurt. i just hope this goes on forever i love this book
This chapter was amazing and I am glad that you used "Mine" in a happy context to remind them of happy memories. The anniversary date really was sweet and to see them just being a couple was really great. I can't to see what happens next.
Sigh i just love them so so so much! and i need more of this story
Omgg this made me cry I loved it.
I like the direction this is headed. I hate that Kurt can NEVER forgive Blaine because I'm not sure that is healthy but at least he can move on.
OK THIS WAS A GOOD STORY I WANTED A LITTLE MORE ON THE MAKING UP PART BUT I KNOW HOW TO USE MY IMAGINATION, GOOD JOB
i love that theyre getting along but i think blaine shouldnt be let off the hook so easily... im very interested in finding out how conselling goes!