Isabel could feel the crisp wind on her face and feel the crunch of the gravel under her feet. She willed herself to stay strong as they lowered the coffin into the ground. She willed herself not to cry as they dumped dirt over it burying the body into the ground. She felt a warm hand grab hers and squeeze it. She turned and buried her head into Blaine’s shoulder. She couldn’t believe Patrick was dead. She couldn’t believe he would kill himself. He was always so full of life. But it seemed that the bullying got to him. All the taunting and pushing and punches got too much. He couldn’t take anymore. And now he left, left her here all by herself.
Blaine pulled her in closer. Even though he never knew Patrick, he was at his funeral, for her.
“Come on,” he said, leading her away from Patrick’s grave.
A/N: This chapter is basically all just flashbacks. They aren’t in order but you should get the gist about what happens. This will finally reveal everything about what happened that freshman year. This chapter’s song is Pieces by: Red.
I’ve come undone
But you make sense of who I am
Like puzzle pieces in your life.

“Are you okay Isabel?” Blaine asked walking into her hospital room.
“I’m sorry,” was all she said.
“Sorry for what? For attempting suicide?”
Isabel nodded. “I just felt so guilty. It’s my fault Jonathan beat you up. And I just couldn’t live with myself and I felt so dirty,” she said starting to cry.
Blaine quickly went up to her and hugged her on his good side.
“Do not Blaine yourself Isabel. Don’t you dare. I decided to punch Jonathan in the face because of what he did to you. Okay? You didn’t force me to. I wanted to.”
Isabel sniffled.
“The doctor said that you had other cuts on your arm. Are you cutting yourself?” Blaine asked Isabel.
“Yes.”
“Why? Is it because of what Jonathan did?”
“I just felt so dirty and it was the only way I could feel better.”
“Isabel you could’ve talked to me.”
“You didn’t.”
“And look where it’s brought us.”
Isabel sighed and laid her head on Blaine’s chest.
“Can you promise me something Isabel?”
“What?”
“Can you promise me to always tell each other when something’s bothering us? Especially like this. So it never happens again?”
Isabel nodded and promise.

Then I see your face
And I know I’m finally yours
I find everything
I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole

Isabel was waiting for Blaine after school. But he didn’t show. The school was practically deserted and Blaine was nowhere to be found. Fearing the worst, Isabel went to the boy’s locker room. There wasn’t any practice today so she knew it was going to be deserted. She went there because some of Blaine’s biggest tormentors might’ve taken him there to beat him up. If only they had.
Isabel was nearing the shower area at the back when she heard it.
“Please don’t,” it was Blaine’s voice pleading someone.
“Oh come on. Like you’re not going to like this you little fag?” she heard another voice say.
She recognized this voice as Joshua’s, the quarterback who made it his mission to make Blaine’s life a living hell.
She neared the corner and saw Blaine was standing against the wall, practically towering. His pants had been unbuttoned and Joshua had his hand in them. Blaine was practically begging him to stop but Joshua didn’t remove his hand. Isabel looked around and saw that there was no one else around. She also saw that there was a baseball bat nearby. She picked up and neared Joshua and Blaine. Blaine didn’t see her until she knocked Joshua in the head with the bat. Joshua fell to the ground and his hand came out of Blaine’s pants. Blaine looked at Isabel and then buttoned his pants. Isabel grabbed his hand and pulled him away.
They didn’t talk all the way home. When they did, Blaine went upstairs and into the bathroom. Isabel heard the shower go off and realized Blaine was taking a shower. She went into the kitchen to make something to eat. After a few minutes, Blaine came downstairs.
“I made something to eat, you hungry?” Isabel asked Blaine.
Blaine didn’t answer. He just sat down and stared at the counter.
“Blaine,” she said putting her hand on his shoulder.
Blaine flinched and jumped out of his seat. Isabel retracted her hand. Blaine didn’t say anything he just turned and walked back upstairs.
This went on for a few weeks. Blaine would flinch away from anyone’s touch and rarely spoke to anyone, especially Isabel. Their parents didn’t notice anything and neither did the teachers.
Blaine was at his locker one day when Joshua came up to him. Blaine turned around and saw Thomas was also there. Joshua shoved him up against the locker.
“You listen here you little fag. If you mentioned what happened in the locker room to anyone, I will hunt you down and kill you, you understand?” Joshua asked him.
Blaine was willing so hard for Thomas to say something, to defend him but he didn’t. He just stood there.
Blaine nodded.
“Good, see ya later,” Joshua said, smirking.
He walked away with Thomas.

I tried so hard
I tried so hard
I tried so hard
Isabel was getting frustrated at Blaine. He wouldn’t talk to her, he would flinch away from her touch and he wouldn’t even look at her. Isabel was getting fed up. She started hanging out with her friend Jonathan, instead of going home. Jonathan had a crush on her even though she told him that she didn’t like him more than a friend. That didn’t stop him from trying.
“So what are you doing tonight?” he asked her while she was at her locker.
“Nothing. Why are you asking me out on a date?” she said jokingly.
“Maybe. Maybe not. You’ll just have to say yes to find out.”
I’m here again
A thousand miles away from you
A Broken Mess
Just scattered pieces of who I am
Blaine was sitting at home when he heard the doorbell ring. Wondering who it was this late at night, he got up and went to the door. He opened it and saw Isabel was on the other side. Her hair and clothes were disheveled. She was also dirty and crying. Blaine remembered that she went out with Jonathan that night. Looking at her, he realized what happened. Jonathan had raped her. Blaine grabbed her arm and pulled her into a hug. She started sobbing and he held her closer. This was the most intimate touch in four weeks.
Blaine suggested that Isabel go upstairs, take a shower, and they’ll sit and watch a movie together.
That was the first night Isabel cut herself.

I tried so hard
But I can’t do this on my own
I lost so much along the way.
Isabel liked the feel of the blade on her skin, the feel of the cut, the blood seeping through. It made her feel better, much better. She cut herself cause she felt so dirty, so unclean. Her parents didn’t know what happened with her, they never asked, she never told. But that all came crashing down.
Jonathan came up to her three days after the “incident.”
“Hey Isabel. Are you free tonight? I was thinking round two?” he asked.
She looked at him. He was looking at her with this hunger in his eyes and he had a slimy smile on his face. She began to hate him.
“No.”
“Aw, don’t make me beg.”
“No. I don’t want it.”
Blaine saw this and came up to them. “Is there a problem here?”
“No, of course not, Blaine.” Jonathan said, coldly. “I was just asking your sister here out on a date.”
Blaine lost it and punched him the face. Jonathan recovered and looked at Blaine. He punched him back and started to beat him up. A teacher had to come and break the fight up. Jonathan got suspended and Blaine got sent to the hospital.

They told their parents the reason Blaine got beat up and Isabel tried to kill herself was because of the bullying. So they got transferred to a different boarding school and moved to Westerville. That’s when the nightmares started.

Then I see your face
I know I’m finally yours
I find everything
I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole
So you can make me whole