Kilor POV

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"KURT!"

I could see him there, he looked so ruined, I just wanted to help him and now what- look at all the pain i've caused him. His face looks pale, his eyes are hollow and seemed to be iced over, I wonder if he'd break if I touched him.

"Kurt."

I yelled again, probably only sounding like a whisper to him, I see him looking around, he's looking for me, meaning he can hear me. I try to run towards him but I couldn't move. He seems so scared now, and now look... There I am, ghosting behind the boy as if to protect him from all the evil in this world.

I snake my arms around him and hold him tightly, "Big brother..." I feel myself whisper into his hear, and just like that- he freezes. He calls my name and I reach out to him as if to hold him like a lifeline and make him see that it'll be okay.

"Big brother don't cry, I'll come back for you in no time."

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Kurt POV

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His voice sounds like an broken angel, he's here but he's not, he's gone but he's not. I can /feel/ him here and it makes me feel safer, like we both have someone to protect in this world. I wish things could be different, that maybe I could've saved him from the never ending pain he's facing now.

I was supposed to be on set a few minutes ago, my phone has been going off non-stop for the past 3 minutes, I didn't feel the need to answer because he was here and I didn't want to risk letting him go again. I guess his hand must've slipped or something because I swore to keep it, and I didn't.

My phone goes off one last time and I see that it's Blaine, I smile to myself because really- he's the only thing to stop my heart from bleeding right now. Afraid to move, I tense up. I can feel Kilor practically telling me that it's okay, I nod as a tear escapes my eyes.

"T-Thanks, Ki."

I reach down to pick up my phone, fighting for words before I heard his voice.

"Kurt, Kurt hey, where are you?"

I choke back a sob.

"I'm in my t-trailer, w-where a-are you?"

"I- I'm on my way, okay? Stay put, I love you, Kurt."

There it goes, I'm suddenly almost okay again.

"Okay, I'll be here, I love you too, Blaine."

With the we both hang up at the same time, now i'll wait to see him and hopefully then things will be okay again.

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Kilor POV

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I'm glad he's happy, I need him to be happy but this- this has never ever happened before. I help people and then move on, forgetting about what happened and hoping that they forget as well. They always do, but Kurt... he has a logical reason as to why he should remember. I've never flat out told anyone I was dead before, but he seemed to be lost to the concept so it only seemed right.

It didn't take long for the short, dark haired boy to knock on the door. I released my grip around Kurt and he sighed, getting up and opening the door. The boys flew into each others arms and rocked one another back and forth, whispering things to each other that i'd never understand.

'Love' - what is that? I've never felt it, never seen it... I thought it was fake, all just a game but I see these two and I know that it's not the same as they play it out to be in the movies. They fit so well together, and he protects Kurt the way I never could- because he just holds him and tells him that he loves him and that he's there, because he does, because he is, and you can see that.

I could sit here all day and watch them because it's somehow comforting to know that Blaine is doing what I can't, being there for him when I can't be... I see everything the way it should be, maybe someday this life can come back to me. I don't know, I'll probably never know because the life I lived was so short and painful that it's the only thing i've ever felt, the only thing i've ever known.

They're moving now, Kurt is settled in Blaine's arms on his couch and they seem so comfortable, so right. Blaine plays with Kurt's hair as Kurt rubs circles on the back of Blaine's hand with his thumb, his back is pressed against the shorter boys chest and he seems to have a perminent design to land just like that everytime.

I don't doubt that love exists because I can see that it does, Kurt and Blaine, I see them here, right now, and I know it's real. It's just the small fact that nobody has ever loved me, not even my parents so until now I honestly didn't know... Maybe he'll sleep tonight.