"Do you really hate because I said yes?" Blaine asked standing in my doorway the next day.

"You kicked me out of your bed."

"You said it was a mistake."

"It was."

"Right." He said turning to leave. "By the way, yes I really am clean. I'm not nearly as slutty as you think."

"Please one of the first things you ever said to me was bragging about the many different kinds of threesomes you've had."

"God Kurt I was just trying to get a reaction from you. I've never had a threesome in my life."

"Fine you are slightly less slutty than I thought congratulations."

"Look Kurt, I know it didn't mean anything to you. I know you were upset over your break up and I was just your rebound or whatever. But next time just use a dildo or something, yeah?"

"Don't act like it meant so much to you Blaine."

"I came in here to try and make up with you. Why I even tried I don't know. If you ever decided to stop being such an asshole come let me know."

I'm being an asshole? Please! He's the one who....oh shit, I'm being an asshole. I knew I should find him and apologize but honestly I'm still too pissed. Logically I knew that I had started the fight but that didn't mean I couldn't be mad about everything, especially him kicking me out of his bed that night, he let the randoms sleep in his bed but not me? I'm not as good as some guy whose name he doesn't even know?

I knew I needed to talk to him, actually talk to him not fight with him but I also knew he had to work tonight so I decided to wait up for him with some warm milk. Finn and I had out best lady chats over warm maybe it would work with Blaine as well, besides he really liked it when we had some the other day.

He stopped in the doorway of the loft when he saw me.

"Look I know you don't like me Kurt. If you want me to leave, I'll move out." He said leaning against the door jam.

I was still mad at him, well at the situation but the thought of him not living here anymore hit me harder than I ever thought it could.

"I want you to stay." I said reluctantly shaking my head slightly as I did.

He looked down and then back up a slight smile playing at his lip. "Then I'll stay."

"Sit I made us some warm milk." I said gesturing to his mug.

"Ok."

"We need to talk."

"Ok."

"Tell me about your first time Blaine."

He cocked his head to the side, clearly wondering why I brought his first time do.

"Indulge me, please?

"Yeah ok. I was 15, there was this guy named Jeremiah. He was the assistant manager of the Gap; we used to go out for coffee and talk for hours and I had the biggest crush on him. I wanted to serenade him on Valentine's Day but my glee club's council wouldn't hear of it. So instead I waited outside his work with a big bouquet of flowers for him. He agreed to be my boyfriend but said that because of our age differences people wouldn't understand and we'd have to keep it quiet. Which I thought was really smart. Not long after that we were watching a movie at his place and he asked if I loved him so of course I said I did, he told me to prove it and led me to his bedroom. I wasn't completely ready but I figured he was my boyfriend and I owed it to him or something so yeah I had sex with him that night. We continued to have sex as often as possible for months after that and then when I turned 16 I was so excited that we could tell people as I was legal now and there was nothing anyone could do but when I told him that he laughed at me. He told me that I wasn't his boyfriend that I was his fuck toy and that's all I would ever be good for." Blaine shrugged at the end of the story I could tell that it still hurt but he was doing his best not to show it to me. The way he told the story was almost robotic like he was trying to distance himself from it.

"I'm sorry Blaine. That's horrible."

"It is what it is." He cleared his throat. "Now tell me about your first time. Let me guess it was with Adam."

I shook my head.

"It wasn't Adam....it was you Blaine."

He had been looking down at his mug but at my words his head snapped up.

"What?"

"I was a virgin until Friday night."

"I didn't know."

"I know you didn't. I think that's why I've been being such an asshole to you lately. That's not how I wanted my first time to go and I blamed you."

"If I had known....I would've said no."

I nodded chewing the inside of my lip.

"I'm sorry." He said starting to reach for my hand and then changing his mind and pulling his hand back.

"I'm sorry too Blaine. But I think we should give each other some space for a while."

"Yeah ok."

After that my relationship with Blaine was different...strange. We didn't exactly leave a room whenever the other entered but we did whatever it was we needed to do in that room as quickly as we could before retreating back to our respective rooms. He stopped kissing me on the cheek when we said goodbye and he stopped calling me Sexy and part of me wondered if that was because he had seen me naked and no longer found me sexy. Before we slept together we were forming some sort of strange friendship but that was gone now, and I missed him.