It was another two weeks until Kurt finally agreed to tell his dad about the baby, just his dad and Carole though, no one else not yet. He agreed that we could tell Cooper the following week and maybe just maybe Finn and Rachel the week after. I wanted to shout it from the roof tops, to tell random people on the street we were having a baby but I understood Kurt's reluctance so I respected his wishes and didn't tell anyone, not even Santana who told me she knew I was keeping something from her and if I didn't tell her she's rip my balls off, I'm pretty sure she wouldn't actually do it but all the same I decided to do my best to avoid her until Kurt gave me permission to tell her but he promised he would try to be ok with me telling her soon. But in the meantime I was setting up the laptop on the dining room table so that Kurt and I could Skype with Burt and Carole and tell them the good news. Kurt kept fidgeting in his seat as we waited for Skype to load.

"Hey," I said putting my hand on his leg. "You know they are going to be happy right? This is good news."

"I know but I just can't bear the thought if breaking their hearts again if something happens to this baby."

"Nothing is going to happen to our little bean."

"You don't know that!"

"You're right I don't know that for sure but I can't live my life in fear Kurt and neither should you, it isn't healthy."

"I'm trying not to be so scared but I can't help it."

"I know Sexy I know." I said before giving him a small kiss on the cheek. "Now are you going to call them or do you want me to do it?"

"I'll do it." He said before moving the mouse to the call button, he hesitated and then clicked it really fast before he could chicken out.

After we exchanged greetings with Burt and Carole we fell into an awkward silence. I knew Kurt wanted to be the one to tell his dad but he was having trouble actually doing it, I gently rubbed his back to try and get him to relax.

"Ok boys, I know you have something to tell us so you'd better do it before I start assuming the worse." Burt said breaking the silence.

"Umm...alright...we're having a baby." Kurt finally managed to say.

Carole squealed with joy.

"Good Lord, you had me thinking something was wrong! This is a good thing kid."

"I know dad, I just worry that something will happen to her."

"Welcome to parenthood. You always worry something is going to happen to your kid, the way I see it you have two choices you can try to protect them from every little thing and have your kid grow up to resent you 'cause you never let them make their own choices and 'cause you treated them like a child their whole life or you can suck up your worry and realise that shit happens, you prevent what you can and you pick up the pieces after the stuff you can't."

"But how do you do that? How do you not worry?"

"Oh you worry but the thing is you can't protect your kid from everything no matter how hard you try because there will always be a curveball, something you don't expect that will throw you on your ass. God knows you threw a few curveballs at me and I know Finn threw a few at Carole."

Carole nodded.

"But that's life kid and if you try to protect them from everything bad they'll miss out of the good stuff too."

Kurt nodded and I could tell he was trying to process everything his dad just told him.

"Now, did I hear you say 'her'?" Burt asked.

"Yup! We're having a girl!" I said smiling proudly as Kurt pulled out the sonogram.

"Wow! How far along are you?"

"Umm...fifteen weeks." Kurt said biting his lip.

"Oh. That far huh?"

"I'm sorry we didn't tell you earlier, I was just so scared of something happening to her and breaking your hearts again."

Burt nodded. "I understand but I still want you to send us all the sonograms you have."

"As soon as we hang up." I promised.

"We haven't told anyone else so can you keep this to yourself for the time being?" Kurt asked.

"Of course, I don't understand your reasoning but we won't tell anyone."

"Thank you."

After we hung up and had emailed the sonograms to Burt and Carole I turned to Kurt. "See that wasn't too bad now was it?"

"I wasn't worried about telling them I knew they'd be happy, I'm worried about them knowing and what could happen if anything happens to the baby this time."

"Oh Sexy, I wish I could help you not to worry so much."

"You do, I know you'll try your best not to let anything happen to her but I'm worried that there will be something you can't prevent, something we don't see coming like with Kyle."

"Sexy you can't spend your life trying to think of the worst case scenarios and then trying to protect our kids from them, you'll never be able to think of everything and like your dad said it could cause them to miss out of the good things too."

"I know."

"Do you think maybe we should talk to someone? A grief counsellor or Mike and Tina?"

He ran his hand through his hair, "It wouldn't hurt."

"Ok, so do you want me to find us a counsellor or did you want to try talking to Mike and Tina first?"

"I think I'd prefer a counsellor."

"Ok."

"Is it totally ridiculous for me to worry this much?"

"I don't think so; I think you just worry so much because of how much it hurt when we lost Kyle and because of how much you already love our little bean. But if we can do something to lessen that worry then I think we'll all be better off."

"But you don't seem to worry and it hurt you just as much and you love her just as much."

"I worry but not as much as you do, I think it isn't in my nature to worry as much as you do."

"So do you think you'll be able to phone some counsellors tomorrow and see if you can find one that suites our needs?"

"Umm....I have an audition tomorrow, do you think you can do it?"

"What? You never told me that!" He said slapping my chest.

"It's at this little piano bar...nothing too fancy but I'm told that some record execs like to hand out there sometimes, so..."I said my voice trailing off.

"Oh my god baby! That's fantastic! Uh! The things it could do for your career."

"Calm down Sexy, I haven't gotten the gig yet and even if I do there's no guarantee that any of the record execs will want to sign me."

"Are you nuts? Of course they will! Oh you have to promise when you are a big celebrity that I get to design all your outfits."

"Of course and when people ask who I'm wearing I'll get to tell them my outfit was designed by my gorgeous husband."

"All your little fangirls and fanboys are going to hate me." He said laughing.

"No way Sexy, they are going to ship us so hard."

"Hmm...well there is nothing fangirls like more than two hot guys in love."

"Exactly."