The second pregnancy took right away probably because we now knew which if the hormone shots worked the best for Maria's body but that didn't stop Kurt from worrying, he had convinced himself that we had jinxed the first pregnancy so he refused to even look at any baby clothes or decorate the nursery, he also didn't want to tell anyone about it I knew he was afraid of something happening again and breaking not only our hearts but those of our loved ones too.

I on the other hand wanted to celebrate this pregnancy and not spend the whole time worrying that something bad might happen, the asshole was in jail and wouldn't be getting out soon so the way I saw it there was no cause for worry. Kurt thought I was being too blasé about the pregnancy while I thought he was worrying too much to actually enjoy the fact we were going to finally be fathers but I still did my best to respect his wishes I didn't go anywhere near the baby store at the mall, I painted over the jungle theme in the nursery, just plain white nothing that would indicate that there would be a baby living in that room in a matter of months and I didn't even hint to anyone that we were having a baby. It was sheer torture.

The day of the thirteenth week sonogram was especially stressful for Kurt and ok, I was nervous too, we knew if we could make it beyond that day then this new baby would be older than Kyle ever was. Maria wasn't allowed to do anything that day and I can't even say that was all Kurt, I was just as bad every time she moved one of us was by her side asking what she needed and how we could help her. We were waiting in the doctor's office waiting room when Maria put down the magazine she was reading and stood up.

"Is something wrong?" Kurt asked at the same time I asked "Do you need something?"

"I need to go pee! Is that something either of you really want to help me with?" Maria snapped.

We both shook her heads a look of horror on our faces.

"I thought not."

"I think we might be driving her crazy." I told Kurt.

"I know...I can't help it's just today....today is thirteen weeks."

"I know Sexy I know, it's not just you I'm pretty sure she wants to murder me just as much as she wants to murder you."

"Well at least we'll go together." He smiled.

Shortly after Maria got back we were called into the exam room where I helped Maria onto the table.

"Ready?" Dr. Forrest asked.

Kurt took a deep breath. "Ready."

"Alright, so are we finding out gender today?"

"Yes." I replied but Kurt looked hesitant.

"Come on Kurt it'll make getting everything ready so much easier." I told him.

"I know but I...I don't want to get ahead of ourselves."

"Kurt, I understand your concerns but I assure you this baby is healthy." Dr. Forrest told my husband.

"I know but so was Kyle."

"What happened to Kyle was unfortunate and definitely something none of us could see coming but there's no reason to believe that anything will happen to this baby and I think if you spend the whole time worrying about what could happen you'll kick yourself for not taking the time to enjoy it and you'll definitely regret not having anything prepared when the time comes."

"So you're saying in your professional opinion that we should find out the gender?"

"If you don't want to know the gender that's up to you but I don't think that you should make that decision out of fear."

Kurt looked at me.

"I really want to know but if you don't then I guess I can wait to find out to." I told him.

"You don't think that knowing will jinx it?" Kurt asked me.

"I really don't think it will, we didn't lose Kyle because we knew he was going to be a boy or because we bought him clothes or painted the nursery, we lost him because a psychopath took him from us."

"Sorry." Maria said softly.

"Not your fault sweetie." I told her.

"Ok." Kurt said tentatively.

"Ok?" I asked.

"Ok, let's find out the gender."

"Only if you are sure that's what you want."

"I'm sure, I mean I'm still terrified something will happen but...I think I'm always going to be terrified until the little one is born and probably after for that matter."

"You know I'll do everything in my power to protect the little bean and so will you." I told him.

He nodded. "Ok, Dr. Forrest I'm ready tell us our baby's gender."

"It's a girl!"

I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face, I'm sure I would've been happy either way but somehow having this baby be a girl felt right. I looked at Kurt and saw him smiling and I could tell that he was already thinking about all the adorable little dresses he could make for her and the tea parties they would have together. I leaned across the exam table and gave him a quick kiss.

"We're having a girl." He told me smiling.

"Yeah we are."

"How many copies of the sonogram do you need? Or do you just want the DVD again?"

"The DVD I guess...I mean nobody knows about the pregnancy...so..."

Dr. Forrest looked surprised. "Ok...yeah that's none of my business...I'll just go get the DVD."

"See? He thinks we should tell people." I said gesturing after the doctor.

"Yeah well, I told you I don't think it's a good idea."

"I know I know but we have to tell them soon, don't you think eventually someone will notice Maria's baby bump? Or are you just planning on keeping her locked in the house the whole time?"

"What? That so does not work for me." Maria said sitting up.

"And don't you think dad will be a little upset if we were just to call him up one day and be all like 'By the way you have a granddaughter.'?"

"Can I talk now? I'm not planning on keeping Maria locked up the whole time and I'm definitely planning on telling dad before the baby is born but I just want to wait a couple of more days. I just want to get past today."

"Ok, we'll get past today and then we'll tell."

"Thank you."