Even before I first saw Kurt I went to the Lima Bean after school most days to get my daily coffee fix, the difference is that I used to go grab my coffee and then drink it on my way back to campus only hanging out at the shop if one of my friends joined me or if I needed a break from their insanity all that changed after I saw him for the first time. I started spending more time at the Lima Bean, drinking my coffee there and doing my homework there so I'd have an excuse to sit there for hours which ensured that I would see him most days. Wow, I am fucking creepy. But then again most people get a little creepy when they have a crush right?

I spent more time on Tuesday trying to decide whether or not I should go to the Lima Bean then paying attention in class. I wanted to go and get my coffee and hopefully see and talk to Kurt but what if I went there and we spoke some more and then he decided he didn't want to go on a date with me? But if I did go and see him then I would get to see him and that's awesome. I was heading out to the parking lot when Wes called out to me and asked where I was going.

"The Lima Bean." I replied.

"It's Tuesday Blaine."

"I know."

"We have Warbler's today." He reminded me.

Fuck. I love singing and I love performing with the Warblers I really do but I knew practice would go until dinner time and that meant there was no chance of me running into Kurt. That's just...fuck! You know what, it's a good thing it really is. Kurt is not mine, he will never truly be mine, even if we dated for years eventually he would meet his soul mate and that would be it for us. While it is true a lot of people don't meet their soul mate Kurt isn't most people, he'd meet his, he's too special not to. I wanted to hate this Mark character even though I didn't know him but if he is meant for Kurt then obviously he's fucking perfect, he's probably tall and has perfect hair that doesn't need a ton of gel and shit. Stupid Mark, I hate that guy.

Warbler's practice went pretty well until Sebastian started a bit of a commotion when he tried to say that I got too many solos and that he thought he should lead us at Sectionals. Thad scoffed at the idea and told Sebastian there was no way they were going to let anyone but me take lead during a competition which caused the room to break out in a shouting match, some of the Warblers were upset to learn they would never have a chance others sides with Thad. I should have just gone to the fucking Lima Bean this is fucking ridiculous.

"Enough!" I shouted

Everyone stopped and looked at me.

"I am sick and tired of all this fighting. I'm not singing all the songs at Sectionals. I really don't fucking care who else sings a song but I'm only going to sing a maximum of two songs. I don't care if the third number is a solo or a duet or what but I'm not fucking singing it." I stood up as I was talking and when I finished I realised I was left with two options, one: sit back down and listen as half the room argues as to why they should sing the third song while the other half tries to get me to change my mind or two: leave. I left all their arguing gave me a headache and I just wanted to go to my room, take some Tylenol and see if I could concentrate on my homework.