I wanted to call Kurt, every second of every day I want to call him. But he told me not to so I didn't. I had stopped going to the Lima Bean at the times I knew he usually went, I didn't want him to have to see me, I had already hurt him too much seeing me couldn't bring him anything but more pain. I went to the Lima Bean one Thursday I haven't really been able to keep track of time since Kurt and I broke up, it could have been a week since I cheated, it could have been more. I'd have to ask Wes to know for sure, he's the one who tells me what day it is and what class I should go to. Although sometimes he forgets and I wander the halls until a Warbler finds me and takes me to where I am supposed to be. Anyway, Wes told me it was Thursday today which means Kurt has glee and I can go to the Lima Bean.

But he's there.

"He doesn't want to talk to you just get your coffee and go." Finn told me.

"I thought it was Thursday."

"It is."

"You guys have glee on Thursday. I can come here on Thursdays."

"We didn't have glee today."

"But it's Thursday. Wes told me it was Thursday."

"It is Thursday but glee was canceled today."

"Oh."

"Can you please just get your coffee and go?"

"Yeah. I'm sorry."

"Leave him alone Finn." Kurt told his brother.

I looked at Kurt, he looked like he was handling it all much better than I was but then he was always the strong one.

"Sorry man. I guess I'll see you at Regionals." Finn told me.

"Huh? Oh no. I don't sing anymore."

"What do you mean you don't sing anymore?" Kurt asked.

"I mean I quit the Warblers and I don't sing anymore."

"Why?"

"What's the point?"

"I should go. You look good Kurt."

I had quit the Warblers about a week after the break-up so that means it has been two months. Maybe that's why Kurt doesn't look like he's been hit with a Mac truck like I have. He's probably over it.