Blaine couldn't stop thinking about what he should do which made it so he couldn't sleep at night.

"Honey, I know you are stressed but if you don't stop tossing and turning I'm going to kick you out of bed." Kurt mumbled.

"Sorry baby." Blaine apologized as he turned so he was on his back and lifting his arm to Kurt could curl into Blaine's side.

Blaine stared at the ceiling as he once again weighed his options. LA would mean a guaranteed job that he enjoyed, more opportunities for a future music career and he could really reconnect with Cooper. If he stayed in New York he could finish Juilliard and be with Kurt. But maybe he and Kurt could have a long distance relationship, sure people say those never work but no relationship works until the one that does, or maybe Kurt would be willing to move to LA. Could Blaine ask him to? No, that would mean him giving up NYADA and Vogue.com for Blaine, and Blaine would never ask him to do that especially since Blaine didn't consider himself worth that.

If he could just get a financial assistance Juilliard that would really help then he would only need to worry about finding an apartment with decent rent...in New York city, yeah that's going to happen. He couldn't qualify for financial assistance anyway because his parents made too much money and he couldn't prove that they had cut him off, he had tried to get them sign an affidavit saying as much before he moved to New York but they refused as they didn't want their friends to find out, of course most of them knew, Jeff's parents knew, so did Nick's and David's and Wes's, some of them cared others figured Blaine probably deserved it but there were still people at the country club the Andersons attended who had no idea. He wondered what his parents told them about why he was never around; did they tell them he died? He wouldn't put it past them.

Blaine's mind just kept trying to do the math in his head and there was no way he could figure out how he could afford to stay in New York and continue attending Juilliard, unless he won the lottery. Ok, fine he could do it if he moved in with Niff but he wasn't sure about that idea. Yeah Nick said they wanted him too and they had bought the place expecting him to have the extra room and they asked him to move in there again after his first place was condemned but that was asking a lot of his friends. He couldn't freeload off of them like that. He knows that they consider him family and maybe that's why he couldn't do it, family lets you down, family abandons you, his parents did it to him and he had done it to Cooper for years before finally reconciling with him.

"I can hear you thinking." Kurt said sleepily.

"Sorry."

"It's fine, have you come to a decision yet?"

"No. I keep trying to find a way to stay in New York and I just don't see how I can afford to."

"So you are going to LA then?"

"I don't know."

"I hate this. I hate the fact that I don't know if you are going to leave me or not. I hate not knowing if I'm going to still have you in a few weeks."

"Baby, you will always have me. Even if I do have to move to LA I'll never break up with you."

"But how could that work? How can we have a relationship when there is a whole country between us? Especially when we have no idea how long we'll be apart for."

"I don't know but we'd find a way to make it work. I love you."

"I love you too Blaine."

The two shared a sweet kiss. They both closed their eyes and pretended to sleep but really they were both thinking the same thing, there was no way they could keep up a long term long distance relationship no matter how much they wanted to, if Blaine moved to LA they would eventually break up, they just didn't know how long it would take or how messy of a break up it would be. Neither one of them would admit it out loud but they both knew it was true.