Kurt had a habit; it wasn’t a bad habit just one that people might judge him for if anyone ever knew.

When Kurt was alone he’d talk to himself, not full conversations where he’s talking back and forth between himself, but he’d talk out loud to try and make sense of situations. He grew to do this as he closed himself off from people, and who better to get advice from than yourself?

“So,” Kurt began. “Blaine Anderson is back in your life. He’s different, attractive, a spoilt brat, attractive, Kurt stop saying attractive,” Kurt sighed “But he is attractive.”

This was going nowhere. Kurt decided to give up and start doing his homework, the thing he needs the least right now is thoughts of Blaine Anderson’s attractiveness.

During the time spent doing his homework and not thinking about Blaine, Kurt came up with an idea (ironically about Blaine) Kurt decided that he’d treat Blaine like a stranger, pretend he didn’t know him, get to know him then maybe one day when they’re both comfortable enough he’d ‘suddenly’ remember that he already knew Blaine and then Blaine would remember and they’d run into each other’s arms in slow motion and live happily ever after, or something like that.

Kurt’s thoughts about his future with Blaine (as creepy as that sounds) were interrupted by Finn barging into his room.

“Hey Kurt...”

“Finn! What have I told you about knocking?” Kurt interrupted Finn in return.

“Uh sorry dude you weren’t.... uh you know, where you,” Finn looked over at Kurt’s flushed cheeks and his laptop open and came to a bad conclusion.

“What? No! I just respect my own privacy and wish you would respect it too!” Kurt blushed furiously. “What did you want anyway?” Kurt impatiently asked. He was really not in the mood for Finn tonight. He did get along with him better now Carole and his dad where married but it was still weird having him around the house after he used to have a crush on him.

“I just wanted to know if you where interested in that new kid, what’s his name? Blake?” Finn looked confused.

“Blaine, and why would you assume I was interested?”

“Oh er... I’m not stereotyping or anything but like isn’t he gay?” Finn asked.

“Not that it’s anyone’s business but he seems quite open about it, so yes he is, but that doesn’t mean I’m interested besides he has a boyfriend back in New York,” Kurt shrugs. “Why do you care so much anyway?”

Finn looks around nervously. “I don’t, well I do care, I just mean... er you’re my brother man I gotta look out for you and stuff,”

Kurt laughs, he knows Finn is a nice guy. “It’s fine, thanks though Finn.”

“Yeah well,” Finn coughs nervously. “I gotta go, play COD and yeah,” Finn rushes out the room.

“Well that wasn’t awkward at all,” Kurt wonders aloud.

The next day was a Friday, one day till the weekend where Kurt doesn’t have to worry about Blaine and things could be relatively normal again.

Kurt was running late that morning, having woke up later that he normally did because he was up most of the night thinking about Blaine, that boy had really taken over Kurt’s life again and he didn’t know what to do.

Kurt wasn’t the only one running late and he found this out when he came crashing into Blaine while rushing through the hall.

“Hey watch where you’re going assh-“Blaine looked over where they both fell. “Oh Kurt, I guess I can’t be too mad, I just thought it was one of those stupid jocks.” Blaine stood up and offered a hand to Kurt.

Kurt warily took it and stood up, neither boys let go straight away which led to awkward glances and a lot of blushing once they pulled away from each other.

“I better go.” Blaine quickly walked off to class.

Kurt just stood there staring dumbly. Blaine had held his hand, just like when they were children. Only now his feelings were much, much stronger.

Kurt took his time to get to class, knowing he was going to be late anyway so he figured there was no point in rushing.

Kurt got let off with a warning for being late, which he figured he would. With his spotless record and straight A’s the teachers had a soft spot for him anyway.

Either Blaine has short term memory loss and he didn’t remember the incident in the hall, or that he just wasn’t fazed as much as Kurt was, because when Kurt saw him and lunch he was as cheerful as ever, and seated next to Rachel Berry. Kurt hoped it didn’t mean what he thought it meant. It did.

“Hey Kurt, Kurt!” Rachel was jumping around in excitement, obviously wanting to say something important. “Say hello to our newest member of the New Directions! Blaine Anderson!” Rachel clapped. It was obvious she had a crush on Blaine; she never usually became this excited over new members, because she was afraid of the attention being stolen from her.

“Oh you can sing?” Kurt acted nonchalant, even though he knew Blaine could sing, unless things had changed since they were younger.

“I was lead in my old school’s glee club, so I guess you could say I am,” Blaine smiled widely, which in turn made Rachel almost pass out.

“Well of course he’ll have to audition after school but from what I’ve heard you won’t have a problem right Blaine?” Rachel cooed as she clung onto his arm.

“Uh yeah... sure.” Blaine looked scared, which made Kurt chuckle. He really wasn’t used to girls was he?

Glee club came too fast for Kurt’s liking; he didn’t know how he’d react to hearing Blaine sing again.

“Whenever you’re ready Blaine,” Mr Shue said.

You think I’m pretty without any makeup on

You think I’m funny when I tell the punch line wrong

I know you get me so I let my walls come down

For Kurt, time felt as if it was standing still from the moment Blaine hit the first note. He was amazing. Kurt imagined Blaine was singing this to him, that he was the same Blaine when they where six years old, staying up past eight pm watching musicals and giggling till his father told them to go to bed. That he never went to New York and instead they grew up together and became boyfriends, lovers.

Let you put your hands on me in my skin-tight jeans

Be your teenage dream tonight

Kurt was shocked out of his thoughts when people around him started clapping, he didn’t even realise Blaine had stopped singing.

Blaine must have noticed Kurt sitting there staring at him, not joining in with the applause because the way he was staring at him with such confusion.

Kurt ran out of the room, fighting tears because this whole situation was unfair.

Why couldn’t Blaine just remember, why does he have to be so perfect and make it impossible for Kurt to move on?

“Kurt wait!” Blaine caught up with Kurt whose tears were streaming down his face “What... what’s wrong, wait why are you crying, Kurt!”  Kurt just stared at him, unable to say anything.

“Kurt? Please you’re scaring me what did I do?”

“Why won’t you remember,” Kurt barely even whispered.

“What? Sorry I didn’t quite hear you.”

Blaine didn’t get a reply and instead felt the warm presence of lips upon his.