Kurt was uneasy the next couple of days before Cooper got home. He couldn't deny that he had feelings for Blaine, but he couldn't do anything about them either. He thought about avoiding Blaine all together, but Blaine had become such a big part of his life he knew that wouldn't work. Blaine was his best friend and he didn't want to lose that. Kurt would just make sure they remained friendly and nothing more. It wasn't like Blaine felt the same way anyhow.

“Some guys from Dalton and I are going out tonight. Dinner and a movie.” Blaine said looking up from his phone. “Wanna come?”

Kurt wanted to say yes, but Cooper was coming home that evening. “I'd love to Blaine, but I think I should be here when Cooper comes in. I don't know how things went in L.A.”

“Right. Okay.” Blaine said with a smile.

“Wait.” Kurt sat up from the couch where he'd been reading the latest issue of Vogue while Blaine sat nearby working on homework and texting his friends from school. “Will Sebastian be there?”

“Um…” Blaine blushed a little. “You know, he can be kind of nice.”

“So yes, he will be there?”

“Yeah… we're, I don't know, we're together now? Or something?” He rubbed the back of his neck and looked so sweet and gorgeous that Kurt had to bite his lip not to blurt out how Blaine shouldn't be with Sebastian but be with someone who actually cared about him.

“Right.” Kurt said instead. “Just what everyone wants, a boyfriend that ‘can be kind of nice.” Kurt said using air quotations. His voice came out a lot sharper than he had meant for it too.

Blaine furrowed his brow and then got up from his chair. “You know what Kurt, not everyone is with their Lifemate, I know nothing between Sebastian and I will last, but maybe it's nice to not feel alone.” He rubbed a hand down his arm and looked upset.

Kurt immediately regretted his words. “I know… I'm sorry I didn't mean too…” He looked at Blaine and smiled a little sadly. “I just don't want you to get hurt.”

Something flashed across Blaine's face that he couldn't quite read before Blaine hung his head. “Thanks, but I'll be fine.”

He left the room to get ready to go and soon left the house with a little wave and smile for Kurt that broke his heart a bit.

Kurt was lost in his thoughts while he waited for Cooper. A few hours after Blaine left the front door burst open and Cooper came in bringing all the energy and enthusiasm he always did.

“Kurt!” He shouted as Kurt came to the foyer to greet him. He ran up and wrapped Kurt securely in his arms and before Kurt could even take a breath Cooper's lip were on his, kissing him fiercely.

“Um… whoa.” Kurt said when Cooper broke away but then he started trailing kisses down Kurt's jaw and over his neck. Kurt's knees swayed a little. He had no idea how good that could feel.

“Cooper?” he said as Cooper kept working over his skin, making him feel hot all over. “I… I… just… not that I... Oh god that's nice.” He groaned and knew that it was mainly Cooper's arms around him that kept him on his feet.

Copper pulled back a little and smiled down at Kurt. “I got the part.” He said eyes sparkling.

“You… You got the part?”

“I got the part!” Cooper was practically bouncing while still keeping his hands on Kurt's lower back.

“You got the part!” Kurt said again. In the back of his mind he knew this could only mean trouble for his plans of moving to New York, but right now he could put that thought on hold and be happy for Cooper. “That's… that's wonderful! We need to celebrate!”

“Oh I plan too.” Cooper said in a gravelly voice and again his lips where on Kurt working down his neck to his shoulder, Cooper pulled Kurt's sweater down to reveal more skin and started sucking on his pulse point.

“Oh… oh.” Kurt said eyes fluttering closed.

One of Cooper's hands moved from Kurt's back to his ass and squeezed, Kurt let out a little whimper.

“Upstairs.” Cooper breathed and Kurt could only nod.

“I've been thinking about you all the way home and I just…” Cooper made a noise that almost sounded like a growl and they soon found themselves in their shared bedroom.

Cooper walked them back to the bed all the while tugging on Kurt's sweater to get it over his head. The back of Kurt's knees hit the bed and he sat down and then crawled backwards as Cooper kept coming forward.

Cooper tackled Kurt's undershirt next throwing it aside and then going for Kurt's belt.

“Coop…. Cooper.” Kurt said trying to catch his breath; this was all going really fast, he was already half-naked and he'd never been this exposed to someone in this way.

Cooper leaned over him and gave him a long deep kiss that left Kurt feeling like jelly and any protest melted in his mind. Then Cooper started working on his belt again and soon it was unbuckled and Cooper was undoing Kurt's pants and pulling them down and off of him.

Kurt looked down at his nearly naked body and could see his skin flushing pink. He was nervous but it all felt so good.

“Fuck Kurt, you're so hot.” Cooper said and started to kiss and nibble at Kurt's shoulders and then down his chest.

Kurt's heart was beating a mile a minute and his thoughts were cloudy and then his mind froze all together as Cooper's mouth worked its way down until it got to the hardening bulge in Kurt's briefs and Cooper started mouthing over Kurt's half-hard cock.

“Oh my god!” Kurt cried out. He was propped up on his elbows but tilted his head back as Cooper mouth went to work. Kurt blinked rapidly and then gently pulled Cooper back up by his hair. “W-Wait.” Kurt said. “You… I mean.” He swallowed. “What's happening here?”

Cooper's eyes raked over Kurt's body and he then stood up from the bed. He quickly pulled off his own shirt and kicked off his shoes, he slipped out of his pants and then knelt back on the bed one knee on either side of Kurt's legs.

“What do you think is happening here?” He said in a husky voice and for a moment Kurt forgot he'd even asked a question.

Cooper leaned back down and started kissing him again his mouth hot on Kurt's. Kurt placed his hands on Cooper's back feeling his toned muscles and smooth skin.

Cooper lowered himself down so that their cocks brushed together through the thin fabric of their underwear.

Kurt let out a gasp and looked up at Cooper with wide eyes. “C-Coop-per. I just… I don't…” Kurt knew he wasn't making any sense but he couldn't think right with Cooper's hard erection hovering over his own.

Cooper looked at Kurt's face a long time and then rolled to his side, putting a little bit of space between their bodies. “If you don't want to do this, just say so Kurt.” Cooper said not-unkindly. “I only want it if you want it.”

Kurt looked at Coopers long lean body and closed his eyes for a moment. What did he want? He knew he should want to be close to his husband, to want things to work out between them. But, what did Kurt really want?

He wanted Blaine.

Kurt groaned, that was the last thing he needed to be thinking right now. He couldnt have Blaine, Sebastian was right, Blaine wasnt his. He had to get over this.

Kurt opened his eyes again to find Cooper watching him with a dark hooded stare.

"I want this." Kurt said and then surged forward to kiss him. Cooper responded immediately, his hands roaming all over Kurts sensitive skin. Then he leaned back over Kurt and brought their hips together again.

Kurt tensed and gasped at the feeling. Cooper shifted his hips and slotted himself against Kurt making Kurt grip onto Coopers back tightly. Cooper continued to kiss Kurts neck and jaw and lips as he rocked himself back and forth grinding against Kurt.

Soon Kurt was panting and kicking out his legs under Cooper as Cooper smiled and leaned further down putting more of his weight on Kurt.

"Oh god. Oh god!" Kurt yelled out one hand leaving Coopers back to curl around the bed cover and tug on in mercilessly.

"Oh fuck Kurt!" Cooper shouted nipping at Kurts jaw line as his started to moan. "Oh fuck yes!" He gripped Kurt's hips lifting them off the bed a bit to bring their cocks together even more forcefully. Kurt bent a knee to help get the angle right.

Kurt whimpered, his stomach tight, until Coopers cock did a couple more drags against his own and then with a gasp his fingernails dug into the bedspread and he started to come.

Cooper kept rocking their bodies together a few more times before he swore and Kurt could feel Cooper's warm cum spreading through his briefs to mix with Kurt's. Cooper collapsed beside him, body sweaty and flushed.

They were both quiet for a long moment, Kurt blinking at the ceiling and trying to catch his breath.

“Fuck.” Cooper finally said before he rolled close to Kurt and placed a kiss on his neck.

Kurt still didn't feel like he could move. He felt the bed dip as Cooper rolled off of it and walked away. He slowly started coming back to his sense as the wetness in his underwear became uncomfortable, he could hear water running from the adjoining bathroom and then Cooper walked back in with a washcloth in his hand and nothing on, not even his briefs.

Kurt took in a sharp breath and averted his eyes.

“Hey.” Cooper said crawling back up in the bed and looking Kurt over. He was still lying frozen, not having moved since he'd come. “Kurt. You okay?”

Kurt nodded and Cooper chuckled. “That a first for you?”

Kurt turned his face to look at Cooper. “Um, yeah.”

Cooper smiled and handed Kurt the washcloth. It was warm and damp. “Clean up a little.” He said and Kurt finally sat up and cleaned himself off, a little self-conscience with Cooper's eyes on him. He got up and pulled off his underwear quickly putting on a pair of pajama pants. He was about to slip on a shirt as well when Cooper called out.

“Oh, don't do that. Leave it off.”

Kurt looked back at Cooper who was still completely naked and lounging on the bed, but under the sheets. “Are you… sleeping like that?”

Cooper smiled and winked at him. “I like too.”

“Oh.” Kurt put the shirt back down and crawled into bed next to Cooper who leaned over to flip off the lights.

Cooper put his arms around Kurt for a moment and kissed him “Thanks Kurt. That was great.”

Kurt felt loose and tired and couldn't think of a response. It didn't seem to matter though. Soon Cooper rolled back over to his side of the bed and Kurt could hear him softly snoring a few moments later.

Kurt couldn't sleep. He didn't know what he expected from his first time, and he had to admit that had felt amazing, but something about it just didn't feel right. Kurt covered his eyes with an arm and fought back his tears before he slowly fell asleep.

Blaine got home late and saw Cooper's car in the driveway. He hoped he was still up so that he could ask how the audition went. He got into the house to discover Cooper luggage still sitting in the foyer. That was odd.

Blaine poked his head in the living room but no one was there, or in the kitchen. Maybe Kurt and Cooper had gone to bed. He went up the stairs and was going to pass the master bedroom on the way to his own when he stopped. He heard some kind of noise from his brother's and Kurt's room.

It was a groan or a shout, where they fighting?

And then Blaine heard it.

Kurt's voice hoarse and desperate like he had never heard it before. “Oh god! Oh god!”

And then Cooper.  “Oh Fuck yes Kurt!”

Blaine's brain wouldn't process the sounds for a moment and then a mental picture of what was happening behind that door hit him.

“No. Oh no. God no.” Blaine stumbled away from the door his heart pounding and his feet carrying him away as fast as he could move. He crashed into his own room feeling sick as he collapsed on his bed.

“No no no.” He wanted to bury himself in his bed and get lost, but he couldn't sit still.

He looked around his room frantically and saw his boxing gloves in the corner. He grabbed them and ran back downstairs to the workout room. Within moments he had his gloves on, he started hitting the punching bag without thought.

His body trembled and his breathing was heavy. His vision became blurry as he hit and hit until his whole body was sore and aching and a sob tore through his chest.