BDA-

My dad is letting me stay here for a few hours after we met with the school half an hour ago (it's only been thirty minutes? Wow, it feels like a lifetime), which I'll tell you about in a little. First order of business is the books, because that's what this project is about.

I only read up toThe Horse and His Boy. I'm feeling that we need to do something different...you know what we need? Horror. I think one Stephen King book will suffice...the first one I saw wasCarrie, which I'm reading right now. It's really weird.

Okay, now to the "juicy" part that I'm sure you've been waiting for. I bet you skimmed over what I wrote before for this!

Our school had cameras installed a year ago. A lot of schools have them now; ours are just in the halls. They did capture what happened yesterday, though.

I thought that they never looked at the surveillance videos or whatever, but apparently one of the janitors saw blood around the dumpster (ew ew ew ew) so they looked at the video and saw everything. Everything.

I wasn't planning on going to school today, but we got a call from my guidance counselor and my dad and I went. At first we just talked to the principal and guidance counselor in the office. I told them everything that happened; what was the point of lying when they already saw it? I also told them that he threatened to kill me ("skin me", ugh). I didn't even mean to; I just kind of blurted it out. My dad almost exploded; I didn't tell him that detail yesterday. I didn't tell anyone. I know I should have, but I feel like that would have given my dad another heart attack (I'm surprised it didn't).

Then they brought K in, the one who really did all of this stuff to me (I'm going to call him K for privacy, blah blah blah). The other kids had immediately admitted to throwing me in, but they didn't say anything about K. I guess they were trying to protect him, or they didn't want to get their butts kicked by him later if they ratted him out. Probably the latter.

Apparently he had made a visit to the office before I went, and told a bit of a different story. He said that I forced him to kiss me. After the principal explained this, K's dad came in and we all watched the video. Well, I didn't, considering that I've been reliving it for hours-it's always in the back of my mind-and when I stole a glance at K, he wasn't either. He was just staring at the ground, still as a stone. I couldn't stop shaking, since I could see it out of my peripheral vision.

K's dad was surprisingly really cooperative with mine and the principal, saying that he was very sorry about all of this, and that he noticed a bad change in his son. My dad thanked him for it, but said he really wanted an apology from K. K shook his head a little bit. There was an awkward silence, and of course I had to say, "I don't want an apology, I just want to know why you kissed me," or something along those lines. In that moment he looked up at me and stared deeply into my eyes. It was weird, but his were filled with so much hurt and confusion that I felt a little bit of sympathy for the kid. I don't think anyone else really saw. He then shook his head and said "I didn't do it, he made me." I didn't even know what to say, and I still don't.

Then the principal said that he's suspended for three weeks, and they're going to go to the Board with his case to see if he deserves expulsion. He said that no one else mentioned the death threat, but that he would take my word for it because it's a serious accusation. I doubt that they're going to expel a star football player (just kidding, I hear that we're horrible [I couldn't care less about sports] but still, everyone cares about football). I think it should be okay; I hope he's going to leave me alone when he comes back. I'm not too sure though. They're also keeping this confidential; I'm not sure if that's going to really happen, or if there's going to be something like inHarry Potter and the Order of the Phoenixwhen everyone reads theQuibblerwhen it was banned.

That was that. The principal said I could stay in school for the rest of the day, but my dad opted out. He said that he was hoping for expulsion, and that he was very disappointed in their action. So then he took me here and went to talk to your grandmother.

It's weird, being in the center of a scandal (I know that's not the right word, but it sounds important). Which reminds me, I'm writing this with my left hand, in case you were wondering. When I was little, I was obsessed with how people would train left-handed people to write with their right hand because it was improper to write with the left or that's how devil-worshipers wrote or something. Thus, I decided to try it myself. I know it's hardly legible, I'm sorry...I'm getting out of doing some work for this (amazingly), so I'm not going to tell them this little secret. It'll stay between you and me...

I also wanted to thank you for the text you sent me this morning. I was so shocked that I couldn't bring myself to text you back, and from everything that has happened today, I haven't found the time. While it was really nice (and kind of weird because you basically said the same stuff my dad was telling me before I got it, which is not a bad thing, it's really sweet), I don't know if I want to text-yet. I don't want to be a disappointment; I'm much better at writing long paragraphs than sending short messages, not to mention that I rarely text in the first place. I'm afraid that I'd forget to reply or something. I'm sure that I'm a better pen-pal than text-pal. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say, I know I sound stupid. Still, I loved it. You definitely made my day a little brighter!

I guess that's it. I can't really think of anything else to say. I'll be back tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day...

Seriously, thank you for everything. I can't say it enough. Here's an inspirational quote: "We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken". You should remember that quote...John Green,Looking for Alaska.

Love, KH

PS. Just out of curiosity, and I hope this doesn't sound too weird-have you ever kissed anyone before?