Dear Diary

So Kurt and Sophia found a please to live that Kurt can pay for by himself...

I still feel like I should have asked him so stay Sophia is my daughter after all and I just want what's best for both of them... I love him still how do I tell him I have and always will love only him...

he is my only hope for love in this fucked up world and I think I would like the family life Sophia is much like the two of us and it just makes me want a baby but I can't without a girl and ... I'm gay ...

oh I have had you for a year and never told you ...Diary, I'm gay I hope this does not change things between us... ok I need to stop I'm talking to a book like it could talk back ...oi

Xoxoxo

Blaine Anderson.

"Papa!!! Open up me and mama are here for dinner it's Friday."

Hearing my daughter at the door I looked at the clock on my desk and was shocked to see I sat here writing for 2 hours and only got down a little bit....

"Dam writer's bloke."

I walked in to the hall heading to the door. With a deep breath I opened it and smiled at both my daughter and the love of my life.

"Hey you guys come... Do you want to order pizza?"

Kurt turned and looked at his full arms and then back at me with his best Bitch-Please look.

"I am making dinner Blaine so don't you dare got it!"

I backed up and closed the door.

"Okay, okay I get it...stopping."

I watched as Kurt walked slowly in to the kitchen... my eyes followed him as his hips swung side to side I bit my lip a little and jumped when I could hear Sophia talking.

"You love him still don't you?"

She was standing next to me looking at me with the sweetest smile a smile that got the best of mine and Kurt's.

"Well ... Sophia sweetie ... you're ... I will always care for your Mama deeply but I hurt him back before you were born... and I really don't think he will ever love me again."

"He loves you he just won't say it ... you too are hopeless... hey get mama I want to sing a song for you two that I think you will like."

With that Sophia walked away and down the hall to the living room... I walked in to the kitchen and smiled at Kurt.

"So um Sophia wants us in the living room for a bit ... and how is the bed and breakfast you're staying at?"

"It's good I'm hoping to get in to our new place next week but the landlord still has not got back to me... let me put the milk away and we can go in there."

"I told you Kurt you and Sophia are welcome to stay here as long as you like."

Kurt bent over to put the milk away and I could see how well his pants hugged his lags and all I knew was my pants were getting tighter by the second so I looked away.

"I know Blaine I just don't think we should stay... I don't want to intrude and we... we have history we just found each other again ..."

Kurt gave me a smile as we walked to the living room.

"You two stayed her for 6 weeks you have been in that inn for 4 weeks I think us being back in contact for 10 weeks is fine for you two to stay here."

Kurt sighed as we walked in to the living room and sat down...

Sophia walked in wearing the dress she made for the play at school and she looked beautiful. She came up and put the laptop on the table facing her so she could sing to the karaoke.

"Mama, Papa this is for you... about you ... and after I'm done wait and let me speak before you say anything please."

She smiled as she started to sing.....

"Only Hope."

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

and pray to be only Yours

I pray to be only Yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sophia looked at us and turned us to face each other.

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing

and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sophia whispered "your love is true hope."

I give You my destiny

I'm giving You all of me

I want Your symphony

Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

"Mama ... I want to live with papa and I think we both should live here please."

Sophia smiled at Kurt and me. Kurt then grabbed my hand.

"Well Blaine guess you get what you want after all ... can me and Sophia live with you please?"

I smiled and hugged Kurt and when I pulled back I ... I don't know what came over me but

I kissed Kurt I kissed him with every bit of love and pain I had left to give to let out. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

KurtsPOV

"Can Sophia and I live with you please?"

Was the last thing I said beforeBlaineslips were on mine and Sophia screech with joy... but Blaine was kissing me after 15 years real-time kissing me and I loved it ... I was the first to pull away and look at him before I could say a word Blaine spoke fast and running his words together.

"KurtI'mSoSorryIDidNot..."

I cut him off with another kiss and pulled back so I could get a word in.

"I'm not sorry not one bit ... Blaine.... I love you"

Blaine looked at me and started to cry.

"I love you too!"

Sophia was standing there jumping up and down as Blaine and I kissed again and then pulled back when I noted Sophia was here and this was not the time nor the place to take Blaine all to myself and we just said I love you not ..."we are boyfriends".... but I hope we are...

"So Kurt um... does this mean we are dating again or just boyfriends and um... why ill stop why I'm ahead."

I just looked at Blaine and smiled. I then turned to Sophia and smiled.

"Sophiahoncould you please leave us for a bit and go make sure the chicken is cooking ok..."

Sophia started to talk but got a glare from me.

"Um... yes mama I'll go ~giggles~"

Sophia then ran down the hall closing the doors to the living room.

"Kurt what is it did I do something wrong?"

I smiled at Blaine and moved closer and placed my hand on his jaw pulling him closer to me so I could whisper in his ear.

"Blaine just so you know if Sophia was not here I would not let you leave this house till we defiled every last piece of flat surface in this house."

Blaine gasped and his eyes got wide as he then kissed me.

"Oh god can we please send her to Sab's for the night?"

"No its family night ... and I like watching you squirm when I tease you."

"Kurt you are the devil aren't you ... you are so evil."

We both took are leave to the kitchen and got dinner done and eat after that we all made are way to bed...

"I'll I know is this is the start of the rest of our lives and it's going to be fun...."

Kurt slowly fell to sleep...