Kurt froze before climbing off of Blaine to answer the door.  Blaine hurried over to his side of the room, grabbing a pillow to hide the bulge in his pants.  Kurt opened the door to find Blaine’s ex girlfriend standing in front of him.  Worst timing ever.

“Hi.. Is Blaine here?”

“Uh, yea.. yea.. he is.”  Kurt could barely move out of the way fast enough before she welcomed herself into the room.

“Oh thank god!  I was worried about you.  You left last night without saying anything and then you didn’t answer my texts this morning.”  She sat down in front of Blaine and brushed a piece of his curly hair away from his forehead.  Kurt felt a pang of jealousy as he sat down on the bed he had just shared with her ex-boyfriend.

Blaine seemed shy and a little awkward.  It was as if he suddenly woke up from a dream and needed time to adjust to reality.  “I’m fine, just hungover really.  Sorry, what’s up?  Why did you come all the way over just to check on me?”

“I was worried about you, silly!  Can you blame me?  Anyway, I was thinking we could go get lunch.  I haven’t seen you in three weeks.”  Blaine glanced over at Kurt with a look that said I’m sorry.  It didn’t go unnoticed by Jessica and she turned around to offer the same invitation to Kurt.  “You can come too, of course!”

“Thanks, but I think I’ll just stay here.”

“Lame!  Well, what do you say Blaine?  We can go to your favorite spot in the union.”

“Uhh, sure, but can I shower first?  I still smell like beer from last night.”

“Of course!  I’m not in a big hurry or anything.  I’ll just hang out with Kurt for a while.”

Blaine got up, no longer needing the pillow, and headed off to the showers.  That left Kurt and Jessica alone together, which wasn’t necessarily a bad thing, but Kurt could think of someone else he’d rather be alone with.  It wasn’t that he had a problem with Jessica.  They got along reasonably well, but she was just a little too overbearing for him at times.  

After a few minutes of some awkward small talk about classes and professors she finally blurted out, “So, can I tell you a secret?”  Kurt was surprised.  I thought I was the one with the secret.  “Sure, go ahead.”

“I think I screwed things up when I broke things off with Blaine before break.  I mean, I know the break up was kind of mutual, but the time away from him made me realize that-- well, I think I’m in love with him.”  Kurt didn’t respond so she continued.  “Do you know if he’s interested in anyone?  Do I still have a shot?”

“Um, well Blaine and I didn’t really talk over break much, but as far as I know he’s not really interested in any girls right now.”  That's not really lying, right?  He really wasn’t quite sure what else to say.

“Oh good.  That makes me happy because I have some big plans for tonight!  My roommates and I are having a party and I think I’m going to take the opportunity to patch things up with Blaine.  You should come!  I could introduce you to some friends of mine.”

“I don’t know.  I’ll think about it.  Classes start tomorrow so I probably shouldn’t start out the semester hungover.”  As soon as the words left his mouth Blaine returned to the room, fully dressed, and ready to go.  Kurt was thankful that the conversation was over, but it also meant that Blaine was off to go spend the day with his ex girlfriend, who may soon be his girlfriend one again.  He didn’t even have Blaine, but he was terrified he was going to lose him.

Before they walked out of the room, she grabbed Blaine’s arm, and turned to Kurt.  “Let me know if you change your mind.  I’m sure Blaine would like it if you came with.”

Kurt faked a smile and threw himself back on the bed.  He couldn’t get the image of Jessica and Blaine out of his head.  He couldn’t imagine going to that party, but he also couldn’t imagine staying home either.  I need to talk to him.  I need to know how he feels.  I felt something between us, but what if he gets scared and runs back to his girlfriend because she’s safe?  He picked up his phone in time to feel the vibration of a new text message.

Blaine Anderson (12:48pm) - I’m sorry.  I thought it would be suspicious if I turned her down.  We will talk later.  I promise.

Kurt sighed and dropped his phone on the bed.  He needed to do something that would keep his mind off of thoughts of Blaine and Jessica together.

****

Kurt had watched at least two movies in his Netflix queue.  He was hoping that Blaine would have returned to the room before going to the party, but it didn’t seem that way.  His head filled with thoughts of Jessica declaring her love and the two of them escaping back to her place to rekindle their romance.  It made him sick to his stomach.  He finally gave in and decided to text Blaine about the party.

Blaine responded quickly, which gave Kurt hope.

Blaine Anderson (6:13pm) - Yea, I’m going to the party.  I’m actually at Jessica’s right now.  I figured I would help her get things together.  Are you coming?

Kurt wasn’t sure what he wanted to do.  if he went to the party he’d have to see Jessica and Blaine together and who knows what that would mean.  Whether they were holding hands or making out on the couch, he just didn’t want to see it.  Then again, if he stayed home he would be stuck with his thoughts, which could be even worse than reality.  There was really no right choice.  He decided to just ask Blaine instead.  If he wanted him there then he would go.  If not, then he would stay at home.

Kurt Hummel (6:25pm) - I don’t know.  Should I?

Blaine Anderson (6:27pm) -  Its up to you really, but I would like you here.  I’m not going to drink very much, if that makes you feel better.

Their hook-ups had always been fueled by alcohol, but that was the reason why Kurt had stopped them before it went too far.  He didn’t want Blaine to think that he was taking advantage of him because he was drunk.  He also didn’t want Blaine to use alcohol as an excuse.  Kurt had never had sex with a boy before, not that he was that much more experienced with women either, but if he was going to have sex with Blaine he didn’t want to be drunk.

Kurt Hummel (6:34pm) - Ok, fine.  I’ll come.  What time is everyone coming?  Do I need to bring anything?

Blaine Anderson (6:40pm) - Jessica said she told everyone 9:00, but you can come anytime really.  Just bring yourself.  I’m glad you decided to come.  Text me when you get here.

Two more hours before the party meant at least one more movie from his queue.  Kurt didn’t want to show up too early.

****

Kurt arrived at the party around 9:45.  He tried to wait longer, but couldn’t do it.  When he walked in he immediately saw Blaine in the corner of the room talking to a group of people.  Blaine was always a magnet for other people.  There was something charismatic and charming about him.  He was just a nice, decent guy, which seemed to be rare on college campuses.  Kurt made his way over to Blaine, ignoring the instructions to text him.  Blaine was mid-conversation when he looked up and made eye contact with Kurt.  He held it for a few seconds and smiled at him before finishing his sentence and getting up to give Kurt a hug hello.  Blaine was a hugger.  He always hugged people hello and goodbye so it wasn’t awkward, but Kurt didn’t want to let go.  He could smell Blaine’s cologne mixed with his shampoo and body wash and maybe there was a little bit of beer mixed in as well.  Kurt needed them to be close again.

As they broke apart Blaine introduced Kurt to everyone and Kurt waved hello, immediately forgetting everyone's names.  Before Kurt could ask about Jessica’s absence, she came around the corner from another room, grabbing Blaine around the waist and pulling him close.  Pulling him away from Kurt.

“Kurt!  I’m so glad you finally showed up.  You have to come with me.  I’ll get you a drink and then I’ll have to introduce you to my friend, Lisa.  I’ve been telling her about you all night.  I think you’ll love her.”

Jessica grabbed Kurt’s hand and pulled him towards the kitchen before he could say a word.  Kurt looked back at Blaine, but he just smiled and rolled his eyes.  She’s trying to pass me off on some girl and he doesn’t care.  He’s not even jealous?  It broke his heart a little bit, but he tried to push it out of his mind.  He could just be reading into things too much.

“Alright, well we have some beer, various kinds of liquor for shots or mixed drinks, and some jungle juice in the fridge.  Pick your poison.”  Jessica had obviously been drinking for a while.  Her ability to be over-bearing seemed to double once she consumed alcohol.  Kurt really didn’t care about a drink.  He wanted to be back with Blaine.

Kurt opened the fridge to pull out a beer.  “Um, I think I’ll just stick with beer.  I don’t want to get too sloppy.”

Jessica laughed, “too late for me!  Now, come on, Lisa is out by the porch.  She has been dying to meet you.”  Kurt followed her reluctantly, hoping that he could just say his hellos and get back to the main room with Blaine.

“Ok so Lisa, this is Kurt.  Kurt, Lisa.  Now tell me this is love at first sight!”, Jessica screamed as they made it to the room filled with Lisa and what must have been her group of friends.  Kurt and Lisa said their hellos and awkwardly laughed off Jessica’s horrible introduction.  Lisa seemed nice.  Not as overbearing as Jessica, that was for sure.  Kurt wasn’t really interested in anyone but Blaine at the moment so he was sure this wasn’t love at first sight.  She seemed like someone he could call a friend though.

Jessica thankfully disappeared and Lisa offered him a seat next to her.  Kurt didn’t have an escape plan mapped out, but he figured if he drank his beer fast enough that would give him a good reason to leave the room.  Unfortunately, he actually enjoyed talking with Lisa and her group of friends.  They were funny and they all had interesting stories that didn’t involve the latest gossip of who has had sex with whom.  Kurt never seemed to run out of beer either because every time someone got up they’d bring back more for everyone else.

****

Kurt didn’t even realize he was drunk until he tried to stand up.  He mumbled something about going into the other room and Lisa agreed, grabbing his hand.  The only problem was that going into the other room meant something different for her.  When they got into the bedroom she pulled Kurt over to the bed for him to sit down.  Kurt was oblivious until Lisa climbed on top of him and began kissing him, trying to get him to open his mouth to let her in.  It took a second for everything to click together, but once it did he pushed her off.

“Lisa, I’m sorry.  I- I- I’m sorry if I led you on or something, but I can’t do this.”  He was surprised by how sober he became all of a sudden.

The smile that had been on her face all night, suddenly disappeared as she sat next to Kurt.  She seemed hurt and Kurt felt awful.

“It’s not you.  Really.  You’re wonderful.  I would love to be your friend.”

Lisa sighed, “Yea, thats what they all say.  I’m a great friend.  Maybe even good enough to fuck once, but nothing more.”

Kurt stood up, preparing himself for what he was about to say.  Preparing himself for the truth.  “No.  No.  Don’t say that.  Lisa.. I’m gay.  Or, well I think I am.  I’m pretty sure I am.  I have feelings for someone that I’ve never had before.  It has nothing to do with you.  Honestly.”

The feelings of rejection seemed to leave her face as she looked up at Kurt and asked, “Is it Blaine?”

“Um.  What?  No.  No.  Not Blaine.  Why would you ask that?”, Kurt stammered.  He liked Lisa, but she was still Jessica’s friend and she didn’t want to betray Blaine by telling anyone.

“Because it’s so obvious Blaine is gay!  He was only with Jessica because he was trying to be straight.  The whole reason she broke it off with him was because he hooked up with some guy at a party.”

Kurt had to sit back down.  He was trying to find the right words, but he didn’t know what to say.

Lisa continued, “Jessica was really upset about it.  She was the one who caught them even.  When she confronted him, he confessed that he had been with guys before, but that was apparently the first time since they had been together.  I guess there was this guy from high school, but Blaine couldn’t accept being gay.  I think a big part of it has to do with his dad.  I mean it’s hard being a republican bigot when your son is a fag, you know?”

“But, if Jessica knows he’s gay then why is she trying to get back together with him?”

“I guess she went to Blaine’s father after they broke up and he told her to get him back and make him straight.  She thinks she can do it.  I told her she shouldn’t waste her time.  Why be with someone who doesn’t want you?  Listen, Kurt, you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to, but I won’t tell Jessica.  She wouldn’t even listen to me if I tried.  You’re a good kid.  Just don’t get yourself wrapped into this mess too much.  Hooking up with a straight boy is one thing, but falling in love with a closet case like Blaine only sets you up for heartbreak.”

Lisa got up and kissed Kurt on the forehead before leaving the room.  Kurt sat on the bed trying to process everything that had just happened.  He didn’t know what to do, but he needed to find Blaine.