When all their eyes turn to Blaine, he says, “I’m looking forward to marriage equality in all 50 states.”

And he really means it. This is something Blaine genuinely wants to see.

But before he said it, his mind was racing.

He had a dozen other answers but he wasn’t ready to share any of them with the group. He knows that he’s far more entrenched in New Directions than he was even a month ago. He just isn’t ready to share something as personal as Sam or Puck or Santana did.

But later, when he’s alone with Kurt, he tells him his list.

“I look forward to marrying you. I look forward to my dad being proud of me for something, someday. I look forward to every sunrise run I take. I look forward to trusting some of the Warblers again. I look forward to having a home of my own and doing things the way I believe they should be done. I look forward to distancing myself from all the bad shit I dealt with, but not forgetting it. I look forward to believing in my choices. I look forward to having a career and being an adult. I look forward to singing everyday. I look forward to learning to play the guitar. I look forward to getting into college. But most of all, I look forward to loving you forever and you letting me.”

Because these are the things that Blaine Anderson holds closest to his heart and are therefore the things he can’t always share.