May 10, 2015, 7 p.m.
The Road to Realization: Falling Apart
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Hopefully Kurts actions didnt seem to OOC in the last couple of chapters. I tried to explain his reasoning in this part. Hes always been one to strike first and ask questions later, so I hope I did him justice.
After Kurt was dismissed by the Headmaster, he sat in his room and waited. He hated waiting. Hed tried to text Jeremy, but hadnt received a reply, so he decided to watch a movie. He picked his favorite, The Sound of Music and sat down to watch it.
Probably not a good choice, he realized after about five minutes, as this was the movie that he and Blaine watched together the most next to Harry Potter. Jeremy hated musicals, so he insisted they watch them every time he and Blaine had a movie night. Of course, since hed started dating Jeremy, those movies nights had become non existent.
He knew it was his fault, too. Jeremy didnt like him spending time with Blaine, so since the two had started dating, he and Blaine had only been able to text occasionally, and once or twice had been able to squeeze in coffee after Warblers practice.
He really missed spending time with Blaine, but knew that it was for the best. After he told Blaine how he felt on Valentines Day, things hadnt changed. Hed basically told Kurt he just wanted to be friends, and that was fine. Until Rachel Berry came along. When Blaine went out with her and began to question his sexuality, Kurt realized he needed to move on.
Part of him knew it wasnt going to be possible to move on, because he was completely head over heels in love with Blaine. But Blaine had made it so clear that he wasnt interested, Kurt knew his only option was to find someone else. Jeremy was cute, and reminded Kurt of a taller, cuter version of Sam. Of course, Jeremy didnt dye his hair, Kurt thought, laughing.
When they first started dating, Jeremy was sweet and kind, but had Kurt started feeling a little uncomfortable lately. Jeremy was trying to push him to do more than kissing, and Kurt was not comfortable with that at all. The kissing was fine, but once he felt Jeremys hands move, he pushed him away.
He knew his boyfriend was getting more and more frustrated, but he kept insisting that hed wait until Kurt was ready. Unfortunately, Kurt knew he would never be ready. At least not with Jeremy. His dad had been right. He wanted to give himself to someone he loved, and he knew he didnt love Jeremy. Hell, who was he kidding, he would never love Jeremy, because he was still in love with Blaine.
Thats why he had been so mean to him outside Mr Reins office. He needed to keep his distance from Blaine because he knew that he had to get over him. Jeremy told him what happened when Blaine attacked him, and he wanted to believe his boyfriend, but he was having a hard time. Jeremy told him that Blaine called him girly and said he didnt understand how anyone who was truly gay would want to be with someone so feminine.
He knew Blaine, and didnt want to believe hed said those things, but Jeremys friends who were there confirmed his story. He said after Blaine said those nasty things, he and his friends jumped Blaine, because he had to defend Kurts honor. Now, deep down, he knew Blaine would never say those things, but Jeremy was his boyfriend now and he had to stand by him.
He ended up having to turn off the Sound of Music because he couldnt get thoughts of Blaine out of his head. He had been so cruel to him and now was feeling incredibly guilty about it. He shouldnt have attacked Blaine like that, but what else was he supposed to do? Especially if hed let the anger go for half a second, he would have grabbed Blaine and hugged him for all he was worth. Hed heard Mr Reins tell Blaine to go to the nurse, but Kurt didnt allow himself a moment to wonder what was wrong, letting his anger tell him he deserved what he got.
He heard a commotion outside and went to the window to see what was happening. He noticed two police cars, which was so out of the ordinary for Dalton, but from the angle, Kurt couldnt see who the police had inside the cars. He watched the scene until the police pulled away, and he texted Jeremy again to see if he knew what was going on. Hed texted and called him a lot over the course of the last hour, but had received no response.
Kurt sat down and pulled out his English assignment and began typing his paper that was due Monday while he waited to hear back from Jeremy. Fifteen minutes later he was being summoned back to Mr Reins office. By this time, Kurt was furious again. The Headmaster had made it clear that he wasnt to see his boyfriend, who was currently ignoring him, and he didnt understand why. All his earlier anger came back as he entered the Headmasters office and sat down across from him, giving him the Kurt Hummel glare.
"So, Mr Hummel, I see that you are still upset." Mr Reins began. Kurt remained silent, so he continued. "I figured as much, but you should check that anger, because after what I am about to tell you, youll wish you could take back everything youve said or thought all day."
Kurt was confused by the Headmasters words, but still remained silent, waiting for an explanation. "Ive spoken to both Mr Bayer and Mr Anderson about what happened, and I would like to know what you heard about what happened."
"Jeremy told me that Blaine made a comment about me and he just defended my honor, sir." Kurt said evasively.
"Did you talk to Mr Anderson about this?"
"No," he said, looking down at his hands.
"And why not? I thought you and Mr Anderson were good friends." He questioned.
"So did I." Kurt responded angrily.
"So you just took Mr Bayers word?"
"Yes, he is my boyfriend after all." Mr Reins started to speak again, but Kurt continued before he could. "Mitch and Brad were there too, and they said the same thing as Jeremy."
"And what was that?" Kurt looked up, wide eyed. He didnt want to tell Mr Reins what Blaine had said. It still hurt him to think about. But Mr Reins was persistent. "Look Mr Hummel, I need to know what they told you. Its important."
Kurt sighed and started messing with the hem on his blazer. "They said that Blaine called me girly and couldnt understand how a real gay man could be attracted to someone so femininely gay." He expected to see sympathy in Mr Reins eyes when he looked up, but instead he saw disbelief and a hint of anger.
"Mr Hummel, you are a smart boy, but right now Im having a hard time understanding you." Kurt was surprised by the tone in the Headmasters voice. "Just because I am the Headmaster, doesnt mean that I dont take an interest in my students, and I know that when you came here Mr Anderson was like a mentor to you. Ive seen the two of you together and know you are good friends. I also know that Mr Anderson cares about you and is a very well mannered, polite and loyal boy. What you are saying he said just doesnt seem very likely."
Kurt looked down again, ashamed. He did feel guilty about not asking Blaine what happened, but Jeremy used the sympathy card and asked how he could not believe him when he was the one with a black eye and split lip. He didnt even think to ask how Blaine was. God, he was a terrible friend.
As Kurt was processing everything, the Headmaster made a decision that was very unorthodox for him, but knew it was the right thing to do. He opened his laptop and scanned through the files until he came to the one he was looking for.
"Mr Hummel, I like you and I know you had a pretty rough time before you came here, and Im really sorry that for the situation now, but you really need to understand exactly what happened. Which is why I am going against all protocol here and breaking every one of my own rules to show you this. But I think after everything, you need to see this."
He turned the laptop around, revealing a screen shot of his office, with him sitting behind his desk, and none other than Blaine Anderson sitting across from him. Then he pushed play.
Kurt sat forward in his seat to get a better look and to be able to make out the voices. He could understand the Headmaster, but Blaines voice was so quiet and broken he had to strain to hear. Kurt froze when he heard Blaine explain how Jeremy, his boyfriend, was planning to drug him and...
Oh my God.
Suddenly Kurt sprang up from his seat with his hand covering his mouth. Mr Reins pointed toward a closed door and watched as Kurt threw the door open and began to vomit uncontrollably. Mr Reins waited as the young boy washed his mouth out and splashed water on his face before returning to his seat, eyes downcast.
"Im assuming you saw the police cars here earlier?" Kurt only nodded, tears running down his face, but still not looking up. "That was Mr Bayer being taken into custody. We searched his room and found Rohypnol in his possession, so he was arrested, since he is over the legal age. And after what Mr Anderson said..."
Kurt began sobbing then. "Oh God, Im so stupid. How could I have believed Blaine said all those things? Im such an idiot. What have I done? I ruined the best friendship Ive ever had over some stupid boy that I didnt even like. I was just trying to move on and...oh God. What am I going to do? I need to talk to Blaine. I need to explain, tell him how sorry I am. What if he wont forgive me?" He put his head in his hands at some point during his rant, so the last few sentences came out muffled, but Mr Reins understood.
His heart was aching for these two boys. It was hard enough being gay in the world today, let alone a gay teenager. Hormones rule your life at this age, and emotions run wild. And now, because of some stupid misunderstandings and even more stupid mistakes, two boys hearts were broken.
Kurt jumped up quickly, startling Mr Reins out of his thoughts. "May I go, Headmaster? I really need to find Blaine and talk to him." He was already heading to the door as he asked, but was stopped by the older man.
"You wont find him in the dorms." Kurt turned around and gave him a questioning look. "One of the blows Mr Anderson received during the altercation resulted in internal bleeding. Hes at the hospital in surgery as we speak." Kurts legs gave out then and he crumpled to the floor. Not only had he been an idiot and believed his now ex-boyfriend, he had yelled at his best friend and told him their friendship was over. And now, he was in the hospital, in surgery, thinking Kurt hated him. He would never forgive himself if something happened to Blaine. What if he didnt wake up? He could die never knowing how much he loved him.
Mr Reins was around the desk and kneeling on the floor in record time. He pulled Mr Hummel to his chest and let him cry while he rocked him back and forth. He knew the boys had feeling for one another, but seeing how broken up the two were and how fiercely they tried to protect each other, he understood how serious their feelings really were. These two boys were in love beyond their years, which is probably why they messed up so badly with each other. The depth of their feelings go way beyond their age, and learning to deal with intense feelings for one another must have been too hard for them to handle, causing this horrible situation.
The two sat on the floor together, administrator and student, comforting each other for several minutes. Once the younger boy quieted a little, Mr Reins pulled back and stood up, holding his hand out. Kurt was avoiding eye contact, embarrassed that the Headmaster had seen him so vulnerable, but the older man was having none of that.
He put his hand on Kurts shoulder, guiding him toward the door, and said, "Come on Mr Hummel. Ill drive you to the hospital." Kurt looked up finally, a grateful look in his eyes as Mr Reins led him out of the building and into his car.