Thanks Brother

When Finn got in the car, he allowed himself a small breakdown. Talking to Blaine brought back all the feeling about that day hed let Rachel go. Sure, theyd worked things out, and were together now, albeit long distance, but it was working for them. They both knew it would be the two of them forever, and once they realized that, they were able to work out the long distance part.

Finn knew that Kurt and Blaine were meant to be too. He knew how Kurt felt about Blaine, and after today, he had no doubts that Blaine felt the same. Now, they both just needed some time alone, for reflection. Oh man, now his thoughts were starting to sound like Rachel. He laughed at that, realizing that it was a good thing in this case. It was Rachels influence that allowed him to help Blaine today, and he was proud of that.

He waited until he arrived home to call Rachel so they could share stories. She told him she had encouraged Kurt to go out with the other guy, and Finn agreed with her, even though he knew just the thought of Kurt with someone else would kill Blaine. It was these hard lessons that would allow their relationship to either get stronger, or slowly die out.

So, Finn decided to talk to Kurt after his date. After hanging up with Rachel, he sent Kurt a text asking him to call him later. He said hed be out with Puck until at least 9:00pm, then would be home playing video games. He was really hoping to hear from Kurt early, because that would mean the date hadnt gone well.

It was after midnight when Kurt finally called. Finn had been pacing for hours, getting more and more pissed at his brother. He knew he had no right, but he didnt care. He was feeling betrayed too, because he and Blaine were so alike in this instance. So, when Kurt called, Finn went right for the jugular.

"Kurt, youre my brother, and I love you, but you need to lay off Blaine for a while."

"What?" Kurt gasped. He couldnt believe what Finn was saying. He knew Rachel and Finn had been talking, but he wasnt expecting this.

"I said, you need to..."

"I heard you, Finn," came the terse statement. "I just dont understand how you can say that. Hes not answering me and I really need to talk to him."

"No, you dont." Finn said, his voice a little harder than expected. He took a breath to calm down. "Look dude, Blaine is trying to do the right thing, and you are killing him."

"Im killing him? He basically broke up with me for no reason, and he wont answer any of my calls or texts, and Im killing HIM!" Kurt was practically screaming, while trying to keep from crying again.

"You dont understand. He just need some space. He told me about your conversation, and I understand where hes coming from. Hes being so selfless."

There was a snort of laughter from Kurt, before he replied. "Do you even know what the means?"

"Yes, I do." Finn said, his voice quivering. "It means hes stepping back and giving the person he loves the freedom to experience life, without guilt. And just because he had the courage to do that, doesnt mean hes strong enough to handle it. Especially if you keep calling and texting." At the word courage, Kurts tears came full force. He sniffed, and Finn heard. "Ah man, Im sorry, ok? Dont cry. I know you are hurting too. I just...I understand his side. I know that feeling of letting go but not wanting to. You want to scream and shout and say I dont want you to go, please stay..." He paused, getting a little emotional himself. "But you know you have to let them go, because you love them so much, and you cant be the reason they are unhappy."

"Finn..." With that one small word, they both knew their brotherly relationship had just gone to a new level, and they both just sat there in silence, taking it in. After everything they had been through, good and bad, in that moment, they became true brothers.

Getting himself under control, Kurt was the one to break the silence. "Thank you, Finn. Youve always been honest, and I appreciate it. But now, its my turn to talk, ok? Promise youll listen?" A grunt from the line was the acknowledgement he needed to continue. "After crying for 24 hours, which reeked havoc on my face I must say, Rachel convinced me that I needed to go to out with this other guy. So, I called him and we met for dinner. Conversation flowed easily and it was nice to be talking to a real person..." He paused.

"I know how hard it is man. I miss Rachel everyday, too." Finn said.

"I know. Its just, the attention was flattering. I know Blaine thinks everything here is glamorous and fun all the time, but its not. Home is safe and comforting. New York isnt. Dont get me wrong, I love this city and I love living here and being with Rachel, but I come home after class and just eat ice cream and watch tv. My life isnt that interesting most of the time. But Blaine, hes there, with you and Mr Shue and the rest of the glee club and hes always busy, and I...I miss it. I miss him. It seems like he doesnt have as much time for me anymore, and I understand. I do. Its his senior year and he wants to enjoy every minute of it, but Im sitting here, missing him so bad, knowing hes there singing and having a good time. It hurts." He holds back a sob.

"Kurt, Blaine is only keeping busy because he misses you too. Hes trying to stay busy, to ward off the loneliness." He hears Kurt crying again, and his heart breaks.

"I wish that were true." Kurt said softly.

"It is. Trust me bro. Blaine is just going through the motions. Sure, he sings and dances and acts like hes fine, but the light in his eyes is gone. When hes with you, they shine, but when you are apart, they are dull and lifeless. And I swear, if you ever tell anyone I said that, I will throw you in the dumpster."

That gets a shaky laugh from kurt. "Finn, you really are the best brother ever."

"I know." Is the reply.

Kurt laughs again, and feels strong enough to continue his story. "Ok, so dinner was nice."

"Kurt, you dont have to tell me what happened." Finn interrupted.

"I want to. You need to understand. Its important, for both of us." Kurt waits for Finns ok, before continuing, "after dinner, we walked around a little and he grabbed my hand..."

"Kurt, I really dont want to hear the details."

"Finn! Seriously, shut up for like two seconds. I NEED to explain things. Ok?"

There was silence, then Finn agreed with a hesitant, "Ok."

"As I was saying, he took my hand, and it was weird. See, I love holding hands with Blaine. It feels intimate, like we are connecting our souls or something. But holding hands with Spencer felt off. Then, he turned to me and tilted my chin up, which felt weird too. Blaine and I see pretty much eye to eye, even thought I am a little taller. But the kicker was when he leaned in to kiss me, and I looked in is eyes. It was all wrong. They werent the right color, and they didnt have the light you were talking about. Blaines eyes sparkle when he looks at me. I can see myself in his eyes. I can see us, our life, our love."

He paused and took a shaky breath. "When Spencer was leaning in to kiss me, I felt cold and so sick to my stomach that I stepped back quickly, dropping his hand and said I was sorry. I told him he was nice, but the date had been a mistake and my heart and soul were already taken. He understood, and left. I walked around the city for a while, just taking it all in, then I returned to the apartment and tried to call Blaine again. Look, Finn, I really need to talk to him, and explain all this. Please, just tell him I need to talk to him."

"Ill tell him, but I still think you should give him a little time."

"But..."

"No, Kurt, listen. Hes broken. Seriously. I havent heard his voice in days. He wont sing, and barely talks. I do agree you need to talk, but you should give him some time to get himself together first, ok?"

"Twenty four hours. Thats it. Ill leave him alone for one day, but thats it. I need him to know that hes the only one for me. Please, tell him I still love him." He was practically begging, and Kurt Hummel doesnt beg.

"Seriously dude, Im not telling your boyfriend that you love him. Ugh."

"Hes not..." Kurt let out a gut wrenching sob, and Finn quickly back peddled .

"Ok, ok, Ill tell him. Just calm down, ok? I know you two are meant to be. I get it. You and Blaine are the gay Rachel and I."

That earned a chuckle from Kurt. "Thanks Finn. Really. I...I love you."

Finn smiled. "I love you too, man. I promise Ill talk to Blaine, ok? Just...give me and him some time."

"I will, and thanks again, brother."

"Anytime. Bye."

"Bye."

Kurt felt so drained after that call. It was very therapeutic, and quite surprising. He and Finn had never bonded like that before and it was nice. He felt more at peace than he had in days, and he actually drifted off to sleep, sitting up on the couch, his phone still in is hand.

Finn might not be the smartest guy in the room, but he knew that his brother and Blaine loved each other. Kurt had been through so much, and was always a strong and proud person. But when he met Blaine, he came alive. The transformation was immediate. He had a friend and mentor. A confident. Someone who understood him. Finn knew Kurt loved Blaine before they actually started dating, and he really hoped Blaine felt the same way. Once he started hanging out with Blaine regularly, it was obvious the attraction went both ways.

Sure, he had a hard time in the beginning, with the boys liking boys thing, but after seeing Kurt and Blaines relationship progress, he realized it had nothing to do with gender. Love was love, and it was amazing. They were definitely meant to be. Just like him and Rachel. Which is why he was glad that hed recorded his entire conversation with Kurt. His reasoning was selfish at first. Sometimes when he and Kurt talked, he got distracted and zoned out, and he knew this time the conversation was important, so he figured if he taped it, he could go back and listen again, if he lost interest or zoned out.

He couldnt have been more wrong. He had no idea their conversation was going to get so emotional. He figured Kurt would either go on and on about his date, or he would cry and moan about Blaine and hed half listen, but he hadnt missed a word. And he had never been more happy about his idiotic ideas, because now he had a tape, and it wasnt going to waste. He was going to march over to Blaines and make him listen. Because his brother deserved to be happy, and so did Blaine. Right now, both of them were hurting, and Finn planned on putting a stop to that!

It was 1:00 in the morning when he arrived at Blaines house. He knew Blaines parents were gone for the week, and he also figured Blaine would not be sleeping, if his zombie looks this week were any indication. But, instead of knocking on the door and scaring the poor boy to death, he sent a text that simply said, Im outside, come let me in.

Within a minute, he heard scuffling behind the door, and it opened, revealing a disheveled Blaine. And although his hair was sticking up everywhere, giving the appearance of sleep, Finn knew better. He didnt speak, just left the door open and went back to the couch. It was covered in pillows and blankets, making a cocoon, and the younger boy plopped down right in the middle of it.

Finn followed him inside, closing the door behind him, and took a seat in the chair next to the couch. "What are you doing here, Finn?" His voice was scratchy, obviously not having been used.

"I talked to Kurt." He said.

"Hes still calling." He said, in an annoyed voice.

"Yea, sorry about that. I just got off the phone with him, though, and he promised hed stop, at least for a while. But thats not why Im here."

"Then why are you here?" He asked, his voice showing almost no emotion.

"I recorded my conversation with Kurt." Blaine looked at him questioningly. "Its a long story, but thats not important. What is important is you listening to it."

"What?"

"I know it sounds crazy, but trust me, you need to hear what he said. It will change everything. I cant leave my phone here, so I have to stay, but Ill give you privacy. Maybe you want to take it to your room and listen? Ill just wait right here."

"Um, are you sure?"

"Im sure, man. This cant wait, and after you are finished listening to it, well make plans."

"What plans?"

"Well talk after you listen," he said, pulling his phone out and getting it to the recording. He handed it to Blaine and said, "Now, go to your room and listen."

Blaine reluctantly headed to his room. He wasnt sure if he could handle this. Just the thought of hearing Kurts voice made him shake, and brought fresh tear to his eyes. But, Finn said it was important, and he trusted Finn. So, he laid down across his bed and pushed the button. When he heard Kurts voice, his heart clenched and he had to pause the recording and wait until the pounding in his ears lessened, so he could hear again.

He heard the frustration in Kurts voice and felt the sadness when he thought Finn was siding with him instead if his brother. He was proud when he heard Finn defend him and his reasoning for doing what he did. But, when he heard the word courage, his reaction was the same as Kurts. He paused the recording again, and buried his head in his comforter and cried.

After a few moments, he felt composed enough to continue. He felt like an intruder for a moment, listening to two brothers, strengthening their bond. Then he heard Kurt say hed actually gone out with the other guy and he paused it again. He didnt think he could handle listening to Kurt describe his date. And what the hell was Finn thinking? His heart was already in a million pieces, was he trying to stomp on it too?

But, he knew that Finn had to have a reason for listening, so he continued. Hearing Kurt talk about missing him was gut wrenching. Didnt he know that he hated being apart too, and that Finn was right. He threw himself into everything just so he wouldnt miss Kurt so much?

When Finn said that he didnt want to hear the details, Blaines mind screamed the same thing. He didnt think his heart could take hearing Kurt talk about himself with another guy. But he promised Finn hed listen, so he let the recording play. He heard Kurt describe in detail as another man tried to kiss him, and Blaine saw red, and tried to listen to Kurts words, but couldnt. So he went back and listened again. Then he understood. And he listened again and again, and hearing Kurt say his heart and soul were taken made Blaine happier than he could ever imagine.

Kurt had taken Blaines heart and soul from the minute they met. Sure, it had taken them a while to get it together, because neither one of them were in the right place when they met, but they eventually made their way to each other, and it was beautiful. They were beautiful.

Kurt didnt want anyone else, and he missed Blaine as much as he missed him. They were both so stupid. They might have been in contact everyday, but they hadnt really been talking. He jumped up off the bed and began throwing clothes in an overnight bag. He needed to see Kurt...now. He needed to tell him, in person that he was his heart and soul and if they could just make it another five months, they could be together forever.

He burst into the living room, startling Finn, who had fallen asleep in the chair. As Finn clumsily extracted himself from the chair, Blaine threw himself in Finns arms, hugging the taller boy with all his might.

When he pulled back, he handed a shocked Finn his phone back, and said, "Thank you. Now, lets go. I need to get to the airport as fast as possible."

"My bags in the car." Finn answered. Blaine looked at the older boy with surprise. "What? Did you think I would miss a chance to see my soulmate?"