"Why do I deserve this" I studied myself in my vanity mirror that morning in June, my left cheek was shade of blue and yellow from being shoved into a locker by Karofsky the day before. That wasn't the worst of it, I had cuts and bruises all over my body from multiple locker shoves, trips and punches made by the jocks of McKinley high school. What had I ever done to deserve any of the torment that I had been put through over the years?

Oh wait then I remembered, I was a FAG.

I shivered, I hated that word, and I had been called it ever since I came out along with all the physical injury, so what if I like men! I already have a boyfriend so why should any of them feel threatened! I just shuddered it off and started applying makeup to the bruise on my face wincing at the pain I felt whenever I touched it.

Once I had gotten dressed giving myself one last look in the mirror I headed down stairs to see Dad, Carol and Finn getting ready to head of to either work or school. "Hey kiddo" Burt greeted me as I sat myself down at the table. "Hey Dad, um could you pick up some of my clothes from the dry cleaners, I've got glee tonight?" Burt joins me along with carol sitting opposite him. "Sorry kiddo, I have to work late tonight at the shop" I sighed slumping into my chair. "Don't worry hon, I'm going to the market down the street from it so I'll stop by when I'm done" Carol added. I thanked her as I finished a very small breakfast because seriously, when you are a cheerio gaining a pound means a fate worse than death in Miss Sylvester's book.

Finn walked up to us to grab his books "Could you also get some more cheese slices?" he asked. Carol sighed and just nodded along "I swear Finn you'll get fat from all those grilled cheeses, its not going to happen again" Finn smiled widely, god he could be such a child sometimes.

Finn turned to face me "C'mon bro, time for school" My heart clenched at the very word, picking up my bag, giving dad a pat on the shoulder before exiting out the door. Finn halted me at my car. "Dude seriously, you need to tell your dad about what's been going on, you may have fooled him this time with the make up but sooner or later he's going to notice how you always come home limping"

I sighed before nudging Finn aside to get into my car. "Finn, my dad has enough problems with his heart without this causing more stress for him, just leave it okay" Finn raised his hands up in surrender and headed towards his car. I started to put on my seatbelt when I felt my phone vibrate. I pulled it out to read the message.

Can't wait to see you tonight ;) call me later? Xx B

I smiled to myself. Me and Blaine had been dating for nearly six months now and it was about the only good thing going for me. I remembered him confessing his feelings to me right before our first kiss, our first date at Breadstix, how he always looked at me with those gorgeous hazel eyes, how he told me he loved me after nationals. Seeing him was the highlight of every day. I quickly answered.

Maybe, depends how desperate you want to see me Anderson ;) Xx K

It didn't take long for him to reply back. Oh believe me Hummel I am dying of anticipation over here ;) Xx B

I just laughed. Blaine could really be un-dapper at times. I started MY engine and made MY way out the driveway.

The school day had gone pretty well. Sure I had the usual name calling and insults but I had only been slushied once so I was a little late for fourth period, thank god I stopped wearing my designer labels to school, those clothes were far to expensive to replace but apart from that the day went by rather quickly. I left my last class and headed for glee rehearsal when I heard a rough voice coming from behind me.

"Hey lady boy"

No. not today, I was not going to go through with this today. The voice spoke again "Hey fag I'm talking to you!" Suddenly I was cornered by a group of big beefy men wearing letterman jackets with Karofsky head in centre. "Where do you think your going?" he sneered pushing me up against the nearest locker with a loud clang. I glared at him with my best bitch face. "None of your business" I retorted trying to get away but was blocked by two large fists colliding with my stomach. I winced at the pain as I sank to the floor, looking up to see Karofsky high fiving the two jocks.

"Going to fairy club are you ya big fag!" Karofsky shouted at me. I looked around trying to find a witness but the hallway empty. I was tired of this, tired of being his human punch bag, of living in fear as I walked through the halls. "I said it's none of your business you big Neanderthal!" Karofsky's face went hot red and I felt a surge of pain as Karofsky kicked me in my face. I couldn't protect myself as the kicks kept coming along with many hateful words. When the kicking stopped Karofsky spat right in my face "That'll teach you ya little fag!" With on more kick for good measure he laughed as he and the other jocks walked away laughing and jeering.

I was alone, lying on the floor. My face felt numb with pain and I was sure it was bleeding but that couldn't keep the tears rolling down my face. Why! What did I do to deserve this! I kept on thinking as I sank into the floor. I had never felt so alone.

"Kurt!"

I looked up to see Mercedes running towards me. She kneeled down next to me. "What happened? Who did this to you?" I just looked at her, all the sadness and worry in her eyes made my feel a little better, it was nice knowing that you had someone who cares about you. "K...Karofsky" I stuttered as she lifted me up, luckily I wasn't badly hurt anywhere on my body but my face so I was able to walk, with Mercedes supporting me. "C'mon, let's get you to Mr Schuester.

When I got in the choir room everyone gasped, wide eyed at my face. "Oh god I don't look that bad do I?" All the girls had enveloped me in a hug while the guys got out of there seats looking pretty pissed. "Kurt, what happened?" Mr Schuester came up to me, his face riddled with concern but I couldn't answer. Mercedes explained what happened, how Karofsky and his pals beat me up and I swear Finns face created a new shade of red to match his anger. "That's it! Karofsky's dead!" He shouted with Rachel's arms on his shoulders trying to calm him down. I made my way towards him. "Finn, please just leave it". He looked at me in shock "No Kurt this crap has gone on enough! I'm telling Burt and we are getting this finished now!" I looked up right at him in is face "No Finn! You can't!" Dad couldn't find out about this, he would get so angry he could seriously hurt himself.

Tina put her arms on my shoulders. "Kurt, you can't keep hiding this anymore". Quinn put her hand gently on my face with a paper towel trying to clean off some of the blood. "If you tell someone Karofsky will be expelled, you'll be safe. Brittney stared at me with a sad look. "And then you can go back to being my happy baby dolphin". Brittney always says that dolphins are gay sharks but I was too upset to even find her stupidity charming. I looked around the room to see all the guys looking at me with concern, even Puck looked a little teary eyed. Finn walked back up to me.

"Kurt, please. If you tell someone it will stop". He stared straight at me, "It'll get better". Somehow that set me off. "NO!" Everyone moved away from me a bit when I raised my voice. "It wont, it wont get better Finn!" I could feel the hot tears pouring down my face. "You don't get it! You just don't get it!" I turned running out the door ignoring my friend's pleas for me to come back. I got straight into my car, turned on the engine, got out of the car park and headed straight home.

I collapsed onto my bed when I got home, Dad and Carol weren't going to be home for a while so I just laid there contemplating my whole life. "If this is what the real world is like, then I don't want to be in it" I threw my head on my pillow and started to cry again when I saw something lingering in the doorway.

"Kurt you can't mean that"

I looked up at the door to see Blaine in all his beauty standing there gazing at me with concern. I had given him a key to the house because yes, we were that close. He came over and laid next to me on the bed enveloping me in a hug letting my cry into his shoulder. We stayed like that for a few minutes before I broke away "How did you find out?" I asked. He gazed at me with his gorgeous hazel eyes with his hand through his (I must say un-gelled) curly hair.

"Finn called me and told me what happened" he said looking at my face where I had been kicked. "God Kurt I'm so sorry" he looked like he was about to cry too. I put my hand on his left cheek feeling all the warmth and wiping away the tears around his eyes with my thumb. "It can't be helped, the world hates us Blaine that's just the way it is". He looked at me confused as he put his warm, gentle hand over mine. "No Kurt! The world doesn't hate us, there is a lot of acceptance and love out there, this" he pointed with his other hand to my face "This is just ignorance".

I could sense a little bit of mentor Blaine in his words but I just brushed it off. "Yes Blaine, your right, there is a lot of acceptance in the world" I moved away from him to perch myself on the edge of the bed. "But there is a lot of this as well Blaine, people who would revel in seeing us dead". He shuffled closer to me, our knees touching, catching my breath for a second on the close contact before continuing. "I hate this Blaine! Its everywhere I go, I can't run from them because there faster, I can't fight back because there stronger, all I can do is take it and hurts me Blaine! It hurts me so much!"

I wrapped my arms around his chest, resting my head on his broad shoulders and letting out another sob. Blaine put his hand underneath my chin so that I was looking at him directly. "Kurt I know what you mean, the world can be cruel and unforgiving. People like Karofsky are always going to exist, trying to bring us down but we are stronger than them Kurt, maybe not physically but in here" he placed his hand on my chest, over my heart. "In here we are stronger and we get on in life without letting them get to us and we have each other, we help each other to come to for support and most importantly love". He looked into my eyes for one more second before kissing me softly on the lips.

I almost forgot to breathe when his lips met mine. So soft and gentle, I moaned a little as I kissed him back. His lips tasted of coffee and honey. He put his hands to the back of my head as hr put a little more pressure into it. I let my hands play in his curls for a while, god he needed to use less gel more often before we broke away. He looked at me with such love and compassion I felt like I was lighter that a feather. I was probably had some goofy look on my face because he smiled showing his perfectly white teeth and let out a small laugh.

We stayed like that for a while, just talking before Blaine had to head home before his parents started to worry. Before he exited through the front door he gave me on last kiss on my lips and whispered to me. "I love you Kurt Hummel". I gazed at him with such happiness I swear I was drooling. "I love you too Blaine Anderson, I always will" I replied giving him another peck on the lips. He smiled at me one more time before closing the door behind him.

I had just finished my sandwich. Looking at the clock it read five thirty, dad and Carol would be home in an hour and glee was extra long tonight so Finn would be home around the same time. I sat there thinking what Blaine had said, as long as I had him I knew that I could get through this, graduate, leave this town and start a life for myself with him. I thought about the last part. I had been with Blaine for less than a year but I felt so complete with him I knew that we would survive, Blaine was the one good thing in his life aside from his friends and family and he was worth all the slushies, locker shoves and beatings that the world could throw at me.

I leaned back on my chair and smiling when there was a knock on the door. I went up to answer it and it was certainly someone I hadn't expected to see on my doorstep. His light chocolate brown skin, shaved head and dark mysterious and might I say disturbing brown eyes staring at me as I took him in, a look of realisation on my face remembering who he was. He smiled to show a set of clear white teeth. "Hello Kurt, it's nice to see you again".

I gaze at him dumbfounded as he spoke to me in a low and alluring voice.

"Matt?"