December 4

5:33am

Kurt has to go back to school today.

I knew it was coming - Mr. Hummel told us last night that it was time for him to go back, but that doesn't make it feel any easier.

I'm really scared.

Not even for me. But for Kurt.

He still hasn't talked to me about what's been bothering him. I know he's afraid. Terrified even.

I heard him crying last night. I'm pretty sure he thought I was asleep. I wasn't.

I just wanted to reach over and hold him. Tell him that he's okay - that he's safe.

But I couldn't.

What if... what if he panics at school and I'm not there?

What if he gets hurt? Or scared? Or... worse...

Damn it. I wish I would've been brave enough to talk to him yesterday.

I tried... a couple times... but every time I opened my stupid mouth the words got stuck. Again.

I don't want him to go.