( It's December! ) December 1

7:16am

'Thank You For Loving Me' by Bon Jovi

I just woke up!

That was the best sleep that I've had in... forever.

I didn't wake up even once!

Last night, Kurt and I laid in my bed and counted the stars together. It was amazing.

We lost count so many times because there are so many of them.

I can't imagine how long it took him to put them all up there.

I feel a lot better today.

After my talk with Carole, I don't feel as scared about Sebastian.

I think her and Burt are going to watch out for me.

And Kurt... He knew exactly what I needed when he got the stars for me.

Even after he fell asleep last night, I still just laid there and counted them. My mind just kinda slipped away and I wasn't thinking about horrible, awful scary things for the first time in a long time. I was just... comfortable.

7:22am

'Breakaway' by Kelly Clarkson

Oh yeah! I almost forgot to tell you...

Kurt woke up with the funniest hair this morning. I tried not to laugh at him, but I think he heard me giggle.

He ran away really fast to go downstairs and fix it.

I thought he looked adorable.

As soon as he gets back, we're gonna go make pancakes for breakfast before he has to leave for school.

I almost forgot that he had to leave his morning. It's going to be hard to stay here all day without him.

I know Carole will be here but, it's just not the same.

I need Kurt.