November 28

2:21am

God, I'm such an idiot.

I woke up screaming and made everyone freak out. They were all so worried about me.

I feel so bad. I didn't mean to wake everyone up.

It was another one of the same dreams Nightmares that I've been having.

I was back in the motel and he was trying to make me blow him again.

It's so horrible.

It's almost like I can still taste him on my tongue.

Then, when I tried to get away he hit me really hard and I fell onto that brown cupboard.

Then he pushed me onto that stupid table and used the straps to hold me down again.

Just when he was going to rape me again, there's a knock on the door and I heard Kurt telling me he was there to save me.

I tried to scream at Kurt to get away but he kept knocking and I was so scared that the man was going to hurt him too.

It was awful.

I guess I woke up and heard Mr. Hummel knocking on my bedroom door and it really freaked me out.

They couldn't get in because it was locked.

I really really worried them this time.

Kurt offered to stay here with me but I told him to go downstairs. I said I didn't need him.

I lied.

I wish he would have stayed, but I didn't want him to be uncomfortable in here.

It used to be his mom's sewing room and he said it makes him sad.

I hate it when Kurt is sad.

But I really wish he would have stayed with me.