Sept. 12, 2012, 4:36 a.m.
Then I Found You: Iridescent
M - Words: 2,430 - Last Updated: Sep 12, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 32/32 - Created: Apr 27, 2012 - Updated: Sep 12, 2012 710 0 1 0 1
Kurt had done is crying for twenty solid minutes in Rachel's dorm in the company of both her and Mercedes. They answered the door to a broken Kurt. and it took him five minutes to calm down enough to form words. He recalled in each painful detail about Sebastian the so-called boyfriend of Blaine. Mercedes was ready with a box of tissues, and Rachel had gone out to pick up ice cream. Rachel & Mercedes sat on either side of Kurt their arms wrapped around him in comfort.
Rachel's bed cover was wet with tears and probably snot. Kurt's eyes were red and puffy, and they burned. Handfuls of used wadded up tissues were in a pile beside him on Rachel's bed. Kurt finally finished crying. He felt drained and just laid on Rachel's bed, his head propped up by her mountain of pillows. He stared at the ceiling.
Everyone was quiet. Mercedes scooted closer to Kurt and took his hand.
"Did he ever give you a hint that you two were dating?" Mercedes asked.
Kurt swallowed squeezing her hand back, glad for her presence. It was no offense to Rachel, but he couldn't have gone through this without Mercedes.
"He never said it in so many words. Or any words for that matter." Kurt replied. His eyes went wide and covered his face with his hands. "I made it all up. I made the entire relationship up in my head."
"No Kurt," Rachel said coming in from the other side again. "I'm sure Blaine…had a good reason for…I have nothing."
"Do you have any idea how stupid I looked?" Kurt sat up and sniffled. "I sat there while that..that slut-pig kissed all over Blaine."
"Slut-pig?" Mercedes mouthed to Rachel.
"That's it Kurt. You need to get over him." Rachel said. She jumped up from the bed and moved swiftly over to her extensive DVD musical collection. "When I was getting over Jesse, and Finn before we started dating again I would sit down and watch one of my idols. It reminded me of how being single and on my own was exactly what I needed." She pulled out West Side Story.
"How about we sit and watch one of the greatest love stories of all time and forget about Blaine?" Rachel smiled.
Kurt's jaw quivered and he started to cry all over again. Mercedes handed Kurt a tissue. Rachel frowned, "Did I say something wrong?"
Kurt blew his nose and waved his hand. "It's fine Rachel, thank you both for your kind words and compassion. But right now I just want to be alone." He picked off a tissue from his shirt and flicked it aside. Kurt stood up and grabbed his bag.
"Kurt, I don't think that's such a good idea." Mercedes said following him. "Besides, can't you stay to just hang out with me? I'm leaving tomorrow."
Kurt sighed, "I'm sorry Mercedes. I just can't."
Rachel went over and slid her arm through his. "Kurt, you need a night in. We can sit around say all the things you hate about Blaine! Get all of that anger out and into the open."
Bless Rachel for trying but she wasn't doing a very good job. They both had their hearts in the right place but neither of them could understand. He pulled away from Rachel.
"I don't want to hate him." Kurt said, he tried to keep his emotions back. "That's the worst part. I still love him. And I can't just love him one minute and hate him the next even if his lips were all over that…"
"Slut-pig? Look, Kurt I know it's hard but he has a boyfriend." Mercedes said. "It's not going to go anywhere."
"You don't know that. You two weren't there and you didn't see the flirtatious looks, the…the physical contact, hand touching. We almost kissed." Kurt exclaimed desperately trying to make them understand.
"You what?" Mercedes' jaw dropped, "Woah, when did you almost kiss?"
Kurt heaved a sigh, "After he sang to me. For me. Blaine has feelings for me. I know he does."
Rachel picked at her nails. She was trying to find a gentle way of explaining something to Kurt. "Kurt. Guys a-and girls, they flirt. Even if they are not romantically…emotionally involved."
Mercedes arched her brow and turned on Rachel. She stared at her like she would someone who just said apple was there favorite color. "He's not a child Rachel. Give the boy some credit."
"Thank you." Kurt said.
"Rachel has a point though. Like I said, he has a boyfriend. There is nothing you can do about that." Mercedes leaned against the bed.
Kurt wiped away another tear. "They're dating. They aren't married."
"Promise us you won't do anything rash." Mercedes begged. "Promise the both of us that you will let this go."
Kurt took a deep breath and nodded. He didn't mean it though and Kurt was pretty sure that both Rachel and Mercedes knew it. They didn't say anything else though. For the rest of the night they did some karaoke, talked about Mercedes as her school, and watched When Harry Met Sally.
Half way through the movie Kurt felt his phone go off. Rachel and Mercedes were oblivious. He glanced down and opened the text.
Kurt? Are you there? -B
Kurt ignored it and turned his head back to Meg Ryan. Ten minute later. Another text.
Kurt. I'm sorry. -B
Kurt didn't respond to the four other texts and one missed phone call her received on Sunday. He didn't tell his friends about the constant texts. Kurt wasn't going to respond to them so Rachel and Mercedes didn't need to know. Finn tried to give words of wisdom but Kurt was a little more confused than anything else. Still, he thanked his brother for the effort.
He sat in biology Monday not knowing what to expect. Kurt moved to a different seat wondering if Blaine would get the hint. And when Blaine came walking into class wearing the bowtie he had worn the day he helped Kurt pick up the spilled contents of his bag. Kurt almost hated that he remembered that.
Blaine noticed that Kurt wasn't in their normal seats. He stopped and searched the class for his face. Kurt kept his eyes on the blank notebook on his desk. It was tempting to look up and see those puppy dog eyes that always melted Kurt. He stayed strong though. After a minute Kurt snuck a glance up, Blaine was seated where Kurt would normally sit.
Kurt closed his eyes and cursed himself. 2:15 came fast and yet another biology lesson passed by without Kurt absorbing anything at all. Kurt walked off briskly after class had ended. He cut through people trying not to trip but the weather had been rainy outside and the tile floor was slick. Kurt lost his footing and arms flailing he slipped backward.
He didn't hit the ground. A pair of soft arms were wrapped around him from behind. Kurt blinked.
"Whoa, easy there." Blaine said in his ear. His breath tickled and made Kurt insanely uncomfortable considering the situation on Saturday. He steadied himself and moved away from Blaine.
He turned and fixed his jacket and readjusted the pale grey scarf around his neck. He looked indignity at Blaine. "Thanks." he said coolly.
Blaine's small smile faded. He frowned and slid his hands into his pockets. "You get my texts?"
Kurt smoothed his jacket and looked Blaine up and down a reserved expression on his face the whole time. "Yes."
"You didn't reply. I t-thought you were mad at me.? Blaine paused. "Are you?"
Kurt gripped the strap of his bag tightly, his knuckles almost white. "Angry? Why would I be angry? You only have a boyfriend that you neglected to tell me about. A boyfriend who clearly hates me and I've done nothing to him." Kurt turned and stormed away.
Blaine wasn't going to let Kurt go that easily. He chased after him. Catching up wasn't too hard but trying to get Kurt to stop was. "Hold on, I don't have an obligation to tell you everything in my life. I hardly know you. I wasn't hiding Sebastian from you."
"I'm not saying I want you to tell me everything Blaine don't be stupid. But honesty counts in friendship. Why would you choose not to tell me you had a boyfriend, unless you were embarrassed or ashamed." Kurt said not slowing in his pace.
"You don't get to be angry because I have a personal life."
"No." Kurt stopped and rounded on Blaine, "I get to be angry because you made me look like a complete idiot. How do you think I felt when this random guy with his dumb meerkat face comes out of nowhere and starts kissing you?"
Blaine's eyes narrowed. "What you're going to tell me who I can and can't kiss? I wasn't aware we were in a relationship Kurt. I already have a boyfriend."
"That's not what I meant! You wouldn't have kept that from me unless…" Kurt dropped off.
Blaine waited. Kurt said nothing. "Unless what?"
Kurt shook his head. "Forget it. I just felt blind sided by the unjust anger of your boyfriend. You clearly didn't tell him about being friends with me. About the times we hung out. I bet he didn't even know we were doing a duet together for Wicked." Kurt sucked in his bottom lip, disappointed in Blaine. "I didn't do anything to him. I didn't deserve him judging me because you were hiding something."
They were both quiet. The anger that was ignited in Blaine's eyes had dimmed. Kurt wasn't sure but he thought he saw guilt. Blaine rubbed the back of his neck.
"You're right. I should have been up front about it on both sides." Blaine took a few deep, calming breaths. He tilted his head. "You think my boyfriend has a meerkat face?"
"It's very meerkatty. Or some kind of small mongoose like mammal." Kurt said.
Blaine did something Kurt wasn't expecting, he laughed. Kurt didn't want to laugh, frankly he was still very upset with Blaine. Then again he was still very in love with him too. Kurt unwillingly smiled.
"There it is." Blaine said, pointing at Kurt's face. "I was afraid I had screwed up to the point where I wouldn't see that again."
Kurt couldn't figure Blaine out. He covered his mouth and walked away from Blaine in a joking manner. Blaine beamed and darted after him.
"Back there you made it sound like we weren't doing the audition together anymore." Blaine sounded worried.
"Aren't we? I mean your boyfriend won't be mad."
Blaine shrugged, his hands were back in the pockets of his gray jeans. "Sebastian will understand. He's a great guy."
"Yeah, he was a peach." Kurt said sarcastically.
Blaine grabbed Kurt's arm to stop him. He turned. "Hey, I'm sorry for how Sebastian acted Saturday. He was out of line. Really, once you get to know him he's…" Blaine blushed, "He's really fantastic."
This wasn't exactly what Kurt wanted to hear coming from Blaine. Kurt did his best not to make a disgusted face. He sneered a little and rolled his eyes when Blaine glanced away.
"That's so wonderful to hear." Kurt lied.
Blaine looked at his watch. Always with places to be and now Kurt had the idea that some of those places included Sebastian.
"I have to go drop something off at my professor's office. I'll catch you later though. We need to find a time to work on the duet. We only have a few days."
Kurt rocked forward on the balls of his feet, "Good thing we're talented then."
Blaine laughed again. He waved and went off in the other direction. Kurt stared longingly after him. Blaine was more trouble than any guy Kurt had previously had crushes on. He was totally worth it though.
Kurt sat in the student union waiting for his next class. He actually made an attempt to do homework. Under his breath Kurt sang "Candles" over and over. It had been stuck in his head on repeat. A shadow cast over his text book. Kurt lifted his head. The creepy meerkat grin of Sebastian was greeting him. Kurt with an unmistakable bitchy look on his face sat back.
"I thought I smelled Craigslist." he commented.
"Kurrrrt." Sebastian said drawing his name out. "I thought it was you. Mind if I sit?"
"No. Be my guest." Kurt gestured to the chair opposite of him. He pulled his diet coke out of the way and closed his textbook. "So what do I owe this honor?"
Sebastian smiled, revealing his teeth. They were almost perfect, another reason to hate him.
"I just wanted to talk to you."
"Really?" Kurt said, with mock surprise.
Sebastian pushed Kurt's notebook further away so he could lean on the table. "I don't like you."
Kurt's lip curled up and his brow arched. "What are you in the mob?"
"I don't like how you're spending time with my boyfriend, and I don't like that you continue to do so after I thought I made it clear he is mine."
Kurt let out a hollow laugh. He whistled. "Okay. Wow. First of all. I don't like you either. I don't like your smirky little meerkat face, I don't like that you think you own Blaine like a piece of real-estate, and I don't like that you're coming to me with your relationship insecurities. Oh, and I also don't like that you think I am trying to take your boyfriend away from you."
Sebastian continued to smirk. If something Kurt had said to Sebastian bothered him, he didn't show it.
"Listen here, Blaine Anderson is my boyfriend. He isn't going to love you. Do you think that because he bought you coffee a few times he's going to just fall for you? Think again. One of us has a hard luck case of the gay face and it ain't me. So I think we know who Blaine will choose in the end." Sebastian put his hands on the table and pushed himself up.
Kurt glared at him breathing through his nose. He managed to match Sebastian's cruel hateful smile. "If you're worried about Blaine choosing me when you two are dating, then I think there must be something wrong with the foundations of the relationship don't you think?"
"Just think about it Kurt." His lips twitched into a crooked smile. "Oh, and the way Blaine kisses is super hot. Not like you'll ever know, but I could tell Saturday you were curious as to what it was like. Good luck on your studies."
Kurt was seething. Tears of frustration brimming his lids but they never fell. It was in that moment that Kurt decided that without a doubt Sebastian was crazy psycho who didn't deserve Blaine. Kurt was in love with Blaine, and despite what Rachel and Mercedes suggested he wasn't going to give up. Let the games begin.