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Sept. 12, 2012, 4:36 a.m.


Then I Found You: Better That We Break


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Story: Complete - Chapters: 32/32 - Created: Apr 27, 2012 - Updated: Sep 12, 2012
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Author's Notes: song: "Better That We Break" --Maroon 5

The rest of the weekend at the Anderson's residence went by slow and painful for Kurt. He wasn't sure how to approach Blaine about over hearing the phone conversation so he kept quiet about it. Actually, he kept quiet in general. Kurt didn't do much to strike up conversation but he was polite to Cooper and even to Blaine despite wanting nothing to do with him. Blaine wasn't stupid though, it only took him a few hours into the morning after to realize that something was wrong. He tried to ask Kurt but he dismissed it and left it up to an upset stomach. But blaming your mood on feeling ill only works to an extent.


Kurt elected to pretending to be asleep as Blaine drove them back to campus on Sunday, and he bid Blaine an early fair well and went straight to his room. His phone went off ten minutes later.


Kurt, if I did something wrong can you please let me know? -B


Kurt rolled his eyes. New tears threatened to form and fall but Kurt held them back. He had done enough crying behind closed doors for his liking.


I'm fine, I just don't feel good. I must have a stomach bug. I'm sorry.


*vibration*


Do you want me to come over and take care of you? -B


The harder Blaine tried the more painful it felt. Kurt quickly sent back a reply and turned his phone off, tossing it onto the floor. He rolled over on the futon and closed his eyes.


No. I'm fine.




That Monday, Kurt was trying his best to avoid Blaine but it was difficult when they had a class together. He was focused on his notes when Blaine came into the room. Kurt didn't bother to glance up, but he saw him from the corner of his eye.


"Hey, you." Blaine said taking his seat. He watched Kurt trying not to frown. "Is there a reason you aren't talking to me?"


Kurt sighed and looked up. He put on a smile. "I told you, I think I have a stomach bug. It's still causing me to feel like I'm walking the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm a bit distracted with trying not to throw up."


Blaine nodded, not believing one word Kurt said. Thankfully for Kurt class started, which meant their conversation, was over. Kurt couldn't so much as look at Blaine without feeling angry.


"So Kurt," Blaine followed closely behind Kurt after class had let out. "I was hoping we could talk more about Spring Break and that cabin you wanted to get."


"We don't have to do it. It was a stupid idea." Kurt replied.


"No, I love it Kurt." Blaine slipped his hand into Kurt's weaving their fingers together.


Kurt didn't pull back at first but didn't exactly hold on tight to Blaine's hand. "What did you want to talk about?"


Blaine gripped Kurt's hand tighter moving closer to him. "We're going to be alone for an entire week, just me and my wonderful boyfriend."


Kurt clenched his jaw and wormed his way out of Blaine's grasp. "Now that you mention it. I was thinking too." Kurt kept his tone light and a smile on his face. "Maybe we could invite Rachel and Finn along, I don't think they have any plans and the cabin I was looking at has two bedrooms. Why let it go to waste?"


Blaine's expression faltered. He shook his head a little and sighed. "Y-yeah. That'd be great to have them there. I forgot something back in my dorm, I'll catch you later okay?"




Blaine took a detour and found Rachel sitting on the second floor of the union. He rushed over and took the seat opposite of her, hoping Kurt wasn't the one she was waiting for.


"Blaine, good to see you." She said with a surprised smile. Rachel down her pencil and folded her hands on the table. "Is Kurt with you?"


"You're not waiting for him are you." He glanced over his shoulder.


"N-no. I'm studying for a midterm I have tomorrow. Blaine, you're acting like you're hiding from him. Is something wrong?"


Blaine ran his hand over his face. He scooted closer to the table, leaning on it. "Rachel, would you know of any reason Kurt would have to avoid me, or a reason why he would be mad at me?"


Rachel blinked. This news obviously surprised her and for the girl who gathered the most gossip in their group it was odd for her to be out of the loop. In her eyes Blaine could tell she was already plotting approaching Kurt about not telling her what was going on. She shook her head.


"No. I had no idea you guys had a fight."


"We didn't." Blaine rubbed his temple. "I mean I don't remember fighting with him. He's avoiding me, or when he does talk to me it's forced, and awkward Kurt has never acted that way around me before."


Rachel frowned she took Blaine's hand across the table. "I-..I'm sorry. I wish I could help you, but Kurt hasn't told me anything which is weird considering he tells me everything!"


Blaine nodded glancing down at her hand on his. "It's scaring me. Could you do me a favor and um, if you hear anything could you let me know or better yet tell him that I'm sorry for whatever happened?"


Rachel let go of Blaine allowing him to stand up. "Yeah, I'll be sure to let you know." Blaine smiled and kissed her on the top of the head and headed toward his next class, despite the fact he had an hour before it began.




Kurt skipped out on his daily coffee and spent the rest of the day hiding out in his room where Finn was in the middle of a Call of Duty all day long game play marathon. The gunfire and explosions were distracting but it wasn't as though Kurt would have been able to focus on his homework anyway. He sat on the futon next to Finn, his arms folded and staring at the computer animated carnage.


"And all you do is blow someone else up?" Kurt asked his lip curled upward. A man was shot in the head on the TV and the blood splattered. Kurt covered his mouth.


"Well, it's not just that dude. You're trying to-"


"Nevermind." Kurt cut him off, "I realized that I don't particularly care. No offense."


Finn shrugged and kept his eyes glued to the screen. The door to their room had burst open and in stormed Rachel.


"We really need to start locking that." Kurt mumbled to Finn.


Rachel stood in front of the TV, her feet rooted to the floor. With her hands placed on her hips she addressed Kurt. "Kurt, I think we need to have a little talk."


"Rach, Rachel!" Finn stretched his neck trying to see around her. "Rachel, you're going to get me killed."


Rachel ignored Finn. Kurt figured he knew exactly what this was about. "No, we don't need to have a little talk. The little talks turn into long conversations that half of the time I am really not paying attention to. You're blocking Finn's game, by the way."


Rachel jaw dropped open. She turned and shut the TV off and unplugged the game console. "Now he's done."


"Woah, hey!" Finn exclaimed, "Why am I bringing dragged into this. I didn't do anything…this isn't about me in some way is it?"


"No. It's not." Kurt said shortly. "It's about Rachel not understanding that I don't want to talk about what she wants me to talk about."


Finn sat on the edge of the futon his eyes circling in his head trying to make sense of what Kurt had just said. He gave up and got to his feet. "Right. I'm going to the gym for a few hours, you guys sort out what you need to." He kissed Rachel; she didn't take her eyes off of Kurt. They were in a stare down, challenging each other. "Just, please don't kill one another."


As soon as Finn was gone Rachel went into attack mode. "Kurt, why are you avoiding Blaine?"


"Who said I was avoiding him?" Kurt directed his eyes away from her.


"I don't know, maybe Blaine. He says that you've been acting weird around him. What's going on? You haven't told me anything, Kurt. Before the weekend you guys were so happy and normal and now you're actively dodging your boyfriend. You love him Kurt, wha-"


"Well he doesn't love me." Kurt snapped.


The sudden anger in Kurt's voice froze Rachel on the spot. She thought a moment about what Kurt had actually said, "E-excuse me? What do you mean that Blaine doesn't love you, of course he does Kurt."


Kurt hugged his legs close to his chest. "No, he doesn't. Trust me."


Kurt's word on the matter was not going to do it for Rachel. She needed details, an explanation for everything that was going on. Kurt chewed on his lower lip, the initial anger slipping away. He sighed and patted the space next to him on futon for Rachel to join him. After a minute he started to retell the events of the dinner at Blaine's house with Cooper, and more importantly the phone call.


Rachel sat there in silence trying to work it out. "Are you sure you heard him right? I mean, maybe it was out of context. I just don't believe Blaine would ever say that."


"What other context would there be Rachel? I heard him say 'I love you, Sebastian.' I still hear him saying it in my head." Kurt couldn't cry over this anymore, he was sure that he had run out of tears.


"What are you going to do?"


Kurt shrugged helplessly.


"Well you have to tell him Kurt. You can't let him just wander around like this." Rachel urged.


Kurt scoffed, "What am I supposed to say to him?"


"I don't know, that you heard the phone conversation. Approach him about this, he'll let you know how you heard it out of context. It's just a misunderstanding." Rachel reached for Kurt's hand but he pulled away.


"Don't you get it? It's Sebastian. Blaine has been defending him since before we started dating, and then after he got that snowball in the face and had to have surgery. Why do you think he could still be defending the guy who hit me, nearly blinded him with a rock salt snowball and who broke my wrist with his face?"


"Um, Kurt I think that last one is mostly your fault, you hit him remember?" Rachel said in a small voice.


Kurt rolled his eyes, "You know what I mean. He is always there to defend Sebastian regardless of what he does. And when he says he's mad at Sebastian I can tell he's lying. Face it Rachel, it's always been Sebastian. Blaine is still in love with him. I'm tired of it, I really am." Kurt's voice broke.


He glared down at the ring still on his right hand. Kurt resisted the urge to take it off and toss it across the dorm. Instead he just sat on his hands staring off over Rachel's shoulder.


"You're not thinking of-"


"I don't know. I'm not seeing many other options." Kurt mumbled.


Rachel shot a glare in Kurt's direction. "You could actually try and talk to him about it. I still think it's a mistake. I don't think Blaine would ever do that to you, Kurt. But whatever you decide you need to do it soon."


Kurt glanced over to her, puzzled.


"He's freaked right now. Don't string him along and avoid him while you slowly decide what to do. That isn't fair to him."


There was a knock on the door, which was odd. Finn would have just entered as would Rachel but she was already standing here. Kurt swallowed knowing who would be on the other side and before he could tell Rachel not to answer it she was across the room opening the door.


"Hey-Rachel, hey." Blaine's said in surprise. "Um, I was wondering if Kurt was here."


She glanced back and gave Kurt a mischievous look. "Why yes, Blaine. He is." She opened the door wider. "I was just on my way out to meet Finn." Her obnoxious fake smile spread across her face. She grabbed her coat and waved to the both of them before leaving.


Kurt could have killed her. He just sat on the futon looking over to Blaine who stood awkwardly by the door.


"Hey." Blaine said with a tiny smile.


Kurt nodded in acknowledgment. A few moments of silence passed. Blaine sighed and moved quickly to the futon sitting down beside Kurt, but giving them space between.


"Kurt, what's going on? You've been avoiding me since we had dinner with Cooper. You hardly talk to me and when you do you're cold and distant. Did I-did I do something wrong?"


Kurt had kept a neutral expression until the second question. His eyes fixated on Blaine, bitter and dangerous. "The fact that you have to even ask speaks volumes, Blaine."


Blaine blinked, scooting back a little at the ferocity in Kurt's words. "What are talking about? I-…I don't know what I did to make you so angry at me. I'm sorry for whatever it is-"


A sharp burst of hollow laughter filled the room on Kurt's behalf. "You're sorry? Excuse me if I think that's funny."


Blaine's brow creased. He hadn't the slightest clue why he was being treated this way and Kurt's reactions were starting to make him angry. "What the hell is your problem? If you have something to say than say it and stop all of this passive aggressive bullshit. I honestly have no idea what I did Kurt, and I would seriously like to know why I'm being shunned for it."


Kurt clenched his jaw. "Do you still love Sebastian? The truth, Blaine I want the honest to God truth."


Blaine stammered, the question catching him extremely off guard. "Wha-..n-no! Kurt how could ask me that? I love you and only you."


Kurt instantly started to cry believing he caught Blaine in a lie. "I thought that if you could admit it then maybe you at least respected me."


"What?"


"I heard you say 'I love you Sebastian' on the phone the other night at your house." Kurt explained.


Blaine's mouth dropped open, "Kurt. That wasn't what you think it was. I wasn't actually talking to Sebastian. Cooper had this idea, it was stupid, I mean it worked but-"


"No. Don't blame Cooper for this. I heard you and I knew it. I should have known it was Sebastian."


Blaine scoffed his eyes starting to gloss over with tears of his own. "You're sitting there preaching about me respecting you, when you can't show me any respect? You don't trust that I love you when I've never given you a reason to doubt."


"You always defend him. Every time he does something you have to be there to stand up for Sebastian. You hardly stood up for me when Nick and Jeff were rude to me at Dalton. Sebastian hit me and you still forgave him for that. He nearly blinded you, in an attempt of trying to hit me. Blaine the list goes on. Face it, you're always going to come to his aid. He could set me on fire and you'd still be, 'Oh no, he didn't mean it really Sebastian is a great guy.'" Kurt's voice steadily rose with each sentence. By the end he was practically shouting.


"You have to be kidding me right now! Yes, I've defended Sebastian more than I should have. He's been my friend for a long time and I'm sorry if I still want to try and see some good in him. It doesn't mean that I love him Kurt. I love you, more than anything." Blaine moved closer to Kurt on the futon and reached out to take his hand. "Why can't you see that?"


Kurt pulled his hand back from Blaine's and got off the futon crossing to the other side of the room. He folded his arms over his chest.


"I should have known it was too soon. You broke up with Sebastian, who you had been dating for two years. You weren't ready for another relationship. You're not over him." Kurt said quickly wiping away tears.


Blaine rolled his eyes and groaned. "God damn it Kurt. I broke up with him for you, so I could be with you. I want to be with you!"


Kurt slowly shook his head. "I-…I don't think I believe you anymore."


Blaine fell silent. He ran his hand over his face staring in shock at the floor. "Wow, so this is it. This is seriously how you're going to end this?" He looked over to Kurt, his voice cracking slightly.


Kurt licked his lips. He glanced down at his hand; the silver band that Blaine had given him was glaring up at him. Kurt slowly removed the ring hesitantly replying, "I think you should go, now."


When Kurt looked back to Blaine holding the ring out in his thumb and index finger his heart broken. Blaine looked devastated, like a wounded puppy. He stared at Kurt, silently begging him not to do this. Kurt clenched his jaw and put on another neutral expression the way he did when he wanted to close people off to his emotions. Blaine reluctantly took the ring back from Kurt passing by him to the door. He stopped half way out to glanced back at Kurt one more time. Kurt's back was to him.


"I still love you." Blaine said, his tone defeated and broken. He closed the door behind him leaving Kurt alone in the room.




A/N: All my creys for this chapter! Please don't hate me too much. This story is still on going though, keep an open mind guys. I am working on the next two chapters right now. They should be up later today or sometime tomorrow night 6/2. Thank you guys for your lovely reviews, and I'm glad so many people love this story!


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