March 25, 2013, 7:59 p.m.
When Darkness Turns To Light: Chapter 5
E - Words: 2,743 - Last Updated: Mar 25, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 6/? - Created: Jan 04, 2013 - Updated: Mar 25, 2013 247 0 0 0 0
To Rachel:
Thanks for the heads up on Kurt.
To Blaine:
I'm sorry! He asked me not to tell anyone. -puppy eyes-
To Rachel:
It's okay.
To Blaine:
So, how did everything go?
To Rachel:
Okay, I guess.
To Blaine:
And you two?
To Rachel:
To be determined.
To Blaine:
You two talked though, right?
To Rachel:
Yeah. He still doesn't trust me. He's afraid I'm gonna do it again.
To Blaine:
You're not going to though.
To Rachel:
No, and I told him that.
To Blaine:
Maybe you should try telling him in a different way.
To Rachel:
Ideas?
To Blaine:
What would Kurt tell you to do?
To Rachel:
…?
To Blaine:
Think about it. I can't tell you everything.
To Rachel:
Why not? It's easier when you do :-)
To Blaine:
Nope. Your turn to figure it out.
To Rachel:
:-(
To Blaine:
Don't pout. You know this. Sleep on it. You'll figure it out.
To Rachel:
I hope so.
Rachel didn't reply again after that. She let what she said sink in for Blaine. He was still at loss for what to do. He was really hoping Rachel would be more help than she was. He wanted her to tell him exactly what he had to do to make everything better, and she didn't. People were just being wildly unhelpful tonight.
Blaine sighed as he thought about what she said. He didn't know what Kurt would tell him to do, and he didn't know how else to communicate what he felt. He tried talking to him, tried convincing him with words that he wasn't going to betray him again. Blaine laid back on his bed and thought about what Rachel said more. He tried to think of what Kurt would tell him to do if he was in this situation with someone else, not the exact same situation, obviously, but if he was trying to convince someone of something, and talking wasn't working. That was when it hit him. Maybe talking's not the answer. Maybe you need to show him how you really feel in the best, most honest way you know how. That was what Kurt had told him last year about Cooper, and he was right. Blaine had always been better at communicating with music than with words.
Blaine jumped out of bed and grabbed his IPOD. He started looking through all the songs to try and find the right one. If he really was going to go as far as singing to Kurt (especially given how it went the last time) it was going to have to be perfect. He stopped when he found the right song and listened to it. The message would work perfectly. It was a love song, albeit a slightly unconventional one, and it would show Kurt that he wasn't giving up on him, on them. Besides, he knew Kurt loved the song. He listened to the song carefully, even though he knew it by heart, and quickly realized that he was going to need help. The song wouldn't work without back-up. He knew he would have to mess with the timing a little too, but he could make it work.
Blaine grabbed his phone and was about to send a text message to the people he was hoping would help him, but he stopped himself when he noticed the time. It was 1:30a.m. He didn't need to bother them that late. He decided he would just talk to them at school and hope they agree to help.
This might just work, Blaine thought as he put the song on repeat and planned it out in his head.
-:-:-:-:-
Blaine sat in the choir room with Sam, Tina, Brittany, and Finn all staring at him. He asked them if they would stay after Glee practice so he could talk to them. He had just told them what he would need them to do in order for his plan to work, and he was quite literally sitting on the edge of seat to find out if they would agree or not.
"You were up until two planning this?" Sam asked.
"Yeah," Blaine replied slowly. "Will you do it?"
Sam shrugged. "Anything that'll help you stop moping is good by me. I'm in."
Blaine glared at him, but smiled in gratitude. "Thanks."
"Do you really think this will help?" Tina asked.
"I don't know, but it's worth a shot," Blaine said. "It can't make it any worse."
"But singing, really? I mean, why don't you just talk to him like everybody else?"
"I tried talking to him. Besides, Kurt always thought I showed how I felt best when I was singing. Please, Tina?"
Tina sighed. "Fine."
Blaine smiled. "Thank you."
Blaine looked to the last two people in the room. Neither of them were even looking at him. Brittany was looking at her hands in her lap, and Finn was looking at his feet. Blaine knew Sam would be on board, knew he could convince Tina, but he had kind of questioned the other two. Ever since Santana and Brittany had broken up, Brittany hadn't been willing to do much, and he knew Finn might feel strange setting up his step-brother.
"What about you two?" Blaine asked.
"I can get him here," Finn said. "But I swear to God, if this works, and you hurt him again, you won't get a third chance from me."
Blaine went a little wide-eyed at Finn's reply. Truthfully, he had expected the threatening when it first happened, not a couple weeks later, after Finn had more or less forgiven him. Blaine understood it though. He was just being a protective brother towards someone who had hurt the person he was protecting. Finn was able to forgive him once because they were friends, but he wouldn't be able to do it a second time.
"It won't happen again," Blaine said.
Finn nodded. "I'll get him here then."
Blaine and Finn locked eyes for a few moments, a silent "thank you" coming from Blaine. There was an understanding between the two boys. As long as Blaine didn't screw up, they would stay good. If Blaine succeeded in getting Kurt back, and he hurt him, he would be in for a world of pain. Avoiding physical injury was one more reason for Blaine to not mess up, but it was hardly the most important one.
"What about you, Britt?" Blaine asked as he changed his focus to the last person in the room.
"I don't think I should help you because I'm still mad at you," Brittany said. "I don't agree with cheating."
"I made a horrible mistake, Brittany, one I'm not going to make again."
"You hurt Kurt."
Blaine flinched at Brittany's words. He knew they were true, and that was why it hurt him so bad to hear, especially coming from Brittany. Blaine loved Brittany, but she wasn't exactly the brightest of people. When she was mad at you over something then you really messed up. The fact that she was still hurting over her and Santana didn't help how she felt either. She was very emotional about being hurt by someone you love.
"I know, and I'm trying to make things right," Blaine said. "If there was something you could do to make things right between you and Santana right now, wouldn't you do it?"
"Of course," she replied without hesitation.
"And wouldn't you want it to be the best it could be?"
"Yeah."
"That's all I'm trying to do here, Britt. I'm trying to make things right between me and Kurt, and I want it to be the best it possibly can be. Will you help me, please?"
Brittany studied Blaine for a minute. "Okay, I'll help, but if you hurt my unicorn that way again then I will permanently damage the part of your body that you can't keep in your pants."
Blaine didn't know what to say or do at that. He wasn't sure whether he should laugh or be terrified. He wasn't going to cheat on Kurt again so he figured he didn't have to worry about Brittany actually hurting him, but the fact that she threatened it, and meant it, kind of scared him. He took a moment to be grateful that he wasn't a straight male or a gay female because if she got that scary over one of her friends being cheated on, he couldn't imagine what she would do to the person who was stupid enough to cheat on her.
"Thank you," Blaine finally said slowly with a look of slight horror on his face.
"I'm serious, Blaine Warbler," Brittany said.
"I believe you," Blaine replied with a nod and gave Sam a sideways look, which caused Sam to burst into laughter. "Oh, sure, you think it's funny."
"Hey, keep it in your pants, and you got nothing to worry about," Sam replied.
Blaine let out a small chuckle and shook his head. Even though Brittany had thoroughly scared him, and Finn had given him a firm warning, he had the four people he wanted to help him on his side. He had Sam, Tina and Brittany all willing to sing back-up for him, and he had Finn willing to get Kurt there. With everything in motion, Blaine could only hope it worked.
-:-:-:-:-
Kurt sat at his laptop and skimmed over the Facebook page he was on. He read every single message in the message box with crazed interest. It would be weird to see if he was on his own Facebook page, but he wasn't. He was on Blaine's Facebook, and he was completely breaking into everything private he had. Kurt thought he should feel bad about doing it, but he didn't. Blaine knew that Kurt had his password, he had been the one of give it to him, so if he really was trying to hide this, he would have changed the password. Kurt got the idea to go onto Blaine's Facebook last night after he remembered that Blaine had friended someone named Eli just under a month ago.
Kurt read the messages with interest but with a calm that surprised him. He thought he would be angrier as he read over what eventually progressed to cheating. The earliest messages were completely innocent actually. They had talked like they were old friends catching up after years of being apart. Kurt noticed that the more they talked the bolder Eli got. The compliments had started simple with Blaine casually brushing them off. After a few days, Blaine stopped brushing the comments off, and Eli had started getting braver with what he was saying, implying more and more with each conversation.
The first touch of anger hit Kurt when he read Blaine's second to last reply to Eli. "On my way," it said. That was when it happened. That was the night they met up; that was when Blaine had betrayed him; that was the start of the heart break. Kurt was so focused on that message that he barely managed to read the last one Blaine had sent the other man, the one saying that what happened was a mistake, that it could never happen again, that Eli should forget about him. Kurt checked the dates, and noticed that, true to his words, Blaine hadn't messaged him since that night.
Kurt sighed. He wasn't sure what exactly he was looking for when he started reading the messages, but, whatever it was, he didn't get it. He was still at a loss. He wanted some kind of proof that Blaine wouldn't do this to him again, or if he was going to do it again, he wanted to know so he could avoid the pain again. He wanted an answer. There wasn't an answer to this though. It wasn't like this was a test that either of them could pass or fail. That was when the idea struck him; he could make a test.
Kurt wracked his mind for ways to test Blaine. He knew he couldn't just ask him because he knew what Blaine would say. He also knew having someone else ask him was out of the question too. Blaine would say he would never do it again, that Kurt was the only one for him, that he would never hurt him again. Kurt wanted to believe Blaine's words, but he had heard them before. Blaine had claimed he would never do this to him before he ever did it. It wasn't Blaine's words that Kurt was unsure of, it was his actions. He needed some kind of test that would tell him what Blaine would do, not just what he would say.
Kurt sighed as he saw a little notification appear on his screen. Blaine had a new private message. He went instantly to check what the message was, wondering if it was a new message from Eli, but he froze when he saw who it was actually from. Sebastian. A couple of months ago, Kurt would have just brushed off a message from Sebastian, but Blaine's infidelity had made him paranoid. He had to see what the man had to say. With an apprehensive breath, Kurt opened the message.
I heard you and Kurt are having trouble…Wanna talk about it? ;-)
Kurt hadn't seen any messages between Blaine and Sebastian, and, unless Blaine had been lying, they hadn't kept it touch since the incident last year. Kurt couldn't deny that Sebastian had him curious. Before he even really thought about how wrong it was to message Sebastian back, he found himself typing a reply.
How did you hear?
It only took Sebastian a minute to reply:
Oh, you know those Warblers, they gossip just as much as they sing. They won't shut up about the fact that the guy you left Dalton for might not even be yours anymore.
Kurt took a moment to feel the sharp pain of guilt. Blaine had changed his whole life to be with him only a year ago, and now they weren't even sure they were going to stay together. It was amazing how much things could change in a year. Kurt only had the chance to feel guilty for a minute though before a new message appeared.
Nick says you're pretty bummed about it. I bet I could cheer you up…
The guilt Kurt had felt disappeared instantly and was replaced by a mix of completely different emotions. He felt angry for several reasons. The fact that Sebastian was very clearly still trying to get into Blaine's pants bothered him, and that Sebastian brought something like that up reminded Kurt of why him and Blaine were going through their trouble to begin with: his boyfriend had caved to a similar proposition from someone else. Calling Blaine his boyfriend, even if it was only in his head, caused a small twinge of possessiveness to creep into Kurt. Despite their troubles at the time, Blaine was still his boyfriend, and he hated that someone else was trying to weasel their way in.
Kurt knew he shouldn't be surprised though. This was how Sebastian always was. It was one of the many reasons him and Kurt had never gotten along. It was one the reasons why Kurt had instantly thought Sebastian was the one Blaine cheated with. Of course, it wasn't the only reason. Blaine had played his part in Kurt's assumption too. Not only had Sebastian always tried with Blaine, Kurt thought a small part of Blaine wanted to be with him too. Sebastian was the only person Kurt had ever felt truly threatened by.
That was when the idea hit him. If anyone would be able to get Blaine to cheat again, it would be Sebastian. All Kurt had to do was convince Sebastian to keep trying with Blaine and to tell him the outcome. The first part would be easy. The second part was the difficult aspect of his plan. Kurt bit his bottom lip nervously as he mentally debated if he really wanted to do this. He finally let out a huff as he made his decision.
Meet me at the Lima Bean tomorrow at 11:00am.
Sebastian replied only seconds later:
See ya then :-)
With that final message from Sebastian, Kurt decided he finally had enough with Blaine's Facebook. He went through and deleted the conversation between him and Sebastian so Blaine wouldn't suspect anything later and logged off.
Kurt knew his decision might make him a bad person, a bad boyfriend, but he had to know.