I felt like I was about to die. I bet I squeezed Finns hand to death already, judging by the look on his face. Poor Finn. (Id need to apologize for that later.) Yelling, swearing and begging for the pain to stop sadly didnt change the fact that the baby wanted to be out in the world. I blamed Blaine for everything, in fact, it was his fault.

"I... Shit, I dont have a condom with me," Blaine breathed out, his eyes blown out with lust as he got rid of my pants.

"I- I dont either, but, please... dont stop." I begged, pulling him down and sealing our lips back together.

Oops. Maybe it wasnt just his fault after all. But that didnt change that I blamed him and kept yelling what an asshole he was.

From the moment they brought me into surgery everything eased down. The medication the nurse had given me a few moments ago seemed to do its thing and finally let me calm down for a moment. Finn was still by my side, still holding onto my hand, while I was still freaking out on the inside.

Im not ready to have a baby. I cant do this. Im twenty for gods sake. Ill have a responsibility for the little guy and nobodys there to help me!

"F-Finn, I..Im scared," I managed to breath out, my whole body already feeling sore. Tears ran down my cheeks but just seconds later, I felt his thumb brushing them away, whispering soothingly.

"Everything will be fine, little brother. Im here, I told you Im not going anywhere." He said softly. "I know youd probably rather have Burt here, but Carole and him are stuck in Ohio."

Right. It was Christmas next week and they didnt catch a plane. I was really lucky I got at least Finn here; Id be lost without him.

I got sleepier and felt like I about to pass out. Of course the pain wasnt all gone, but I managed to keep the heavy breathing down at least a little. I felt weird but I couldnt quite place the feeling. The drugs made my surroundings look a little blurry and I stared up at the ceiling when suddenly a loud cry filled the room.

Wow, I thought. Now that happened real fast. The two nurses, and the third that'd been cooling my head, rushed around the room, and just for a moment I swore I heard Rachels voice somewhere in the background - but I was too busy being sleepy.

"Hey there, buddy." I heard Finn whisper as he walked back over to me, a little bundle of blue blankets in his arms. I made grabby hands towards my son and Finn carefully laid him onto my flat chest.

"My baby," I breathed out. I was so overwhelmed that this little guy had been in me those nine months and was now finally here to meet me. His eyes were closed and hed stopped screaming the moment I wrapped my arm around him. I took his little hand in mine, pressing a light kiss onto his forehead. He was beautiful. Just like Id imagined him to be.

"Theyll bring you back into your room now and get your little man to the Nursling room to make sure hes okay, Kurt," Finn explained just before they took my son from me and I fell back asleep.

***

I woke up about an hour and a half later, Finn sitting by my side joined by Rachel and Santana.

"Kurt! Youre awake!" Rachel beamed, pressing a kiss to my cheek, stroking through my hair. She should be really lucky I love her so much, I thought, nobody was allowed to touch my hair like this. "How are you?"

I smiled, I knew Id heard her voice earlier. "Sleepy... but... wheres-" I trailed off, glancing around the room, only to see a small crib standing almost next to my bed. Santana picked the little guy up, his mouth opened in protest to being lifted out of his comfortable sleeping position.

"Hes got your nose," the Latina chuckled, "Does he have a name?"

I shook my head, I hadnt really thought about it. Sure, Finn had suggested some names, but it hadnt been the perfect ones.

"I still like Scott," Finn chuckled, "He could be a Scott."

No way. I wasnt naming my son Scott, I thought.  

"What about Mason?" Rachel suggested, taking the baby from Santana and moved to sit on the edge of my bed before she put him back onto my chest.

I patted his small head with the few dark locks. He looked just like Blaine. Except for the nose and eyes. His eyes were blue, just like mine.

"Elijah," I whispered towards him, to which he responded with a lazy smile. "He likes Elijah." I said, gently stroking his cheek with my thumb as he closed his eyes again. He seemed to be just as tired as his papa and I couldnt blame him.

"Elijah sounds perfect," Rachel smiled. I glanced up at her and nodded just as her phone started ringing.

She quickly excused herself and went out into the hallway, Santana following after her. Finn sighed as he watched them, fiddling with his jacket.

"Whats that with you and Rachel?" I found myself asking, continuing to rock Elijah lightly. "I mean..if you want to talk about it."

"I dont know. I mean, isnt she still dating this Brody guy?" He questioned. I frowned. Didnt she break up with him last week? Maybe he didnt know.

"No, after a lot of back-and-forthing they broke up. He cheated or something and she said it wouldnt work because..." I trailed off, oh right. She said she still loved Finn and only because of that didnt want to give him another chance.

"Because?"

"Maybe you should rather ask her." Looking back down at Elijah I saw him looking up at me with his bright, sparkling blue eyes. "Right, baby boy?" I couldnt help but smile back at him, wondering how it was possible for baby to smile this bright after just being born.

"Fine, Ill talk to her later." He nodded.

Rachel came back in just a few seconds later, saying they needed to get back to work but theyd come and see me later. I sighed in relieve as I tugged my covers up further and over Elijah, seeing that he already fell back asleep.

"You dont need to stay Finn, Im probably going back to sleep any moment too and sitting here would just bore you," I said, glancing over to him.

"Nah, Ill wait until Bl-" he cut himself off abruptly, scratching the back of his neck.

My eyes widened as I realized what hed wanted to say, shaking my head carefully, not wanting to wake the sleeping baby on my chest. "Hes coming?" I asked quietly.

"Well, he said he was. He wanted to see you... both of you." Finn shrugged lightly, just as there was a knock on the door and a nurse stepped into the room, followed by a familiar face.

"Blaine."