"Listen, Kurt. We hooked up at my brothers wedding. We dont even really know each other... this- this is all too much for me. I dont want children, never wanted them..."

***

I never quite liked hospitals. They always reminded me of the time when I was younger and sat at my mothers bed, having the knowledge that she was sick, really sick. I hadnt known then, that this would be the last time I would get to see her. I think that I didnt really figure that out, but when my dad said she was going to a better place, I knew that nothing would ever be the same again. Being at a hospital made me instantly think of pain - and lets face it. Nobody likes pain, doctors or the worst... needles.

"You ready for this?" Finn stood by my side, holding my hand while he kept telling me everything would be okay. Only a few weeks ago, Id been at the hospital with false alarm, and now that I was here again, knowing that this time it was real...  

"No," I found myself replying. "I dont know if I can do this." 

It was true. When I first found out about my pregnancy, I kept telling myself that it was just a really bad dream and someone would hopefully wake me up soon. 

"Kurt," Finn turned me around to face me, embracing me in a tight hug. I took a shaky breath, burying my face in his chest. "Ill never leave your side, you hear me? Im here for you." He reassured, smiling softly as he pulled back. 

"Thank you so much," I breathed out, giving him a small smile in return before the doctor lead us into an empty room, a nurse immediately rushing to my side, helping me onto the bed. 

"Alright, Mr. Hummel. I need you to change before we can start preparing everything else. Katys going to be here for you if you have any questions, okay?" Doctor Conner turned back around to me, patting my shoulder in attempt to calm me down. "Everything will be fine, I promise." 

I nodded. Of course he said that. Every doctor would say that. Who would want to scare their patient any further?

"Do you need any help putting that gown on?" Katy asked, handing me one of those hospital gowns before she looked up at Finn. "Are you his partner?"

I laughed, shaking my head quickly. "Brother, hes my step-brother." I said and took the gown from her, earning a chuckle from both, her and Finn. 

"Oh! Im sorry, I assumed. Now, Ill leave you two for a moment for you to get changed. Ill be right back." She smiled and left the room. 

"Partner." I repeated to myself, rolling my eyes. "That sounds just wrong. Partner." I laughed. Starting to take off my jacket I felt the pain returning, groaning quietly as I gripped onto the bed sheets. 

"Does it hurt much?" Oh Finn...

"Nah... Just feels like someones punching me into the stomach several times." I shrugged, rolling my eyes at him. Does it hurt much? What a stupid question. But well, thats just Finn, and I cant blame him since hes just trying to help. 

"No need for the sarcasm." He sighed. 

I nodded, taking deep breaths. "Can you help me change please?" I asked hopefully, even though I knew hed feel awkward, but I also knew that I couldnt do this by myself. 

"Sure, what do you- well... want me to do?" 

I exhaled slowly, closing my eyes for a moment. The pain luckily disappeared again after a few moments. 

"Just hold the gown for a sec, will you?" I handed it to him, continuing with my jacket before I pulled my shirt over my head, trying to avoid the annoying pain. "Ouch!" I groaned. 

"What?" Finn immediately turned his head towards me again from where hed turned around, knowing that Ive never been comfortable shirtless around anyone else. 

"He kicked," I muttered. "Its getting worse, really," I whispered, gesturing for him to move closer and tug the gown over my head. He helped me to get my sweats off, leaving me with my underwear. 

"Do you want me to get the nurse again?"

"Yeah, please," I said, holding tightly onto the sheets with one hand, the other protectively covering my belly. The pain really seemed to get worse every second now. 

Katy returned with another woman by her side. I didnt really listen to them when they mumbled something about getting me ready for my C-Section - I think they were too busy talking to each other to notice in how much pain I really was. 

Finn squeezed my hand. I think nobody of them understood what I was going through. 

"Alright Kurt, were going to prepare the C-Section for you now." Katy said, gesturing for the other nurse to get the doctor, before she addressed Finn, "Youll need to change, since I guessed youd want to stay by his side, right?"

Finn glanced over to me. "Is that okay with you?" He asked.

I nodded, pleading him with my eyes. "Yes, please. I cant do this alone."

Finn smiled at me. I really loved my brother for being here with me. I mean, even though I hoped Rachel or at least Santana would also be here, Im actually glad its him. 

"The doctor will be here any moment, and Ill get some scrubs for you." Katy said and left the room once again, leaving me to my thoughts before Finn interrupted them.

"So...Ive got to tell you something," he started, and I already knew it wasnt good news. "I called Blaine earlier..."

Oh, he did not... I managed to not think about him at least for the last past hours and now that he mentioned him again... There was a reason why I didnt want Blaine to know, and Finn knew why. Blaine hadnt been supporting me during my pregnancy, so why would he want to know anyway? 

"Im sorry I did this behind your back, but-"

"You promised me you wouldnt." I breathed out, turning my head and shot him a glare. "You promised, Finn."

"Kurt, he has the right to know that youre having his baby in the next hour!" Finn pointed out. 

"Not anymore! I respected that he wasnt ready for kids. Hell, he even told me he didnt want this baby! Were not together. I went alone through my pregnancy without any help from him!" I half-yelled, having him look guilty. Tears prickled in my eyes, but I hastily blinked them away - this wasnt worth crying. 

"I.. Kurt, please..." He begged, shifting closer to me as Dr. Conner walked back into the room, the two nurses by his side. 

"Are you ready to have a baby?" The doctor tried to cheer me up but I just shook my head a little. 

No, I wasnt ready in the least. I was having a baby at the really young age of twenty - whod be ready?