Dec. 10, 2012, 10:18 a.m.
Never Know I'm There: Feelings
E - Words: 1,118 - Last Updated: Dec 10, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 69/69 - Created: Nov 03, 2011 - Updated: Dec 10, 2012 702 0 7 0 0
Blaine couldn’t sleep that night; he couldn’t stop thinking about the mistake he had made. He never ever meant to hurt Kurt, not ever. He didn’t want Kurt to think that he was interested in another guy; he and Sebastian were just friends. Admittedly he did think Sebastian was good looking and had a nice body and was very charming but he loved Kurt so much. He understood that Kurt was uneasy because of how they got together and he was willing to help Kurt. He didn’t stay in his own bed that night, he slept in Kurt’s one because it was the only way that he could be close to him.
It was the last day before classes and Kurt didn’t sleep at all and that made Jeff worry, he hated seeing Kurt so sad and heartbroken. He didn’t like Sebastian and at the current moment, he didn’t like Blaine for the way he was treating Kurt.
“Hey.” Jeff said as he sat down next to Kurt, looking at the exhausted boy and wishing he could help.
“Hi.” Kurt said so quietly he was barely heard. He was lying in a ball, the covers all wrapped up tight around him and his face was tear stained.
“What’s the plan for today then?” Jeff asked, wondering if Kurt was going to see Blaine or not.
“I’m going to get Blaine to have sex with me. If he wants sex and that’s why he’s cheating then i have to give it to him. I don’t want to lose him, I can’t. So if its sex he wants then that’s what he’ll get.”
“Kurt, no. Only sleep with him if you want to please, please don’t do this because he wants it.”
“My dad told me that i shouldn’t throw myself around like I don’t matter because I do, but the truth is, I really don’t. If I mattered then Blaine wouldn’t cheat on me, he would’ve come to find me and beg me to forgive him.” Kurt wiped away the new tears that were running down his face.
“Hey, hey no. No, Kurt you really do matter. Blaine is the ass who cheated on you; he is the one who couldn’t wait for his loving boyfriend. He is the bad one here Kurt, not you. You matter so much.” Jeff said as he patted Kurt’s arm.
“Thank you, Jeff.”
“Anytime Kurt, anytime.”
Blaine was upset that Kurt had never returned to their room, it was quiet and lonely and he hated being apart from him. He got up, got dressed and showered; he had missed breakfast so he went to get lunch. He hoped to bump into Kurt there but he didn’t, instead he just got weird looks from Nick and Jeff who were sat in the corner with their coffees and bagels. He decided not to get breakfast; he had just lost his appetite so he went back to his room. To his surprise, Kurt was there and sat on the bed.
“Kurt-“ Blaine started speaking when Kurt got up and kissed him deeply. He just thought that he had missed him and forgave him so he kissed back. He wrapped his arms around Kurt as he was lead to the bed, both of them falling onto it. They were kissing deeply and passionately, gripping at each other and pulling off each other’s clothes. Once they were naked and rolling around, Blaine felt Kurt reach over for something. He opened his eyes and saw Kurt grabbing lube and condoms and that made him pull out of the kiss.
“What are you doing?” Blaine asked as Kurt started attacking his neck with kisses.
“Doing exactly what you want.” Kurt said as he continued to kiss Blaine’s neck deeply and open mouthed.
“Doing what I want? What do you mean?”
“You want sex right? So that’s what I’m giving you.” Kurt kissed down Blaine’s neck and onto his chest, he knew that Blaine loved it when he was kissed there.
“What? Wait, wait, Kurt. What’s brought this on?”
“I haven’t been giving it so you’ve been getting it elsewhere. I don’t want you to leave me so I’m going to give you what you want.” Blaine was so confused and hurt after hearing that. Kurt thought he was cheating on him and sleeping with someone else? Why on earth would he think that? He really didn’t know that Blaine loved him so much?
“Stop. Kurt, stop!” That made Kurt stop and look down at Blaine properly. “What do you mean that I’ve been getting it elsewhere? Do you think I’m cheating on you?”
“I know you are. You and Sebastian.” Kurt got up and grabbed his clothes, starting to get dressed again.
“You really think that low of me?” Blaine sat up, covering himself with the covers, very hurt. “You really think that I would do that?”
“Why else would you be staring at him and flirting and touching him and being cosy and having little dates with him and being shirtless together?” Kurt wiped his eyes after realising that he had started crying.
“Wait, no, no, Kurt you got it all wrong. I never cheated, I never slept with him. He took his shirt off when we were walking and I had loosened my tie because it was tight, no shirt removing for me. I love you, Kurt, it’s you I love.”
“Do you have feelings for him?” Blaine didn’t say anything and that made Kurt know that it as a yes. “Right, this is the me/you/Daniel thing all over again. You need to decide which one of us you want because I love you so much, so much and I don’t think you realise just how much.” Once Kurt was dressed, he left the room again.
Comments
They really need to talk without storming out!!!
They're drama queens!
your going to kill me
Yes I am
Hahahaha back in the closet :P
Drama... XD... *snuggles Kurt* *Cuddles Blaine* *Strangles Sebastian* *Locks Kurt and Blaine In A CLOSET!* heheh... they're back in the closet... =P
feels llike de ja vu