Author's Notes: Blaine tried holding out as long as he could before he went completely insane and grabbed a huge load of clothes and put them on his bed. He needed to go to Kurt, they needed to fix this. Time was passing and more and more was coming back, he knew that he was in love with Kurt. He knew it. Deep down, he always knew it but now for certain. He spent a lot of time torturing himself over memories of how he broke Kurt's heart.
Kurt had to pick up a couple of books for a report that he had to write when he saw Mandy with her latest meal. He had to do a double take when he realised who the boy was. His heart felt like it had been pulled into his stomach and smashed. The kissing looked really heated and it made Kurt’s eyes fill with tears. What made the whole thing worse was that they were making out in the section that Kurt needed to get into. He took a deep breath and started walking over. He sighed when he saw the book that he needed right behind Blaine, he leaned and tried to reach it when he felt Blaine’s arm scrape his ass.
“Oh. I’m so- Oh Kurt. It’s you.” Blaine said. Kurt could’ve sworn he saw a blush in Blaine’s cheeks but maybe it was being caught in a heavy make out.
“Yeah, it’s just me.” Kurt reached to grab the book but it slipped out of his hands and hit Mandy. “I’m so sorry!”
“You will be you faggy freak!” Mandy screamed at him, making Kurt grab the book and move away.
“I said I’m sorry. I really didn’t mean to.”
“Oh I bet you did. I bet you loved the show that was going on right next door, you disgusting pervert. You wish that you were here instead of me. You’re probably dying to suck Blaine’s thick juicy cock.”
“Mandy.” Blaine said quietly, touching her arm to tell her that to stop, that she had punished Kurt enough.
“No! Baby, I’m sorry but this freak is after you, he wants you, I swear. He’s always following you and eyeing you up. I know he used to be your best friend but now it’s stalkerish.” Mandy glared at Kurt.
Blaine didn’t know what to do or say. His heart jumped when she said that Kurt wanted him. But to keep his girlfriend happy so he wouldn’t get dumped or slushied, he had to agree with her. “Kurt, this is getting really creepy. I understand that you’re upset about us not being friends anymore but you really need to back off. People like you need to be locked away; you’re disgusting and a freak.” Blaine hated himself so much for what he said but if he wanted to keep his popularity then he had to. But the look on Kurt’s face broke his heart.
God Blaine was a complete jackass to Kurt. As soon as they started high school, Blaine changed. He knew he had and he hated it. He hated seeing what he was doing to Kurt. He was right, he really should leave Kurt alone but he just couldn't. With his memory and all his love back, he was ready to go and win Kurt back. He threw the clothes that were on the bed in a bag and picked it up, going to the dresser and taking the address that he'd stolen from Burt. He walked down the stairs and headed to the front door, opening it and then a hand shut it.
"Where do you think you're going?" Burt asked.
"I'm going to find Kurt." Blaine told him.
"No." Burt said simply. "You are not going to see him."
"I am!"
"Blaine, give him space. He's heartbroken and he's trying to find his way in a new city. Let him breathe and do something for him." Burt told him.
"But i need him. He needs me. We love each other. I remember everything and i know that i love with my heart, body and soul. God, Burt please just let me go." Blaine begged.
"Give it some more time. Wait until he at least answers your calls."
"I need to talk to him though. He really wanted to stay, so we can do the whole "losing memory and then falling back in love" thing. But i was so mean to him. I broke his heart and i can't fix it if i'm here. i am so crazy about him, i feel so sick, guilty and angry over everything i've ever done to him. It's all flooding back and i remember all those times i hurt him and it makes me hate myself more. I was so stupid and i need to make this right." Blaine said with tears in his eyes.
"I can't stop you since you're eighteen. I'm just advising you. If this was reversed, how would you want it to play out?" Burt asked.
"I would want him to come and get me and to fight. It's what he wants too. I'm going and that's final." Blaine opened the door and walked to his car, putting his bag in it and driving away.

He flew to New York and grabbed a cab, giving him the directions to Kurt's place. It had been a month since Kurt left and he had tried to stay away, but he just couldn't. He called Kurt every single day, every few hours but nothing. The amount of texts and voicemails Kurt would have would total up to... well Blaine couldn't number it. He stared at the picture of Kurt on his phone background and he stroked Kurt's face with his thumb. His memory had come back faster than anyone had expected, he just wished that he hadn't pushed Kurt away. That was his biggest regret. He would explain everything to Kurt and apologise until he could no longer talk. He would tell him that he regretted the whole thing with James. Then a memory popped into his head, it was a recent thing and something that he hadn't forgotten.
The morning after Kurt saw Blaine kissing, James had visited to see if Blaine was okay. James entered the house and he and Blaine went up to Blaine's bedroom to talk privately. But they didn't get a lot of talking done at first. Blaine tried to tell James that he didn't want it right now but James's lips attached themselves to Blaine's. James pushed Blaine back on the bed and straddled him, they kissed and James tugged on Blaine's hair, making Blaine moan. James also began thrusting down against Blaine and then moved his kisses to his neck. Blaine was lying there moaning loudly but he kept trying to speak to tell James to get off because he wasn't in the mood, but it just felt really good. James unbuttoned Blaine's shirt and then ran his hands down Blaine's gorgeous body. Blaine only managed to get James to stop when his pants were undone and James was trying to give him a handjob.
"James!" Blaine said out loud. "Please, stop!"
James looked at Blaine with hurt in his eyes. He got up off of Blaine, and stood awkwardly in the middle of the room.
"What don't you want me now?" James asked. "You stuck your tongue down my throat and as soon as your ex sees it, he gets jealous and then you leave barely saying goodnight to me."
"Okay James, this is totally unfair! You know what happened to me, i lost my freaking memory! I forgot that i loved him. You knew that there was a chance of my memory coming back and you knew that Kurt loves me. He's been my best friend my entire life and i still care about him. I hate seeing him so hurt and its worse knowing that i keep hurting him. He is in the house right now and if he came in while we were doing that, it would destroy him. I can't get into a relationship right now, because i never know when my memory will come back and if it does, then my feelings will return too. I can't be with you when that happens because it'll hurt you, me and Kurt and i'll have to choose and to be honest, i don't think i'll chose you. Look, i like you. But this isn't going to happen, i've had time to think and i'm sorry." Blaine told James, putting his shirt back on.
"You're a complete jerk!" James spat at Blaine before storming out.

Blaine got to Kurt's place, he stood outside for a few minutes just pacing. He was trying to work out what to say to Kurt when he saw him. He was just about to go upstairs when he bumped into Rachel.
"Blaine? What are you doing here?" She asked.
"I'm here to see Kurt." He told her.
"No you're not. You are not here to see him. Have you seen what you've done? He begged me to take him with me early. He's barely leaving his room, he only leaves when he has to. I set him up on a date and he didn't really try and get to know the guy. He spends most of his time crying and being miserable. You broke Kurt Hummel. You need to leave, right now." Rachel shouted at him.
"I can't leave! I remember everything, Rachel. I remember every single little thing about your relationship and the guilt is tearing me apart! This past month has been complete hell! I remembered my first thing on our Graduation and i went to tell Kurt and he was gone. It broke my heart. Over this past month more and more has come back and i know that i love Kurt. I do love him and i want him back. I need him back. I know i've hurt him and he's not done a single thing to me, but i will do whatever it takes to fix this. He said 'hurt me once more and it's done' but in all fairness i didn't have my head straight. I wasn't in a good place and i didn't have my memory. I can fix this, if you and him will let me."
"You had sex with that nurse in the next room!" Rachel shouted.
"No i didn't! What makes you think that?"
"Kurt heard you. He heard you moaning and calling out the nurses name. He saw the nurse leave and the nurse told him so. You are disgusting. You ruined Kurt's life and you just keep making everything worse. First the kiss, then the sex. Just leave him alone, Blaine. Turn around and walk away because it'll be best for everyone."