“Hey there, where’ve yo-” Blaine started to say before looking down at what Kurt wad wearing. “Oh you didn’t…” He looked back up at Kurt and whimpered, Kurt knowing exactly what he was doing.
“You’re going to have to wait, sweetie pie….” Kurt said to him, planting a kiss on his cheek. “…until after. And what a terrible thing I forgot, this party is looooooong….” Kurt walked away with a wink, leaving Blaine to stare at the leather he was wearing and try his best not to drool.

Kurt’s mind began to wander, it flickered like an old movie, there were so many things going on in his head. Every single little thing involving Blaine in some way, his thoughts stopped on one thing, something he would need to discuss with Blaine at some point in further detail. Their wedding.

Blaine made his way to follow Kurt wherever he was going so he could just stare at him when he was stopped by Burt. “Oh Blaine there you are, look I need to ask you something…” Blaine listened, still looking around for Kurt, and when his name was mentioned in the conversation, Blaine bit the inside of his lip to hold back a whimper when visions flooded his mind.

Kurt decided to start talking out loud, like he did earlier. “I had some ideas for our wedding, i know you’re asleep and like earlier i’m going to keep talking. Its just going to take my mind off that nightmare. Right i know its going to be in New York but where? We could have an inside wedding or an outside one, all depends on the weather and lucky for us our wedding is a summer one. Soooo what i was thinking is an outside wedding with a beautiful arch covered in flowers, roses white ones and the arch be made out of wood, i don’t know what wood yet but we still have a lot of time to think about that…”

Blaine was able to tear himself away from Burt’s conversation and almost sprinted through the people to find Kurt, who was in the kitchen pouring himself a glass of water. He walked up behind Kurt, locking his fingers in the belt loops of his pants and pulling Kurt to him. “You tease….” Blaine muttered in his ear.
“I do what I can.” He laughed at Kurt’s response and gave his neck a kiss.

Kurt leaned down and gave Blaine’s neck a long kiss before resuming what he was saying. “I was also thinking about my groomsmaids dresses, Mercedes, Rachel and Tina being in their beautiful dresses, i want them in pink and not just any pink, hot pink. You know why i chose that don’t you, its youuuur favorite color. Ooooh no, our roses can be pink, our wedding can be pink, alllll pink. You love pink don’t you sweetie? I do too…”

Blaine snuggled closer to Kurt as his dream went on. He gave Kurt’s neck another kiss before doing some teasing of his own. He pulled away from the kiss on his neck and pulled Kurt closer to him by his belt loops. “How much later do I have to wait exactly?”
“Hmmmm….. as long as I make you wait.”

Kurt smiled a little more as Blaine snuggled closer to him, Kurt still held him pretty close, still lightly rocking him. “Pink flowers, pink cake, pink decorations its going to be soooo amazing. Although whoever you pick for your best man they better be okay with pink we aren’t changing it for them, got it? Its our wedding not theirs, oh and before you ask, i do noooot want hats noo way…”

Blaine whimpered when Kurt said that, watching his fianc�e just simply smirk in response and go back to getting his glass of water. Someone Blaine didn’t recognize walked in at that point, doing the same as Kurt. The scene changed then, Blaine was back in his house in Vermont, but he could tell that he wasn’t alone.

Kurt thought he heard something coming from Blaine, a whimper? Did he just whimper? Kurt was a little puzzled but carried on talking anyway. “Yes as i was saying nooo hats, some weddings maybe but ours nooooo, i do love hats but at weddings…” He shook his head. “Just no. I’m just trying to think of what we could wear, oooh since you think i’m some kind of wood nymph maybe i could be dressed in a toga and we could go all nature themed…”

Blaine walked around the very familiar house, following the sounds around him to look for anyone else in the house. He felt something run into his legs and he looked down in surprise, seeing Andrew looking up at him with big eyes. “Well hey there little guyyyy.” Blaine said, picking Andrew up as Kurt walked into the room holding Elizabeth.

Kurt decided to stop talking for a minute as he slipped out from under Blaine and ran to his bag pulling out his journal and feather pen before running back before Blaine could miss him, he was only gone a few seconds. He wrapped Blaine back around him and held him close before opening his journal and began to write. “Tomorrow we leave Vermont, i don’t want to go but we have to. I don’t want to have to go back to a life of fear and hiding, thats what its like with Jesse St James around. I know Blaine said he would protect me but i would never let anything happen to Blaine and i would hate myself if Blaine got hurt because of me…”

“Hi babbbeeeee.” Blaine said, giving Kurt a quick peck as he walked up to him. With both of them carrying their kids, they walked outside and down the hill, passing the place where Blaine proposed. He pointed it out, getting a large smile from Kurt, before they carried Andrew and Elizabeth down to the river to swim.

Kurt looked down at Blaine, smiling at him a little giving him a quick kiss on his head before resuming to write. “Tonight was amazing, all the way up to when i fell asleep but i’ll get to that in a minute. Wellll as i have written previously that i am no longer a virgin, wayyy no longer. I am glad that i finally gave myself to Blaine, i love him and he loves me and since i am not going to be having sex with anyone in the future why not give my virginity to the man that i love and am going to be spending the rest of my life with. Soooo tonight we had sex again, twice. We both had… problems… and this was the only way that we wanted to fix them…”

Andrew literally jumped from Blaine’s arms and ran to the river, wading in and getting himself completely soaked. Blaine laughed and watched as Elizabeth followed quickly behind her older brother. He turned to look at Kurt and held his hand out to him, grinning when Kurt also grinned and took his hand.

Kurt saw a grin grow on Blaine’s face, he was really happy to see that, it let him know that his dream was okay and not terrifying like his. “It was amazing, we went twice, one after the other. Blaine topped first and was absolutely spectacular, i would say lots of words that would describe how amazing it is when Blaine tops but there aren’t enough words to describe how amazing he is. After that we had some PSS (post sex snuggling) and then i went, i was a bit nervous. Nothing like yesterday when i topped for the first time, this time it was going to hurt more, it hadn’t had chance to heal so i was scared of hurting him. When i did go in and i saw his face, it was horrible, I just wanted to pull out and move away so i couldn’t hurt him but i knew that more of me wanted to stay there and just help him through the pain. Once the pain was no longer a problem we got into it and it was amazing, i was teasing him and it was so fun. With Blaine it is always sooo enjoyable and again once we were done we had PSS.”

Blaine pulled Kurt closer to him by his hand and changed it so his arm was wrapped around Kurt’s waist and Kurt was leaning against him as they watched their children swim. He loved the idea of them bringing their children up to the place where Blaine proposed and the place where the rest of their lives together basically began.

“Blaine surprised me while we were snuggling, he asked me on a date. I was shocked, i mean we’re engaged and we’d never been on a date, i didn’t expect us to have one. Well i more expected me to plan the date not him ask and take me out. Soooo after discussing our date Blaine taught me the guitar, i love him teaching me guitar, especially when i get it wrong and he wraps his arms around me and takes my hands and helps me. Sometimes i deliberately get it wrong just so he can do that. He did the sweetest thing when my fingers started hurting, he kissed them, he kissed every fingertip that looked sore. All i could do was look at him with love, i could write another essay on how amazing and perfect he is but i’m running out of pages to write in. I need to get a new journal when i get home. Sooo after guitar Blaine got sleepy so he napped in my arms while i discussed an idea that had come into my head. A musical about Blaine and I, its perfect. I was talking to myself for almost an hour before he awoke so i could get ready. I wore that new outfit, the one i wrote about the other day. He brought me flowers and came knocking for me like a proper date, he’s sooo romantic, he gave me a single roses and red tulips, he even told me what they meant “perfect love”.”

Blaine woke up soon after, keeping his eyes closed as he just lay there, extremely comfortable in Kurt’s arms. He could tell Kurt was writing in his journal as he held him, and he didn’t want to make Kurt stop just to keep him happy. Because he was happy. So Blaine decided to wait until Kurt was done writing to tell Kurt that he was awake.

Kurt decided to read out aloud what he was writing to make sure it made sense, Blaine was asleep and it wasn’t like he could hear him, it wouldn’t matter if he did anyway. So he began writing and talking. “There isn’t a flower in the world that i could give Blaine, there is nothing i could give him with the definition of what Blaine is. Blaine is… well there isn’t really a word to describe him, he’s just so amazing. I’ve never actually told him this but he’s my hero, i look up to him a lot. I know that my dad should be my hero and he is, but Blaine is also one too, he’s helped me in soo many ways, he’s looked after me and he’s given me what i’ve always wanted. Love and happiness…”

Blaine just completely melted at what Kurt said, pulling himself more against Kurt as he spoke. He wanted to “wake up” and just pull Kurt into a deep kiss, but then Kurt would most likely stop writing and pay the most attention to him, and Blaine just wanted to listen to whatever Kurt was going to write.
Kurt smiled and kissed Blaine’s head when he felt Blaine pull himself closer. “He’s the most adorable little thing, its like he’s listening to me. He just snuggled closer to me as i write, i’m reading aloud as i write. Blaine has this crazy idea in his head that i am more adorable than him. If you could see him right now and just him in general and then me, he would have no competition. I only have him beat in the fashion, fantastic and fabulous department, the FFF’s. He’s much cuter, more adorable and just perfect. He took me out to dinner tonight, he was such a gentleman all evening, opening the doors for me, he was even using more manners than usual. It was sooo sweet, i’ve told him before that we’re engaged he doesn’t need to try and impress me so much or use extra manners, i love him for who he is. Soo we sat at the table and the silly thing only goes and puts his feet on my legs, my new pants, but i didn’t mind strangely. I usually would push them off and dust off my legs but tonight i wasn’t bothered at all. I don’t really know why, it might just be because it was Blaine doing it.”
Blaine wanted to argue and say that Kurt was the more adorable one, since he was, but the reasons from before were what kept him from doing just that. He couldn’t help but smile when Kurt mentioned the part about Blaine putting his feet on Kurt’s legs, nestling his head more against Kurt’s chest.
“I wish there were people to see him now, he’s just so beautiful as he lays snuggled up to me, his head nestled against my chest. I’m holding him you see, i love holding him. I just like knowing he’s there and he’s not going anywhere, i like making him feel safe and protected, just like he makes me feel. I think i surprised him earlier after our meal when we were laying in the park, i think he expected me to snuggle against him. But after the amazing day and night he had given me i think he deserved the snuggle. He has given me the most incredible last day in Vermont, starting from when we awoke and Jack left, its been full of hot makeouts and just all about us. I couldn’t even finish my toast because we were too busy making out against the kitchen counter. After our bath this morning we went down to the river, Blaine was so sweet in helping me jump in, around him i’m clumsy. I’ve never been clumsy with anyone before. I pansted Blaine when we were at the river and i was like the Little Mermaid, i know how much Blaine loves Disney’s, especially Ariel…”
Blaine melted again as he listened to Kurt speak what he wrote, if Blaine read all of the parts that he was mentioned in Kurt’s journal, he would melt and melt and meeeeeeelt so much more. His mind wandered to how many times they made out today, making him smile. His smile grew even more when Kurt mentioned them swimming earlier, he loved that.

Kurt laughed a little seeing Blaine smile. “It is really like he can hear me or he’s just having a really pleasant dream, he’s smiling. I let Blaine do my hair today, i never let anyone, apart from my hairdresser, touch my hair. He’s very lucky, well of course he is, he’s engaged to Kurt Hummel. He brushed my teeth too and dressed me, of course he put me in leather. His favorite outfit on me, since he thinks i look hot in it. It really isn’t obvious what i put him in, i put him in my boxers. Okay reading that out aloud it sounds pretty rude. I also gave him my leather jacket so he looked soooo hot, i love him. Right back to what i was saying… where was i? Oh yes snuggling in the park, we were supposed to be looking at the stars but Blaine fell asleep. Admittedly, yes it annoyed me. We were supposed to be on a date and he fell asleep, if he was that tired i would have appreciated him telling me and asked if we could go home, i wouldn’t have minded at all. If i didn’t have the nightmare that i had then i probably would still be annoyed with him. I carried him all the way to the car (i only fell over once WOOOO!), i drove him home and carried him up the stairs, almost falling down them in the process. I was completely soaked to the skin since it was raining, after i got Blaine changed out of his damp clothes, he wasn’t soaking because i gave him my jacket and the blankets. I couldn’t bear it if he got sick again, i hated it so much last time. I dried myself off and changed and as soon as i got into bed i just wanted to hold him as i fell asleep.”
Blaine did his best to keep a straight face so that Kurt wouldn’t still think he was listening, but his grin stayed on his face a he lay there in Kurt’s arms and listened to Kurt read aloud what he was writing, knowing that he was about to get to the nightmare part.

The smile slipped off Kurt’s face when he started writing about his nightmare. “I had a nightmare tonight, thats why i’m awake now. It was horrible, i know Blaine probably thinks its a really silly thing to get upset over. But to me it was terrifying, the thought… the thought of it happening even though i know it never will, its just… oh i’m tearing up again. Its stupid. Blaine was in love with Jesse in his nightmare, that alone was horrible. Like i said to Blaine, it was like someone had ripped out my heart and squashed it into the ground, i could physically feel my heart aching and this was in the real world. They kissed, in front of me, almost mocking me. Jesse, he looked at me and smirked before kissing the love of my life. Blaine had looked at me with such hate in his eyes but when he turned to Jesse his eyes were filled with soo much love. More love than Blaine had ever given me and i didn’t think that was even possible. I tried walking away and i fell, it broke their kiss at least but… they laughed at me. Jesse i had expect but Blaine laughed too. I ran away and hid myself, curling up and people walked past me saying the most horrible heartbreaking stuff. And Blaine appeared in a puddle, saying the same stuff and some others, it hurt so much more. While i slept i could feel my physical being actually hurting. Blaine has my heart and always will but that nightmare, i don’t know it just hurt sooooooo much. I didn’t think it could get worse but it did. Jesse appeared and i tried running as fast as i could but it wasn’t fast enough, he got me, attacked me again. I woke up after that, crying in Blaine’s arms, i don’t know what i would have done if Blaine wasn’t there. I needed him and he was right there, its why i’m holding him. So he can’t leave and i know he’s there, i know i really do know he won’t leave me but just the thought of it hurts. I guess there isn’t a lot more that i can write for now. Blaine’s sleeping, he looks soo peaceful on my chest. I know i say this every time i write but i love him, i do, i reallly really do. I love him sooo much, more than even see and more than i can express. I just love him soooooooo sooo much. He’s my world and i know i am his. Blaine Anderson i love you, much more than you will ever know, i cannot wait to marry you and i know one day you will read this, you will call me a sap or say i melted you but its true. Every single word i write is true. Sleep well my darling b29;” After writing the final words, Kurt closed his journal and turned to Blaine he kissed his head and held him close, repeating “I love you.” over and over.

As soon as Kurt set his journal down and held him close, Blaine couldn’t contain himself. His eyes shot open and he leaned up and pulled Kurt to him in that deep kiss he was holding back earlier. He held it for a little while before pulling away and speaking against Kurt’s just kissed lips. “You are a sap, and you did melt me.”
Kurt couldn’t help but laugh as he kissed back just as deeply, not instantly though since he wasn’t expecting it. He smiled as Blaine spoke. “You’ve been awake all this time? You were listening to me? How long?” He asked before kissing him again.
“Ever since you first started talking.” Blaine responded before kissing back, scooting up a bit on Kurt’s chest to reach him better. “I love you.” He repeated a few times as he kissed him back, letting Kurt hold him close.
“I love youuu too” Kurt smiled as he held Blaine. “Soo you heard all the gushing i’ve done? Oooooh you could have told me you were awake, i wouldn’t have stopped writing or changed what i was going to write. I still would have read aloud. I love you, i really do.”
“I heard all the gushing. And I looooooved it. Please, gush more often.” Blaine said with a smile, snuggling back against Kurt. “And I really do love you too. You’re my world.”
“I shall gush more often if it is what my prince desires just not while we’re having a bath, i don’t want you melting and slipping under.” Kurt laughed a little at what Blaine said next. “And you’re mine, you heard me say that too didn’t you? You really did hear everything. Did you… did you hear me say that you are my hero?”
“Well you already melted me now…” Blaine grinned, craving his neck to give Kurt’s chin a long kiss. “Yeah, I did hear that part…… I’m your hero? Really?” Blaine asked with his grin growing even wider as he rested his chin on Kurt’s chest and gazed up at him.

Kurt smiled more and kissed him back, he couldn’t stop smiling. He nodded at Blaine’s question. “Yes really, you are my hero. You have saved me, like your proposal, you saved me from the dark and gave me light, saved me from a life full of loneliness, you just saved me. And i am eternally grateful and eternally yours.”
Blaine melted again, and his facial expression showed it. He planted a few kisses to Kurt’s chest as he spoke, looking up at him with his melted eyes. “I love you sooooooooooooooo much.” Blaine said before scooting up and kissing him.
Kurt saw the expression on Blaine’s face, he knew he had melted him again. He grinned feeling the kisses on his chest, gazing into Blaine’s melted eyes, his own just simply full of love, like always when he looked at Blaine. He kissed Blaine back his hands moving from around him to his face where both cheeks were gently stroked by his thumbs. “I love you soooooooooooooo much too, sooo much. You looked like you were having a good dream.”