Have you ever that feeling of being in a total and utter stop? With everything you do its like trying to get through a large vat of syrup. Thats how I was feeling right now. Leaving the coffee shop as we made our way to Kurts place. Each step made my heart hammer harder and harder. I hope its not possible for the human heart to explode from someones chest. 

I dont know why I was so scared. I just had no idea what was in that apartment. Was it drugs? Was it dead people? What if Kurt wanted to kill Blaine or he was a vampire! Actually Kurt would make a totally hot vampire. The fangs and ugh wait no sorry keeping on track!

Our hands were laced as we walked. Kurts face was full of different emotions. He looked nervous though. Its the one thing I could pick out the most. "Baby?" I breathed to him. Leaning in to kiss the boys cheek "are you okay?" I asked. Keeping our pace at a nice walk.

Kurts beautiful blue eyes just met with mine as he smiled. Leaning in to brush our lips together in a sweet kiss "yes everything is perfect just wait" he said kissing my temple as we continued to walk. 

We were finally at the door to his apartment when he took a deep breath. Taking a shaky hand and opening the door with a key. "Gosh Blaine" he breathed as I squeezed his hand "shhh your okay" I breathed before he took a deep breath and walked in. 

Kurt turned on the light and my eyes lit up. Kurts apartment was just like him. It had that sense of warmth and light that made Blaine comfortable. The walls were a beautiful red color and there was beautiful hardwood floors. There was a living room with a nice tv and fireplace. As well as a kitchen and a nice table and chairs set. 

The couches were a white fabric and there were pictures handing on each wall. I looked around at the pictures seeing from baby Kurt to older Kurt. There was one that really stuck out it was a woman with the same eyes as Kurts and beautiful brown hair. She was sitting on a piano bench with what looked like a baby Kurt. I smiled. She was beautiful.

"Thats my mom" Kurt said as his arms slipped around my waist kissing my cheek. I hummed softly snuggling back into him "she had your eyes" I commented. With one more kiss to my cheek Kurt let go "would you like some coffee a beer?" He asked me as I shook my head "no no" I said sitting on the sofa.

Kurt bit his lip as he looked at me but nodded a bit "okay.." He said as he sat down next to me. "Okay I need to tell you about me.." He said as he took my hands. I bit my lip as I looked to him. Nodding slightly "okay go ahead baby" I told him. This was it wasnt it?

Kurt took a deep breath as he looked to me. I could tell this would be deep. 

"When I was growing up...after my mom died things were pretty hard for me" he started "I was picked on and bullied my whole life and gosh I just wanted it all to end" he said shaking his head. "It was things like name calling that led to locker shoving and once in high school it went all the way to me being shoved into a fucking portal potty." He breathed tears stinging in his eyes. 

I squeezed his hands and kissed his cheek. Hoping he would continued "living in Ohio and being gay wasnt the most easy thing in the world and once I got to high school everything just went down hill" he said before looking at a picture on the wall. He smiled at it slightly. 

"When I was a sophomore I joined the glee club and it was the most amazing thing in my life...I loved to sing and dance I felt so free met so many new friends I loved it" he said with a smile. "Yet the one thing was I was never appreciated there was a girl named Rachel who I love to death now but she always got solos and things I couldnt take it anymore I also couldnt take being harassed anymore since I was in Glee club I was put even more on the spot" he said with a chuckle.

"They had theses slushes at school that kids would throw at us...the strangest thing but some reason they did" he said "blue sucked getting out of your clothes" he said as I chuckled a little. He did too. 

"So anyways I joined the cheerleaders..Cheerios was their names at my school..turns out I loved it and I was pretty fucking amazing..I quit Glee and I became a top dog at school" he said with a smile. "There wasnt anymore locker shoves or anything like that I could be me.." He said with a smile. 

"Now getting onto my point of this I...well this girl I love name Santana she was my best friend at the time..still is well she invited me to this party..so I decided to go because hell I loved parties.." He said with a smile. "When I got there I had a great time dancing and laughing. Yet I also drank and drank a lot too" he said as I squeezed his hands. 

"Blaine...I was so drunk up couldnt think...so this boy on the football team..he had big green eyes and blonde shaggy hair..his name was Cameron I think...well anyways he like pulled me into a bedroom and kept calling me pretty and cutie" he said tears welding "I was all giggly but then he started to touch me and he just wouldnt stop I kept begging him but he promised I would love it.." He said as my arms went to wrap around Kurt "he rapped you" I breathed knowing Kurt couldnt be able too.

Kurt looked at me with tears in his eyes "he did.." He whispered. Afterwords I kept a getting so sick and well.." He bit his lip. "One moment" he trailed off. "Ill be right back." He whispered.

I bit my lip as Kurt went to a door and walked in. He closed it shut before he could see what was inside. Kurt came back out cooing softly "shhh shh" I heard him. My eyes went wide as I looked to the bundle in his arms. "Oh my god Kurt.."

Kurt went back to sit down "well...I found out I was pregnant...and I just I thought I was going to give him up.." Kurt said looking down at the sleeping boy. He had pale skin and brownish blonde hair. He ha long eyelashes too. He was beautiful. 

"One day though I had to quit Cheerios because of the pregnancy and that out me back on the loose scale" he breathed. "I had a slight bump but I hid it well...but a jock that used to be my friend shoved my hard into the locker. I hit the locker hard and sank to the floor. My hands went right to my stomach and I just I knew I had to protect my child..I had to keep him.." He said looking down as he kissed the sleeping boy. 

"This is why I look how I do the bad boy look it was for people to back to fuck off...I didnt want anyone touching me or Elliot" he said as he rocked the boy.  "And then...I met you.." He said with a sweet smile. He took my hand and squeezed lightly. "Im so sorry I didnt say anything" he whispered "I never met anyone like you I care about you so much I just didnt want you to leave" Kurt said with a soft sigh. 

I smiled softy as I kissed his cheek "I would y leave" I said honestly looking at the baby. I was shocked "gosh Kurt.." I breathed "hes an angel..and so are you" I told him. "Im sorry that happened to you" I said honesty. 

Kurt just smiled and kissed my jaw "honesty Elliot is perfect" he breathed "I love him" he said as I kissed Kurts lips "I love you" I told Kurt. He smiled "I love you too" he hi sorted with a smile. "Do you want to hold him?" He asked me as I smiled "may I?" I asked Kurt nodded handing me the child. 

I took the child in my hands and smiled happily "he really is an angel" I whispered kissing the babies cheek. After a moment Kurt took Elliot back to his room. I followed him inside. It was a cute room with teal walls white carpet and cute pictures on the walls. Also light blue furniture. 

Kurt sat Elliot down and kissed his cheek. The looked to me "please" he asked me "spend the night.." 

My eyes went wide as I nodded. I had wanted this for so long. I wrapped my arms around his waist and kissed him softly "yes I will" I his ores as he smiled taking my hands and leading me to the bedroom. Again a beautiful room. Beautiful champagne color choices. A nice bed and a blush sofa type seating area next to a beautiful window. 

"Kurt this is beautiful" I told him as he smiled. "When my mom and dad past I got some money...he was a um the congressmen for Ohio" he said with a small smile. He grabbed two pairs of pajamas.  A maroon silk pair and a baby blue pair. He handed me he maroon and went quickly to the bathroom connected to the room. "Ill be right back" he breathed kissing my cheek. 

I smiled softly as I took the clothes "thank you" I breathed as Kurt closed the door. I changed quickly into the pajamas so Kurt wouldnt walk in on me naked and waited for him. About ten minutes later Kurt came through the door. Eyeliner gone teeth brushed and pajamas on. He looked adorable. 

"Sorry I have this routine I go through.." He said with a smile as he walked over to me. "What side of the bed do you sleep on?" He asked me and slipped into my lap. 

I took a deep breath "well see I never shared a bed with anyone so I usually take up the whole bed." I said with a blush. Kurt simply giggled "well I like the left by the window" he told me as I nodded. "Okay babe" 

Kurt pulled the covers down and slipped in. I went next to him as he frowned. "Can you hold me?" He asked me as I nodded "yes beautiful" I breathed as I spooned him from behind. Tangling out legs together and lacing our fingers over Kurts stomach. 

"Mmm love you" Kurt said as I smiled "I love you too beautiful thank you for telling me everything" I said as he chuckled "now you know everything" he said yawning "goodnight" he breathed as I kissed his cheek once "goodnight baby" it was funny. The last thing I thought about before I feel asleep was how I could totally and completely see my life just like this. Every night holding Kurt. And never ever letting go.