My eyes were still wide as I looked down at Kurt. He tried to cover up but I already saw it. I know what Kurts big secret is. Between his legs were two pussy lips.

Look I know that Im gay. I like men tall short nerdy jocks whatever I jus like boys I mean common have you seen there butts? I always thought that when I find the love of my life they would have a nice member like mine. Yet looking at Kurt seeing those lips. I couldnt help but not feel freaked out. It was almost natural for me to think he had a pussy.

My mind is still clouded though and I can barley talk. I try to get words out as Kurt frankly covers up "OH MY GOD I OH GOD" he screamed when I came in. He put his pants on and shoved what looked like teal panties in his pocket. "Blaine leave please" Kurt cried. His eyes pooling with tears. I shake my head y eyes wide. Please remember how to talk Blaine please.

"Kurt calm down its okay I promise its okay" I told him, reaching my hand out to touch him but he flinched and darted into the living room. Crying harder there "leave me alone Blaine its not okay none of it is okay" he said shaking a bit. "Kurt please" I begged as I walked over to him. My arms going around his waist "please Kurt stop please" I begged as he pushed out of my hold.

"Im sorry Blaine but this isnt what you signed up for" He whispered as he looked out the window. "Hey I didnt sign up for anything I did commit to being your boyfriend no matter what" I said reaching my hand out.

"I need to leave" he told me, taking huge breaths. "Kurt please-." "I NEED TO LEAVE" he snapped as he grabbed his bag. Running to the door. My eyes were wide and I was stiff. "Kurt your perfect no matter what" I whispered as Kurt placed his hand on the door knob.

He stopped for a moment. I thought he was going to come back "please just come back " I whispered "come back and snuggle with me and watch another movie with me" I pleaded. Kurt was still very still. He looked like a statue even. I really though he would come back but he just shook his head "Im ugly Blaine Ill never be what you want to much baggage and its not fair to you" he said as he left my apartment.

My eyes brimmed wide with tears as I looked down to Dalton. What did I do? I didnt say anything did I? Oh god I pray I didnt say something horrible to make him leave. I thought over and over what I had said but nothin mean came to my mind.

The rest of the day was pretty dull for me. Just watching movies and eating. I finally wen to bed and hugged the pillow that Kurt used during that movie to my chest. It still smelt like him. The tobacco and vanilla also a bit of coffee. It was nice. I hoped one day it was actually him and I didnt fuck this up completely.

When I went to work the next day I wasnt myself. I wasnt happy I wasnt bubbly I was just empty. Kurt still hadnt talked to me as honestly I thought life was over.

As I was putting on my apron Jessica came up to me. "I know youre upset about something" she said to me. Grabbing me a cup of coffee as well. I smiled at her and shook my head “i'm okay Jess...it's okay” i said as i grabbed the coffee from her hands “thank you” i told her as she frowned “whats going on?” she asked then her eyes went wide “you are kurt are still together right?” she asked me.

“Yes oh yeah Jess we are I promise” I said biting my lip. Kurt didnt break up with me. He was just embarrassed. I know we will be back together. I know that once he calmed that he would come back. He would come to the coffee shop and I would kiss him and love him forever. “You got into a fight though huh?” she asked as she clocked me in. My mind just wasn't on it today.

I took a deep breath and nodded. It was a fight wasnt it? Well not really  but i couldn't tell her what actually happened. Kurt freaked out when I found out, I don't want to know what would happen if the world did. Even though I know Jess would never tell a single soul. “Blaine, Kurt really likes you” she told me “nothing bad will happen really”  She promised “I see how you look at him and he looks the same at you” she said with a smile. I had to smile back, she always helped so much. “Thanks Jess” I said with a small smile.

All day though I didnt see my angel. He never came in he never called and he never even sent a text. I wanted to freak out. I wanted to cry. I was getting mad. Mad at myself that I looked at him showering. Why did I just leave the clothes on the bed? Kurt would have told me one day I knew he wasn't ready to tell me. I could see it in his eyes.

At 6:30 it was time for me to go home. I clocked out and put up my apron. Trying to feel happy. Trying not to get worried. Trying not to cry in front of the people getting coffee. Jess looked at me and smiled softly as she kissed my cheek. “It will be okay Blaine” she said as she handed me a bag and a coffee cup. “here” she said “grande mocha and a blueberry muffin” she said smiling. “go take this to Kurt” she said “it will make him feel better” she said. I nodded happily. She really did know what to do.

“Thanks I owe you” I said sweetly as I grabbed a sharpie and wrote on the coffee cup. “Your my angel...please talk to me soon xx -Blaine”.

I grabbed the bag and walked out of the shop and down the street. Getting to Kurt's apartment and walking up the steps to his room I felt nervous. Would he answer? He probably wouldnt huh? I got to his door and bit my lip. I needed to see Kurt. Yet if anything I wanted Kurt to get the coffee.

I finally knocked on the door. There wasnt a answer. Yet I could tell that he looked through the peep hole because i heard movements then silence. “Kurt” i breathed “Kurt open the door please” i begged to him. There was nothing. “I miss you...already” I breathed “look I..I brought you some coffee and a surprise” I said trying to sound exciting. “Common please  Kurt I need to talk to you” I said. There was nothing again. I knew he was still to embarrassed. “Okay well I will leave this out here...get it if you want” i said as i placed the bag and cup down. “yous amazing” I whispered “i love you” i said under my breath as i walked away “bye angel”

My heart felt heavy as I walked away from the door. I wished the he could have just said something. Maybe just opened the door to grab the coffee? I didn't know. I was almost down the hallway when I heard a door open. Turning around I saw it was Kurt's. I hid behind a wall and watched. Yes very stalkerish but not the point.

Kurt looked one way then the other. His eyes were heavy and filled with tears. He had been crying. He then bit his lip as he looked down. Taking the bag and coffee cup then closing the door. I smiled sweetly. It was something.

I was just about outside when my phone buzzed. I looked down and my smile grew five times brighter. It was from Kurt. “Thank you xx” was all it said. I shook my head and sent out a reply “Dont mention it angel ;) see you soon”. I felt better after that. I didn't know when I would see Kurt again. Yet it was a start. I went home with a smile on my face. My heart was happy. I was happy, and I knew there was a beautiful boy in his pajamas cuddled on a sofa drinking coffee and thinking of me.