June 10, 2013, 7:04 p.m.
A Fresh Start
All We Ever Wanted: Chapter 5
E - Words: 5,090 - Last Updated: Jun 10, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 20/? - Created: Sep 24, 2012 - Updated: Jun 10, 2013 852 0 5 0 1
Sunday Morning
"Hey there, sleepyhead."
Kurt pulled his head from under the blanket and blinked slowly, before wiping the sleep from his eyes. The room slowly came into focus... well, as focused as it could be without his glasses... and his husband's face came into view. Blaine was crawling up on the bed and collapsed down next to him. Kurt smiled and lifted the covers a bit, inviting Blaine to come under with him. The nurse smiled and complied happily, but gasped in surprise the moment their bodies were pressed together.
"You're naked," he raised an eyebrow and gazed at the doctor lustfully.
"Mmmm," Kurt wrapped himself around Blaine and nuzzled into his chest. He closed his eyes again and started mumbling, still half-asleep. "It was so late and I was tired and I tripped over Tia's diaper bag trying to get to my dresser and smacked into the wall and I didn't want to wake you by turning the light on so I just stripped down and got in bed."
Blaine laughed lightly and held Kurt close to him. He absolutely loved it when Kurt was tired and disoriented. His normally well-read and incredibly articulate husband would turn into a rambling mess, and it was absolutely adorable. He flipped them over so that Kurt was on his back and started kissing him gently down the neck.
"Mmmm..." Kurt mumbled softy, still partially asleep. Blaine moved on to place kisses on his husband's bare chest, running his hands down Kurt's arms, feeling the lightly toned muscles there.
"Mmmm," Kurt hummed again, this time with a sleepy smile on his face. The doctor reached up and patted his husband on the back, eyes still closed. Blaine smirked, realizing he needed to step it up a notch. He quickly yanked his clothes off and reached a hand down to grasp Kurt's "morning hard-on" firmly.
"Oh." Kurt's eyes popped open at the touch and he looked at his husband with a slow smile. "Well, that's one way to get me to wake up properly." He reached up to thread his fingers through the other man's curls and pulled him down for a deep kiss.
"You are aware..." he reached a hand down between them to grasp Blaine's dick. "That you have no choice but to finish what you've started now, right?" Blaine snorted a laugh.
"Like you did last night?"
Kurt jerked back and looked at him with wide eyes.
"That wasn't my fault! The hospital called! You know I couldn't..." Blaine lunged back down and stopped him with another kiss before pulling back to smile at him and peck him on the nose.
"I know, sweetie. I was only teasing. I'm just saying you would have survived if you'd been left hanging like me and had to 'rub one out' as you so lovingly put it last night."
"Poor baby," Kurt gave him a mock pout. "Left alone with an erection that you had to take care of all by your lonesome. I'll make it up to you now. You can rub off on me."
"You're only saying that because you'll get to do it simultaneously," Blaine laughed, leaning in to push his now firm erection up against Kurt's.
"Not true. I'd let you do it even if I couldn't get off. Fortunately for me, I can."
Kurt grinned and pulled Blaine to him for another kiss which he deepened quickly.
"Are the kids okay?" Kurt gasped breathlessly.
"Baby's sleeping. Older three watching Nemo. We've got twenty minutes." Blaine groaned as Kurt latched onto his neck and brushed a nipple with his fingertips.
"Good. We can go twice." Kurt grinned.
They slotted their legs together and quickly found a rhythm, rutting at a hard and desperate pace.
The last couple of days had been so intense and full of emotions, that they felt incredibly pent up. So many things in their life were up in the air and chaotic right now. This was something that they both needed, not just for the release, but for the connection.
Soon they were panting and whimpering into each other's necks, desperately trying to keep quiet since the kids were awake and close by.
Their movements became erratic and stuttered as they thrust against each other a few final times. With each thrust, growing waves of pleasure coursed through their bodies, increasing in intensity until they had to smother their faces against each other, muffling their moans.
"Oh my gosh," Kurt panted as Blaine collapsed into him. "That was such a great way to wake up. Promise me we'll still have sex all the time, baby. Even though we're about to have a million kids. Cuz god, I don't think I could make it if we didn't." The doctor smiled and nuzzled up into Blaine's shoulder, but was surprised when Blaine rolled off of him suddenly and looked him in the eye, completely serious.
"What, honey?" Kurt asked, feeling concerned. Blaine never looked like this unless he had something heavy on his mind. Blaine stared at his husband for a moment, before swallowing hard and leaning in to kiss him deeply, parting Kurt's lips with his tongue and tasting every inch of him. Kurt's breath was completely taken away at the intensity and he fell back weakly, content to let Blaine kiss and caress him until they both had to pull away and catch their breath.
"I was kind of kidding about the whole going twice thing," Kurt tried to tease, but grew serious again when he saw that Blaine wasn't laughing. He sighed and sat up in bed, grabbing Blaine's hands in his own.
"What is it? What's bothering you?"
Blaine just looked at him intently for a moment before speaking.
"I want us to do this, Kurt... to take in these kids. I want it more than anything. It feel like it's what we were meant for. And I know that our lives are going to change, that's the point of all this..."
"But..." Kurt cocked his head to the side, looking Blaine in the eye.
"We," Blaine pointed a finger between the two of them, "You and I, can't change. We still have to make time for each other. We still need to be close, in every possible way... and I'm not just talking about sex. If we aren't intentional about making time for each other then..."
Kurt looked at him steadily. He gently took the nurse's face in his hands and placed a light kiss on his lips, before leaning their foreheads together.
"I'm not Alex, honey."
Blaine sighed and closed his eyes. Sometimes he was blown away by how well Kurt knew him.
"I will not pull away from you the moment things get hard. Even if we went for a month without sex, Blaine... I'm not going anywhere and I certainly wouldn't love you any less."
"Promise?"
"Yes," Kurt smiled, kissing him once more. Blaine pulled away quickly though and eyed him warily.
"Please don't tell me that we're going to go for a whole month without sex though."
"Blaine," Kurt laughed. "We do it in the locker room or my office at least a couple times a week. Even if things are crazy here, you know we'll find the time. We always do."
Blaine laughed too, nodding his head. "Yeah, you're right. We never seem to waste an opportunity, huh? I just... things are going to change for us... in a good way, but I don't want them to change in a bad way too."
Kurt reached over and pulled his husband into his arms. "They won't. I know that because I know us and I know our history. The harder things get, the closer we get. We are always drawn toward each other when things are trying. We're going to do the same now. You're right. This is going to change us. Our family dynamic is going to change and our relationship is even going to change... but change doesn't have to mean something bad. We're gonna be stronger and closer because of this. The fact that we're talking and aware of how big a deal this is... that's how I know we're gonna be okay. We won't fail and we won't grow apart because we won't let ourselves. This is you and me we're talking about, baby. It's gonna be hard, but we'll come out on the other side stronger, better and even more in love."
Blaine sighed contentedly and held Kurt close. He knew that what Kurt was saying was true. He had known it all along. Sometimes you just needed to hear it out loud though.
Sunday Afternoon
"Are we all ready?" Kurt was putting the finishing touches on Tia's hair, pulling the little blonde wisps into tiny pigtails that stuck straight up, held by two puffy purple bows. She looked up at him with a huge grin as she happily gummed some Cheerios that he handed her.
"Yes, I think we're good." Blaine wiped his hands on a dish towel as he cast an eye around the house. He and Kurt had spent the morning cleaning, baking and trying to distract the kids so that the house stayed presentable. Kurt put Tia down on the floor with some blocks and walked into the kitchen to take inventory. He eyed the plates of goodies that had been artistically arranged and shot Blaine an anxious look.
"Do you think that this is too much? What if she thinks we're trying to bribe her with snack foods so that she'll give us her baby?"
"It's not bribery, honey. We're just being good hosts," Blaine smiled. "And if she IS going to give us her baby, I feel like the least we can do is make her some brownies." Kurt bit his lip and crossed his arms anxiously.
"WE know that we're just being good hosts, but what if she doesn't see it that way? I just want it to go perfectly. It took this long for someone to even consider us. What if we ruin it being being overzealous? What if..."
Blaine walked over and put his arms around the doctor's waist.
"It. Will. Be. Fine. Please just relax."
He accented each word with a small kiss and Kurt sighed with a small smile.
"You're right. I'm just nervous about... Adelaide Joy! What are you doing?!"
Blaine turned sharply at Kurt's abrupt change of subject to find Addy standing there, smiling brightly, spattered with mud and holding the biggest frog he'd ever seen.
"What... Adelaide... Why is that thing in the house? Why are you covered in mud?" Blaine looked at her with complete exasperation. "What were you thinking?"
Her smile quickly faded when she saw how unhappy her fathers were. She looked at them cautiously, trying to gauge whether they were actually mad at her.
"We're supposed to observe wildlife for science class. I wanted to observe frogs. I found him in the yard, but he's all hoppy and I fell in the mud trying to catch him. Isn't he cool? I'm calling him Mr. Hoppy... cuz he hops."
Kurt snickered then, turning to hide his face behind Blaine's shoulder. Blaine closed his eyes and shook his head with a sigh.
"Okay, just... it's alright, but you need to put that thing down and clean up right now. They're going to be here any minute."
She looked at them with a shrug, then dropped the frog immediately to the floor.
"Daddy meant outside, Addy!" Kurt yelped as he dove from Blaine's side.
"Oh, sorry," Addy looked surprised before dashing after the frog as it hopped away.
"What's going on?" Elliott asked as he jogged down the hall with Liam in tow.
"Help catch Mr. Hoppy, Elly!" Addy shouted as she leapt after her pet, just missing it with every jump.
"Quick, block the hallway so it can't go any further!" Kurt shouted as he desperately tried to catch the frog and skidded into the wall.
Blaine dashed toward the hallway, wincing as he saw his husband smack into the wall. He glanced around anxiously, trying to see where the amphibian had escaped to. His eyes widened.
"Oh my god, Kurt! Stop her!"
Kurt turned just in time to see the frog stop hopping, right in front of Tia, who immediately grabbed it and put it in her mouth.
"Wow." Cara swallowed anxiously as her father pulled into the driveway. "This is a really nice place, dad."
They both sat there for a moment, looking over the property. The house was a sprawling, stone ranch-style, seated on two acres that were beautifully landscaped.
"What if they're rich and snobby and think they're better than us, daddy?" Cara bit her lip anxiously. They weren't poor, but they they lived modestly, and it showed. She wanted her baby to be well provided for, but the thought of being looked down on by the adoptive parents hadn't occurred to her until just now. Her father reached over and took her hand.
"Car-bear, if they think they're better than us, then they aren't the right ones and we'll leave. Simple as that." She took a shuddering breath.
"It's getting close to the end though, dad. We're kind of running short on time here."
A knock on the window made them both jump and they looked up to find the case worker peering through the window.
Cara took a deep breath and squeezed her father's hand.
"Alright, let's do this. I guess we won't know until we meet them."
Her father winked and moved to open the door.
"Atta girl."
All three walked up the front steps and were about to knock on the front door when it burst open. Cara watched in shock as a curly-haired little girl ran past them, spattered in mud and holding a giant frog. From the doorway, Cara could plainly see the scene unfold.
A slender man with dark glasses, looking like he was uncharacteristically rumpled, was snatching up a baby from the floor.
"Oh my god, Blaine! She had it in her mouth! In her mouth! What do we do?!"
"I don't know!" A shorter man answered with slight panic in his voice. He ran a hand through his dark curls, making them stick up on end. He tried to move forward from his place by the hall, but was stopped by a toddler clinging to his legs.
"Put her in the sink and splash some water in her mouth to rinse it out." The curly-haired man reached down to grab the little boy and pull him into his arms.
"Elliott," the taller man called out to another little boy as he dashed to the sink. "Shut the door after Addy."
The boy darted forward at his father's words, but immediately slipped on some mud that had pooled on the floor and slid straight into the doorway, skidding to a stop at Cara's feet. He looked up at her in surprise, then gave her a shy smile. He tipped his head back and called out.
"Daddies? The girl with the baby is here!"
Both men turned to the door in slow motion. The dark haired man was standing on one foot to avoid another puddle of mud as he tried to pry the small child from his neck. The taller man was at the sink with water dripping from his hand as he attempted to rinse out the baby's mouth.
Cara felt a grin spread across her face as one thought went through her mind.
Perfect!
After their decidedly awkward introduction, Blaine had pulled it together enough to step over the mud and invite them inside. The guests had been shown into the living room and the nurse made small talk, all the while trying to peel a nervous Liam off of his face. Kurt took the time to frantically clean up the puddles of mud and hurry Addy into her bathroom, before rescuing Blaine from being smothered by the toddler. Liam finally consented to being put down when Elliott joined them, having changed from his own muddy clothes. Addy soon joined them too, now clean herself. She quietly played with Tia in a corner, wanting to make up for the chaos that Mr. Hoppy had caused.
They had chatted for a bit, getting to know each other and taking turns asking questions. It was painfully obvious how tense the couple was after their rough start though. Not long into their meeting, they excused themselves to the kitchen, realizing that they had completely forgotten to bring out the goodies they had prepared. Cara took the opportunity to step into the restroom, laughing about how the baby was jumping on her bladder like it was a bouncy house. Both men laughed weakly, trying to engage with her, but unable to shake the feeling that the whole thing was just a disaster.
"This could not be going any worse!" Kurt hissed quietly as he ducked into the kitchen after Blaine.
"I know!" Blaine whispered back tensely.
"Why did our daughter have to develop an interest in frogs TODAY?" Kurt banged his head lightly against the wall. Blaine looked at him sympathetically and moved over to pull his husband into his arms.
"Look... granted, we've not exactly started out on the best foot..."
"Blaine! They walked in to find two children covered in mud, one with a frog in her mouth and another clinging to you in terror! We could not have had a worse introduction! Now, you and I are both so tense and nervous that I'm fairly certain we're not even making any sense out there. She is never going to choose us!"
Blaine had no words. He knew Kurt was right. He sighed heavily and held the doctor close, rubbing circles onto his back and placing kisses on his cheek. Kurt sank into him and held him just as tightly.
"I can't believe that we've ruined it before we even got a chance, Blaine. She's seeing us at our worse. She won't see how much we want this baby. How much we'd love it."
Blaine still had no words. His heart was breaking as much as his husband's over this turn of events. He said the one thing he could.
"I love you."
Kurt pulled back and looked Blaine in the eye, before wiping away a tear and smiling sadly.
"Oh, honey. I love you too."
They gave each other one final squeeze, preparing to go back and finish with this disaster of an interview.
Cara stepped out of the bathroom and headed back down the hall to the living room. She was feeling so horrible for the couple. It was clear that they were unsettled by how things had started off, and she easily noticed that they were strained and not themselves. She had liked them immediately, despite their introduction, maybe even because of it if she was honest with herself. She felt more certain every moment that they were the ones. When they weren't being nervous and jumpy, their interactions with each other and the kids were so genuine and loving. Even at her age, she could tell that the tension came from their desire for her to choose them. She wanted so much to be able to reassure them, but didn't know what was acceptable protocol in a situation like this.
As she stepped down the hall, she heard voices from the kitchen.
"Blaine! They walked in to find two children covered in mud, one with a frog in her mouth and another clinging to you in terror! We could not have had a worse introduction! Now, you and I are both so tense and nervous that I'm fairly certain we're not even making any sense out there. She is never going to choose us!"
"I can't believe that we've ruined it before we even got a chance, Blaine. She's seeing us at our worse. She won't see how much we want this baby. How much we'd love it."
She felt a warm peace flow through her.
"I love you."
"Oh, honey. I love you too."
She quickly made up her mind and stepped forward.
"Um, can I say something?"
Both men looked up in surprise at the voice, to find Cara standing in the kitchen doorway. They quickly pulled out of each others arms and tried to paste on smiles as they looked in her direction.
"Sure, sweetie." Kurt tried to will away the nerves that were threatening to overwhelm him. He stepped forward and pulled out a kitchen chair, offering for her to sit down.
"I didn't mean to eavesdrop, honest," she said earnestly as she took a seat. "I was just coming back from the restroom and I couldn't help but overhear."
They both blushed a little and glanced at each other before looking back to the teen. Cara smiled and reached out a hand to both men. They looked at her in surprise before each offered her a hand and sat down on either side of her. She squeezed them both and smiled again.
"When I first saw your profile, I was sure that you were the ones. I have no idea why, I just... had that feeling." They didn't dare to look at each other, their hearts were suddenly beating ridiculously fast. "When we pulled into your driveway though, I got nervous. I saw how nice your place was and I wondered if your life might be a little too perfect. I wondered if you might be rich and snobby." Her cheeks turned a little pink at those words and she wrinkled her nose apologetically. Blaine snorted a little laugh and Kurt smiled widely then.
"Oh, honey. We are so far from perfect, it isn't even funny. Though... today was a little funny I suppose."
Cara laughed a little, then smiled softly. "Exactly. It was funny and it wasn't perfect... which is why it actually was perfect."
Kurt and Blaine watched her intently, hardly wanting to believe what she was saying.
"I, um," she let go of their hands and placed her own on the bump in front of her. "I actually had another couple picked out. I had decided to give my baby to them. They seemed like they were just right. They were so put together. They really did seem like the perfect couple... then I heard them talking when they thought I wasn't listening... and they were terrible. They didn't act like they loved each other. They didn't even act like they liked each other. They had put on an act for me so I would give them my baby."
The two men blindly reached a hand across the table to link fingers, still watching her anxiously.
"With you guys?" She looked up then. "I saw you being real. Frogs get loose in houses. Babies put things in their mouths. Mud gets on things. I'm smart enough to realize that. I'd never not choose you because of those things. Seeing that craziness actually made me like you right away. But you know what made me think that you really are the ones that I should choose?"
They stared at her. Surely they had misheard her. Kurt gripped Blaine's hand so tightly that his knuckles turned white.
"When I saw you just now. When you didn't know that I was watching. You were real. You were nervous about how I would react, because you really care. You really want this. You really love each other. How could I not choose you?"
"Did you just say that you choose us?" Blaine asked in a low voice before glancing at Kurt. The doctor gazed nervously at his husband before looking back at Cara.
"You just met us, honey. You don't need to make this decision so fast. We don't want you to regret it. This is a big deal."
She smiled and nodded. "I know. You're right. It is a big deal, but I spent a whole month getting to know the last couple and look how that turned out. I don't have that kind of time. When I look at you guys, it just feels right... and when I heard you talking just now... it confirmed it. I want you. I want you to have my baby."
Kurt put a hand over his mouth to cover the little sob that leaked out and Blaine dove forward from his chair, pulling her into a hug. She laughed out loud, hugging him back tightly before wiping away some tears of her own.
"Does this mean we're definitely getting a baby?" A little voice questioned softly.
All three at the kitchen table looked up to find a crowd at the doorway. The case worker and Cara's dad were smiling brightly. Addy had lugged Tia in her arms and set the girl on the floor, who promptly crawled to Blaine and reached for him. Elliott was holding onto Liam's hand and the little boy quickly ran to Kurt's side, climbing up on his lap. The doctor pulled the toddler to him and kissed the little cheek before looking at Elliott, who had voiced the question. He hesitated, still hardly wanting to believe it was true. He looked at Cara, who nodded with a smile.
"Um, it looks like it, monster. Cara just said she chose us."
Both Elly and Addy jumped for joy, the latter shouting and laughing. The six-year-olds ran to hug their fathers, and then surprised Cara by throwing their arms around her neck and hugging her too. She looked over the tops of the children's heads and looked to her father. He nodded in approval, his eyes looking suspiciously misty.
The case worker looked on happily. This was the kind of connection you dreamed of in an adoption case. It warmed her heart to see both sides getting exactly what they wanted and needed.
"Well," she said over the cheers and laughter. "Looks like we have some paperwork to prepare and some things to go over. I'll just go get my things." She left with a smile to get her briefcase.
Addy squealed again and ran from the room. Blaine watched her curiously and called out.
"What are you doing, sweetie?"
"Getting Mr. Hoppy so he can celebrate with us!"
It took exactly three seconds before the realization of what she had just said sank in. Both dads looked up with panic on their faces.
"No!"
Sunday Evening
After the children had been tucked into bed, the two men decided to relax in a bath together after their long day. One thing that they had looked for and splurged on in this new house was a gorgeous master bath, complete with a large whirlpool tub that they could easily fit in together. They took their time, stripping each other down and climbing into the hot water together. For a while they just relaxed against each other, kissing and enjoying the closeness.
After a bit, they started talking about everything that had happened, starting with Kurt's trip to the hospital last night. They discussed it for a while and agreed, that while they would remain true to their word and be open to the possibility of taking Brandi in, they would explore every option and avenue. There was still so much that they didn't know about her. She didn't divulge much to Kurt, except for that there was no family to take care of her. The police and social services would need to get involved before any type of decision could be made. The possibility of taking on such an unknown risk was a little scary, but they both felt deep down that Blaine had found her for a reason. That Kurt had connected with her so well for a reason. Whether it was so that they could be the ones to care for her, or just to help her get on her feet until someone else could take over. They felt confident that they were supposed to be a part of her life in some capacity.
They quickly moved on then to go over their time with Cara. They were still a little in shock at how fast things were moving, and that she had indeed chosen them. The case worker had talked over most of the details of the adoption with them and they had clicked right away on almost every detail. They both wanted a closed adoption, in that once the baby was born, Cara would no longer have a role in it's life. She knew that if she was going to be strong enough to do this, then she would need a clean break. Visitations would only make it that much harder. Kurt and Blaine agreed. They wanted the security of knowing that once all was said and done, the baby would be theirs and theirs alone. They weren't necessarily opposed to any type of connection between Cara and their family down the road. They just felt that for everyone's sake, a clear cut division would be best.
Both sides agreed though, that they wanted to spend the remainder of Cara's pregnancy getting to know each other better. Cara wanted to truly know who her child would be raised by. The two dads wanted the experience of watching their child develop while still in the womb, something neither of them been able to experience with Elly or Addy, and something they most likely never would. All three were afraid that the other side in the adoption would find this arrangement weird and distasteful, and were thrilled to find out that they were on the same page.
Both Kurt and Blaine knew that Cara could still change her mind. Up until after the baby was born even, she had a small window of opportunity before the papers could officially be filed. There was nothing they could do about that though. It was out of their hands. Cara and the two men had come as close to a thorough agreement as they could hope for. From here on out, they could only be thankful for what they had and hope for the best.
By then, the water had gone cold and they were exhausted and talked out. They dried each other gently and climbed into their bed.
Snuggling against each other in silence, they let the intensity of the day wash away as they kissed and caressed, filling each other with strength and the knowledge that they were loved by one another. Blaine pulled back from a kiss and looked his husband in the eye.
"I love you so much, Kurt. I love you for who you are. I love you for how much you love me. I love you for much you love our kids. I love you for how big your heart is. I am forever grateful for the fact that Addy and I came to Lima, of all places... and that I found you. I know all of this is huge, but if anybody can do it, we can."
Kurt looked at his husband, heart full, and reached up a hand to brush back a stray curl. He gazed into the hazel eyes, feeling for a moment that he couldn't breathe for all of the intense emotions that were flowing through him.
"You are absolute perfection to me, do you know that?"
They gazed at each other, breaths ragged, shuddering their bodies.
"Make love to me?"
"Always."
Comments
Yay. Klaine kisses.
:)
So good. The section with Mr. H ... was priceless, and rang completely true. Your writing is so evocative, so visual. I can't wait to see where you take this story.
Thank you so much!
i absolutely love how cara met klaine! what with all the crazy going on. lol