They practically ran back to the hotel, giggling and stumbling on their own feet. When they finally closed the door behind them, Blaine pushed Kurt up against it and kissed him.

“Mmm… You taste like man.”

“You do too,” Kurt laughed breathlessly. Truth be told, Blaine actually tasted like loads of things. Like coffee, sweetness, man, love and just Blaine. It was the most amazing taste ever. Blaine’s hands wandered down to Kurt’s ass and squeezed the flesh before trying to slip inside. He was stopped by the fact that Kurt’s pants were practically painted on, so he didn’t really have access. When Kurt felt the squeeze, he moaned low in his throat, then pushed Blaine back a little. He walked by a confused Blaine into the room and sat down on the bed, looking down at the floor and biting his lip. Blaine sat down next to him and put a gentle hand on his leg.

“What’s wrong, baby?”

“It-it’s stupid,” Kurt stuttered and shook his head.

“Well, it’s getting you down. Let me help, Kurt.” Kurt was quiet for another few minutes, then he finally spoke.

“How far did you want us to go tonight?” he asked quietly. Blaine was slightly taken aback by the question, but answered honestly.

“I guess I wanted to ask you that. It doesn’t really matter to me, I just like feeling the intimacy of anything we’ve been doing.” Kurt looked up at Blaine as a tear fell down his cheek.

“Why have we only done it once, Blaine? You said it was good to you, but still, we’ve only done it once… Why?” Actually, Blaine had asked himself the same question. Why hadn’t they? He just hadn’t thought it was the right time. He wanted them to be alone and somewhere quiet.  He didn’t want sex to be just about the sex and how good it felt, because it did feel extremely good. But no, he liked it the most because of the fact that it was with Kurt. That they could share that intimacy with each other and just trust each other in that way. Though now when Blaine thought about it, he realized that the fact that they hadn’t had sex for over six months was kind of stupid. He wanted it so desperately, but still, he hadn’t even told Kurt .

“I-I don’t know,” Blaine said gently.

“Maybe I wasn’t good enough?” Kurt snapped. “Maybe you just don’t want to have sex again with me because I was so bad at it?” Blaine looked like he had been struck by lightning.

“K-Kurt, I told you afterwards that-“

“I know you told me that night was amazing and special to you. How do I know it wasn’t all lies!?” Kurt stood up and spoke louder. “I can’t believe you’d do that to me! After everything we’ve been through! It has to be that way, right? I wasn’t good at it and you didn’t want to do it again, so you just chose to ignore it. You know what? Great plan, Blaine. Let’s grow old together like we talked about this whole fucking week and never have sex. Yeah, fine.”

Blaine looked up at Kurt with sad eyes. One single tear ran down his cheek.

“How could you possibly think I’d do that to you?” Kurt was startled by the words and by the way Blaine said them. He sounded so hurt. His voice was small and filled with pain. His eyes were wide and Kurt felt like they were looking into his soul. It felt like stabs of pain in his heart. He stood there, looking down at his boyfriend with an open mouth. He knew there was absolute honesty behind Blaine’s words and he felt awful for hurting him.

“I’m so sorry,” he whispered after a few moments. He kneeled between Blaine’s legs where he was still sitting on the bed. “P-Please, Blaine… I’m so sorry.” He reached up to press a soft kiss to Blaine’s lips. It wasn’t answered, but it wasn’t ignored either. The man slowly opened his eyes that he had closed moments earlier and looked at Kurt. The hazel color was covered with a thick layer of tears. Their faces were only an inch apart and their lips were almost touching again.

“I’m sorry,” Kurt whispered again. “I know you’d never do that to me. I love you and you love me. Nothing else matters, right?” Blaine’s eyes sparkled a little at his words and a shadow of a smile flashed over his face.

“Right,” Blaine agreed quietly and brought Kurt’s face to his own to kiss him properly. Kurt crawled into Blaine’s lap slowly, never breaking the kiss. They eventually pulled back and Kurt wrapped his arms around his boyfriend. They both fell down to lie on the bed as they hugged. A moment later, Kurt’s lips were on his again, but Blaine stopped him.

“Wait,” he said gently. “I need to explain this.” Kurt nodded silently, holding tight onto Blaine’s waist. “I never want you to think that our first time wasn’t perfect, because it was. It was amazingly perfect and you were perfect. You were so good, Kurt. I never could have imagined something more perfect for our first time.” He suddenly chuckled a little. “I use the word ‘perfect’ too much,” he smiled softly. “I guess it’s the only correct word to describe you and what we share with.” Kurt blushed at his words.

“And the reason we haven’t had sex since then is just because it hasn’t been right. We haven’t been alone very often and when we have, we’ve either had to study, or we’ve been too horny to even think about what we were doing.” Kurt smiled a little and nodded in agreement. “But,” Blaine grinned, the last trace of tears in his eyes disappearing. “If you want it now, I would love that. We’re alone and we have all night.” Kurt didn’t even reply. He just dived in for a kiss and pulled Blaine on top of him.

“Want you so bad,” he murmured. It sent shivers down Blaine’s spine. He pulled back just so he could throw his shirt at the floor and then help Kurt out of his. Kurt couldn’t help but stare. Blaine really had an amazing body. His stomach was taught, but not too taught. Firm muscles made his tanned skin stretch out over them in the most gorgeous way. Kurt couldn’t believe that this beautiful boy was his. Blaine smiled as he watched Kurt’s eyes roaming his body. They went back to kissing as soon as they could and both of them were rock hard. It was obvious that they had both longed for this for a long time. They pressed closer, their naked chests meeting and their crotches creating amazing friction. Pleasure shot up through Kurt’s body and he just wanted-

“More…” Kurt whispered. Blaine just nodded, lowered Kurt to rest on the sheets and hovered over him.

“Kurt, promise to tell me-“ Kurt cut him off with a kiss.

“You won’t hurt me, Blaine. I’ll be fine.”

“No, Kurt, let me speak. I would never, ever hurt you, okay? But if it does hurt or if you feel uncomfortable, I will stop.” Blaine stroke his cheek gently. “This has to be good for both of us. Promise me that you’ll tell me if you want me to stop.” Kurt looked into his boyfriend’s eyes and found nothing but love and affection.

“I promise,” he whispered. Blaine smiled and leaned down to meet his lips. Kurt kissed back hungrily, eager for what he knew was about to happen. Blaine slowly sunk his body down to let their hips meet. They both gasped at the feeling and Blaine started working on taking off his own pants and briefs. He got them off after a moment of struggling and then reached to help Kurt out of his pants and underwear. They rolled around, giggling a little and trying to kiss at the same time as undressing each other. Then they were both finally naked, blushing, but trusting each other completely. Kurt was sitting on Blaine’s lap, his own legs wrapped around Blaine’s waist.

“This is nice,” Blaine chuckled and rested his hands on Kurt’s waist. “Hold on, babe, I need to…” Kurt nodded, understanding. Blaine awkwardly scrambled away from Kurt and walked across the room to his bag. He came back a few seconds later with lube and a small box of condoms. He placed them on the nightstand and then they settled into the same position as they were in before.

“So, where were we…?” Blaine teased.

“Here somewhere,” Kurt smirked and reached down to stroke Blaine’s erection slowly. This caused a loud moan from the younger boy. He dropped his head down on Kurt’s shoulder and panted hard.

“Oh, oh my god…” he moaned and let him trembling hand travel down to Kurt’s crotch. This was nothing new to them. Actually, none of this was new to them, but the thought of that they would soon have actual sex… It felt as though it was new. They kissed feverishly and grinded against each other.

“F-Fuck, Blaine,” Kurt breathed. “Come on… We’re ready.” Blaine nodded and reached for a condom. He ripped it open and slid it down his erection. He coated one finger with lube, then dropped it in between their bodies to tease at Kurt’s hole.

“Please,” Kurt begged. Blaine obeyed and slowly slid one finger into Kurt’s entrance. When Kurt had adjusted enough, Blaine added a second, and then a third finger. As the slide became easier, he pulled them out and wiped his fingers off on the sheets. He lubed up his cock and positioned it under Kurt. He reached up to kiss him softly on the lips.

“Whenever you’re ready, babe.” Kurt nodded, bit his lip and sank down around Blaine. They both moaned loudly at the feeling.

“You’re so tight,” Blaine whispered through another moan. They wrapped their arms around each other and once Kurt was fully impaled, they started rocking slowly. Soon, they had created a rhythm and they were able to just enjoy it.

“I love you. I love you so much,” Blaine repeated over and over again in Kurt’s ear. The older boy couldn’t answer because Blaine had just hit his prostate and he was now hitting it on every thrust.

“I-I’m so close,” he whimpered softly.

“God, me too…” And then they were coming, surprisingly synchronized. Kurt’s nails dug into Blaine’s skin, but he didn’t care. All he could think about was the pleasure coursing through his body as he came into the condom and the feeling of Kurt’s come on his stomach and chest. When they were completely spent, they both fell down against the pillows. Blaine took of the condom, tied it up and then threw it somewhere on the floor. Then he reached for Kurt’s hand to slowly entwine their fingers. Kurt tilted his head to look at Blaine and a smile spread across his face. He moved closer to cuddle him, but was stopped by the stickiness on his chest. Blaine laughed.

“Hey, that was your fault!”

“Fair enough,” Kurt giggled. He got up from the bed, not bothering to put on clothes, and went to the bathroom to get a washcloth. He cleaned Blaine up and finished with a small kiss to his lips. He threw the cloth on the floor as well, then curled up next to Blaine.

“That was amazing,” he whispered softly.

“Yeah,” Blaine agreed. “You were incredible.” He wrapped his arms around Kurt to keep him even closer. Kurt rested his head on his boyfriend’s bare chest.

“Thank you for doing that with me,” he said quietly and pressed a kiss to his chest. Blaine twined his fingers in Kurt’s hair and pulled him up for a kiss.

“It was just as much for me as it was for you,” he smiled. “We should really start doing that more often.” Kurt nodded and kissed him again.

“I love you.”

“I love you too. And I’m sorry for- Hmmphh.” Blaine was cut off by Kurt’s lips on his again.

“Don’t you dare apologize for that. It was my fault and I’m sorry.” Blaine kissed him again softly.

“Can we just stop apologizing and cuddle instead?”

“That sounds perfect,” Kurt grinned. He curled into Blaine’s chest and took a deep breath.

“G’night, Blaine.”

“Night, sweetie.”