When Kurt got back to his house on Sunday afternoon, he got on his computer as soon as he could. He needed to find ways to lose some weight and fast!

If he looked this ugly, Blaine wouldn't stay with him for long. Add that he backed out from going all the way and he may lose everything.

1 - Drink a glass of water every hour; you'll feel filled. Also every time you eat a mouthful, drink two gulps of water after. Drink water as cold as you can; your body will use calories to bring the temperature up.

He found a website with a dozen of tricks to lose weight fast. It was drastic but he could do it. It would be efficient and nobody would notice because it was also giving advice on how to hide the diet. His father was far too in love with Carole and busy with the garage to notice, anyway! And who would care about a fat gay son? At this moment, Kurt felt betrayed. His family should have told him that he was gaining weight and that it was getting a problem.

2 - Make a lunch every morning but once you're in school, throw everything in the garbage. Your family will think that you're eating when you'll get back with the empty dishes.

Days went by and Kurt found out it was actually easier than he thought. When he was at school, at lunch, he would say that he needed to do an assignment or wanted to rehearse a song. He was alone but that was okay; he was going outside walking so that he could lose some more calories during the day. He walked to the nearest fast food restaurant and threw his own lunch in the trash can outside. And then he would hurry to get back to school as quickly as he could.

People didn't notice. His friends didn't notice. His family didn't notice. Blaine didn't notice.

He had full control! For the first time in his life he actually had full control over something and that feeling made him happy and safe.

3 - Wrap a scarf or a ribbon around your waist when you eat. It'll compress your stomach and you'll eat less. Also, eat in small dishes. Your plate will look full. Never eat more than a teacup. Your stomach will stretch and you'll need to eat more.

Two weeks after the beginning of his diet, Kurt found new ways to hide he was not eating. He found out he was quite good at distracting people while he was "eating". He kept talking and talking and talking and gesturing with his hands while having food planted on his fork. Sometimes, he'd almost bring the food inside his mouth but would always ask a question at the last minute. He also played a lot with his food, saying it was delicious and that he enjoyed it. People weren't even noticing he wasn't eating.

4 - When you can, eat in front of a mirror so you can see how much you look like a fat pig without any will power.

Kurt was naked in front of his mirror, looking at himself. His ribs were showing, but that was normal. It stomach was hanging over his no longer visible abs. His cheeks were no longer round and he had circles around his eyes. (Concealer would do the trick, right?) But his butt, his butt was still round and he had to lose that shape! It was big and ugly and unattractive.

It had been three weeks. Kurt had already lost 18 pounds. It still wasn't enough because he could still see fat over his ass. He needed his butt to be perfect for Blaine. In fact, he needed his whole body to be perfect for his boyfriend.

5 - Always make yourself beautiful. People won't notice if you change because you'll look fabulous.

Kurt was at the movie theatre with Blaine. Some silly movie was playing but he was too busy making patterns with his fingers on the back of Blaine's hand to pay attention. When the movie ended, Kurt couldn't tell what the story was; he was too amazed by the way his boyfriend looked in the dim light of the cinema.

Blaine, on the other side, really appreciated Kurt's recent look. He knew Kurt always took care of himself but now, he was just dashing!

When the movie was over, they walked to Blaine's car and they drove away. When Blaine didn't turn on the boulevard that would lead to his house, he started to panic.

"Blaine, what are you doing?"

"I'm taking you out to dinner at Breadstix, baby! I already asked your dad. It's been so long!"

Kurt started to panic. If Blaine was oblivious to his eating habits, the waitress would notice. He had known her since he was a kid. He would always go to Breadstix with his dad after his mom died because Burt was not really able to cook.

6 - Before eating cake or something with a lot of calories, close your eyes and count up to 100. Just tell yourself that if you eat that, you'll look like a fat pig.

Kurt's mind was racing while he was waiting for his meal. He tried to think about every trick he had. Only one came to his mind.

He ate everything in his plate, feeling sick. He hadn't eaten that much in three weeks. When the waitress brought dessert, on the house, Kurt wanted to cry. Nonetheless, he ate the piece of cake, sharing it with Blaine.

Later on, when Blaine dropped him home, he greeted Carole and Burt who were watching TV in the living room. He knew what he had to do so he went straight to the in-suit bathroom he had in his room.

He fell onto his knees in front of the toilet.

"You have to do this!" he told himself.

He raised his hand and shoved his index and middle finger to the back of his throat, stimulating his gag reflex. He retched a few times before it was effective.

He vomited in the toilet bowl until only bile came out.