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Foster Home: Confessions


E - Words: 1,857 - Last Updated: Jun 13, 2012
Story: Closed - Chapters: 23/? - Created: Jul 28, 2011 - Updated: Jun 13, 2012
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The two following weeks went on the same pattern. Blaine would still feel alone at school but cared about at home. Kurt was the sweetest person he ever knew in private but he was just ignoring him at McKinley. Life was hell for him at that school. He was just ignored by everybody. He still wore borrowed clothes and he really was uncomfortable (the shopping trip was delayed due to the fact that Burt had no money for the moment, paperwork taking too much time). He was feeling judged, as if everybody knew he was a foster kid even though he knew Kurt didn't tell anybody. He would have preferred to be picked on; at least, he would have known that people had seen him. Every time he gets home, saying hi to Aaron, his voice was rough because he didn't talk all day. It was really hard on him and he never felt so alone in his life.

He made most of his homework during lunch time, so he could have spare time at home, doing stuff with Kurt and Aaron. The quiet little boy was more and more fond of Blaine, seeing something like a big brother in him, and to be honest, Blaine really liked the kid. He was always looking forward his evening so he could do things with them

But the one thing that really helped him to go through his days was spying on Glee Club. He made a tradition to miss his bus on the afternoons so he can listen to the New Directions sing. Sometimes in the choir room, sometimes in the auditorium. He really missed making music, sing with his friends. He still enjoyed watching McKinley's Glee Club but it was not the same… Until that Friday afternoon…

Boys and girls were having a mash up competition. It was girl's turn to sing and it was a Bon Jovi and Rolling Stones mix. Why though, Blaine didn't know, he missed the part explaining the details of the competition. As the song was ending, he saw a tiny girl, probably with the Down's syndrome but still wearing the Cheerios' uniform, entering the room and she said :

"Coach said to give you this. And you have a spy outside the door"

Then the girl walked out the door, looked at Blaine and ran away towards the gym. Blaine watched her running away and he heard Kurt's voice saying

"Blaine… What the hell do you think you're doing?"

He then heard the Latina girl:

"You actually know this unknown transfer kid

-Course he does!" Mercedes answered

Kurt wished Mercedes didn't say that… After all he didn't want people to know about Blaine, they just couldn't know!

"I actually happen to know his name because he's in my English class, among others" Kurt replied, with an icy tone.

And that was it. Tears reached Blaine's eyes and his feet started moving on their own accord towards the school front door. But as he reached the sidewalk, he just collapsed on the ground. Not wanting to disturb the pedestrian circulation, he crawled towards the nearest tree, leaned his back against it and cried more, his head between his hands, his hair tangled in his fingers. He was sick of this, sick of this school, sick of rejection from everyone… He needed to feel that people liked him, wanted him. He checked his emails every day and never got any messages from his friends at Dalton. He didn't have his cell phone anymore but he surely didn't change his email address. Why didn't they write to him? He told them he'd change school but he would still be in Ohio but he had no news and it was really frustrating.

Blaine was now crying over the fact his foster brother was a jerk when he heard the dreaded sweet voice.

"Blaine, honey… I'm so sorry…"

He then felt soft arms cradling him. And then it did not matter if he hated Kurt at that moment, he just wanted someone to hold him together, to try to fix the wreck he was. So he let his head fall onto Kurt's shoulder and he cried some more.

Blaine had cried a lot, since he moved with the Hummels, but not that much. He was crying for everything he lived during those last few months. He was not ready to talk about it, not yet, but just letting the tears flow and the sobs out was helping him.

Kurt was murmuring soft words in his ear, always the same:

"It's okay, honey… I got you…"

Then he made the connexion. He was in Kurt's arms, at school.

"Why are you with me? We're at school?" Blaine croaked between two hiccups.

"Oooh, honey!" Kurt replied "I should never have asked you to leave me alone at school. That was foolish! And I hate myself for asking you that… Come on, stand up! I'm taking you to the coffee shop and I'll explain you everything! No way I'm letting these 300$ jeans another second near the ground! Come on, now!"

Kurt then proceeds to help Blaine on his feet and led him towards his car. The ride towards the Lima Bean was silent. The radio was on though, and Katy Perry's voice was singing Teenage Dream.

When they entered the small caf�, Kurt ordered for both of them and then led the way to the closest table. He handed his coffee to Blaine and looked straight in his eyes

"I'm so sorry about this Blaine… I – I wanted to protect you… Well, that was it at first…

-Protect me? How can you protect me by leaving me alone?" Blaine replied, more saddened by that statement than angry.

"It's – hum- complicated" Kurt answered

"Well, explain… I'm sure I can keep up

-I'm gay Blaine… I'm pretty sure you noticed that already…

-I'm – I'm…

-No… Let me finish, then, you can talk… I don't want to go in a thousand directions, I want to explain this properly before we can talk about it. Okay?

-Okay… I guess…

-So, as I said, I'm gay. I'm out. I'm proud. I'm also in Glee Club. I don't know how it was at Dalton, but in McKinley, being in Glee club automatically makes you bottom of the food chain. Add the fact that I'm attracted to boys and you now have a loser as a foster brother. The only reason I didn't want you to talk to me at school was because I wanted to protect you. If people saw you with me, they would associate you with me and then you would get rejected too without doing anything. It's not because I'm ashamed of you or anything, everybody knows we have foster kids at home. But Emily was so loved around here, and it had nothing to do with me. We barely talked at school because I didn't want her to. I wanted to protect her from slushies and dumpsters… As I wanted to protect you…

-But why did you have to use that icy tone when you said that we were only in English class together? I didn't know that could be out of you! You're so sweet…

-I know… That's part two… Being bullied comes with a lot of… Hum… Side effects... I created a fa�ade. I figured that if I was cold and distant at school, people wouldn't pick on me. It didn't worked that well but I kept up with the fa�ade because it still helped. In Glee Club, only Mercedes knows me as I am. We've been friends for a long time… And… well… I was kind of scared of you knowing about that. What if you didn't like me like that? Not… not that I want you to like me… Just… I dunno… as a foster brother? You know not as… well… You don't have to be scared because I'm gay. I won't – I won't fall in love with you or anything… I don't want to Twilight all over the place with foster brother love… But… If it makes you uncomfortable you can transfer to another house, you wouldn't be the first… "

Then Kurt kept his mouth shut. He didn't want to embarrass himself even more than he already was. Blaine was smiling softly, his eyes still red from the earlier crying. But still, he was smiling. Maybe he wasn't angry at Kurt. Maybe he understood why Kurt did this.

-It's okay. I forgive you But don' pull out that stunt to any kid, anymore? Okay? Or ask them before?

-Thanks… And I will ask people in the future, I promise!

- And you know what… I figured you were gay, maybe, an hour after meeting you?

- People tend to do that a lot… I'm not really subtle about it…

-Yeah… Thankfully… Because in my case, being gay doesn't give me an awesome gaydar." Blaine said.

And that was it. Kurt's mouth hung opened as if it was the most shocking news in town. Seeing this, Blaine hurried up and add

"Didn't – Didn't your father told you about this?

-No… My father and I have an agreement with the State Social Department… I can't know anything about the foster kids because I'm not allowed to… But if they're willing to tell me, then it's fine…

-Oh… Okay… Well… That changes a lot…" Blaine answered. "I didn't know you didn't know… Don't tell… Not that I'm not proud… it's just… I had been in trouble before, for being gay…" Then, he remained silent. He was still ashamed of what happened to him. He didn't want to tell Kurt right away because he was done crying for the day. But he couldn't help thinking that someday, he'll have no choice; Kurt was an easy person to talk to and he believed, from the core of his bones, that Kurt would never judge him for anything.

"Of course I won't! I respect that honey! Don't worry!"

After that, conversation turned towards boys, actors, singers, Broadway stars. It was light, exactly what both needed after a heavy conversation. They knew they had a lot in common but that afternoon, they found out they shared a lot more than they initially thought. Their coffees were finished for an awfully long time when they realized it was nearly dinner time. They headed for Kurt's car and went home, still talking about the latest cast of Wicked.

Later that night, Blaine knocked on Kurt's door. He shyly poked his head in and asked if he could come in. Once both boys were settled on Kurt's bed, Blaine wanted to clarify some stuff about their earlier conversation.

"-I – I wanted to know if it was okay now to hang out together at school. I mean, I'm sick of being alone and this protection stuff hadn't really worked out… I won't make any friend because I don't want any other friends. I want to get into Glee Club and hang out with you and the people who accept you. Maybe they'll accept me too.

-Of course, honey! I mean, this was an epic fail… I don't want you to feel miserable anymore… Do you have a song in mind for your audition? Not that it matters, Mr Schuester lets everybody in…"

And just like that, they started talking about possible songs for Blaine to sing the next day.


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