Oct. 17, 2012, 8:35 p.m.
A Splash of the Sun: Chapter 7
E - Words: 2,542 - Last Updated: Oct 17, 2012 Story: Closed - Chapters: 11/? - Created: Sep 10, 2012 - Updated: Oct 17, 2012 795 0 3 0 0
Kurt couldn't believe what was happening. Blaine was kissing him. BLAINE was kissing him. He really hoped this wasn't a dream. The impromptu make-out session lasted for another ten minutes or so before Kurt pulled away. He heard Blaine give a little whine in protest.
"Blaine, we need to talk about this." He said, not opening his eyes. He still wasn't sure it was real.
"I know." Blaine replied. "But can it wait? I just really want to continue enjoying this night." Kurt nodded and Blaine gave him one last lingering kiss. He then moved to lie against the arm of the couch. Once he was settled, he grabbed Kurt and pulled him on top of him so that Kurt's head was on his chest and their legs were tangled together.
Kurt's insides were having a dance party. Not only had Blaine kissed him, he enjoyed it. And now they were cuddling while watching Aladdin. Could this night seriously get any better? Wait, does that mean Blaine is gay? Well, obviously. Kurt was so confused about everything. But he would think about later. Like Blaine said, he just wanted to enjoy the night.
When Aladdin ended, Kurt got up and switched in The Little Mermaid. He settled back down on Blaine's chest. About halfway through the movie, Kurt looked up at Blaine's face to see that he had fallen asleep. He put his head down on his chest so that his ear was right over Blaine's heart. Movie forgotten, Kurt closed his eyes and focused on the rhythm of Blaine's breathing and the sound of his heartbeat. He slowly drifted off into oblivion.
Kurt woke up not sure of where he was until he felt the warm body beneath him. The previous night flashed in his mind. He was still in shock. He looked up to see Blaine still asleep. This boy was so stunning. Kurt reached up and very gently moved one of Blaine's curls off his forehead. His hair was as soft as he had imagined it would be. He stared at Blaine for a little while longer. Blaine began to shift slightly. That was when Kurt felt Blaine's erection press into his thigh. Oh dear god. Kurt lifted himself off Blaine as quickly and quietly as he could without waking him up. That was just too much to deal with at the moment.
He went to his room and grabbed some stuff before making his way to the bathroom for a shower. A half hour later he walked out of the bathroom to see Blaine in the kitchen cooking what smelled like eggs and pancakes.
"Hey. I made you breakfast. I hope you're hungry."
Stop doing these things to my heart! No, wait, don't. "Yeah starved. Thank you." Blaine gave him a bright smile.
Kurt's text tone sounded from his room. He went over and picked it up from where it was placed on the desk.
On my way, babe.-C
Kurt read the text with confusion. Shit! After the events with Blaine, he forgot that he was going out to breakfast with Colin this morning to make up for the cancelation last night. Kurt's heart started to feel heavy and his mind started to race. What was he supposed to do? Blaine obviously had feelings for him. He wasn't sure what that meant exactly, but they were there. What he did know was that he needed to stop things with Colin. Whether he and Blaine developed into something more or not, he now knew that his feelings for Colin weren't much more than platonic. Colin was a really great guy but he didn't make Kurt feel the way Blaine did.
He would tell Colin this morning at breakfast. Better to get it done sooner than later. He walked back into the kitchen. "I forgot I told Colin I'd go to breakfast this morning." He saw Blaine's face fall with rejection. "But once I'm back we are going to talk. Okay?" He walked over and placed a gentle kiss on Blaine's cheek.
"Okay." Blaine whispered.
Kurt's phoned chimed again with a text from Colin indicating that he was here. Kurt gave Blaine one last smile before rushing out of the apartment and out the building. Colin was standing right outside the door with his usual smile on his face. His smile grew a little when he saw Kurt walking towards him. This was going to be a lot harder than he thought.
Blaine stood at the stove finishing the breakfast that was intended for Kurt. He was amazed about what had happened the previous night. They kissed, cuddled, and fell asleep together. How did that even happen? Oh right, you couldn't contain yourself! Blaine smiled at his thought. He didn't even care that things didn't go as planned. Falling asleep with Kurt in his arms was the best feeling ever. Nothing had ever felt so right.
He sat down at the table with his breakfast. He was more than a little jealous that Kurt was with Colin right now instead of him. He didn't know what was going to happen when Kurt got back, but he had to believe that everything was going to work out.
His mind went back to the kiss. He got up from his seat and started dancing around the table. His looked at his phone sitting on the table. He had to tell someone. He needed to share his excitement. And there was only one person he could tell. He picked up the phone and clicked the name from his contact list.
"Hey little bro." Cooper said when he picked up the call.
"I kissed him."
"What?"
"I kissed him." There was silence on the other end and Blaine had to check to make sure the call hadn't dropped. "Cooper?"
"Hold on, I need to get out of the building." Blaine was about to ask Cooper what he was talking about when he heard him yell at the top of his lungs. "Fuck yes! Oh my god how was it? Was it amazing? Did you guys do the dirt-"
"Cooper shut up!" Blaine yelled cutting Cooper off. "It was fucking incredible though."
"I am so proud of you baby brother! Wait, what happened to my awesome plan?"
"Yeah, it's a little late for that."
"But it was perf-" Blaine could hear someone address Cooper on the other end of the phone. "Shit, I've got to get back to work. But I'm really happy for you, Blainey."
"Thanks, Coop. I'll talk to you soon." Blaine hung up the phone and set it back on the table.
He picked up his dish from the table and went into the kitchen to put it in the dishwasher. He didn't know when Kurt would be back, but he wanted to look the best he could for him. He cleaned up the rest of his mess then headed for the shower.
The ten-minute walk to the restaurant was quiet on Kurt's part. Colin had grabbed his hand when they started walking and Kurt didn't pull away. Colin was talking about something that had happened at work the previous day but Kurt wasn't listening. He was trying to figure out what he was going to say to end things with Colin. They weren't 'officially' together, so that should make it easier. Right?
"Are you going to tell me what's going on?" Colin asked once they were seated.
"What?"
"You've said like five words to me since we left. You're mind is somewhere else. What's going on?"
Kurt figured the best way to do this was just to come out and say it. "I don't think we should see each other anymore." Kurt waited for Colin to say something but he didn't so Kurt continued. "I mean, I still want to be friends. You are a really, really great guy, Colin. I'm just not feel-"
"It's Blaine, isn't it?" Colin asked, cutting Kurt off. His tone lacked in emotion.
"How'd you know that?"
"I don't think you mean to, but you actually talk about him a lot. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, I was just hoping for later so that maybe by then I stood a chance."
Kurt gave him an apologetic smile. "I'm really sorry."
"Don't be. Who am I to stand in the way of true love?" Colin reached over and grabbed Kurt's hand. "I'll be fine, really. But if it's okay with you, I'm going to go. This breakfast would be extremely awkward."
Kurt new he was right but he couldn't help but to feel a little hurt. "Of course. We'll be okay though, right? We can still be friends?"
"Absolutely. I could never let you go completely. I just need a little time."
Kurt nodded and gave him another smile before Colin left the restaurant. Kurt exited shortly after, not wanting to be alone. He stopped by The Coffee Shop to grab some coffee and a muffin before he made his way back to the apartment. Back to Blaine.
Blaine was sitting on his bed with his laptop in his lap trying to waste time before Kurt came back. He was scrolling through his new feed on Facebook when he heard a knock on his door. All of a sudden his heart began to race and his palms got sweaty. This is it. He was going to have to tell Kurt everything and hope for the best.
"Come in." Kurt opened the door and stepped inside. Blaine patted the spot on the bed next to him. Kurt, a little hesitantly, walked over and sat beside him. Blaine closed his laptop and set it on the side table. "How was breakfast?"
"Awful. But I don't want to talk about that right now. Right now, I need you to talk."
Blaine felt a spark of joy when Kurt said 'awful' but then quickly felt bad for being happy. "I guess I should start from the beginning then? It might take a while."
"I have all day."
Blaine nodded and took a deep breath. "My parents are very...conservative. They rely a lot on appearance. Growing up, I was taught what was right and what was wrong. According to them, being gay was very, very wrong. I never understood why, but that's how I was raised so I never questioned it. My best friend from my first high school came out our freshman year. My dad found out and immediately enrolled me into Dalton saying he 'didn't need me around such a disgusting lifestyle.' I didn't realize I was gay until the beginning of junior year. I mean, I kind of had an idea that I was before that, when my friends would always talk about 'hot girls' and checking them out and I never understood the appeal, but I didn't fully accept it until then. Junior year we got a new student, Sebastian Smythe. When I saw him, I finally understood what the other boys meant. He was absolutely gorgeous. He ended up being a pretentious douche, but that's not the point. When I looked at him I would get butterflies in my stomach, and when he would smile at me I just wanted to lean over and kiss him. But I knew I couldn't." Blaine had to stop for a minute. He felt tears come to his eyes.
Kurt seemed to notice the tears because he reached over and took Blaine's hand in his. "It's okay. If you need to stop that's fine."
"No. I need to get this out." Blaine took another deep breath before continuing. "A couple of months after my realization, I had planned to come out to my parents. I couldn't stand not being myself anymore. My parents and I were sitting at the dining room table discussing my future one night. My dad was basically planning it all out for me. I told him what I wanted to do, music, and he freaked. There was so much yelling and my dad said some pretty awful things to me. He actually almost hit me that night." Blaine heard Kurt gasp. He's never told anyone that, not even Cooper. "He stopped himself before he reached me. But if he freaked out that much over me wanting to go into music, how was he going to react to me coming out? So I never did. I never told them. I never told anyone, actually. Not until I told Cooper last week." Blaine felt the tears coming down his face but he didn't care.
"You just came out to Cooper? Wasn't there anyone? Friends?" Kurt asked. He could see the tears in Kurt's eyes as well, but they hadn't fallen.
"Cooper was never around for the longest time and when we finally started getting close I didn't want to ruin it by telling him. I had a couple of friends who were actually gay at Dalton, Jeff and Nick, but I couldn't risk it getting back to my parents. I was actually planning on never coming out. Well, not anytime soon anyway."
"What changed?"
"You." Blaine squeezed Kurt's hand. "When I first saw you, it was like the world got so much brighter. Everything about you made me go weak in the knees. I tried to push it away, which is why I was so awful to you. But seeing you hurt and knowing I was the one who did it, it killed me. I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't keep making myself unhappy if it was going to make you unhappy too. You have the most beautiful smile in the world, Kurt. I was making that smile go away and I hated myself for it. That's why I told Cooper. I was absolutely terrified he was going to hate me. But he didn't. He accepted me, and it felt so good. That's when I decided I wasn't going to hide anymore." Blaine looked at Kurt and saw the tears now coming down his face. His mind immediately assumed he said something wrong. "I'm sorry! I didn't mean to make you cry!"
"No, it's just...no one has ever said anything like that to me before. I'm so sorry you had go through all that and hide who you are for so long. You didn't deserve that, Blaine. You are a truly wonderful person. Inside and out." Kurt gave Blaine's hand a squeeze.
"Thank you. That's actually really nice to hear." Blaine sniffed and cleared his throat. "I really, really like you Kurt, and I'd really like to take you out on a date. If you would like to."
"I would love to." Kurt leaned over and put a chaste kiss on Blaine's lips before he wrapped his arms around him. Blaine closed his eyes and nuzzled against Kurt's neck, inhaling his scent. He smelt like vanilla and coffee. And home.
Everything was going to be okay.
Comments
*staring dreamingly at the nightsky, hoping to see a shooting star and sighing dramatically* that is so beautiful, cute, romantic and heartwarming...Can't wait for more, this story is perfect.
so glad Kurt ended it with Colin before it really got going..... :)
this is perfect!