Kurt

If I had to describe my life in one word it would be, miserable. Being the only gay teen in all of Limo Ohio, at least the only one out, put a huge target on my back. My earliest memories are of being made fun because my voice is too high, my clothes to extreme. I was laughed at and picked on every single day. It was something that I got used to. High school was no better it just got worse. I was accustomed to slushy facials, dumpster throws, locker slams and name calling. That was my life and I was used to it.

My mom died when I was eight, leaving just me and my dad. We've always been close, so it was no surprise that when I came out to him that he was okay with it and said he knew when I was four when I asked for a sensible pair of heels for my birthday. He has always been my number one supporter. I told my dad everything up until last year. He had a heart attack and I almost lost him. Right around that time the bullying got worse. I couldn't tell him because I didn't want him to get upset and have another heart attack so I kept the bullying a secret.

Being the only gay guy at my school and probably he only one in Lima didn't give me the opportunity to date. I am seventeen and I'm sure that I will get my chance when I get out of this hell town and get myself to New York. So km find with waiting. And besides I have a secret that goes along with me being gay. I don't know when it started but it has always intrigued me, and after doing endless hours of research on getting Internet I have figured out that I'm a Sub, or at least want to be. I want to give myself over to someone, let them take full control over me, body and mind. I want to be able to trust someone enough to take care of me, make my decision for me, to a certain extent.I would love to see someone try to tell me what to wear, it's not happening. I just want to be able to give up control and feel taken care of and loved. So not only am I gay but I'm a Sub, good luck trying to find another gay guy in Lima let alone a Dom. Who knew that what I was looking for would be in my fourth period class, Glee.