11th of June

I’m weird again today… I can’t focus. Like, on anything. Whatever I’m trying to do, it just takes ages because I just can’t focus. Is it normal to be this way? I actually have things I want to do today, but I can’t because my freaking head is playing with me. Again. I know you, whoever you are, are probably really sick of me and what I’m writing in this thing. So sorry about that. (Though I have no idea who I’m apologizing to…) But I just don’t have anything interesting to write about. It’s just same old me and my same old problems. It’s never anything new anymore.

Everything is the same no matter what I try to do to make it better.

Blaine can’t even make me completely… whole, I guess. Not even him. And it’s when I’m with him that I’m the happiest. But somehow, I’m not entirely happy even when I’m with him.

Even when I know I’m loved I’m not satisfied.

What is wrong with me? Why can’t I just… stop my complaining?