18th of June

I… I’m a mess of feelings today.

I’m happy. I’m sad. I’m jealous. I’m shocked. I’m overwhelmed. I’m… you get the point. I’m a mess of feelings.

And you want to know why? (I have to stop saying ‘you’.. It makes it feel like there’s actually someone reading this…)

Okay, so.

I sort of had a birthday party today…

I know right? I can’t believe it.

I had no idea they had planned anything. Well, maybe something with just dad, Finn, Carol and me, but…

Finn and Blaine had talked to dad and decided that it’d be good for me to meet some people.

So almost the whole Glee club was here today.

I –wow. I can’t believe it.

They actually came. They remember. They came. They care.

It’s so unreal. How can they… How can they still care after I just cut the contact with everyone? How can they tell me that they miss me at school and that they still miss the sound of my voice when they sing a group number together?

It’s…

Thank you.

I know none of them will ever read this but…

Thank you. Thank you so much.

  Of course I’m completely exhausted now when they’ve gone home, I haven’t met that much people in months, but I still feel… lighter, somehow. I don’t know. It’s really weird. Everything is weird right now.

Blaine’s still here. He stayed when the others left.

Burt and Carol are out of town and Finn’s over at Rachel’s. Blaine said he’d take care of everything here for a while.

He said… he said that he wanted to.                                 

I kind of love himshit blaine just came back from the bathroom bye