It has been a week today that Kurt started living with me. His nightmares as lessoned to the point he will only toss and turn in his sleep instead of screaming and crying.

"Blaine" I hear Kurts voice from behind me and I turn around to see Kurt standing in the middle of the living room tears in his eyes.

"What's wrong?" I ask, quickly making my way over to him.

"I-I'm sorry" He says slowly looking down at the floor.

"I didn't mean to do it, I was looking at a magazine as I was walking out of my room and I ran into it"

I walk into the hallway to see a vase that had once held roses on the floor water and pieces of glass everywhere.

"Are you okay, did you cut yourself?" I ask noticing how easy it would be to step on a little shard of glass. I move closer to him and he flinches.

"I'm sorry don't hurt me please, I will clean it up" He yells running towards the kitchen.

He doesn't make it to the kitchen; he collapses on the floor crying.

I'm an idiot. How could I be so stupid, I broke something of Blaine's. He was so nice letting me stay here and I broke something.
I hear him walk up in front me and I wait for the kick to my side or the hand pulling my hair up making me stand to face him.

"Kurt it's okay it's just a stupid vase I can get one exactly like it at Wal-Mart" I feel his hand on my back and I move away.

"Kurt look at me" He says and I feel fear run through my body. I'm making him mad.

I look up wiping the tears from my eyes. He places his hand slowly under my chin raising my head until our eyes meet. To my surprise they are not full of anger but worry.

"It's okay, did you hurt yourself?" he asks and I shake my head no.

He kneels down on the floor pulling me into a hug as the tears refuse to stop.

"I-I'm so so so so sorry" I say as his arms pull tighter around me.

"It's okay" He says holding me.

Kurt living with me has defiantly been a learning experience. I'm becoming worried that Kurt is thinking of himself as more of a bother than a joy to live with.

In all honesty I love Kurt living with me. I need to find a way to show him just how much I care about him, without it being creepy or scaring Kurt. This should be interesting.

Blaine was starting back to work Monday, today is Saturday. He left me home alone he said he had to run to the school to pick up a few things so he could finish his lesson plans.

I'm now lying in my room throwing a ball up in the air and catching it. Blaine gave me the ball when he found it while cleaning out a few boxes his parents sent him and I told him how pretty it was. I roll it around in my hand running my fingers over the even surface and looking at the flame pattern on it.

"Kurt" I hear Blaine's voice echo though the apartment.

"In here" I yell throwing the ball up one more time as Blaine enters my room.

"I have a surprise for you" He smiles as He holds out a really big bag.

"Wear this and be ready by 5" he says setting the bag on my bed before leaving.

Its three till 5 and Kurts door is still shut. I'm pacing back and forth between the kitchen and living room looking down at my shiny shoes. Tonight has to be perfect.  

I'm wearing a nice black suite that has been pressed perfectly.

I hear a door open behind me and Kurt steps out of his room

The sight of him takes my breath away.

His hair is fixed perfectly where it's somewhere between spiked and gelled back. He is sporting the dark blue suit I had gotten him earlier today and his slim figure shows it off perfectly.

"Wow" I smile my eyes unable to move from his body as he walks towards me.

"Where are we going?" He asks and it takes me a few seconds to process anything but his body. Did I mention wow?

"It's a surprise" I smile leading him out the door and into the busy New York street.

A limo is waiting for us and I can see him eyeing it way before we even reach it.

"This is for us?" He asks in shock.

"Yea, only the best for you" I grin and I hear him gasp softly as I open the door letting him slide inside.

I'm in a limo. I must be dreaming. I'm dressed in an extremely expensive suit in a limo with the most amazing guy in the world. I have to be dreaming.

I look around the dark space and I can't help but feel a little nervous I've never liked being enclosed anywhere; especially somewhere dark.

"You okay?" Blaine asks and I can just make out his shape. Damn you tented windows.

The limo turns on and all of a sudden the lights going across the ceiling light up and music begins to play quietly. I relax.

"Yea I'm fine" I smile

 We arrived at our destination after only 10 minutes. I step out of the car and step aside letting Kurt climb out. We are on Broadway, lights and people flood the street and Kurt looks around with the biggest smile I've ever seen.

"Shall we?" I ask holding my hand out. He hesitates but accepts it and we walk towards the theater.

"We are seeing Wicked?" I almost yell as we walk in the doors of the theater. The place is packed and seeing all the people kinda scares me. I'm not use to being in a place filled with so many people... what if there was a fire?

 "This way" He says pulling my hand towards the merchandise stand. There are shirts, posters, hats everything you could imagine. Blaine bought me a shirt and poster than we soon entered the theater taking our seats.

I'm not really a Broadway person, I love music but I enjoy rock or pop and even the occasional country song. Broadway has never really been my favorite place even though I did see the Lion King last year. Wicked is a whole different show though, the story was better and not hearing screaming kids was also a plus and Kurt was loving it. After it was over I had one more surprise for tonight and this is the one that could make or break what relationship we could possibly have. If I do this right I may not only get Kurt to keep living with me but also maybe a boyfriend. But then if this takes a turn for the worse everything will crash down on top of me.

The show was amazing each costume and character was exactly how I have pictured it while I listened to the soundtrack over and over again. We are now back in the limo and I can't stop talking about it. Blaine looks both happy and nervous and I can't help but wonder where we are going next. I feel the limo turn onto a bumpy road after almost an hour of driving and my mind turns to the worse. He's taking me somewhere to kill me. He hates me for talking so much so he's going to leave me out in the middle of nowhere to get eaten by a bear. So many more thoughts cross my mind as the door opens once again.

I have taken Kurt to a national park just outside the city. It's secluded and peaceful. I had been up here earlier setting up a blanket on the ground along with some food that is still in a cooler by the blanket. I grab his hand leading him over to the blanket. We take a seat and soon begin to eat. 

The sky is so clear you can see every star as if you can reach out and touch it. We have just finished eating and Blaine is clearing the stuff off of the blanket as I lean my head back looking up.

"Lay back" Blaine says and my eyes grow wide. I don't like this.

He leans back on the blanket crossing his arms so they are resting behind his head. He took off his jacket earlier leaving him in just his pants and dress shirt. He looks so amazing under the stars.

I slowly lean back resting my head on the ground as I watch the stars twinkle above us.

We stay like this for a few minutes before Blaine speaks.

Okay how do I say this? How do I tell Kurt how I feel without freaking him out? How do I tell him I want him to live with me forever and ever without sounding like a creep?

"Do you like living with me?" I ask thinking each word over before I let it leave my lips.

"Yea" He says without hesitation and I smile.

"Do you like me?" I ask slowly wanting to take it back as soon as I said it.

"I-I do" He stutters and I grin rolling over on my side so I'm facing him.

"I like you too" I say and he looks over at me. I prop myself up on my elbow and look down at him. I find his hand between us and grab it slowly rubbing the back of it with my thumb.

"Blaine... I know you have been wondering what's wrong with me" he says and I look at the nervous looking boy beside me.

"Kurt you don't have to tell me" he says and I shake my head no.

"Blaine, I had a.... I was in a relationship for almost three years" I start slowly. I have to tell him. He deserves to know, no matter how hard this is going to be for me.

I set up crossing my legs in front of me. Blaine does the same taking my hands again holding them in between us.

"It started out like any normal relationship we went on dates stuff like that, nothing too amazing though. After a few months together I moved out of my apartment and into a house just outside of the city with him. I had never had a boyfriend before so everything was new to me... everything. I wasn't in love with him though. I was in love with the thought of being in love and I realize that now"

My heart breaks and Kurt tells me his story. How his boyfriend took advantage of him used him for his own sick pleasure. Tortured him, beat him... raped him.

"At first it was hard, I didn't understand why he would do something like that to me, hurt me" My heart sinks as I see a tear stream down Kurts face.

"Then I realized I deserved everything that happened to me. I would be late coming home and he would hit me. That was my fault. I wasn't in the mood one night when he came home from work horny, he... he forced me"

My eyes grew wider as a tear left my own eyes.

"Kurt listen to me" I say in a shaky voice my brain and mouth both not knowing what to say.

"You... no one disserves that no matter what they do" I say shaking my head, my hand holding Kurts tighter.

"Blaine... but I did things wrong, he told me so" How could He be so brainwashed? So willing to only blame himself?

Blaine didn't get it. When I do something wrong I deserve to be punished, that's how it works. Blaine is crying too now and I look down at our hands which haven't moved but Blaine's grip has tightened, but not in a scary or painful way.

"Blaine, what he did to me may have not be right nor nice. But I'm the one who did things wrong... not him" I can feel his hands tighten around mine more.

"Kurt, you didn't deserve it and you know it. Kurt... You are amazing. You are smart, Handsome, Beautiful, talented, sexy, your perfect Kurt. You deserve to be loved, kissed and hugged, taken places and bought stuff. You should be made love to every night and wake up beside someone who really cares about you, you should get breakfast in bed and days just cuddling by the TV watching your favorite movie, Kurt you deserve the world"

I was shocked I had never thought about any of those things.. My mind never even processed them as a possibility. Blaine truly is amazing, I don't deserve to even be around him.

"You really think that?" Kurt asks and I nod.

"And so much more" I add and he smiles, the smile my heart melts for.

"Kurt" I say after a few minutes of silence and he looks up our eyes meeting.

"Can I kiss you?" I ask and he nods quickly.

I lean forward and for the first time our lips meet, Kurt's lips are soft like silk. The kiss is gentle and sweet showing Kurt how much I really do care about him.

A few seconds later I pull away to a grinning Kurt.

"You are amazing do you know that?" I ask pulling him into a hug.

His face drops to a slight frown, he doesn't reply.