Saturday January 1st 

Blaine woke up with an arm draped over his exposed stomach, and limbs tangled with his under the warm blankets. He smiled as the memories of last night flooded back into his mind. He had practically promised a future with Kurt, a wedding, another kid, a life spent together. He felt Kurt shift behind him, so he turned around.

"Hey." He said quietly, placing a kiss to Kurt's lips.

"Hi." He said with a dreamy smile.

"How are you?" Blaine asked, running his hand up and down Kurt's back.

"Amazing," He said back, smiling larger. "But I was hoping we could talk?"

"Uhm, yea sure."

"It's just - we took a big step last night, which I loved, don't get me wrong. But we never uhm talked about our uh, pasts."

Oh. "Oh, you mean like sex partners?"

"Yea..."

Blaine tugged Kurt closer, finding the blush on his cheeks adorable.

"Alright, let's talk now. Do you want me to go first?"

"Uhm sure, yea yea you can go."

"Okay - well, during high school I only had one serious boyfriend and we didn't really do anything. During college I guess you could say I got a little crazy, I mean I did the whole one night stand thing a lot, but always protected, so please don't freak out on me. I was a horny college student. And obviously, Heather happened, which gave me my biggest blessing. I think that's pretty much it."

"So nothing serious?" Kurt asked.

"Nope, I never really dated after Sam was born."

"Alright."

"What about you?"

"I never dated through high school so I didn't have my first real relationship until college. I dated a few guys here and there until...." He trailed off.

"Until what?" Blaine asked, not wanting to push.

"I met this guy Josiah. We dated for awhile, actually we lived together for a year, until one night uhm, I came back to find all his stuff gone." Kurt let out a small sob, and a few tears fell down his face. "No note no anything, he just disappeared."

"Kurt...,"

"It was the only long term relationship I had. I thought we were going to get married. I was so confused why all of a sudden he just left, it made no sense. I mean yes we were young but I just didn't get it. We could have waited but no -," Another sob.

"I'm so sorry." Blaine said, practically pulling Kurt into his lap.

"But in someway I'm thankful for it all." He said sniffling and nuzzling into Blaine. "That whole situation made me who I am today. A lot stronger and a lot more determined. And I got to meet you, which I can't really argue with. But I just can't go through that kind of heart break again. I don't even know how I managed the first few months after he left. I was an absolute mess."

"Kurt I would never - never leave you in a million years. God, you are one of the best things that has ever happened to me."

"I love you Blaine."

"I love you too." Then he was surging forward and capturing Kurt's lips into a sweet kiss.

Monday January 10th

Blaine walked back into his small apartment after his first day back to work in almost two weeks. Samantha also went back to school and if he was being honest he was glad to be back in the swing of things.

He walked toward the kitchen, looking over to see Sam watching TV in the living room, before setting his brief case on the table and looking over to see the taller man working at the stove.

Music was playing as Blaine went up behind Kurt, wrapping his arms around his waist and hooking his chin over Kurt's shoulder.

"Hey," He whispered as he kissed the exposed skin on Kurt's neck. "What are you doing here?"

"Just wanted to cook dinner, and surprise you." Kurt said turning all the way around, and draping he arms across Blaine's shoulders.

Blaine leaned in and kissed Kurt softly before pulling back and smiling. "Well I for one am happy that you are here." Blaine kissed him one last time before detangling his limbs and going to see his daughter and change.

By the time he got back to the kitchen Samantha was at the table while Kurt was placing serving dishes down. They all sat down and started eating, chatting easily.

Half way through dinner was when things got awkward.

"Hey dad?" Samantha asked shyly.

"Yea?"

"Uhm - today - well we started a new unit and it's the girls in one class and boys in another - and our teacher Ms. Herman told us to ask our parent's uhm a question."

Blaine was slightly confused; he looked over to Kurt to see him staring at Blaine with wide eyes. What was going on?

"Okay sweetie, what's the question?"

"What's uhm, what's sex?" She asked barely over a whisper.

Blaine choked on the water he had been taking a sip of. That wasn't what he was expecting. But it made sense - having girls in one room, the boys in another. Blaine open and closed his mouth multiple times. This was going to be awkward. She was only ten, and wouldn't be having sex for another eight to ten years if he had any say. He sat silently staring at his daughter when he suddenly felt a warm hand on his thigh. He looked over to Kurt who gave a small smile and a gentle squeeze to his leg.

"Well sweetie, sex is something physical that happens between two people who love each other very very much." Another squeeze from Kurt's hand. "When you know you love that person so much its, uhm naturally the next step."

"Okay - but, uhm - well I guess I still don't really get the concept."

"Right now you might be a little young to know every concept of sex - and that's perfectly fine because you will definitely be learning about that in this new unit."

"But is sex - like bad? Could I do it now?"

That question made Kurt choke on what he was eating, and Blaine had to suppress a smile, but it quickly faded as he turned back to his daughter.

"Sex isn't, bad per say. But there are definitely consequences of being too young. There are STD's and the possibility of getting pregnant. Sex is between two people who are older, and have a deeper level of attraction, or uhm maybe that's not the right word,... uh, Samantha you know what puberty is right?"

"Sort of..."

"Okay, well it's different for everyone. Mostly for girls its them turning into women - developing breasts and starting their periods and puberty has everything with sex. You grow up and you understand the commitment and what it feels to actually be so in love with that one person. When you're a teenager you start having feelings and attractions to certain people. When you start dating sex might be brought up - at an older age of course - and you might be thinking about it. But sweetie, if you don't want to have sex, don't. If you don't want that physical connection with that person because you don't love them, then don't. Sex isn't just getting it out of they way, it means something special."

"Okay - but dad, what if when I am older, I do want to have uhm sex?"

"Then promise me - when that special person whether it's a boy or a girl, whoever you love - promise me that you will come and talk to me before. Because Samantha I will always be there to talk about anything with you."

Samantha nodded then opened her mouth again. "I have another question."

"Ask away."

"Where's my mom?"

Blaine didn't know what to say. When Samantha had asked about her mom when she was three he told her that "mommy thought daddy would take better care of you" and that was that. But now she was older and deserved the truth. 

"She - I actually don't know Sam."

"But - you two had - you know, that's how I'm here right?!" Samantha said, panic written all over her face.

Blaine got up and went over to kneel in front of his daughter. "You're right - you were my miracle, my little baby girl who I thought would never be able to happen and I love you so much honey. But your mom and I - we were young when you gracefully came into our lives - and she wasn't ready for that responsibility - so she left. But baby, she left because she loved you so much she wanted you to have a better life. She wanted you to live in the best possible environment and that was with me."

Samantha had tears streaming down her face as she flung herself into her dads arms.

"I love you dad."

"I love you too baby girl."

"And thank you - for everything."

"You know you can always talk to me about anything honey."

"I know."

Blaine kissed her forehead and then stood up and went back to his seat next to Kurt.

"Oh dad?"

"Yea?"

"I was uhm - wondering if maybe we could go shopping for a training bra." Samantha asked, a blush spreading across her cheeks.

"Sure - we can do that."

Samantha nodded and the quickly excused herself, leaving Blaine and Kurt alone. Blaine let out a sigh. God, why did he feel like this?

"Blaine..."

He looked up to Kurt with a weak smile. "I'm fine - I just, God I wish sometimes that Heather was still here. To talk about these things. There's only so much I know."

Kurt got up, and went to straddle Blaine; kissing his forehead. "You did such an amazing job Bee, you did everything right."

Blaine smiled. "Bee?"

"Oh - uhm, did I say that out loud? Its just a little nickname, wow sorry I shouldn't,"

"I love it, and I love you."

Kurt smiled. "I love you too."

Saturday January 15th

Blaine couldn't think of a better way to spend his 33rd birthday. When Kurt had surprised him with three tickets to Colorado he was skeptical at first. But a puppy pout from both his loves and they had left early that Friday morning, even though Samantha was missing a day of school.

Friday they spent most of the day getting checked into their suit at Winter Park before they all went to the outdoor heated pool for awhile.

After returning to their room, they all showered and went to dinner then turned in for the evening. Samantha more than anything - passing out with a movie playing in the background.

Saturday they hit the slopes, and while it had been awhile for both Blaine and Samantha, they got their ‘mojo' back on the third run. Kurt on the other hand was a completely different story.

It wasn't that he was bad, he just wasn't practiced. He would do fine one run, and then spend the next run on his butt the whole time. By noon he was clearly done with snowboarding.

Blaine just laughed and pulled him in for a hug and a light kiss before once again all three were heading down the snow covered mountain.

After a full day of snowboarding they made their way to a mountain side restaurant known for their fondue.

They at it all, cheese, meats, chocolate, they left nothing on the plates.

Once back to their room Samantha went down to the pool, while Kurt and Blaine cuddled on the couch, fire lit and a romantic movie playing on the flat screen.

By Sunday none of them wanted to leave, content with staying here forever, but they all knew they had to. They had to get back to school and work. That didn't make it any easier.

As they sat in the cab back to their apartment in New York, Blaine couldn't help but smile at how happy he was.

Saturday January 22nd

It started like every other Saturday. Kurt and Baxter coming over the night before and then Kurt making breakfast the next morning. 

Now they were all sitting on the couch, Samantha watching something on Disney Channel, while Kurt worked on lesson plans and Blaine worked on a house outlay for his upcoming showing.

It was mostly silent, except for the occasional bark from Baxter.

The doorbell rang through out the apartment, making Baxter go crazy. Blaine sighed, detangling himself from Kurt and getting up. Why did people always feel the need to ruin his weekend?

He unlocked the door and froze.

A middle aged woman stood in front of him, smiling a little. He knew that smile to well. He saw it everyday from his daughter. She had long golden locks down to her shoulders, and she was wearing a yellow pea coat with jeans and Uggs. She looked the same as all those years ago - just older - maybe more mature.

"Heather?"

"Hey Blainey."

He vaguely heard someone come up behind him, but he was to shocked to process anything that was happening.

"Who is it babe?"

He didn't move, or answer.

"Hi." Heather said quietly.

Kurt smiled. "Hi, not to be rude, but who are you?"

"Oh not rude at all, hi I'm Heather." She stuck out her hand.

Kurt's smile faded for only a second, before he plastered on a fake on and took her hand. "Pleasure."

"What?" What the hell are you dong here Heather?" Blaine said, finally getting his voice back.

"Blaine..." Kurt said softly.

"No, I have a right to know what the hell are you doing here?"

"Can we talk? Please?" Heather asked, ignoring the question.

Blaine pinched the bridge of his nose before moving aside to let her in.

"Kitchen." He said, pointing the way to the room. She nodded and disappeared through the arch way. "Please - take Sam shopping or something, please."

Kurt just nodded, not asking questions. He left Blaine leaning in the foyer before returning with a confused looking Samantha. Kurt shuffled her out the door, then placed a light kiss to Blaine's cheek with an ‘I love you' then he was alone again. He let out a deep sigh and went to the kitchen.

Heather was seated at the table, playing with a ring on her thumb. Blaine sat opposite of her, after placing two cups of coffee on the table.

"Thanks."

"Mmm..."

"So how long have you been married?" She asked.

Blaine let out a short laugh. "Not married."

"Oh I just thought..."

"Someday hopefully. Too him."

She smiled weakly then looked down at her coffee again.

"Heather, what are you doing here?"

"I don't really know," She looked up to see Blaine raise his eyebrows. "Ben told me I should probably come and make things right."

"Ben?"

"He's my husband, and the father of my three year old."

"Wow."

"Yea..."

They sat in silence again before Heather spoke up.

"I want to get to know her."

Blaine opened and closed his mouth a few times, surprised by her confession. "No."

Her head shot up. "Wh-What?"

"You think I'm going to let you walk in here after ten years and just let you get to know my daughter."

"She's my daughter too." Heather said.

"She might be - but you are not her mom. You left Heather. I raised her, she had nothing from you. You weren't there! What the fuck were you even thinking when you left?"

"...I was young."

"So was I! I grew up fast when you left!"

"I-I'm sorry."

Blaine snapped his head to look at her; eyes glazed with tears.

"Blaine I'm so sorry. You don't even know, I regret leaving everyday. I needed to find and tell you how sorry I am. I know it probably doesn't change anything or mean anything to you, but I'm just so sorry."

Blaine sighed. This was a bad idea, a really really bad idea. "Maybe, you could get to know her."

"Really?" She asked, clearly shocked.

"Slowly - but she could use a female figure in her life."

"I don't even know what to say!"

"I just need to work everything out in my head first okay?"

"Yes! Yes take all the time you need."

Tuesday January 25th

Three days. It took three days until Samantha finally got to meet her mom. But it was with persistent bugging that she finally got it out of her dad who the lady was that came on Saturday and then with constant begging to finally meet her. The four of them sat in the living quietly talking for a bit, before the awkward silence over took.

When her mom spoke - she smiled.

"Do you maybe want to go shopping Samantha?"

"Yes! Yes! Can I dad?"

A look passed over her fathers face but quickly passed before he was nodding slowly.

She smiled and god up with Heather before they were leaving her dad and Kurt. She waved and turned around and got in the car, ready to shop.

**

"You know you didn't have to let her go."

"Yes, I did." Blaine said.

"Why? She's your daughter, not Heather's; you didn't have to let her go if you didn't want her to."

"Yes I did! Don't you get it? I'm going to lose my daughter! Heather is an amazing person, even after all these years, she is still the same fun, loving person. And Samantha is going to want to be with her all the time! I'm nothing to her! Sam won't want to be here with me anymore once she gets to know Heather more, hell I wouldn't want to be here with me."

Kurt sat there, watching the man he loved fall apart right in front of him. Blaine fell to the floor, crying into his hands, his whole body shaking. Kurt was up in a flash running over to Blaine, who flew in his arms the second they were side by side. He had never seen Blaine like this; he was always put together and confident. This was a broken Blaine.

"Shh, you know that's not true, Blaine, you are an amazing father, Samantha loves you more than anything, she would never leave you, so stop thinking like that." Kurt ran his fingers through Blaine's curls, hugging him closer.

They sat there longer, until Blaine's cries turned to sniffles. Until Samantha came home with bags full of clothes, telling them all about her shopping trip. Until she went to bed and Kurt left, and until Blaine was once again left with his own thoughts, his heart breaking a little more as his daughters words replayed over and over.

Thursday January 27th

Kurt sat at his desk, going over tomorrow's lesson plan when there was a small cough next to him. He looked over to see Samantha standing next to him.

"Hi sweetie, what do you need?"

"Could we... talk?"

The look on her face told him it was serious, so he put his plans away giving her his full attention.

"Absolutely."

"It's about my mom. She wants to know if I would stay with her this weekend, and I really want to but I'm afraid to ask dad."

"Why are you afraid to ask him? You know he would let you."

"I know it's just that we always do things on the weekends with you, and I don't want him getting mad at mom."

"Sweetie he wouldn't get mad. He may be a little disappointed, but you can always make up that time next weekend."

"But he always looks so upset every time I bring her up. I don't want him to hate me."

"Hey Samantha look at me." She lifted her eyes to meet his. "He would never in a billion, trillion years hate you. He loves you with all his heart, he's just getting used to the whole situation okay? He will be more comfortable with time, but it's only been a week. You gotta give your dad time."

She nodded. "Okay. But do you think I could still ask?"

Kurt gave her a smile and pulled her into a hug. "Ask. It never hurts to ask."

Sunday January 30th

Blaine lay in the warm bed at Kurt's apartment, looking over to the sleeping figure next to him. Even though he was still a little down about Samantha spending the weekend with Heather, he was willing to look past it if all he got to do all day was stay in this position.

"Stop staring you creep." Kurt said, eyes still closed and a small smile playing at his lips.

"But you look amazing."

Kurt rolled over to face Blaine. "Its morning, no one looks amazing in the morning."

"Well you do." Blaine said, placing a kiss to his cheek.

"Well, how about we shower, so we both look amazing."

Blaine gasped dramatically, placing a hand over his heart. "Are you saying I don't look amazing right now?"

Kurt just giggled and got up, stripping his pajamas off and going toward the bathroom. "Coming?" He yelled over his shoulder.

Blaine smiled wide and ran towards the bathroom. Maybe he would be okay after all.