May 28, 2013, 8:55 p.m.
Daddies Dearest: Chapter 4
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"Yes dad...... I understand dad...... I really do...... Yes."
Kurt was listening into Blaine's conversation from where he was rolling sushi in their kitchen. Kurt had already spoken to his own father who had been thoroughly confused, then upset, and then warming up to the idea of rapidly becoming a grandfather. It sounded like Blaine's dad was going through the same cycle.
Kurt brought out the rolls and set them on the table, watching Blaine who was pacing back and forth in the living room with the phone to his ear and perplexed look on his face.
"Yes...... Alright..... We will..... YES! I promise!.... Oh my god dad.... "
Kurt sat himself down and took a roll, dipping it into the bowl of soy sauce balanced on the plate and then popped the food into his mouth. All the while he watched Blaine talk on the phone, trying to determine the other half of the conversation that he couldn't hear. His own phone buzzed beside him as various friends texted. Kurt and Blaine had asked everyone for their opinions on the situation earlier when they had gotten back from the center after having the very complex process of adoption explained to them and having to sign their names a few hundred times, for which Kurt now had a cramp in his hand.
The responses from their friends were varied - excitement from Finn, suspicion from Rachel, disgust from Santana (though more at the thought of all the poop and vomit that goes along with a baby as she explained), and Isabelle was ecstatic and insisting she be referred to as an auntie. The concerns were all the same - what about your degrees? aren't you both too young? how are you going to support a baby?
Kurt was the first one of the pair to admit they didn't have all the answers, but he also knew he was going to have a hard time leaving Julie at the center that day, let alone never get to see her again. It took Blaine awhile to pull him away to sign papers, and in the end they let Kurt carry her back to the office to hold while they talked about the process. She was just so tiny and sweet. She woke up at one point and Kurt was allowed to feed her with a bottle they provided, the little girl drinking hungrily while looking up at Kurt with big green eyes. When it was Kurt's turn to sign papers, Blaine had taken her and Kurt watched as Blaine delicately rocked her gently in his own arms. The scene made Kurt's heart melt.
Blaine had to console Kurt when Julie was taken back. He even shed a few tears. It was crazy, and what was even crazier was the deep connection and bond he felt to the little girl so quickly. Just last night he had been partying like a crazy kid and in less than twenty four hours he was thinking about how to rearrange the apartment to accommodate a crib and highchair and all the other baby furniture they'd need.
The click of Blaine's phone signalled the end of the conversation and Kurt looked expectantly at Blaine.
"My dad thinks this is crazy, rushed, and completely out of left field...." Blaine began and Kurt nodded, biting his tongue to avoid jumping in defensively.
"... and my mother wants to know when they can come meet their grandchild." He continued, shaking his head as if completely flabbergasted by the conflicting responses of his parents.
Kurt chuckled. When he had talked to his father, all it took for Burt to warm up to the idea was referring to Julie as his granddaughter once. Kurt could hear the change in his voice when Burt said it and then started talking about how the boys would need support and help, changing his whole tune about the adoption.
Blaine sighed and sat across from Kurt, reaching for some sushi and stuffing his mouth before continuing. "Dad is hiring a lawyer for us to ensure that we're not being suckered into something sketchy."
Kurt nodded at that. It sounded reasonable, though he couldn't fathom what someone would be trying to trick them into.
"He also expressed that he approves of the name Julie since it was his mother's as well."
Kurt blinked, "Really? I never knew that!"
Blaine chuckled and nodded, reaching across the table to take Kurt's hands in his own, "You know, I think this is all crazy and irrational, but there is something... serendipitous about it all."
A smile spread over Kurt's face and he nodded, knowing exactly what Blaine was talking about. "You looked beautiful when you were holding her earlier. I don't think I've ever been more in love with you."
Kurt watched Blaine's face look lovingly back as his own and the two sat there quietly, just enjoying the silent intimacy.
"You know... we might have to find a new place...."
"Oh no! I am not moving again so soon. She's a baby. A little baby. She doesn't need the space to move around in because she doesn't move that much yet." Blaine protested immediately, looking over their apartment.
Kurt laughed and let go of Blaine's hands so they could eat the sushi before it went bad because they were too busy staring at one another with hearts in their eyes.
The next day Kurt and Blaine were going over the process they had agreed to in order to adopt.
"I can't believe that even with all that legal documentation that it will still be a month before we can have her with us...." Kurt grumbled, looking through the paper stacks in front of him and scheduling meetings into his phone.
"Imagine how long it takes for someone starting from scratch then dear...." Blaine noted, filling in the form they needed for the agency sponsored training.
Kurt shook his head in disbelief. They had several meetings just in the next few days, including some home studies to ensure that they had a safe place for Julie to live, and Kurt needed to get his records check done. Blaine already had a criminal records check and child safety check done since he worked at a child care center.
They were allowed to visit Julie daily though. It would help with the transition they were told, though for Kurt it was mostly selfish. He already had fantasies about putting her into ballet, and watching her first recital, and taking her to school. He honestly didn't know where all these thoughts were coming from. He had been so ambition bound his whole life that children were always a background thought to him, since meeting Julie, it was all he could think about.
"Well let's finish as much of this up as we can so we can get back there..." Kurt dictated to Blaine.
A chuckle was his response, "You know... I always figured I'd be the one who went gaga for a baby, but I've got to say she looks good on you and you look absolutely adorable with her."
Kurt grinned from ear to ear, "I know... I can't believe someone wouldn't want her."
Blaine shrugged, "I don't understand it either, but my mom has volunteered at orphanages throughout her life and she said it's a sad, but true fact of life that not enough children are valued by their parents."
"And yet it takes forever for someone who wants to adopt to get through the process...." Kurt grumbled as he looked over the papers in front of them.
"It's only because once the government gets involved there's all sorts of liability concerns. They don't want to get in trouble because they gave a child to someone who doesn't end up being a great parent."
"We'll do our best though, right Blaine? We'll be good parents." Kurt looked over at Blaine.
Blaine smiled and moved over, pressing a kiss to Kurt's forehead, "The best. Besides, with that dollop of brown hair and those eyes, everyone is going to think she's really yours anyhow."
Kurt beamed, thinking about that. Her eyes too were close to Kurt's own, though a little more green than his, and her skin was just a shade darker, but still creamy. She already felt like his own, regardless of the lack of blood connection.
"I've been trying to figure out who her birth dad must have been and I honestly can't come up with anything...." Blaine admitted to Kurt then.
"Someone who knows us anyhow... it's a little creepy..." Kurt acknowledged. "I haven't been able to think about who it could have been either and no one I've talked to can figure it out either."
"I even went on facebook last night and went through all my friends on there to see if there was any hint that anyone of them had a baby or knew someone who had a baby... nothing." Blaine continued.
"Out of state though... that's a clue. Ohio probably since it's not like we've been anywhere else..." Kurt added.
Blaine just shook his head and exhaled, "It's why my dad is so suspicious about it all. It's just not adding up."
Kurt placed a hand on Blaine's, talking once Blaine looked over and caught his gaze, "Is it weird that with all that I don't really care? I just have this overwhelming need to be her dad?"
Blaine smiled warmly to Kurt and took his hand, squeezing it, "No. I kind of feel it too... though I think not as much as you are. I never knew how much you wanted kids...."
Kurt shook his head, "I didn't either... it's just when we were presented with the possibility, and when I saw her, well...." He blushed, "... It's like I realized that I really, really, wanted it."
Blaine nodded, examining the serenity on Kurt's face. Kurt just beamed back and began talking then about all the new stores he could frequent having a baby daughter to doll up, to which Blaine listened attentively, and with a look of amusement.
"You know... it must have been someone rich... given the ridiculous amounts in those accounts attached to her...." Blaine interjected at one point, and Kurt realized that his mind was still focused on trying to figure out whose child she was originally.
"Evidently...." Kurt acknowledged, waiting for Blaine to continue. Kurt was beginning to not like this line of thinking. The last thing he wanted to think about was that Julie had some other parents out there who didn't want her. It made him angry to think about, and then relieved because it meant that she could be theirs.
"But none of the Warblers seem to know anything about a kid... and they're the ones who would have had access to money and lawyers...."
"Blaine... what is dwelling on where she came from going to get us?" Kurt interrupted, causing Blaine to look up and shake his head, indicating he didn't know.
"She's here. She can be ours. Someone thought enough of us to give us this chance. Can we please think about her as ours instead of someone elses?"
Blaine sighed in response and looked down to the floor. He was quiet so Kurt let him think about that for a moment, knowing Blaine well enough to know that he was collecting his thoughts and processing that information.
"I'm just...." Blaine began and then looked up at Kurt, "I don't want to get our hopes up in case something happens.... this seems all too good to be true. And maybe I'm a little... no... a lot scared about suddenly becoming a dad. I don't think we're ready for this."
Kurt tensed up with Blaine's last statement, immediately feeling defensive, "If we don't though, you heard, she'll go into the system and who knows how long it would be for her to find other parents. I was looking online and read up on this thing called Abandoned Child Syndrome... she could have all sorts of emotional and physical fallout in her life from being abandoned, not just from whomever her birth parents were, but us too if we reject this chance."
Kurt watched as Blaine tensed up too, listening to him. He really could appreciate that Blaine was nervous and hesitant, but he needed Blaine to also understand that he wasn't going to back down on this. This truly was one of those chances that a gay couple could just refuse.
"Alright." Blaine said finally and looked steadily at Kurt, "But we need to do one thing first..."
Kurt smiled and nodded, "Anything Blaine."
"We need to get married."
Julie was awfully wiggly when she was getting her diaper changed, and Kurt was having a difficult time with the smell, trying not to gag as he deposited the diaper in the can beside the change table. He had insisted on doing this though. The nursemaid watching him with a smirk.
"Don't worry Mr. Hummel. You get faster and more efficient with every diaper you change." She told him while he fumbled to wipe off Julie's girly parts, recognizing that this part of things would definitely take some getting used to.
"Make sure you get into the folds of her skin. You don't want to leave anything behind that could irritate her skin."
Kurt nodded, focusing intently on the task at hand. Blaine was sorting out financial details with the lawyers, his father's and Daniel, allowing Kurt time to practice his parenting skills. In the past couple days, Kurt was incredibly thankful for Blaine's family background in business and law, since it meant Blaine could read and translate those legal documents while Kurt could attend to Julie.
"You're doing good Mr. Hummel. Though you should be able to do this with far fewer wipes once you've gotten the hang of things."
"Oh god...." He exclaimed, as he just realized something, "Who's going to have the talk with her?"
The nurse laughed, though Kurt was being completely serious and was now panicking. How did two men raise a daughter and make sure all her distinctly female needs were met?
"My dad was a single dad and he managed to help me along just fine Mr. Hummel." The nurse offered, giving him a pat on the back. "He had my grandma and my aunts help. I'm sure you boys have women in your life who would be happy to help out."
Kurt exhaled then and nodded, realizing that he had gotten himself needlessly worked up. He finished putting on the new diaper and was trying to get the squirmy little girl back into her one-piece pyjama outfit.
"We have support... I just want to make sure we do everything right." Kurt admitted, picking up the little girl once she was all dressed again and holding her against his chest with her head held up by his shoulder like the nurse had taught him.
"There is no right with kids... but so long as you're trying, you'll be fabulous parents." The nurse smiled to him and held the bottle she had been holding over to him, "Come on. When she's hungry she does not like to be kept waiting."
Kurt beamed and took the bottle with some fingers that were free on an arm that was supporting Julie. He walked to a chair and sat down with her, repositioning her so he could feed her. She was hungry, insistently so. "You will fit right in with us little Julie. We all know what we want and go for it."
The nurse chuckled at that and left Kurt alone with her while she checked in on the other babies.
"We're going to have to figure out what you'll end up calling each of us little girl, having two dads and all."
She just continued suckling on the bottle, eyes watching Kurt with curiosity.
"Daddy Blaine figures we need to move up the wedding with you joining us... make sure our names are all coordinated properly."
She grabbed at Kurt's shirt with one of her little hands and clung onto it, continuing to stare up as if she could really understand what he was saying.
"Now I have to get a wedding figured out with barely any time to plan. If you finiyone thing out about me little one, it's that I can get a little stressed about details. Thank goodness your Auntie Isabelle is going to help me."
Inwardly, he knew that they really didn't have to get married so quickly for this whole process to be approved, but it was important to Blaine that things happened in a certain order, and in truth it was important to Kurt too. If it meant he had to give up the Italian leather crafted centerpieces to get married in the next month, it was worth it.
"You'll get to meet your grandparents for the wedding too. They're all pretty ready to spoil you. I've had to put my foot down already about gifts for you, especially since I'm the one who needs to make sure you have a functional and fashionable wardrobe."
It was true. The instant his dad sent him a text of a onesie with the words 'Littlest Football Fan' that he had picked up, he knew he needed to make some things clear to the family and friends. He could not work at Vogue and have a child who wore tacky outfits. This had resulted in complaints from most of the family and friends who were already buying things for them, thankfully Isabelle had his back.
"Auntie Isabelle and I also found the most perfect outfit for you for the wedding. You will end up taking attention off your daddies, but I think it's worth it. Thank goodness we did that special on designers and their kids."
"You know... I actually thought that onesie your dad picked up was pretty cute." Blaine said as he walked into the room.
Kurt huffed, "So you've said. I agreed she could wear it inside, when my dad was around."
Blaine chuckled and reached out with both of his hands, "Come on. My turn. You need to sign some more things anyhow."
Kurt made a sour face. He didn't want to give her over, but he knew if he wanted to do this all the time, he needed to do his part of the paperwork, so he reluctantly held Julie out to Blaine, "Remember to support her neck and back, and make sure to burp her when she's all done, and..."
"Kurt." Blaine interrupted, taking the little girl into his arms and snuggling her closely, "Go sign the paperwork. I'm reading all the same parenting books you are."
Kurt sighed and leaned down to give Julie one more quick kiss on the forehead, and one to Blaine on the cheek too before leaving the room. He flexed his fingers, preparing to sign too many forms. Forms that were standing between him and his family.