December 21

Rachel’s not that mad at you, really (unsent)

I miss you a lot (unsent)

I wish we were still in the Keys together (unsent)

I wish we were together (unsent)

I was an idiot, as always (unsent)

New York sucks without you. (unsent)

Everything sucks without you. (unsent)

I shouldn't have let you get on that plane. (unsent)

I miss you. (unsent)

Please come home. (unsent)

I feel so bad that you spent so much money on me

I would go into debt to make you happy. (unsent)

Don't.

Too late, already do

You are eventually coming home, right? (unsent)

You shouldn't.

Well I do

Why did you text me? (unsent)

I made myself eat this morning. (unsent)

I should have let you make me talk.

Hey, you know, this isn’t exactly healthy for the two of us

[10 minutes later]

What does that mean?

We went different ways because we needed some time to ourselves.  And now we’re texting and breaking that boundary

What I’m saying is that we shouldn’t text each other.  At least until I’m back in New York

[10 minutes later]

Oh.

Okay.

I’ll get someone to let you know when I’m back

[silence]

Loverboy

Don't call me that, please.

Why not?

Because.

I know what happened.  From you guys leaving Callbacks to yesterday

Yeah, so do I.

And now I have a depressed Kurt for Christmas

Ohmigosh not meant for you at all

Thanks, Rach.

I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to send you that

Yeah.

So... Loverboy, how are you going to fix this?

I don't think i can.

You’ve fixed things before

This is different.

He cares about you.

He cares about everyone.

He loves you

[silence]

Blaine.

What

We’ll both be back in New York in time for New Years.

I’m not mad at you, you know

Well at least I have that.

I am going to do everything I can for the two of you

I don't think it matters much anymore.

You probably shouldn't waste your time.

Don’t give up

It's a little late for that.

The two of you are perfect for each other, you know.  Because you have the same attitudes about EVERYTHING

And this is why you’re the most adorably IRRITATING couple ever!

Good to know.

You want to give up?  Fine.

I don't have much of a choice, do I?

Yes you do.

It just feels like a wasted effort.

It’s not.  He.  Still.  Loves.  You.

This time apart thing

Its killing me not being able to see him

I might try and keep my problems away from other people's eyes but him being so far away

It just feels like its over.

Not over.

Just

I dont know.

I keep telling people I’m not the only one who sends multiple texts and no one believes me

Kay, so Kurt’s sitting right next to me.  Crying.  It’s not over

Rachel, I'm never telling you anything ever again.

Not my fault you started spilling

Sorry I felt safe enough to share.

Oh look. Another reason I shouldnt trust my instincts.

[10 minutes later]

The fact that you told me means a lot you know

Yeah. We're such great friends.

I have to go.  I have stuff to do.

For Christmas or whatever.

Before you go, Kurt wanted me to tell you that it’s tearing him apart, not being with you

He misses you like crazy

He thinks you’re the greatest thing that ever happened to him

I'm sure he did. Rachel, saying that isn't making this easier.

I know.

It’s snowing in Lima

So?

It’s so cold and wet and eugh

[5 minutes later]

...... Kurt?

No, it’s Rachel.  Why do you say that?

Oh.

It just, I guess sounded like something he said before.

And I know how he hates snow.

[15 minutes later]

He really does still love you

Stop saying that.

If it were true, I wouldnt be talking to you, Rachel.

I don’t mean to drop a bombshell on you

But this is the first time I’ve texted you in almost 45 minutes

Not funny, Rachel.

I have to go now. Important stuff to do.

For my Christmas alone in NYC. (unsent)

I’m serious.  Kurt stole my phone

You're not making this any easier.

I’m sorry

Its fine. Talk to you later.

Don’t do anything stupid

Yeah ok

I’m serious

[45 minutes later]

K.

Wes?

I just wanted to say hi.

And stuff.

Wes?

Okay.

Eli?

Yeah?

[1 hour later]

Hi.

Um, hi.

[30 minutes later]

How are yuo.

I'm fine. How are you?

Bad.

I'm bad.

I'm sorry to hear that.

I'm in ny.

So you went back then.

yeah

Are you okay?

Yes

no

wait yes

Blaine, you're not okay. Are you alone?

froever.

You're drinking, aren't you?

Its only like 7

no

not drinkign

Don't do anything stupid.

lol like text yuo

im not doign anythin stupid rachle

What? Do you even know who you're talking to?

[silence]

Dear God I hope you fell asleep.

December 22

Shortly after midnight, Kurt still hasn’t managed to fall asleep

Kurt I miss you

Don’t

OK

[10 minutes later]

I cant.

Stop

Rachel siad you were textign me earlier

I shouldn’t have

I still lkve you

I love you too.  But everything hurts right now

I put up twinklr lights in my livign room

They make me think of yuo

That’s nice

Do you want me to take thme down

It’s your apartment.  Keep them up if you want them

Its a matter if of you wnt me to think about you

I don’t know how to answer that

Oh.

We’re taking a break, remember?

[silence]

Good, I’m glad you’re taking it seriously (unsent)

[silence]

I took them down.

[silence]

I don't want to take a braek

We have to

I love you. (unsent)

[silence]

I miss you so much, but this is good for us

Blaine?

Good, I’m glad you’re finally staying away

Blaine?

Are you still awake?

Blaine?

Blaine.

Text me when you wake up.

Yeah?

Hello?

You texted me.

Blaine.

Whatever.

You know, loverboy, I’ll be perfectly honest.  I actually miss you

I’ve had horrible morning sickness lately, it’s been fun trying to keep it from my dads

Loverboy?

Blaine?

I hate it when you ignore me...

So I was thinking of coming to NYC for new years.

Oh sorry you're probably still sleeping.

6 am texts aren't your thing lol

How’s the vacation in Lima going?

Terrible

What’s wrong?

Kurt’s a mess and I keep puking

Why is Kurt a mess?

And why do you keep puking?

Kurt and Blaine are fighting

And idk something I ate?

Oh.  And you sure?

Yeah.  Yeah.

Okay...

Seb when I get back to NY I need to talk to you about something

Yeah, of course.  Something you can’t talk about now, though?

I’m sorry, but not over text

It’s okay.  I think Wes just woke up, anyway

Oh.  You two are okay, then?

Better than okay ;)

OMG SEBASTIAN SMYTHE YOU DO NOT NEED TO TELL ME THAT

Love ya Rachie <3

Love you too Sebbie <3

"Hey. Who are you texting?"

“Calm down, it’s only Rachel.  She’s really upset.  We’re still friends, you know.”

"Oh. How is she? I mean aside from upset."

“I don’t know, she said she was sick from something she ate.”

"Ah. How are you today?"

“Immensely satisfied.”

"That's what I like to hear.  Do we have plans at all?"

“Chandler’s having a party tonight.  We’re invited.”

"Sounds good. Anything until then?"

“Not that I can think of.”

"Let's think of something.  Do you need to do anymore Christmas stuff?"

“No, I don’t.  Hey, you know what we should do?”

"What?"

“We should go out.  On a date.”

"A date?  ...Like what?"

“I don’t know.  Go wander around Central Park?  Be NYC tourists for a day?”

"...Really?  You're not going to wear one of those I love New York shirts, are you?"

“Well, if you don’t like it, then I guess not.”

"Actually, I kind of like it.  But not the tshirt.”

“Hm?”

"Let's go be tourists.  I'll bring a camera."

“Great.  I’m gonna shower first.  Want to shower with me?”

"Is that even a question?"

“Come on, let’s go.”

Wes follows after Sebastian.

"Can I buy you lunch?"

“Oh.  If you want.  I won’t say no.”

"We'll just have to see then.  There are a lot of things I want."

“Like what?”

"That depends on whether or not you'll say no."

“We could think of a safeword or something.  Something I say if I don’t want something.”

"That could work.  What did you have in mind?"

“Cricket.”

"As long as there's not a chorus of crickets."

“It depends on what you ask.”

"Hmm.  Let's see.  Are you going to cricket a kiss?"

“Of course... not.”

"That's good news."

Stepping closer to Sebastian, Wes reaches over to pull the other closer.

Sebastian lets Wes pull him close, pressing their lips together.

Wes leans into Sebastian's kiss, but only for a second before he turns slightly and plants small kisses down the other's neck.

"Are... you... going... to cricket... this?"

“No...”

"I'll keep that in mind."

Wes pulls away from Sebastian and turns on the shower water.

“Not gonna lie, I’m pretty excited to be a tourist for a day.”

"Can we go to the Statue of Liberty?  I've actually never been there."

“Yeah, we could.  I’ve been there once, with K- well, you know.  The three of us went right after I graduated.”

“Oh.  Well, we can go somewhere else.”

Putting his hand out into the water, Wes decides the temperature is right.

“I’m getting in.”

“No, it’s okay.  I’d like to see it again.  It’s been a couple of years.”

Sebastian steps into the shower.

Wes steps in as well, letting Sebastian have the water.

“Just no tshirts.”

Sebastian laughs.

“Deal.”

“Can I get in on that?”

“Cricket.”

“Very funny.  I meant the water, smart ass.”

“Oh, I’m sorry.  I didn’t realize what you meant.  Be my guest.”

“You really weren’t going to let me get in on that?”

“Cricket.”

“Oh, that is so not fair!”

“It so is fair.”

“I don’t like this new game.”

“I love this new game.”

“Don’t worry.  I’ll get you where I want you.”

“You will?  Where might that be?”

“Cricket.”

“I’m the only one allowed to use that.”

“That wasn’t a rule before.”

“I believe I said it was something I could say.  Not you.”

“Do we have to play this the hard way?”

“How do the rules change when we go the hard way?”

“I could fight you for a rule change.  Or you could fight me.”

“I’m tired of fighting, though.  What if I just let you go the hard way?”

“You might have to.”

“Then we’ll do that.”

“I like this idea.”

“I know you do.  So what do I have to do?”

“Let me say cricket.”

“Fine.  Only if we do my favourite thing tonight?”

“I can do that for you.”

“You can say cricket.”

“Excellent.  Now, hand me the shampoo.”

“Of course.”

Sebastian reaches for the shampoo and passes it to Wes.

Wes takes the bottle and dumps some in his hand, handing the bottle back to Sebastian.

“I’ll say thank you this time.”

“You’re in a good mood.”

Wes shrugs and smirks a little.

“I have a good feeling about today.”

Sebastian smirks and dumps some shampoo into his hand, putting the bottle back.

“This shower is a bit boring.”

“Not my fault.  You said cricket.”

Sebastian shrugs and steps closer to Wes, kissing him lightly.

Wes ghosts his hands around Sebastian’s waist and kisses the other in return.

Sebastian puts his arms around Wes’s neck.

Climbing to the top of the Statue of Liberty takes as long as Wes thinks it will, and once at the top, he turns to Sebastian.

“How do people do this all the time?”

“Haha, I don’t know.  At least we know we’re in shape.”

“Of course we are.  We sweat too much not to be.”

“Of course.  Look at that view.”

“Oh, wow...”

Wes steps up to the rail where everyone else is standing to look at the view of the city skyline, motioning for Sebastian to stand next to him.

Sebastian moves forward to stand with Wes, looking out over the city.

“Can you imagine hanging out up here?”

Wes smirks and glances over to Sebastian, shaking his head in a joking way.  He reaches over and takes Seb’s hand.

“We could try that sometime, you know.”

Sebastian looks down at their hands linked together and grins.

“It would be interesting.  With that view.”

“You know what else would be interesting with that view?”

“Hm?”

Wes turns toward Sebastian, keeping their hands linked.

“Can I tell you something?”

“Uh, yeah.  Sure.”

Sebastian turns to face Wes.

“I don’t really say this enough.  And I should.  Sebastian, I love you.”

Stunned, Sebastian stares at Wes for a moment.

“I love you too.  And you’re right.  You don’t.”

Wes squeezes Sebastian’s hand lightly before glancing away.

“Just don’t tell anyone I have a soft spot.  Even if the soft spot is you.”

“No one else is allowed to see this side of you.  This is my sentimental Wes.”

“No one.  It would ruin my reputation.  And it would be as fun anymore.  Bossing you around.  You know, if everyone knew that I can be nice.”

“You don’t have to worry about it, Wessy.”

Wes hides a smile by looking out over the view of the city again.

“Don’t call me that.  A lot.”

“Only when it’s us.”

“I can handle that.”

“Good.”

Sebastian leans in close to Wes’s ear.

“Wessy.”

Wes’s face has a curious expression on it as Sebastian approaches, and as soon as the whisper is heard, an uncontrollable smile stretches across his face, a very rare thing.

“Do you know how hard it is to make an Asian blush?”

“Of course I do.  I’ve been trying for years.”

“I think that’s the closest you or anyone will ever get.”

“I’m going to keep trying.”

“You do that.  Just not in front of other people.”

“I can live with that.”

“Yeah, I’ve decided.  You get lunch today.  I wasn’t going to.  But since I’m feeling nice today...”

“You’re so sweet.”

"Shh. Don't tell anyone."

“I won’t.  I told you, this is my side of you.”

"Good.  Because I'm fairly sure that if Chandler found out about this, I would never live it down."

“You wouldn’t.  Softie.”

"That's not a good rumor to start either."

“What are you gonna go about it?”

"Shouldn't I be asking you that question?"

“You’re insane.  Lovably insane.”

"Shut up. Let's go get lunch."

“It is so hot when you take charge.”

Wes smirks and turns toward the exit, grabbing Sebastian by the sleeve and pulling him along.

“Wait one second.”

Sebastian tries to pull Wes back.

“What kind of tourists would we be if we didn’t get a picture?”

Wes stops, remembering the camera in his pocket.  He pulls it out and hands it to Sebastian.

"Right. I almost forgot.  Here.  You take it."

Sebastian smirks and motions for Wes to stand beside him and takes a picture of the two of them with the city skyline in the background.

“Okay, you can drag me off to lunch now.”

"My pleasure."

Hey Wes.  Did Blaine get a new number or something?  I know you guys don't live together anymore but he hasnt answered my texts and I was trying to make plans to come to nyc for new years.

Not that I know of.  But you're more than welcome to come visit.

We'll see. I'm still making plans.

Keep me posted.

Will do.

“Who are you texting?”

"Do you remember Jeff? From Dalton?"

“Yeah, who could forget him?”

"Yeah, well he was talking about making plans to come to New York for new years.  He is trying to get a hold of Blaine but apparently Blaine isn't answering texts or calls."

“Oh.  Well, it’d be nice to maybe get to see him again.  But who cares about Blaine right now?”

Wes shrugs.

"I guess he thought I might know what was going on."

“Does he even know about us?  Or does he think you’re still buddy buddy with Blaine?”

"He said he knows Blaine and I don't live together anymore."

“I see.  Just forget about him, though.  Let’s go have lunch.”

"You're right.  We should hang out after lunch."

“You are just full of good ideas today.”

"I'm glad you didn't say cricket."

“I may cricket stuff later.”

"Do I need to remind you who's in charge?"

“You love it when I take charge, don’t deny it.”

"You have a point.  When are we hanging out, again?"

“When I want to.”

"Are you going to make me wait?"

“Maybe.”

"I hate you."

“You weren’t saying that earlier.  Come on.”

Sebastian winks and walks off, trying to drag Wes along.

Wes lets Sebastian drag him along.

"Where are we going?"

“Wouldn’t you like to know.”

Sebastian smirks.

"Yes.  Please."

“We’re going for lunch.  Besides, it’s your choice.  Since you’re taking me.”

"What if I changed my mind?"

“But I wanted lunch.”

"Don't make that face.  Okay, okay. I'll take you for lunch."

“Good.  Because I’m hungry.  Among other things.”

"I wouldn't eat too much though.  I want to throw you around."

“You don’t have to worry about me.  Not with this body.”

"Mm.  It is so good."

“You’re not half bad yourself.”

"We're so hot."

“Of course we are.  And that body right there.  It’s mine.”

Sebastian gestures at Wes.

"Maybe."

“What do you mean, maybe?  Been hanging out with someone else?”

"No!  Asshole.  I meant maybe I wasn't going to let you have it."

“That’s just as bad, asshat.”

"Actually it's kind of fun."

“And the old Wes is back.  I almost started to like sentimental Wessy.”

"Almost?   And, I thought you liked that other Wes?"

“I like you.  Asshat.  All of you.”

"All of me?  I know I like all of you.  Mm."

“Wes.  Let’s skip lunch and go back to the apartment.”

"Oh, now you're trying to make the decisions?"

“Again.  You love it when I do.”

"I do.  Drag me home."

“Gladly.”

December 23

Sebbie!

Rachel.

Are you excited for Christmas?

As always.  You?

Well, I’m not exactly celebrating.  But my dads and I are going to have a dad-Rachel day.

I told you that.  A couple of days ago

Oh yeah.  I remember now.  

So, how are things?

Pretty good.  Kurt’s actually calming down now

That's good.  What actually happened, anyway?

I don’t know, exactly.  Blaine and I chased him to Lima, then suddenly the two of them were off to Florida for a vacation, and just as suddenly, Kurt was home.

Wow.  So, did they break up or something?  And where is Blaine?  A friend of Wes's was asking why Blaine wasn't answering his phone earlier.

I don’t think so.  I think they’re just taking a break over the holidays or something.  I think Blaine went back to nyc actually.  He’s not answering me either.

Wait, why do you care?

Oh. I don't.  I was hoping that Wes's friend Jeff could come to NYC for new years, but he wanted to see Blaine more than us apparently.

Oh.  I don’t know this Jeff but Blaine probably really needs a friend right now

Especially if he’s as torn up as Kurt was

What do you expect me to do about it?  Jeff isn't here.

Well if Jeff shows up, then maybe it would be better for him to hang out with Blaine.  You have Wes

Yeah. I don't think he'd be too excited about me spending time with Blaine.

Who, Wes?

What?

Oh, yeah.  Wes.

Say, Seb?  Kurt and I are back in nyc on the 27th.  Wanna hang out?  Just the two of us?  I still have that important news to tell you...

Yeah.  That's fine.  Just remind me because I will forget.  You can't tell me now?

But you have an incredible memory... but okay.  And it’s something better said in person

But if it's something THAT important, don't you just want to get it off your chest?

Okay... I’ll tell you... but you can’t say a word about this.  To anyone.

Okay.

Sebbie... I’m pregnant.

WOAH

Yeah.  I’m about 2 months now

Wow.  I don't know what to say.  Does he know?

I haven’t told Brody yet, no.  Kurt and Blaine are the only other people who know

Why did you tell Blaine?

Because he’s become a very good friend of mine.  And I love you so much that I was scared to tell you.  Kurt was obvious to tell

No I understand.  You're friends with Blaine now?  Wow.

Well, yeah, he’s dating my best friend.  Kinda hard not to be friends with him

It’s just strange to me.  I’m sorry.

Almost as strange as the fact that we’re still really close friends despite you and Kurt breaking up

Yes, that’s also strange.

You’ve just been a really good friend, Sebbie.  I’d hate to lose you

I’ve been so sick lately.  Morning sickness.

So, that really happens?

Ohhhh yes.  It SUCKS

I’m terribly thankful I’m a gay male.

Yes, be thankful you’ll never have to experience it or have your partner experience it

Lucky duck :P

I’m not sure I could be a parent.

Come on, Sebbie, you’d be a perfect dad

Well, maybe.  I don’t know if Wes would want kids though.

You should try and persuade him

I seriously doubt he’s up for that.

I could help you persuade him.  Because you, a father... I’d love to see that

I just really don’t see him wanting a family.  To be honest.

Okay...

It would have to be one cute kid, I think.

We’ll find a cute kid who’ll change Wes’s mind

We’ll see.

Speaking of Wes, I have to go.

Good talking to you.

Love you Sebbie <3

You too, Rachel.

Sebastian walks in, sees Wes using his phone, and grins, picking up Wes’s phone.

Who am I talking to?

Wes looks up to see Sebastian standing there.  Part of him wants to smile but another part of him wants to delete the text message conversation he’s just had with Rachel.  The result is a smirk.

“Well, it started out innocent enough.  I was going to mess with Rachel, because she texted you.”

“Rachel?  What did she say?  Is she okay?”

“Yeah.  Well, no.  But yes.  She was talking about... them... and then she asked if you two could get together when she gets back to the city.  To talk to you about something.  I asked her what it was.  She told me.”

“What did she say?  Wes, she’s my closest friend aside from you, I need to know.”

“You might want to sit down.”

“... Why...?”

“Rachel’s pregnant.”

“Wha... what?!?”

“Yeah.  Two months.”

“... Oh wow, you’re right.  I need to sit down...”

“I told you.”

“I... she’s actually...”

“Yeah.  And she asked me, well, you, not to tell anyone.  I don’t think he knows.  Very few people know, apparently.  I mean, it doesn’t make a difference to me, but you’re apparently her second best friend.”

“Can I... have my phone back so I can read the whole conversation?  Then we can talk or whatever.  She means a lot to me, and...”

“I... Uh, yeah, I guess so.”

Wes reluctantly hands Sebastian’s phone back to him.

Sebastian looks through his texts while sitting on the bed.

“I’m surprised she didn’t catch on.  You’re terrible at playing me.”

“I thought I was pretty good at it.”

“You didn’t call her Rach or Rachie once.  And you didn’t send a heart at the end.”

“I... didn’t know I was supposed to?”

“That’s how Rach and I work.  It’s a silly thing born out of a few years of friendship.  Like I said, I’m surprised she didn’t figure it out.”

“I’ll remember that the next time I plan on messing with her.”

“You really don’t want to be a parent?”

Wes glances around with a very odd look on his face.

“I’m not exactly father material.”

“Why do you say that?”

“...Have you met me?”

“I think the two of us would make good fathers.  I’d help you.”

“Our kid would have the foulest mouth.”

“He would.  U-unless you would want a girl.”

“I think it would be a boy.  Definitely.”

“You’re actually considering it.”

“It’s all hypothetical anyway.  ...R-right?”

“Uh, yeah.  Definitely.”

“Yeah.  But, I can hypothetically see us with a boy.  In a Dalton Blazer.  Just saying.”

“Oh, yes.  Our boy, hypothetically would make a perfect Warbler.”

“He’d be perfect.  I mean, with hypothetical parents like us.”

“So, not so freaked out by the concept of being a hypothetical parent?”

“Hypothetically... no.”

“I love you.”

“I love you too.  I mean, I’m talking about hypothetical kids here.”

“Yeah.  Let’s hang out.”

“Sounds good to me.”