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Sometimes It's Hard to Follow Your Heart : Chapter 1: Do I Look Perfect ?


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Story: Closed - Chapters: 2/? - Created: Jan 22, 2012 - Updated: Jun 07, 2012
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So now, we jump to senior year at high school. Blaine and I have not spoken to each other since the huge fight a couple of years. However, I still watch him from the corner of my eye, if we are ever in the same room. Sometimes I see the sweet Blaine and sometimes I do not even know who he is anymore. Nevertheless, I miss our friendship so much.


"Hey boo, how are you going on that biology assignment that is due in a week?" Mercedes asked with a happy tone as she stopped by my locker. I shook my head as I came back to earth from my usual space out from watching Blaine walk past.
"I have about 40% of it done but it's harder than I thought it would be," Kurt said as he closed the locker door.
"Yeah but that's Mrs Violet for you. I mean she is an awesome teacher but she always makes the assignments harder than they look," Mercedes says as she links arms with Kurt. They both start walking towards their classes.
"Did you hear that the rumour going around is that Zander Meyer just got dumped by his boyfriend and now is dating Blaine Anderson?" Mercedes said matter of fact. Kurt could feel his chest tighten as Mercedes continued to talk. "I mean I can see them together and all but I secretly think they have been together since the start of high school," Mercedes added
"Yeah, they seem to be perfect for each other," Kurt said as he glanced down at his feet. 'Good for Blaine getting a boyfriend, he deserves one, he hasn't had a boyfriend yet,' Kurt thought to himself as he listen to Mercedes go on and on about the gossip of McKinley.
"Also did you hear that Sebastian has a crush on you?" Mercedes said with a squeal.
"He's not really my type," Kurt said as he turns around the corner. "Plus I don't believe in the rumour mill," Kurt added before pulling his arm away from Mercedes. "I'll see you after class okay," Mercedes nodded before turning and walking off.


"I want to put a stop to a rumour that just because you're a cheerleader means you are stupid. I am not stupid I take all AP subjects hence why I was walking into my American History class at that moment." Kurt said with a fierce bitch stare at the camera. "Sorry I had to tell you that or this next bit would be kind of unbelievable," Kurt said as his bitch face disappeared, with a small laugh. "Don't get me wrong this is still unbelievable but if you knew him then you would understand,"


Kurt took a seat next to Tina Co-Chang, like he had all year. However, something was different with the room. Kurt looked up to see Blaine standing at the door, looking slightly lost mixed in with slightly pissed off. He walked into and took a seat across from Kurt not even looking at him; he pulled out a notepad and pen. Kurt just stared at him as he continued to tap on the bench.
"Thank you for finally joining us Mr Anderson!" said Mr Ashmore.
"Like I had a choice," Blaine muttered under his breath as he watches Mr. Ashmore put down his brief case and turn to the whiteboard.
"So today we will be talking about the period of 1901-1951 in this country," Mr Ashmore. The whole class groaned except for Kurt who was busy watching Blaine out the corner of his eye. The class seemed to go by very quickly for Kurt who only jointed down some notes.
"Hey Kurt, it's a copy of the notes I took since you were preoccupied with other stuff," Tina said as she got up from her chair and walked out of the classroom leaving Kurt to just stare at her as she walked away. "So you turned straight Hummel," a voice said to Kurt. He glanced towards the voice. Blaine was just sitting on his desk.
"It's none of your business Anderson!" Kurt said as he grabbed his stuff and started to walk out of the classroom.
"Well maybe next time try not to stare!" Blaine called out.
"I wasn't!"
"Fine but keep your eyes to yourself,"
"I do Anderson,"
"Well I don't think I had the notes written all over my face then," Blaine said as he pushed past Kurt and walked off. Kurt just continued to stand there.


"That was the first time I had spoken to him since our fight and got a response. It felt so weird to have him to talk to me. It brought back memories of the fight and time we spent together." Kurt said as he nodded. "But that wouldn't be the last time I spoke to him or we wouldn't have a story right?" Kurt said with a smirk.


Kurt tried to stop watching Blaine but it was a habit that he could never break. He tried his hardest as he talked to Mercedes he notices Blaine walk past with Zander. Mercedes snapped her finger in front of Kurt's face.
"Hey Boo, are you alright?" Mercedes asked in a concerned voice.
"Yeah just something someone told me," Kurt said as he slammed his locker shut.
"Aww boo, do you have a crush on someone," Mercedes asked,
"No, I don't think I do," Kurt said


"Clue number one: when you can't stop thinking about someone, you either have a problem with them or you have the makings of a crush. Which one of these did I have? Well I'll let you figure that one out!" Kurt said as he laughed at the camera. "Sorry I'm trying to not interrupt you but I can't help it," Kurt said with another laugh


"what do you mean 'You don't think so'?" Mercedes asked,
"I was coming out of class and Blaine Anderson started to talk to me," Kurt said as Mercedes watches him closely. "He told me I stare at him too much,"
"Well sorry boo but I think his right, and trust me I hate saying that bit its true,"
"I can't help it okay..."
"I know you can't, it's something you've always done. Nevertheless, why love, for a long time I thought you liked him. I mean did you fall for the whole bad boy thing?" she asked
"No! I just knew him before the whole bad boy thing okay,"
"Okay but I think you should go out with someone so everyone will think you're not some stuck up cheerleader. How about you and Sebastian go out?"
"If I have too," Kurt said as he rolled his eyes and started to walk to class.

"I'm not forcing you Kurt," Mercedes said but stopped when Kurt turned around and gave her a bitch glare.

"Oh please, your just trying to make me something I'm not, I'm not allowed to watch my old best friend but I'm allowed to date a gay whore of the cheerleaders!" Kurt said as he started to get angry.

"Kurt I'm so..."

"It's fine okay, I'm not dating Sebastian," Kurt said as he gently rubbed his forehead. "I'm going to be late to class, I'll see you in practise," Kurt said with a nod and turned to walk off. Mercedes just stood there with a shocked look on her face.

Kurt walked into his history class taking a seat in the middle back row, where he always sat.

"You seem pissed off," said a voice to his right, he turned to see Blaine standing there looking at Kurt. Kurt looked towards Blaine with a shocked look.

"Well?" Blaine asked.

"Why are you talking to me again?" Kurt asked

"Well you are in my seat, so you must be pissed off," Blaine said as he leaned up against the table beside Kurt.

Kurt quickly grabbed his things and moved a couple seats away from Blaine.

"Thanks, sweet cheeks," Blaine said but Kurt just ignored it, instead opening his books and trying to stop himself from looking at Blaine.

The teacher appeared a couple of minutes later and started to set out his desk. Kurt flipped threw his diary before a paper ball flicked onto his table. Kurt looks at the ball then from where it came from. Blaine had a cheeky smile on his face; as he placed his hands behind his head and his feet on the desk.

Kurt tossed the paper ball into the bin not even reading it. Kurt went back to reading his notes from the lesson before.


When Kurt got home that day from school, he walked through the door to see the sight of Carole hurrying around the house. "Hey Carole, what's wrong?" Kurt asked, as he was more than slightly confused.

"Oh hey honey, you're finally home. I really need your help love," Carole said as she took his hand and sat down on the couch.

"What's wrong?" Kurt asked as he sat down.

"Now do you remember me mentioning a Jaz at work," she asked.

"Yes I do,"

"Well she is getting married but the funny thing is that you and your dad already know her," Carole said with a laugh. Kurt just looked at her with a confused look.

"Her full name is Doctor Jasmine Anderson," Carole said with a smile.

"Blaine's older sister Jaz?" Kurt said with a shock look on his face.

"Yes when she asked for you and Finn's name and I told her she asked if you knew Blaine. I had to ring your father but I told her you used to be friends with a Blaine. She was so excited to see you again," Carole said with a smile.

"Oh wow, I haven't seen her in years," Kurt said a bit shocked. "What do you need my help with?"

"Well you and I are going to plan Finn and your dad's outfits which means we need to go shopping,"

"Okay sounds like a plan," Kurt said excitedly.

"How long until the wedding?" Kurt asked

"It's in a month's time," Carole said as she stood up.

"That's doable," Kurt commented before racing up to his room, to start work on the outfits.

He spent all afternoon until he was called down for dinner working on the plans. He showed Carole rough drafts of the plans and Carole smiled she was excited to see how Kurt was going to do them.


When Kurt arrived at School the next day, he ran into Brittany, literally.

"Sorry dolphin!" Brittany said with a sad smile.

"It's okay Britt, are you okay?" he asked.

"Yeah I'm fine," Britt said with a nod. "Kurt I need you help with Lord Tubbington again. He hasn't quiet smoking,"

"Sure, how about Santana, you and I will go see Lord Tubbington this afternoon and get him to quit?" Kurt stated with a smile.

"Thank you Kurt," Brittany said as she hugged Kurt tightly before running off. Kurt laughed to himself, he continued towards his Biology class.

When Kurt arrived, he took his usual seat next to Mercedes.

"Look Kurt I'm sorry about yesterday, your right. I shouldn't try and change you, date whoever you want to," Mercedes said with a smile.

"Thanks 'Cedes, apology accepted," Kurt said as he returned her smile.

Miss Violet cleared her throat and brought the whole class to attention, suddenly the door swung opened and in walked Quinn Fabray and Zander Meyer. The two sat at the only free table.

"Thank you Miss Fabray and Mr Meyer for joining us but I ask that you are on time next lesson or you will get a dentition," Miss Violet said as she walked to the front of her desk and leaned back. "Now must of you will already know this if you have read your assignment or been working on it, you need to partner up with someone to do one of the experiments. Now before you go choosing your buddies, I have a list in my hands." The class groaned, as they knew what she was going to say. "Yes that means I am partner you up with random people, you will use this lesson to complete the experiment and then you will need to write up a small one page evaluation of the experiment and how will you worked with your partner. It is in the assignment, so think about it this way, I'm helping you," Miss Violet said as she turned back to the front of the classroom with a small smirk on her face.

"She enjoys this too much," Mercedes whispered to Kurt, Kurt just laughed and nodded.

"I'm writing up who your partner is so you can't argue with me, just move next to them and start you will need to use this whole time for the experiment," Miss Violet continued as she wrote up the names on the board.

Mercedes was partnered with one of the nerds up front and moved to them, not before rolling her eyes at Kurt and grabbing her stuff. Kurt kept his eyes on Miss Violet as he saw her begin to write his name and then suddenly the whole world seemed to stop...


"Okay sue me, I so didn't want to be partnered with him, why oh why did I have to be," Kurt said rolling his eyes to the camera. Oh yeah I haven't mention who I was partnered with but hopefully some of you guessed by now but any way back to the story...


'Kurt Hummel – Zander Meyer' those words were all I could see. I didn't noticed that Zander had sat next to me until I heard a slam of books on desk right next to me, which made me jump. "So we're partners, let's make this quick I don't want to deal with you," Zander said quickly pulling out the experiment write up.

"Yeah I was thinking the same thing," Kurt said to himself as he read the experiment instructions and grabbed the equipment that was needed.

The hour seem to fly by for Kurt as Zander didn't say anything else to him but when he needed him to pass something or an answer to a question. Which suited Kurt well, he really didn't want to talk to Blaine's new boyfriend.


"I just wanted to say that was the most awkward experiment lab partnership I ever had, I mean it was really weird but looking back I can understand Zander now. But back then I wasn't too sure of him plus I had listen to the rumour mill which mean I thought he was dating Blaine," Kurt said as he swung from side to side in his chair as he talked. "But anyone I'm gonna skip forward to the wedding that's where things get really interesting. Jasmine and Cooper were meant for each other, and the groom's party was very interesting. I mean not only was the groom taking the brides last name, He didn't like his last name and his family were a bit of a mean bunch but any who, this is where Blaine and I really talk for the first time, that made me feel that the fight we had never happened...


Kurt sat at the table surrounded by at least 8 little kids, why was he seated here. He was the only one of his age. Finn had been seated next to Carole and his dad but somehow he had been placed at the kids table. He really hated Finn at this moment, he would have been over there but Finn said he could not sit here.

Suddenly appearing next to him was Jasmine, smiling that smile he remembers back from his childhood.

"Hey Kurtie, sorry you had to be seated here," she said as he hugged him. "I have missed you so much, I always told Blaine he shouldn't have let you go," She said as he gently rubbed his cheek.

"I missed you to Jaz," Kurt said with a sad smile.

"How have you been? I've asked Blaine many of times but he just brushes off the question,"

"I'm good, I'm a cheerleader now, one of the popular people,"

"Oh I knew you would get there," She said with a smile. "now don't worry I've put someone on this table to keep you company plus these kids will probably hang out with each other more then you," Jaz added as she hug Kurt one more time before standing up and walking over to another table and talking to more guest. Kurt smiled after her as he turned to see the little girl beside him smile, and show her drawing to Kurt. Kurt smiled, "What have you drawn, it looks so pretty,"

"It's a fairy, and Jaz in her pwetty dress," the little girl said

"Wow, you are really good, will you draw me a picture?" Kurt asked, the girl giggled and nodded. She pulled a new piece of paper and started drawing. Kurt laughed and saw the boy across from him drawing and glancing up at Kurt every once and a while. Kurt smiled at him when he caught his eye. The little boy ran around the table and said very loudly "TA-DUH!" Kurt laughed and put his serious face on.

"So let me guess is it a dinosaur?"

"No!"

"Okay how about asuperhero?"

"NO!"

"Um how about a dog ?"

"NO!"

"Okay I give up, you're too good. I can't guess it," Kurt said shaking his head.

"It's Jaz in her pwetty dress with Coopah!" the boy said with a smile.

"Oh its Jaz and her husband... why didn't I say that!" Kurt said as he lightly hit his head with his hand. "how about you go show you mummy?" Kurt asked.

"I don't have a mummy, I have papa and daddy!"

"You do?" Kurt asked

"Yeah, Daddy is a lawyer and Papa works in a cafe!" the boy said with a smile.

"Well why don't you go show Papa and Daddy?" Kurt said with a smile. The little boy nodded and ran off. Kurt laughed and turned back to look at the little girl when he spotted Blaine staring at him. Blaine stood there in a three-piece black suit. The vest was a light grey colour with a making black tie that was tucked under the vest. A white rose was on his right side of his lapel. His hair gelled back without the blue strip in it and all his piercings seemed to be removed. He looked like the old Blaine but much more handsome. Kurt had to remind himself that Blaine was with Zander now, and Blaine hated Kurt. Therefore, Kurt did not stand a chance with him. He must have been part of the groom's party at the front of the church but since he did not have, his usual hairstyle Kurt must have mistake him for one of Cooper's friends. "So how's the drawing going," Kurt said as he took his eyes of Blaine and onto the little girl.

"Your hair is hard but I'm nearly done," she said with a smile as she looked up at Kurt.

"Sorry, I should have made my hair easy for you," Kurt said with a smile.

"it's okay," she said as she finished and showed Kurt. "I'll be back," the girl said before running off.

"So Jaz trapped you here too," Blaine, said as he sat down across from Kurt.

"What do you mean trapped?" Kurt asked looking at Blaine.

"Well she stuck us together on the Kiddie table, hoping that we would get over our "stupid fight" and be best friends again," Blaine said using his air quotes.

"Really so that's why I'm "trapped" here with you," Kurt said coping Blaine.

"Well that's what she just told me," Blaine said as he leaned back into the chair.

"MISTER MISTER, look... look!" the little girl was back and Kurt turned from Blaine putting on a smile as he turned to the little girl. She showed her picture that was supposed to be of Kurt.

"I reckon you will be an artist when your older," Kurt said as he took the picture in his hands and smiled back at her.

"That's what my mummy says," the little girl said as she put her hands behind her back and swung from side to side in front of Kurt.

"Do you mind if I can keep this, so I can hang it up in my room," Kurt asked. The little girl smiled so big.

"Of course," she said with a huge smile. Kurt folded up the picture and tucked it into his tuxedo.


"The rest of the night wasn't that much interest as Blaine just kept staring at me, never really talking to me, so I decided to busy myself with the young kids around me," Kurt said to the camera. "I mean it was bad enough that he didn't talk to me but to just stare," Kurt shook his head. "But later that night was very different and weird, all the little kids had gone home and I was still stuck at the kiddie table but the only differences was Blaine was nowhere to be seen...


Kurt had his arms crossed as he watched many of the couples including his dad and Carole dancing. Kurt smiled as he wished he could do that with someone he cared about. Suddenly someone tapped Kurt on the shoulder, Kurt turned and saw Blaine. "Blaine grabbed Kurt's hand and snuck out of the tent that the reception was held at. Blaine kept walking until he sat down on the top the hill.

"What are you doing Blaine?" Kurt asked as he looked back over his shoulder.

"Sshhh..." Blaine said as he pulled out a bottle of wine and popped it open. Blaine took a mouth full and handed Kurt the bottle.

"I'm not drinking that," Kurt said in a whisper.

"Come on Kurt have some fun... you're too uptight!"

"I am not!"

"Yes you are!"

"No I'm not"

"Yes,"

"No,"

"Yes!"

"Seriously you're arguing with me about you being uptight?" Blaine asked

"Shut up!"

"Take a drink and I will," Blaine said as he held out the bottle.

"Fine," Kurt said as he took the drink and drink a mouth full. "Oh god..."

"First time drinker?" Blaine said as he took the drink back and took another mouth full.

"How can people drink that?" Kurt said

"It's easier on the second mouth full," Blaine said as he handed it back to Kurt. Kurt took a mouth full and shook his head. Blaine just laughed and continued to drink. Soon the bottle was finished and Kurt was slightly tipsy.

"Do you remember that summer where we laid out in my backyard and watch the stars?" Blaine asked as he watched the sky.

"Yes and we fell asleep, and the sprinklers woke us up the next day," Kurt said laughing.

"You know my favourite summer's memories have you in them," Blaine said as he glanced over to Kurt.

"Same here, I tried to do the only Judy Garland marathon with Mercedes but it wasn't as much fun as it was with you," Kurt said as he turned to look Blaine straight in the eyes.

"Yeah that was a fun night," Blaine said with small smile.

"I'm happy for you, you know," Kurt said with a sad smile. "You and Zander make a great couple," Kurt added as an afterthought.

"We're not together, never were," Blaine said as he looked at Kurt. "I only had one crush and he never liked me the way I wanted him too,"

Kurt looked to Blaine with a sad smile, "I know that feeling," Kurt said softly. "We should head back soon people will be missing us," Kurt paused, getting a strong reminder of the alcohol they had shared by the horrible after taste that lingered in his mouth. "Hey Blaine,"
As Blaine turned at his name, Kurt completely lost control of his mind, leaning in to kiss Blaine with a sigh.


"Stay tuned for the Next part of 'Kurt's Hummel's Train Wreck of a Year'" Kurt said to the camera, as he smiled and the screen faded to Black...


To Be Continued...

 


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This is so good! I love it!

Thank you so much love :P

i like this, really cool idea. Keep going. Can't wait for the next chapter :-)