Dec. 16, 2011, 2:39 p.m.
There Will Always Be A Friend.: Chapter 7
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A few weeks passed with no letters. Kurt and Blaine spent as much time together as possible, and the only hint that their relationship was anything other than a close friendship was the frequent coffee trips that they called their dates. The bullying had died down, and both Blaine and Kurt were far happier about this than they were letting off, though there was the occasional shove into a locker and slightly more frequent shouted taunt.
Blaine loved to spend time with Kurt, it brought out a side of him that he had never known existed, and something told him that that side of him was the closest he had come to himself in all his life, but he was also hiding a lot from Kurt. Blaine was feeling far more things than Kurt could ever know or understand, and he found himself sobbing at night for reasons he felt he knew deep down inside, but at the present were completely unknown. Blaine had spent his entire life acting confident and dapper, and he felt slightly guilty for the fact that he had continued that act with an oblivious Kurt.
Dear Kurt,
I'm so frightened. I don't think I could ever tell anyone else this, but I'm scared. I so scared. I have no idea what is going on inside my head. It would almost be comical if it wasn't so scary, but I want to give you everything I love. It's like if something has a great deal of meaning to me, I have a strong desire to give it to you. I can't stop thinking about you. I wish that for just one second my mind could clear so that I could think rationally. Sometimes when I feel upset about my parents or my old friends, then I remember you, and all that other stuff doesn't seem to matter anymore. I have no idea what this is. I keep wanting to be angry at you for doing this to my head, but I feel like to be angry at you would be physically painful to me, and to make you feel bad would be like hurting myself. This is all too strange. I wish I could actually send this to you, but I'm scared ill frighten you away. We've only known each other for a month and a half, but it's as though my life is constructed around you. I know what it feels like for everything in my world to shatter, and I feel like it would be a hundred times worse if you left my life.
Love,
Blaine.
Blaine folded this note up and put it in his pillow case, deciding now that he got all of those feelings out of his system, he could write a decent letter to Kurt.
Dear Kurt,
This past month and a half with you has made me so happy to be who I am. I didn't think I could have ever said something like that before I met you. I know that you wish me to go to glee club, but I just don't think I'm ready for that yet.
I want to tell you something that has been bothering me lately. Everyone seems to think, even your brother I think, that you and I are only friends because were the only 2 gay kids that go to our school. I know that that is definitely not why I am friends with you. I am your friend because you saved me from myself in a time where I was so low that I very well might have been at rock bottom. You're such a nice person, and I see beyond the bitchy looks and confident aura you show the outside world. Inside, you're just as vulnerable as everyone else, and I love that about you. I hate it when people only see you as a gay kid. You're so much more that that Kurt, I hope you know that. Sometimes I find it hard to believe you're real.
I'm sorry it's taken so long to write back to your other letter. You haven't said anything about it but I think you're trying not to say anything that might bother me, but I want you to know that you don't have to do that. You're too gentle with me Kurt, and I want to know everything about you, not just those things you think I won't react badly to.
We've started calling our coffee runs dates. I'm not assuming anything about what that means either. But I do want you to know that those dates are the height of my week. Thank you for being there for me Kurt. I want you to know, I will always be there for you as well.
Sincerely,
Blaine.
Blaine folded up this letter and tied one small, short stemmed, golden flower to the top with golden string, and gave it to Kurt during their date later that day.