2015, still

"Do you see this?" he holds out the envelope. "This will determine my future, Logan. I'm going to share this with you. Kurt doesn't know about this yet. I mean, he knows I applied to NYU, but I'm afraid to tell him I have this letter. What if I don't get in, Logan? The disappointment will crush him. We're both going to New York, with or without NYU, but still… We both want this to happen.

I saw Lillie. She left me alone after I told her about the letter. I promised I would call her later.

I'm scared, Logan.

Everything has been so busy. All the talk about Rachel made me nervous. Is it bad that I'm jealous of her? I'm trying to stay positive and supportive, but there is this stab of jealousy. Rachel messed up her audition, but still managed to get into NYADA because she basically stalked Carmen. Then Rachel dropped out of NYADA to do a show. She quit the show after a month or so to move to LA. And now she wants to back to that school, and they let her.

No one ever called me. No one ever asked me about my situation. Carmen knows about my situation. She cut me off herself. Whereas it's completely understandable that she cut me off, since my grades were miserable, she knew that it wasn't my choice.

And now they allow Rachel to continue her education without second thought. And Rachel is about to throw it away for another Broadway show. She has everything, Logan, and I'm jealous. I want to support her, because this is a difficult choice. But these options are very big. NYADA or a Broadway show? I don't have those options.

Why can't I have that? Why didn't NYADA let me in? Why? Am I not good enough, Lolo? Is that why I failed in the first place?

… I need to take a walk."

"Okay, I'm back. I just had tea at Lillie's and I told her about my fears. Since she wasn't too kind about Rachel, I won't tell you what happened, since I still think that Rachel has the right to be nervous. But she also told me to do it.

So I'm going to do it.

I can do it."

He sits down and he slowly opens the envelope. It is time. He reads aloud: "'Dear Mr. Anderson-' I guess I should change that, now that I'm married '-we're pleased that you chose New York University…" He keeps on reading.

And then…

"Oh my… Logan! LOGAN! I GOT IN! I GOT IN!" He jumps up and he can feel the tears streaming down his face. He's dancing on Logan's grave. It must look ridiculous, since he's at a cemetery after all, but Blaine doesn't care. He got in. He did it.