2010, still

"I'm sorry I've been absent. I've been gone for a month, but I needed time to help myself. Well, actually, I needed time to let Wes and David help me. They're amazing guys. Anyway, it's summer. I'm not going anywhere. Mom and dad are going to the Philippines to visit mom's family, but Cooper and I are staying at home. Yes, Cooper came home.

He's okay. He's never been a great brother, but we used to spend a lot of time together. He was really nice. Now he's kind of tiptoeing around me. Ever since he moved to LA, his ego got a huge boost. He keeps telling me that I need that too.

That aside, he is one of the only relatives that's okay with me being gay and after the dance, he was devastated. Maybe I need to talk to him about this, but I don't know. When it comes to serious things, he tends to brush me off. He is so desperate to be the fun brother that he forgets that he's an actual brother.

But then again, is it bad that I want his attention so badly? Wes says that I need validation. I guess he's right. He's always right."